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+ Burgundy Bruises +

WARNING: I will repeat, this is a yaoi story. That means, for those of you who don't know, the action of two men dating. Some violence along with male/male sexual encounters will happen. Do not read this if you are offended or dislike such a thing occurring.

Disclaimer: I do not own Saiyuki, Gojyo, or Hakkai. I do however own the few original characters in this fan fiction.

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Chapter 6

Hakkai was sleeping soundly in the patient's room. The one at his side smiled softy in his c hair and folded his arms over his chest. He studied the sleeping boys face.

He's so delicate looking, but holds such power.

Eye's dropping slowly, Gojyo let the satisfied smiled slip off his face as he joined Hakkai in slumber.

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He was hiding, always hiding after another failure. The child couldn't help but let the tears and sorrowful moans wrack his body.

I can never be good enough. Mother can't ever love me because I am a bad boy. Monster, I am a bad monster who can't stop her from being sad. I make mommy so sad…

The child paused in his thoughts to burry his head in his bent knees and lift up his small, bruised hands to cover his ears from his brother's shouts in the other room.

"Mother! Stop this right now! Everything's alright, no one is here to get you!" Jin descended upon the woman flailing around with a wooden spoon in her hand.

"Wretched little beast tried to speak to me with his filthy tongue! Oh, but I got him sweet Jin, got him good!" A crooked smile graced the woman's lips as Jin managed to catch the hand brandishing the spoon like a weapon.

"Mother, just please…calm dow-" he was cut off as his mother released the spoon to Jin and draped her arms around his broad shoulders. She sobbed into his neck, "You left Jin! I didn't know where you went. I was so worried! Don't you ever leave mommy like that again, do you hear me!"

Jin lifted his hand to smooth strands of hair away from his mothers face, "I just went on a walk with Gojyo, I didn't really go anywhere. Please.."

A rage filled scream erupted from the distressed woman's throat.

"I was alone for that?!" His mother then proceeded to sob into his shoulder, Jin tried his best to sooth her with tender hushing gestures. "You and your father are exactly the same!" He flinched, "I would never abandon you mom."

It seemed to be the appropriate answer, for the woman's features twisted into something he suspected was a smile and her hand slid up his neck and into his unruly dark hair, fisting them in a tight grip and then bringing his head down to her level.

She spoke directly to him never breaking eye contact, emphasizing the seriousness in her tone, "That's very good Jin, you were always a good boy. Though this disgusting fondness for that creature is unbearable. He is quite the little monster, isn't he Jin," she chuckles softly, as if she had made a rather amusing joke, "He'll only bring misfortune to everyone he encounters, chaos to all! Put him away!"

Jin calmly decided to try and humor his mother, and took a small step back without turning around and reaching a hand up to the knob on the door behind him. Large eyes had been staring out from the crack of darkness at the encounter, and was then abruptly shut out when Jin closed the door with a snap.

"Alright mother, he's gone now…"

But he noticed that his mother's eyes had a glossy look to them now, a disturbing fire had lit in there as she seemed to stare right through him.

He shivered from that familiar look, he silently pleaded in his head that he wasn't going to have to do what his mother had forced him to do countless times over.

"So much like your father…so much…dear..," the woman then viciously began attacking her sons mouth.

The child in the other room had not moved his face from the door that had been rudely shut in his face by the only person he had believed wouldn't do such a thing.

Upon hearing the harsh breathing and the unmistakable sound of two people tripping over themselves, Gojyo tried desperately to cover his ears. He shut his eyes tightly trying to imagine he was somewhere else.

Then it hit him that he could go somewhere else, his head flew up immediately. He didn't want to disturb his mother by leaving the room and letting her see him, so he looked wildly around, searching for some escape.

The only light that managed to seep into the room was from the grimy window off to the side. The child stood up on shaky legs and stumbled over, hands falling on the sill.

With all of his tiny strength he hoisted it open, and stared out bellow. It was not long of a fall, he thought nervously. Two stories.

Gingerly, he hefted one leg over the side, and then the other. Gojyo just sat there for a few moments to ready himself, then tensed his small arms at his sides and pushed off the windows ledge.

He landed harshly on his feet, his body crumpled in on itself from the impact and he fell over. Now in a fetal position, he lay on the gravel with wide eyes trying to steady his breathing.

That…that wasn't so bad, he thought bravely.

The boy trembled terribly as he managed to pick himself off the ground and rest one of his forearms against the wall.

His eyes squinted from the sting his ankles were brining him, as he began edging his way along the wall into an alley that he knew would lead out into the forest where he and Jin occasionally would walk.

Gojyo liked the forest, particularly because if you went far enough you would come across a clearing that had a field stretched for at least two miles with nothing but faded grass and dandelions. There was no one was around and he could play freely without any dirty looks from the villagers.

His tiny legs began moving more hastily at the prospect of his special place, which inevitably led him to trip. His cheek smacked the dirt-covered ground.

Gojyo felt a small swell of panic in his chest as he thought feebly, what if I can't make it..

Jerkily he tried to force himself up again, until the heel of a boot cracked down on his spine.

A small gasp escaped the child's lips. A low chuckle emitted from on obviously male figure above him.

"Your not going anywhere….at the moment at least." A large hand then plunged down, reaching under the boy's torso to grab the scruff of his shirt.

The man lifted him up, bringing him to an eye level for scrutiny. There was a smudge of filth on his check from being on with the ground, and the half-breeds eyes were wide with fear, as they should be. His teeth were grit in obvious pain and his weak hands where gripped onto his wrist, nails digging into the hold the man had on him.

"Your even covered in filth. Hmph, it suits you. You don't even deserve to be near Suzy." The angry man spit in the boy's face and watched him whimper.

His angry features turned into a pained one as his arm shook slightly, jerking Gojyo's small body in midair like some sort of rag doll.

"It's all your fault, you stupid brat. She wouldn't be insane if you hadn't come along! You ungrateful piece of shit child! Why aren't you gone yet?! Don't you see that your mothers misery is all your own damn fault!? I may have had a chance if it weren't for you!"

He shoved Gojyo away, who fell heavily on the ground once again. Tears had sprung in his eyes at the stranger's words.

/ I don't want mommy to be sad/

The man took a few steps toward the whimpering boy and dug his toe into his ribcage with a hard kick. Gojyo's body rolled over as he sputtered saliva and blood onto the pavement.

"Suzy may have had a chance to recover from that bastard who left her if you hadn't popped into existence." The stranger's voice was bitter and sad at the same time, spitting out his frustrations as viciously as he continued to kick Gojyo.

"She wouldn't have gone crazy, you are the WORST thing that could have ever happened to her! SHE COULD HAVE LOVED ME INSTEAD OF LIVING THE WAY SHE DOES NOW!"

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Hakkai couldn't tear his sight away from the red haired boy sitting in a chair at his bedside. Gojyo was shivering, his fingers flexing and twitching, eyes tightly shut. Sweat was dripping from his temples, gently snaking their way down his jaw.

He had woken up a minute earlier to see this when an anguish filled moan had escaped his companion's down turned lips. The bedridden figure continued to stare dumbly for a few seconds, mind still hazy from sleep.

Then as if an electric jolt had made it's way down his body, he flew the bed sheets to the side, swung his pale legs off the mattress and jumped up, hurrying over to Gojyo.

Hakkai lightly took hold of one of the tormented mans shoulders and gave him a firm shake, "Please wake up…Gojyo?"

The vibrant red hair swished back and forth as the kappa's head started jerking from side to side, the nightmare having become apparently more intense.

Hakkai desperately latched onto his other shoulder and shook his whole torso, his voice having risen considerably as he cried, "Gojyo! Wake up!"

Startled eyes of the now previously sleeping man had snapped open, he jumped up and pushed the nearest object away from him with all of his might, screaming with the utmost distress, " I KNOW IT'S MY FAULT!!"

Precipitation clung to his upper lip, a tongue darted out to catch the salty moisture as the man's body remained tense and upright.

Hakkai held his ground on the floor, staring up wearily at his frightened friend. He has never seen Gojyo's so angry and yet scared at the same time, like he knew something but didn't like it at all. His eyes were glinting like a pair of rare rubies with something akin to madness.

Then the kappa's mouth went slack, his vision came more into focus and his brow creased as he realized he was staring down none other than Hakkai.

He found himself at lost for words, but the one sprawled on the floor found himself finally able to whisper, "Gojyo…are you okay now?"

That had done it. His eyes filled with tears threatening to fall, but of course he'd never show this in front of Hakkai. He dropped to his knees with his head lowered. "I am so sorry."

The green-eyed boy was shaken at the amount of shame that seemed to just seep out of the others words.

"So…so sorry, Hakkai. I didn't mean to hurt you again."

At hearing that, he immediately pushed himself off the ground so that he was kneeling along with Gojyo, "No, it's not your fault," he could see the kappa's face scrunch up under the damp strands of hair, "It's not Gojyo, you were having a terrible nightmare, and I just had to wake you. I should have predicted you would react in such away."

Awkwardly, and hoping he wasn't over stepping his boundaries, Hakkai, gently placed his hands on the others shoulders. He hadn't realized Gojyo had been shaking until just then, "Come on, let's get back to bed. Your cold, and rather mentally struck it seems."

A meek chuckle escape the kappa's lips, "Sure thing mom."

Hakkai managed a small smile, as he gripped one of Gojyo's upper arms and helped him back on his feet and led him to the edge of the mattress. He let the red head climb in first and then followed after.

Hakkai reached down and pulled the sheets up and over the two of them. He looked at Gojyo, who lay rigid next to him, staring at the ceiling. "Goodnight, Gojyo…" no response, he sat up a little, "Gojyo?"

As if snapping out of another dream, he looked back at the concerned green eyes hovering above him and gave a goofy grin of assurance, "Yeah, yeah, quit worrying, you'll get wrinkles. Night Hakkai."

Satisfied, Hakkai returned the grin with one of his own, and returned his head to the pillow for a night of more comfortable slumber, knowing that Gojyo was safe beside him.

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Waking up…is always the bitch of this. The red head thought so as he took in his current position. Over the night, his sleeping partner had his leg slung over his thigh, and his arm tightly wound across his chest.

Hm…not that this is necessarily a bad thing, but if this little bastard with his whole 'proper and innocent' persona woke up now, he'd probably say, "Now Gojyo, why on earth would you place my leg there?"

Tearing away from those thoughts, Gojyo carefully began to slip out of Hakkai's grip on him.

He was free from his tangle with his companion's limbs and kneeling on the bed over the other, as his right foot carefully attempted to make a descent to the safety that was the floor.

Hakkai suddenly bucked forward with such a force that it threw Gojyooff balance and had him landing flat on his stomach, his face now pressed against the sleeping green-eyed boys chest. He was then flipped over and he cringed as fingernails dug fiercely into his shoulders.

He looked up to Hakkai about to say something but paused, seeing that Hakkai's eyes were still tightly shut and he was breathing heavily. He then bent down and continued that god awful panting in Gojyo's ear.

A stir of arousal threatened to stir and make it's presence known in the kappa when he forcefully pushed it away from his mind. Unfortunately it was just then that Gojyo felt the tell tale throb of an erection pressed against his thigh, belonging to none other than the one currently on top of him.

I'm never on the bottom… he thought a little amusedly, trying to make some light of the new predicament he was in. Turning a situation into something humorous usually helped him to decide on a rational course of action. Hakkai, unaware of the others inner turmoil, started to kiss Gojyo's slender neck with hot, moist lips.

The red head grit his teeth, biting back a groan only to have it turn into a growl. He unconsciously tilted his head back to give Hakkai better access and shut his eyes tightly, only to have them snap open when he heard the other say in a quiet, wanton whisper, "Kannan…"

He needed to get up, and he needed to do so now. This very second, he told himself, get the fuck up now!

But the moment his torso jerked forward, Hakkai shifted and ground his pelvis into the others now slowly but surely hardening length.

With a grunt of frustration Gojyo fell in a heap back on the mattress as Hakkai kissed back up his neck, and then dragged his tongue along the shell of his ear.

"F..f-fuck," was all he could say in comment to Hakkai's administrations. He was so frustrated mentally and physically that he would definately scream right now if not for the fear of confronting anyone who happened to barge in here thinking something is wrong.

Well, there is something wrong….so wrong. It's not even me he's doing this to. Are you listening ego? The poor guy doesn't even know it's a filthy half-breed he's treating so…affectionately right now.

He completely lost his train of thought when Hakkai pressed his damp swollen lips to his own parted ones.

Gojyo knew what he should do, and he knew what he wanted to do, but the question is, which one will out weigh the other?

TBC…

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A/N: Wow, this chapter to my surprise was pretty…uh…drama and smut filled? Not necessarily smut, but it's certaintly leading to that. Sorry guys, but I CAN tell you that it is definitely not time for them to realize their feelings for each other. Any way, this chapter has been edited as of March 25, 2009 at 12:47 PM. Which is awesome because the last chapter, if you read the author note of the last one, was edited the same day but about two hours earlier. Damn, I'm on a role here!