-1AN: okay same old same old. Reviews are good. I love knowing what people think good or bad.
Chapter 8- "How do I deal with this pain?"
"What's wrong Yuki? What happened?" Shigure asked
"I don't know, she hates me" The rat said quietly and sadly. He stood in the hallway. And watched as Hatori talked to her trying to calm her down. He finally talked her out o of the corner. And had her sitting on the bed.
"Tohru, honey, clam down, your safe…We are here, me Hatori and Yuki. No one is going to hurt you?" Shigure said softly. Then putting his normal goofy grin on "You know what will make you feel better, tea, and as I treat I shall serve it to you in bed like the princess you are." He left the room. "Go in there, she needs us right now"
Yuki went in to the room and stayed by the door. "Are you okay Honda-san?" The girl nodded, still shaking. I want to put my arms around her so bad or try to comfort her in some way. He thought.
"Did you see the flowers he brought you?" Hatori said trying to keep her focused and grounded.
"Oh Yuki-kun they are so pretty" She said without her usual smile. "Why are you home so early?"
"I um was worried about you?"
"Oh, don't worry about me" She said trying to smile. "Hatori, I'm taking up to much of your time." She said in a shaky voice.
"No, its my job" He said watching her, she was trying to have a normal conversation. But her voice was shaky. "Are you hungry? You've not ate all day and its way past lunch time, we can order something out."
"Oh no I'll cook" She said and tried to stand. "Its my job" She stood and started walking to the door. It was obvious to the rat and dragon that each step was pain.
"Not today" Shigure said coming into the room with a tray. "you have the day off"
As if the short walk across the room had been more than she could handle. She sit in the floor. And started to rock and stare at the floor.
"It's the pain, even if in her mind she pretends it doesn't happen, the pain brings it back." Hatori explained. "Yuki get a cold cloth"
I've never seen anything like this, she didn't seem to hate me, but was she pretending like Hatori said, just trying to make things normal,. Her words from earlier still ringing in his ears. Or was it me she was talking to? He brought the cloth back . Tohru had her head down on her knees taking deep breathes All my fault Kept ringing in his ears…
"Thoru-kun I need you to stand up for me and come back to the bed, so you can eat and drink some tea." Hatori said wiping her face off.
She slowly got up like a sleep walker and walked to the bed. Shigure in a tight but cheerful voice explained that he had made this soup special and the tea was Ayas recipe. She took a drink and sighed. "Its good"
"Okay Tohru I'll be back later tonight, if you need anything get one of these guys to call me, I do need to get back to the office. Eat okay"
"Yuki?" She said from the bed. "did Kyo-kun go to school too?"
"Yes, Honda-san" So even though I'm here its still him she wants. "I'm going to take a walk"
"Yuki" Shigure said from the porch, the dog had followed him down the stairs. "She isn't trying to hurt you. She is more than a little confused right now. And Kyo was the first to reach her. Its not anything personal." And there when she woke up.
"Whatever" The rat said sadly and started for the woods. How do I deal with this kind of pain I'm feeling. It is almost as bad as those days that Akito kept me locked up.
Shigure watched Yuki walk into the woods.. I wonder what is going to happen to our happy family. Sometime today I have to go see Akito, I defiantly don't want him coming here. Not until Thoru is a bit better. His thoughts were interrupted by a crash from upstairs.
He ran up the stairs.
"I'm so sorry Shigure-san" Tohru said pitifully from her bed. " I don't know what came over me" The tray was thrown in the floor. Soup spilled the dish broken. "I broke your dish"
"Its okay. Did you at least finish your tea?" It had something in it to help relax her.
"Yes, it was delicious." She said. "I was trying to eat slowly because it is hard when every time I try to take a bite. I feel sick. Then it was like I could see that that man standing there and I could feel him…She started to cry.
"Hey Hey don't cry…Lay down and take some deep breaths like Hari told you to"
"How can you even look at me and stand to be around me." She asked sadly. "I'm no good anymore."
Shigure was at a loss for words. Saying yes you are just seemed weak. So he went to her bed and pulled her covers up. "Now no more talk like that" Fluffing up her pillow. Cracking a window. "Fresh air will help"
She closed her eyes. Why am I so pathetic. This is all my fault. I'm so stupid. I should have waited in the changing room. I shouldn't have went back into the alley with him. Mom she thought, I cant even get out of bed. I guess I've let you down too.
"Shigure-san" She whispered from the bed, her voice heavy with sleep, "How do I deal with this type of pain.?"