Chapter fourteen

Bam never felt as nervous as he did while he practically ran through the hallways of the hospital. A couple times he had to make sure that he didn't drop the bouquet of flowers he was carrying. He stopped quickly in the bathroom to check how he looked in the mirror and briefly go over some things in his mind he had planned on telling Sara once he saw her. Taking a deep breath he glanced once more in the mirror before leaving the bathroom.

Making his way down the hall Bam stopped to check the room numbers. None of the numbers matched the numbers of Sara's room number which caused Bam's nerves to grow. He passed one room and then turned back to check the numbers again and then he let out a little sigh of relief. A small smile formed on his lips as he knocked on the door.

"Come in." Came the sound of Sara's happy, yet exhausted, voice from inside the room

Bam opened the door and peeked in the room. Sara looked up at him and smiled.

"Aaron!" She sat up "I wasn't expecting to see you."

"Well surprise."

He walked in and closed the door. Sara's smile became bigger once Bam approached the bed and handed her the flowers.

"Aaron these flowers…" She smelled them "They're lovely. But you didn't have to bring me anything. Just seeing you is more than enough."

He grinned "I know I didn't have to bring you anything but I couldn't help it." He sat down next to her bed and kissed her on the cheek "How are you feeling?"

"Amazing. And very tired." She looked into his eyes "There's nothing in the world like what I'm feeling right now."

"I bet. So did you have a boy or a girl?"

"I had an incredible and very healthy little girl. You should see her, she's beautiful."

He smiled and felt his heart skip a beat "A girl… wow… What did you name her?"

"Star Bluebell… I haven't decided on a last name yet."

"Why don't you give her, her father's last name?"

The expression on her face fell and she let out a little sigh.

"What's the matter?" Bam asked

"Her father died shortly after I got pregnant."

"Oh… I'm so sorry."

"It's okay. I didn't really know him personally all that well. And it's probably for the best since he seemed pretty troubled before he died."

Bam nodded his head a little sadly. She placed a hand over his and looked into his eyes again.

"Aaron I hope you don't think it's too forward of me… I mean we really haven't known each other more than a few weeks but… it feels like we've known each other for a long time… like maybe we were supposed to be together." She squeezed his hand a little

"Where are you going with this?"

"I really want to give Star your last name."

Bam was a little stunned over Sara's request, and yet it made him feel good to hear it.

"M-my name?" She nodded "Well I uh… I really do care about you a lot… but I really think you should give her, her father's last name. After all, what better way to honor his memory?"

"Aaron… I want you to be her father."

He looked down for a moment and then he sighed as he looked back up at her. He couldn't put the truth off any longer.

"Sara I… I have to tell you something. You have to promise not to tell any one about this, and please, please don't let this ruin what we already have with each other or what we could have."

"I promise, Aaron, you can tell me anything."

"Don't get mad please."

"I won't get mad I promise."

He took a deep breath "Sara this is really hard to tell you… I… I'm not who you or everyone else thinks I am. The truth is… I'm Bam Margera, not Aaron Lewis. Months ago I faked my own death and I've been living as a completely different person. And up until now the only ones who knew about it have been my parents. I am truly… deeply sorry that I've been lying to you all this time and I hope that you're able to forgive me."

Sara stared at him. Her expression wasn't upset o hurt or anything; it was more of a blank expression. She looked like she was scanning every bit of his face and body closely. She stared at him for what seemed like and eternity. Bam expected every reaction she could have given him except for this one, so he had no idea what to do. He felt frozen with fear as he sat there looking back at her and waited for her to give some sort of spoken response.

"I… I knew it." She said softly

"You what?'

"Well I didn't know for sure, but I had a real strong feeling ever since you kissed me in my apartment. There was only one guy in the world who ever kissed me that way, but for these past few weeks I had been trying to deny this feeling, telling myself that it was impossible. But that feeling just would not go away. And now I know why."

"Sara I… I feel horrible for lying to you this whole time. The last thing I wanted to do was hurt you."

"Aaron… I mean Bam." She grinned slightly "Please don't get yourself so upset. You did what you felt you had to do and I appreciate you finally telling me the truth."

"I can't believe you're taking this so well."

"It will take a little time to get used to but I'm glad that Star will have her father in her life. Bam this means so much to me, you didn't have to tell me this now… you didn't have to care so much about me. But the fact that you did makes me so happy."

"Are you serious?" She nodded with a small smile "Wow… I uh… I have to admit that I didn't expect you to react this way. I actually expected to have my head bit off and for you to hate me for forever. Which is probably what I would deserve from you."

"Bam I could never hate you. I'm actually relieved that you decided to be honest with me. Honesty is a trait that I admire the most in a person."

Bam, although happy to hear what she was saying to him, couldn't believe what he was hearing. He prepared for the worst only to get pretty much rewarded for his honesty. He just hoped that her reaction wasn't still coming from the aftermath of giving birth and that she wouldn't change her mind once she rested up. Right then though he felt happy. He was happy over the fact that Sara was treating him so well after he told her his secret, and he was happy to have learned that he was blessed with a baby girl. He smiled as he thought about Star and then leaned in closer to Sara and gave her a kiss.

"I would love to be able to see my daughter."

She nodded "I'll bring you to where she is after I've rested up."

"I would like that." He kissed her again "You get some rest."

"Are you going to stay here for a while?"

"If you want me to."

She grinned "Yes that would be nice." She leaned back against her pillow some more

"Ok you just go to sleep and I'll be right here when you wake up." He picked up her hand and brought it to his lips, lightly kissing it

He watched as she drifted off to sleep. He thought that she looked so beautiful right then and leaned down to gently kiss her on the forehead. As she slept he kept his word and stayed there in the room with her. He couldn't wait until she woke up so the two of them could go down to the nursery to see their daughter together.