Chapter 2- I Can't Go There
I can't go there
Cuz thats just too much us
I can't go there
I still feel your touch
Theres places in my heart and head that feel as empty as our bed
So most nights i dont even walk upstairs
Cuz I can't go there
Lucas Scott sat at the beach and watched the waves roll in and out from the shoreline. He found himself ending up at the beach more and more these days. Most days it brought him peace, but other days it just made him think.
And the memories were just too hard to escape from.
She had nicknamed him Broody, and in the days after her departure, he had certainly lived up to his nickname. Now, nearly four months later, her memory still found its way into his head. And on those particular days when she was all he could think of, he would find himself sitting on the beach wondering where everything had just gone wrong. He couldn't help but believe that most of it was his fault, and he knew that he would probably be right. After all, he was the one that had broken her heart, he had fought hard just to be her friend again after his betrayal, and then he had driven her away a second time by blurting out that he still had feelings for her mere minutes before she was leaving for the summer. Too bad that summer had turned into forever, and he now had a lifetime to accept the fact that he had lost the best thing he ever had.
Brooke Davis.
She had come into his life like a tornado. Brash, sexy, confident, she knew exactly what she wanted and went for it. She was beautiful with her chestnut hair and almond eyes that danced with mischief when she talked. She put on a front as a superficial, snobby party girl, but he had seen past that and gotten to know the real Brooke Davis. The Brooke Davis who was fiercely loyal, the beautiful girl who just wanted someone to love her and make her feel safe. For a few short months he had that, he had her heart, but he was too blind and stubborn to see what was right in front of him. That was until he screwed it all up by cheating on her with her best friend.
It had taken months of harsh treatment, a temporary departure on his part, and the marriage of his best friend and brother to bring her back into his life. They had formed a tentative friendship, one that had grown stronger until the brown eyed beauty had completely captured his heart. He had been her confidante and her friend, and he had destroyed it with a kiss. A kiss which she had run from and never looked back.
He had called her a couple times during the summer, but had gotten no response. He had heard it from Peyton that she wasn't coming back. For the first time in what seemed like forever, there was no Cheery to balance out his Broody, and that thought seriously disturbed him.
But she was gone.
It seemed to be a recurring trend in his life lately. It seemed like everyone he cared about had left Tree Hill, had left him. First his Uncle Keith had driven off into the night, location unknown, just to escape Tree Hill and the people who had betrayed him. Then, his best friend, Haley James Scott, had boarded the first bus to super-stardom, and left behind those who had been her past. His brother Nathan, who he had only recently grown close to, disowned him and left for High Flyers for the summer. Nathan had been the only one to return, but gone still was the Nathan he had grown to love as a friend as well as a brother. Then there was her. Somehow, it always led back to Brooke Davis.
Tree Hill had been a lonely place the last few months, and the beginning of senior year had been no picnic. He was still on the basketball team, but for how long he didn't really know. He knew he shouldn't play with his heart condition, but basketball was one of the only things he hadn't lost. He still had Peyton, but she was too occupied with the drama in her own life, that he didn't want to burden her further. So for now he would simply go on, even though he was sure that his heart would never be the same. For now it would continue to be more than a little bit broken.
Maybe I could let myself move on
But its everywhere we've been
And everywhere I turn
I can't love again
Cuz i've learned
That I can't go there
Its somethin i can't do
I can't go there
I'll run into you
I can't go there
Winter, summer, fall or spring
I see you in everything
The lyrics in this chapter belong to Kenny Chesney from the song 'I Can't Go There.' Once again, sadly I do not own the characters. Thanks for reading.