-1Authors Note: I really hope that you all are enjoying this fic. I know I'm having fun writing it, plus it is a bit healing for me okay getting to personalFinally figured out which way to save things to hold the bold and italics. Just a check review boldmy notes italicsthoughts. Nothing major changed here ethier.

This chapter, well we'll see how Yuki feels about this whole thing

Enjoy…Oh and I'm a huge Kyo fan…with Shigure as a close second .

Chapter 7: Yuki's Torment

He woke up this morning, for once not running late. While he was washing his face, the events that took place the night before entered his sleep soaked mind. I wonder if Tohru-kun is all right this morning.. I didn't hear her crying any last night. I'll check on before I go down to breakfast.

He stopped outside of the door, leading to the girls room, he heard her crying softly. And then he heard something strange, it sounded like Kyos voice talking softer than he had ever heard it. He cracked the door open, on the bed, something almost more heartbreaking than seeing his love, hurting was the scene before him. Tohru was laying on the bed crying softly. Kyo was seated beside her wiping the tears from her face. That should be me, not that stupid cat. He thought sadly and shut the door. His appetite gone. He decided to go on to school early.

When he arrived instead of going about his president duties. He sit in the hall in front of his locker. Lost in thought. Beating himself up, for not being there. I know that she has to blame me. I blame me. I can't believe how selfish I am. She is never selfish she has always put us in front of herself. And how do I repay her I let this happen. I shouldn't have stayed late.

"Yuki? Yuki? Where's Tohru?" Momiji ran down the hall to the rat. Not noticing his mood, started to jabber about their plans for this weekend.

"Oh she is sick, she is at home?" The rat answered sadly, still not looking up.

"What's wrong can I come see her after school I'll make her a card." The rabbit said bouncing in place. "Maybe bring her flowers, make her soup? Where's Kyo?"

"Go start on that card" Haru said to Momiji. Always in tune with Yuki's feelings, it didn't take a genius to see that he was in pain and there was much more going on that her just being sick. "You're here early, and not busy with your fan club or the council?" Haru asked sliding down the wall beside his friend. "hey, earth to yuki?" Putting his hand Yuki's chin and lifting his face to his. His brown eyes searched Yuki's silver ones. "Danm, lets take a walk." Pulling the rat along with him, they made their way to the roof.

'Remember don't tell anyone, we can't risk Akito finding out yet. 'Hatori's warning came back to him as he put his head on the rail and sighed. "Haru?" He asked turning his head and looking at the young ox. "How did you get through well I did you deal with Rin hating you?"

"I've not, I still love her, and I know one day she will see that. I'm just waiting for her to see that." He answered running his hand through his two toned hair. "I didn't bring you up here to talk about me. You don't look good."

Sighing "Don't worry about me" Trying to smile. From this level he could see Kyo going into the school. Stupid cat, what makes him think he can.. "You were right, Haru, its not easy protecting someone."

"Akito, get to Tohru? Did he hurt her like Rin?" Haru asked his normal glaze look replaced by one like a fire just starting.

"No, not Akito," Great just what I need Haru turning black "But she was hurt"

"Kyo?" His voice had changed to.. He cared for Tohru and was protective of her like she was a younger sistereven though she is younger than him to him, after all she had helped Kisa and all of them as well. "I'll kill any son of bitch that …."

Yuki held his hand up "Haru turning black won't help, and no it wasn't Kyo." He sighed again refusing to give into the tears that had been threating him all morning. " I hurt her, it was me, it was my fault."

"Huh?" The shock from that statement left the ox bewildered he knew that Yuki was in love with Tohru, even though he wouldn't admit it. "What did you do?"

"Well not me exactly, Haru I have to have your word that you won't say a thing to anyone about this." He waited till Haru nodded. "Last night, I had to stay late, doing some work for the council. I called the house to let them no I would be late. I didn't think to call her at work. And she apparently got sick of waiting and started to go home by herself. She didn't make it home. Someone attacked her and hurt her very bad, he beat her and he raped her. If I had been there, I could have stopped it." Yuki said in one breath.

"Who was it, we should kill this fucker?" Haru's black side coming back out.

"I don't know, she wasn't really talking much last night?"

"Well why aren't you home with her?" 1The ox asked in a cold tone.

"She isn't going to want me. And shigure is there, Hatori is coming over." The tears finally started to fall. As the rat said "And she has Kyo, he was there, this morning, he spent the night in her room, she doesn't need me, she hates me."

His love for Yuki over powered his black side. He took his friend in his arms. "No, you need to go to her, tell her your sorry I know her, she isn't going to hate you. I don't think she has ever hated anything in her life." He held his friend and kept talking softly to him. Letting Yuki cry, knowing how hard it is for any member of the Zodiac to be in love. Knowing how hard it is when you can't protect the one you love. Knowing the pain that Yuki is feeling. Stroking his friend sliver hair. He thought of Tohru, Yuki's words sinking him. Took him back years ago, to when was just a child. The ox shook his head, I'll not think of that now. Yuki needs me. "Hey, Hey come on" Haru said kissing the side of his head. For once Yuki didn't jerk back or glare or pull out of the embrace. That's when Haru knew this was serious. "Take the day off. Go to her. Talk to her"

I can't believe that I'm standing here crying on Haru's shoulder like a baby. Yuki thought but taking comfort in an embrace. " I can't take the day off, I need to get Tohru's assignments, and tell her teachers she will be out a while. Plus I never miss school."

Haru smiled at him. "No worries I'll do that"

Yuki sighed. "I still can't I mean …. I guess I could work on my garden some. There were some nice flowers that had started to bloom, Thoru liked them a lot."

"So go pick your lady some flowers and go to her" Haru said smiling. "Lets go."

I can't believe I'm skipping school. He thought as he walked to his and Tohru's "secret base". He sit in front of the garden for several minutes before he started wedding them out. It was almost has if Tohru was with him. He could hear he laughing when he would tickle her with a weed. And see her face turn a cute shade of pink. He could hear her talking. He could see her picking flowers, 'Just to brighten up the house.'

A few hours passed and his garden was wedded out and here wasn't nothing for him to do but go back home, He was to muddy to go to school. Even though he was more relaxed now. Its funny, he thought, how gardening calms me down. He started walking back the path to where the wildflowers were growing. She'll like these, maybe they will cheer her up. Maybe she won't hate me. Gathering up the brightest ones he could find.

The house was silent, except for the murmur of voices up stairs. HE walked up them. Hatori and Shigure were talking in the library.

He opened the door to Tohru's room. She was sitting on the edge of the bed. Not moving staring into to space, thought he bruises and bandages on her cheek. He could see that she was white.

"Tohru-kun?" He asked quietly "are you okay? Do you need Hatori?" She didn't move or make a sound. So he walked on in the room.

"Here I got these for you, just to brighten up your room?" Hoping to at least get a smile out of her. Still she didn't move. "I'll put them her in the vase beside your bed."

She still didn't move. So he sit on the bed beside her to take a closer look at her. I wonder if she will be okay, should I get Hatori, I will in a minute I just need to say this to her. I wonder if she will hear me.

"Thoru-kun, I don't know if you are just ignoring me or what? He said softly, he reached out to take her hand, she jerked so he let his hand fall short. "I'm so sorry, I want you to forgive me. I didn't think anything would happen to you. Or that Kyo or Shigure would come pick you up. I didn't in a million years think you would start off by yourself. I'm so sorry." He finished and took her hand. " I wish you would talk to me, say something anything".

"Yuki-san?" She said blinking her eyes, like someone waking up. "Why were you so late?" She started shaking. "Where were you? She began to sob, Why did you let him hurt me?"

His face turned pale at her words. Not noticing that by the last sentence her eyes were back to some place a million miles a way in her mind. He watched as she laid back down and turned her back to him. She does blame me he thought sadly. He started to cover her up. And touched her shoulder.

"No leave me alone. Don't touch me." She began shrieking

Oh god, she hates me. He thought standing there helpless. As he watched her crawl off the bed into the corner of the room. Screaming wordlessly, the sound brought Hatori and Shigure running into her room.