DISCLAIMER: I do not own the Power rangers or anything affiliated with the series. I do, however, own the characters of Melissa Blake and Chad McPherson.

AN: I just thought I should warn you that tissues would be well advised for this chapter. If you don't need them by the end, then you are stronger than me and I would rather you be prepared than to not be prepared. Now, on with the story!

"Good morning, my name is Melissa Blake. Would you like to take a seat, sir?" Melissa asked as the man looked over at her, as if he was surprised that she was even speaking top him.

He looked like he hadn't shaved in a week, but he was at least wearing some clean clothes, from what she could tell. She now knew that he was the husband and she had honestly expected him to be worse off, but she still hadn't talked to him. Although he did look pretty bad, he might be feeling much worse than he was letting on.

"Thank you, but no. I'd rather be able to pace around," Jason whispered as Melissa gave him a feeble smile. He looked like he had plenty on his mind that needed to be vented, but how much would he be willing to put out in the open and how much would the police automatically dismiss because he was the husband and was not considered sane enough to judge the situation? She didn't want his tape to just be thrown out by the Angel Grove police department, because they were in enough hot water as is.

"I hate to ask this of you, but I need you to hold absolutely nothing back, even the most insignificant thing could be very important," Melissa said as Jason looked over at her and nodded. He had decided that he was not going to allow his emotions to stop him from answering something. His wife was gone and he deserved to know who had taken her away from him. "You understand that these sessions are being taped for the police department, correct?"

"Yes," Jason said, blandly, as Melissa pulled out a tape recorder.

"Let us begin," Melissa said as she pressed record and looked at the pacing man. He was barely holding onto himself right now, but for some reason, he was still here and she didn't know why.

BEGIN Tape: KX106PR

"Will you state for the record your name, ranger color, and marital status?" Melissa asked, painfully, as Jason gave her another brief nod.

"Jason Lee Scott. Red Power Ranger. Widower of…Trini Kwan Scott," Jason choked out as he pulled some tissue out of his pocket.

He had prepared himself as well as he could for all of this when he found out about the sessions, but he still could not completely remove the emotion. He was only twenty-six and he was a widower. It was hard to accept it, but it was there and it was the painful truth. He knew that as time went on he would be able to learn how to live with it, but right now, he still found it to be very hard.

"I know that the two of you were rangers together, as well as becoming a married couple. How have you been dealing with this?" Melissa asked as Jason looked at her and scratched his face. Trini never let him go this long without shaving, but he didn't care anymore. He was just trying to get from one day to the next without having a major breakdown and he had just let his personal grooming go for the last week. None of his friends cared or even mentioned it to him and he knew it was because they didn't want him to go off the deep end. They wanted him to be able to pull his life back together after such a shock.

"Not well," Jason said as he sat down on the edge of the couch, knowing he was going to stand up again sometime soon. He hadn't been able to stand being in one place very long lately and he knew that he was going to have to force himself to stay here until everything was said that needed to be.

"When did you first know that you loved her?" Melissa asked as Jason placed his face in his hands and began to cry.

He hadn't expected to be asked about that. He had expected her to stick with ranger questions and nothing else. The ranger questions were going to hurt, but the ones that dealt with their relationship were going to be much worse on him than anything she could ask about the rangers.

"In Geneva, when I had to leave her to come back here. I've never done something that hard in my entire life," Jason sobbed as Melissa nodded. She knew that she had been pulled in far too much with these rangers and her thoughts were no longer unbiased and strictly psychological. She wanted the bastard that did this to all of them to pay, just as much as they did and she was willing to do anything to see that happen.

"Even with your ranger life?" Melissa asked as Jason looked up at her. Didn't she already know that the reason he came back was because he was going to be a ranger again?

"I was going back to my Power Ranger life that I thought I had left forever when I first went to Geneva. I knew that I might die before I ever saw her again and I still didn't tell her how I felt about her. I still couldn't find the courage to admit to her that I loved her. I didn't want to hurt her anymore than I already was. I still managed to. She came when I almost died and when they made her go back to Geneva, I knew I wasn't alone anymore. I had found my someone," Jason said with a sad smile as he wiped his eyes and then blew his nose. He could remember being so happy that day when he knew that Trini was not going to just let them continue in friendship. He knew that he had found the one person in the world that would not give up on him, no matter what happened or what he did.

"When all of that was happening, how did you feel?" Melissa asked as Jason ran his hands through his hair. He didn't know how to describe how he felt back then. He just knew that he didn't like it at all.

"Horrible, I didn't ever want to worry her like that. I always protected her in every way that I could and I felt that I had failed to do that because I caused her pain," Jason said as he thought back and smiled. He couldn't remember her being so happy at seeing him healthy ever since then. Of course, a near death experience usually did that to all of the rangers. "Tommy helped me understand what I was going through. He had enough problems with Kim to know what it was like."

"What sort of problems?" Melissa asked as Jason shrugged. There were many that he could think of, but those problems somehow seemed extremely insignificant right now.

"The normal problems that you have when you are living more than three thousand miles apart," Jason said as he looked down at the floor. "I should have never left her there."

"What do you mean?" Melissa asked, concerned as his shift to an even more depressed tone.

"I shouldn't have come back to be a Power Ranger. I should have stayed with her. We would have had more time," Jason murmured as he wiped his eyes again. He had been thinking about that a lot lately and he knew that if he had been in Geneva that they probably would have gone to college in the same town and gotten married right out of college, but he had joined another ranger team. That changed everything for them, again.

"But you helped look after the world, surely she understood all of it," Melissa said as Jason nodded. Trini understanding ranger duties had never been a problem.

"Yeah, she understood, but what good did it do me to come back and save this town and the rest of the world? My wife was murdered and the police don't give a damn about it," Jason said angrily as he quickly stood up and Melissa backed away. She didn't think that he would attack her, but she didn't want to take any chances.

"The police here may not care, but I am sure that some law enforcement does," Melissa said as Jason gave her a thorough look. She seemed to be telling him the truth, but he couldn't get his hopes up on something like that. He knew that in all likelihood Trini's case was going to get shoved to the backburner and that they would never find out who killed her.

"I'd like to see the police department that does care about us, maybe they would try to give us some answers," Jason said as Melissa gulped. Of all people that deserved to know about the FBI's involvement it was him, but she couldn't say anything. She had been sworn to secrecy and she didn't want to put them in any more danger than what they were already in. The police department seemed to be preparing themselves to do something radical and that did not comfort her any, knowing the information that she had given them.

"Can you tell me about the week before she died?" Melissa asked as Jason took in a deep breath. He had relived it enough in his mind over the past week, but he knew that it might help, somehow.

"Yeah," Jason said as he walked over and sat back down on the couch and placed his head in his hands. He looked so defeated, but he knew that he wasn't. He was still here, although he didn't know why he was lucky enough to still be alive. He was supposed to be with her that day. "She worked a lot more last week. We were supposed to leave for vacation on Saturday. It really was a normal week, except for her going to the doctor. We found out that she was pregnant. I haven't told the others about that, yet. I still hadn't gotten used to the idea of being a dad when she went. I had a bad feeling about her going to lunch, so I was going to go with her, but nobody could cover for me at the dojo. I had to stay and work. I can't help but wonder what would have happened if I was there. She might still be alive or we could both be dead, but we would be together."

"She was pregnant?" Melissa managed to ask as she hastily wiped her eyes. She could usually be professional, but now she saw how much he had lost that no one knew about. She was starting to understand the pain that he felt and she knew that he was still hiding so much of it from everyone.

"Yeah, she told me Thursday night. We wanted to start a family as soon as we got married, but it took us a lot longer than we thought it would for her to get pregnant," Jason said, sadly, as he wiped his own eyes. They had been so happy that night and he still couldn't believe that the next day he lost her.

PAUSE Tape: KX106PR

REPORT KX106PRa

Evidence is found that said tape, KX106PR, was paused for an unknown amount of time by Doctor of Psychology, Melissa Blake. Neither Ms. Blake nor Mr. Scott are present to confirm or deny this allegation. Ranger, KX106PR, does seem to have a sense of the dismal job the police department is doing and expresses his bitterness. No action needs to be taken. Speculation as to what the missing information might be is varied, but is to no benefit as neither Ms. Blake nor Mr. Scott will comment on this section of speech when questioned on its contents.

Deputy Chad McPherson, Angel Grove Police Department

END REPORT KX106PRa

"Jason, there is really no good time to give this to you, but she wanted you to have this," Melissa said as she handed him his packet. It was a great deal heavier than the rest, but she didn't want to think about that. She knew that Trini must have written him a letter that was several pages long and she could only imagine what Jason was going to think when he saw what the package contained.

"What is this?" Jason asked as he tentatively opened the envelope and then covered his face when he saw all of the information that it contained. "How did you get this?"

"It was brought to me by a police officer. The one that your wife met that day," Melissa said as Jason nodded his head and continued looking through the contents until he stumbled upon a thick envelope addressed to him, in Trini's handwriting.

"Oh God," Jason muttered as he began crying and he gingerly opened the envelope. He could only imagine what Trini left for him and he didn't know if he was going to be able to take it.

Jason,

I'm so sorry you are reading this. I always prayed that this day would never come, I didn't want there to be a chance that we would be discovered. Years ago, Billy and I made a plan and it has worked, so far. Jason, I know if you are reading this then I am gone or I am no longer in any condition to talk to you and tell you exactly what happened. I don't like to think about that, I don't like to know that I am leaving you and I don't like to think that I might die and take our child with me.

Jason, you have every right to know everything that happened to me, no matter what the police try to convince you of. I'm sure that some of the others have visited the Command Center and watched it, please do that so that you can move on. You know how hard it will be to prosecute someone with evidence that most people won't admit exists. Jase, you may not be able to put the person behind bars, but don't do anything that will get you stuck in prison. I can't…I don't want that to happen to you because of me. I want you to be free to live.

There are lots of things that I have to say to you and it is going to take a long time to get all of it out, please be patient with me. Jase, I never thought that I would be lucky enough to have you fall in love with me. I thought for a long time that I was just going to be the best friend that you always came to for advice about your relationships and I convinced myself that I was happy with being just your friend. I couldn't have been more wrong by doing that to us. I cost us valuable time and I'm sorry, if I had realized that this was going to happen, then I would have come back sooner. I would have made myself understand that our time was going to be limited. I wouldn't have clung to the job that we both know I hated because it kept me away from you.

I've never told you about what really happened when you almost died. Billy called us and told us what had happened to you. I have never been so worried in my life and I also knew that if I lost you then, I'd never have a chance to tell you how I felt. I would have to live the rest of my life knowing that I had loved and been too afraid to tell that person and because of that, he had died without knowing what I felt for him. When I saw you, I knew that you were in trouble, although the other rangers tried to be positive and told me you would be all right. They wanted me to leave you, they didn't want me to see what had happened, but I couldn't do that. I couldn't let you down, because I knew that if I was the one laying in that bed that you would be right beside me, looking out for me. Everyday since then I have thanked my lucky stars that you are still here and that I have the chance to tell you that I love you more than anyone else in the world.

I learned that our time here is so short and that we sometimes don't get a second chance to do things right. I got my second chance and I ran with it, just like you did. We both realized how close we came to not seeing each other again. Ever since then, I've been giving you all that I could, I couldn't keep anything from you anymore. Jason, you are the one that truly let me be myself, you let me learn to love myself and you let me love you, when I didn't deserve the chance.

I know that you are hurting right now and I know that I have done this to you, but it's the only way that you will be safe. Billy and I are not as valuable to the team as the rest of you, that's why we decided to protect all of you if there was a chance we would be revealed. I've told Billy to tell you everything, but please don't be mad at him. It was just as much my idea as his and when we agreed to do it, we never thought that life would get in the way. We both thought that we would be old and that it would be more of an interview, than an attempt to keep our names secret. But we're not old and it's too much of a risk to let the public find us out. We all have lives here on Earth and none of us want to leave. I know it is risky and I hope against all hope that I will come home and snuggle up in your arms tonight, but I know the reality of it. I'm not coming back, Jase. They won't let me and I doubt that I'll be the only one that dies. I just wish that it wasn't now, I wish our baby would survive.

After all the months of trying and now I am finally pregnant and it is all going to be gone. I know that I am usually the positive thinker, but reality has set in over the last few hours Jason and I know that if they know enough to find me that whatever they tell me will kill me. I wish I could trust our police department more, but I can't. They wished they could find us for years and we won't let them reveal us. It is bound to make them mad and I'm prepared for it.

Jase, I love you. I know that reading it does not do nearly the same job as my saying it does, but it's the only way that I can tell you that I care about you. I'm not there to say the words anymore. I know that we went through our rough times and I know there have been times that you haven't trusted me, especially around Billy. Jason, nothing ever happened after I started dating you. I know that you know that, but I feel that I need to tell you again. You and Billy are on the same team now, you've always been, and I know that you are thinking right now that you want to find the bastard and strangle him with your bare hands. That would probably be the best thing for you, but let Billy send them to Aquitar. I'm sure he and the others have dug up something and have a plan as to how it will work.

Jason, I want you to be able to love again. I don't want for you to sit back for the rest of your life and never love again. You deserve to have a second chance at happiness with a wonderful woman. Let her know your secrets. Let her know your hurts. Let her know that you were a Power Ranger and that you trust her enough to tell her. If you hold that secret between you and someone else, you'll be an old fart reminiscing on a year of marriage. I know it's been wonderful and it hurts me to tell you that you have to move on, but you do, Jason. You don't have to forget me to move on, though and I know you won't. You are a wonderful man and there will be one day when you are okay again. I don't know when that day will be and I don't know how long it will take you to get there. I love you with all my heart, soul, and being and I will see you again someday, although it won't be in this lifetime.

Yours always,

Trini

"Why did she do this for us?" Jason asked as he cried and then looked up at Melissa.

"From what Billy said it was because they thought they could do it. They thought they would be able to manage to keep your information a secret. They always had a plan for if things went wrong, but I don't think either of them expected it to," Melissa said as Jason nodded and continued to cry.

"There is so much that I can't let go, the way that she wants me to. I can't move on," Jason sobbed as he clenched strands of hair in his fists. "I can't forget her and have a life with someone else."

"Jason, I don't think that she wants you to do that. I think that she wanted for you to be happy and it's going to take time to heal and time to find out answers that will let you do that," Melissa said as Jason looked up at her.

"What do you know that the rest of us don't? We're off the tape right now, what do you know?" Jason asked as Melissa walked over to her desk and reached in and passed him the letter she had gotten from the FBI. It only took him a few seconds to recognize the faction that this was from and he gave her a confused look.

"They are the police department that cares about what it going on here. They have an agent within the Angel Grove police department; they have since the Power Rangers showed up in Angel Grove, about a decade ago. The agent got wind of the fact that the Power Rangers had been found and one of them was dead. He thought it was suspicious and when he dug a little deeper, he found some things that disturbed him. That's why I was contacted and asked to give them copies of these tapes as well. They are taking over this investigation as soon as I am done with this session," Melissa said as Jason looked at her and then walked across the room and gave her a hug. All of them had been worried that it was going to just slip under the desk, but it seemed that that was not going to happen this time. They were going to actually get an answer as to who killed her.

"So the police department doesn't know about that, right?" Jason asked as Melissa nodded her head yes. "Billy knows who did it, doesn't he?"

"He seems to have a very strong idea of who did it and he let out enough threats yesterday to scare the police department into confessing to their part," Melissa said as Jason smiled and then went and sat back down.

"I'm not sure if it's enough. You saw Billy, he's not exactly the most intimidating person in the world, but I can give it a try. I do have some information that will be useful, though, I remember who she met that day," Jason said as Melissa looked at Jason and then held up the tape recorder to indicate that they were about to begin recording again.

RECORD PRESSED Tape: KX106PR

"Do you remember who she met that Friday?" Melissa asked as Jason nodded his head yes.

"She met Chad McPherson. He had stopped by her work a couple of weeks ago and asked for the meeting. She wasn't sure what it was going to be about, but she thought that it might be ranger related. That was why she told the rest of us about it," Jason said, calmly, as Melissa nodded. The police department was going to find out who tipped off the rangers in the first place, but that information might not startle them at all. They probably had sent Chad to do that job and to make sure that they were lured into giving out information.

"Did she know anything about him?" Melissa asked, as Jason shook his head no. All she had known was that he had some information for them.

"Except for the fact that he was a police officer, no and she didn't try to find anything out about him either," Jason said as Melissa nodded.

"Just a few more questions Mr. Scott and then you are free to go," Melissa said as Jason nodded his head. He really just wanted to go home and sleep for a couple of hours, then take a nice long shower. "When was the last time that you were in a ranger suit?"

"It was about five years ago. I was brought back for a mission to the moon; Trini wasn't too excited about that one, once she found out what it was. I had told her that I had gone fishing for the weekend with Tommy, I've never been yelled at so much in my life," Jason said as Melissa jotted that down. The FBI had informed her that the police department must have detected some recent activity among the rangers in order to be prepared to announce who they were to the world. That mission, however, did not seem to be it.

"Also, are there any rangers that have served more recently?" Melissa asked as Jason nodded his head yes. Hadn't Kim and Tommy mentioned that they had been on the Dino Ranger team?

"Yes, Tommy and Kim have just finished a year of serving on the Dino Thunder team," Jason said as Melissa nodded and jotted that down as well.

That could have triggered the police department to realize something, but it still left the question of who was their outside informant? The police officers didn't have time to do something like that with everything else that went on in Angel Grove.

"Final question. Have you ever noticed someone following you?" Melissa asked as Jason thought back and then nodded his head yes.

"A couple of times over the past year, I've noticed this man following me and Trini and some times the other rangers. I never got to see his eyes, he always wore sunglasses. A lot of times I'd pass him while I was running and then I'd see him outside the dojo. He had blonde hair, it was really short, but he spiked it. Also, he always carried this briefcase with him. I don't know why, but it was always there," Jason said as two strands connected in his brain and he sat up a little bit straighter. He had to see the other rangers, together, soon. He now knew who it was, although he didn't have to video evidence that Billy had, he had just put something together. That man had showed up when Kim and Tommy moved from Reefside and right now all of them were in danger.

"End KX106PR, Jason Lee Scott, Red Power Ranger," Melissa said as Jason stood up and turned to leave the room. He knew that he needed to make some phone calls and send out the warning to be on the look out for any other suspicious activity. No one else was going to die to try to protect their secret.

AN: I know that in the two stories that I am working on I have been cruel to poor Jason and Trini has been pregnant and died. I'm not planning on doing that in another story for awhile, but I felt I needed to add more angst to this story. I hope that you have enjoyed it and let me know what you think! Toodles!