Chapter ten

Bam opened the car door for Sara and then went around to the passenger side after she got in the car. He opened the door for himself and looked in at Sara.

"You sure you don't want me to drive?"

"Why? Because I'm pregnant? Aaron I've been driving just about every day since I got pregnant, I'm fine."

"Ok just thought I would be nice and offer to drive."

He got into the car and buckled the seatbelt. As Sara began to drive Bam snickered a little to himself. She glanced at him and grinned.

"What is it?"

"Oh nothing. Just that I asked you out on this date, but you're the one who's taking me."

She grinned "Yeah it is kind of funny how that worked out."

Sitting at the restaurant just the two of them was a nice change of pace for them both. At first Bam felt a little nervous around Sara, not knowing exactly what to say to her. He didn't want to say the wrong thing or something that could give him away. He didn't know why, but something about being at the restaurant with her made talking to her seem so much different and harder to do.

"So um… you call yourself a bohemian…" She grinned at him before he continued "But you drive a car. What's up with that?"

She snickered "Well one thing there are no rules around that say bohemians can't drive cars."

He grinned "Yeah I guess not."

"Another thing, especially with me being pregnant right now, I can't exactly walk everywhere I need to go."

"That's true."

"But here's the thing about the car I drive. It runs on vegetable oil."

"Vegetable oil?"

"Yes. See, it's cheap, you can get it pretty much anywhere, you can go much farther on the gallon, and here's the best part; it doesn't pollute the air."

"Wow really?"

"Yes really. These are just little things you learn along the way. There are all kinds of cars now being made where they can run on vegetable oil. More people should drive these cars."

Bam smiled as he listened to her talk. He really enjoyed listening to everything that she was passionate about. It made him feel more comfortable and he was no longer worried about not knowing what to talk to her about. The date went on for a little while and things were going real well between the two of them. Bam was about to lean across the table to give her a kiss when someone called out Sara's name. They both looked up and Sara smiled broadly when they saw a grungy looking guy, who looked like he could have been Q's brother, approached their table. The guy went right up to Sara and gave her a hug and a kiss.

This intruding guy and Sara began talking to each other in almost a flirty way, causing a great deal of jealousy in Bam. Bam couldn't take sitting there watching Sara and this guy talking and doing cute playful little things with each other any longer. Right as the guy was about to give her a kiss bam slammed his fork down onto the table, causing Sara and the guy jump and look at him. Bam frowned as he was moving from being jealous to mad.

"Dude! What the fuck are you doing?"

"What do you mean?" The guy asked

"What do I mean." Bam scoffed "We're obviously on a date here and you come up to her and start kissing on her and flirting with her like I'm not even here. You're lucky I didn't slam you to the floor the moment you put your scummy lips on her in front of me!"

"Chill out man. I'm really sorry."

"Sorry?"

"Aaron relax." Sara said calmly

"Relax? Some other guy is all over you while I'm on a date with you and you're telling me to relax?"

"Aaron please just calm down. Aaron I'm sorry that this happened like this. I should have done things differently."

"You mean not practically make out with someone other than me?"

"Stop being so jealous, Aaron. You're the one who wanted to take things slow and be friends right now." Sara paused and took a breath "Aaron this is Sean. He's a real good friend of mine."

"Only a good friend?" Bam rolled his eyes

"Well, no, we used to date for a little while. But seriously Aaron, you have nothing to worry about or be jealous over with him."

"I do when my date is interrupted."

"Once again, man, I'm very sorry. I really didn't realize you were on a date with her." Sean said

It took Bam all he had not to let his anger get the best of him. He wanted to punch Sean's face in from the moment he went up to Sara. He also wanted to get up and storm out of the restaurant. But he didn't want to ruin anything with Sara by becoming his typical asshole self in front of her, especially so soon in their new relationship. He had a feeling right then as he tried to calm down that his relationship with Sara would have more problems to come. The main problem he feared that he would have to face was; what would happen once Sara found out who he really was? He really hoped that he would be able to keep her and everyone else fooled, but it also hurt him inside that he had to keep the truth from Sara, knowing that she was pregnant with his baby. The last thing that he wanted to do was hurt her but he knew that that would almost be inevitable.

Sean left after about a minute, leaving Sara and Bam to go back to their date. Even though Sean was gone, Bam couldn't help his uneasy feeling. He tried to act as though he was happy the remainder of the date but all he could think about was Sean and Sara, and of him kicking Sean's ass. He had no idea that he would ever become so jealous of someone, but Sean made him feel that way. He just didn't like knowing that he wouldn't be the only potential lover Sara, and he hated feeling this way for many reasons.

After the date had ended, and Bam had brought Sara back o her apartment, Bam stood by her door and kissed her goodnight. Then with a heavy sigh he headed back to Luke's apartment. He didn't say a word to or look at Luke or Q as he passed by them once he entered the apartment, he just went into his room. He closed the door tight and then walked over to the bed and collapsed on top of it. Curling up on his side he held onto his legs and stared at the wall. Many thoughts were moving through his mind and all kinds of emotions were overwhelming him all at once. He kept thinking about Sara and about Sean being with her. He thought about the strong feelings he was developing for her. He thought about what would happen once she discovered his secret. He worried about what it would do to her, and to himself if his secret wound up hurting her so much that she wouldn't even want to be with him. He felt like he didn't want these feelings he had for her because they were going to ruin everything for him. He hated everything that just knowing Sara was putting him through.

Bam sat up and grabbed his backpack. Opening the bag he pulled out his contact case. As soon as he removed his contacts he whimpered and tears began to fall from his eyes. He then curled up again, hugging himself as he cried. As emotional as he was right then, the only thing that he could do was cry himself to sleep.