Chapter 6 Last Rights

Don took a deep breath before he walked into Elliot's room. He had no idea how Elliot was going to handle the news about Olivia. Don wasn't even sure how you bring something like this up.

"Elliot?" He called when he walked into the dark room. "Where is the light switch?" He asked when he finally saw Elliot's figure through the rays of the street lamp coming through the window.

"Leave it off please," Elliot said with a sad undertone, "I like the dark."

"Listen Elliot, I'm not going to say anything about how unhealthy this is for you, sitting in the dark and all. However I am going to say that she wouldn't want you to doing this to yourself, especially over her."

"Is she gone?" Elliot said looking up at his Captain with the most pained eyes Don had ever seen.

"No…not exactly. She doesn't have that long Elliot. The hospital is scheduling that her Last Rights be read in an hour or so," He looked at Elliot's freshly filled teary eyes, "I thought you would like to be there."

"There is no place I would rather be then by her side. But Cap, am I allowed to leave the hospital?"

"It's not like you're going home. You are going to another Hospital, and it's only for a little bit. Besides after I told them the reason they bent over backwards to make the arrangements. The bus is going to take you there. When I spoke to Maureen she said that she wanted to be there too, and so did the rest of your kids. I hope that is ok?"

Elliot nodded.

"Ok then. I will drive them over." Don said when he saw a nurse arrive in Elliot's room.

"Ok Detective Stabler the ambulance is outside waiting for you," The nurse said unplugging the machines that were connected to him. She wheeled him out on the hospital bed. Don headed for the waiting room.

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When Elliot arrived the room was filled with the SVU crew. Cragen, Munch, Fin, Casey, and Elliot's children. They were all standing around the bed. Munch and Fin made room so that Elliot could fit his wheelchair into the spot right next to Liv. He finally saw her. Lying there, helpless, pale, thin and knocking on death's door.

He lost it immediately. Tears ran down his trembling face. His body began to shake. He didn't want to see her like this. It was all his fault. He took Liv's hand and placed it in his. There was not a dry eye in the room.

Flashes of memories raced through his head. The first time he met her. He knew he was in trouble when he laid eyes on that gorgeous face, and figure. He remembered that when they were first introduced she held out her steady hand, and when he reached out to shake it she looked him directly in the eyes. I guess you could say that was when he knew he was going to fall in love with her. It was in her huge honey brown eyes staring back into his baby blues. He felt a bolt of electricity run through his body when he touched her hand. And then she smiled. Good God that smile. He jolted back into reality when he realized he would never see that smile again.

The room was silent as the priest walked in. Casey moved so that the priest could take her spot, which was on the other side of Elliot.

This was it. She was going to die. Olivia was going to die. Elliot couldn't control his emotions anymore, he sobbed out loud uncontrollably. What was he going to do? How would he survive? She was his everything. His partner, his friend, equal, companion, other half…soul mate.

The Priest was beginning his prayers,

"I RECOMMEND you, dear sister , to Almighty God, and commit you to His mercy, whose creature you art; that having paid the common debt of nature by giving up your soul, you may return to your Maker, who formed you out of the earth. May, therefore, the noble company of Angels meet your soul at its departure;"

Elliot felt a lump in the back of his throat as he choked back the endless tears rolling down his face. His brain was fried, he couldn't think of anything but Olivia. He was now in a daydream of when he came home one night to find a teary eyed Liv waiting for him on his steps. She was upset about a case, and wasn't sure if she could do the job anymore. He never wanted to hold her, touch her, kiss her so bad. He wanted to tell her everything was going to be ok. It was just another moment out of many that he wished he had told how much he loved her. He needed more time with her.

He felt his insides burn in extreme pain, but it wasn't from his injuries. It was his heart, it was broken, crushed, smashed into a thousand pieces. He had never felt so alone, so hopeless. He felt a darkness come over him, he couldn't explain it, but it hurt like a sonovabitch.

When the Priest was done with his prayers, he walked over to Elliot and placed his hand upon his shoulder, "My son, although it may seem like God has taken your love away, do not turn away from your faith. God works in mysteries ways." and with that walked out of the room.

All eyes were on Elliot, especially Kathy. Did the Priest really just call Olivia his love? Kathy wondered as she glared at her husband. She was furious with Elliot. She was furious that he couldn't keep his emotions in check, and for breaking down in front of their kids. Most importantly she was upset that it was completely obvious to everyone in that room that he was in love with Olivia.

"Can I get a moment alone with her please?" Elliot asked almost in a whisper.

They all nodded there heads (except Kathy), their eyes in tears. They placed a sympathetic pat on Elliot's shoulder as they walked out. Kathy just walked out, she didn't even look at Elliot. She felt no sympathy for him, she was too angry to feel anything but embarrassed.

The room was clear, leaving just Elliot and Olivia. He took her hand and placed it in his. He brought it up to his lips and kissed it tenderly, he brought their hands back down to her side, never letting go.

"Liv, I don't even know what to say. I can't believe this is happening. I can't believe you are leaving me, forever. I don't know what I'm going to do with out you," He took a moment to compose himself as he was getting choked up and unable to speak, "I would do anything, anything to change places with you Liv. It's all my fault. I can't believe I let this happen. I wish it was me."

He let out a large breath. "I don't know how to move on. How can I possibly manage with out you? You are my everything Liv. You're my partner, my best friend, my better half…I think you are my soul mate Liv. I love you. I love you so much sob and I never got to tell you. We never got our chance. I always thought that somewhere down the road you would realize that I was head over heels in love with you, and that maybe you felt the same way." He wiped his tears away. "I don't know how to do this. I don't know how to say goodbye." He sobbed so hard he couldn't breath. "I don't want to say goodbye, not to you. I love you…"

He stood up from his wheelchair, and whispered in her ear, "I love you Olivia, with my whole heart and sole." He kissed her on the forehead and took one last look at his beautiful partner. He bowed his head and placed her hand on her stomach, when he with drew her hand from his he felt something. A squeeze!! She squeezed his hand!

A/N: Liv returns on Oct 31! It looks like a great episode! I CAN NOT WAIT! THE SHOW IS NOT THE SAME WITH OUT HER! Oh and doesn't she look fantastic!?