-1About time I update. Sorry it has taken me so long, I got really busy. And would crash about as soon as I get home at night.

Anyway here it is my update. Tohru's letters will be wrote in bold-italics

Thank you all so much for your support and reviews. I hope you continue to enjoy the story.

Chapter 16 Letters

"Shigure, what's going on?" The rat said jumping a bit as the dog came out of the shadows of the kitchen. "Whys it so dark?"

"Where the hell is Tohru?" Kyo came charging back down the stairs in a near panic. "She's gone." He grabbed Shigure, "What happened?"

"Tohru is gone?" Yuki, said dropping his book bag and stepping up beside his orange haired cousin.

"That's what I said you stupid rat." Kyo yelled, turning his anger, for the moment on an old enemy.

Yuki, coolly ignored Kyo, fixing an icy stare on Shigure. "Start talking."

"Kyo-kun, Yuki-kun, calm down calm down, our princess is okay." Shigure said in a sicken-ly sweet voice. Kyo released the writer with a shove. "Tohru, left this for you" handing Yuki a small pink envelope, "and this Kyo-kun is for you."

"What's this?" The hot headed teen asked, ripping the envelope from his older cousins hand.

"It's a letter stupid." Yuki snapped at Kyo.

"Don't call me, stupid." Kyo yelled as he kicked the door through on his way out..

My door. The dog though before turning to the sliver hair boy. "Yuki, she left this and she said she needed to be alone. Hatori took her into town." His brown eyes turning sad. Yuki stared at him for a minute longer waiting on more of an explanation. But he had nothing else to say for once.

Yuki picked his things up and went up to his room. He stopped by the door to Tohru's room, leaning against the frame. It feels like someone has put the fire out.

Kyo headed to the roof. It was the only place that he could go to think. Why? Why would she leave? Leave me? Leave us? She said a million times that we were like her family. So why would she leave her home

He stared up at the sky as these questions swirled around his head mixed with memories of the times that they spent here together. The moon was full, and the sky cloudless. He pulled out the letter and began to read.

My dearest Kyo-kun

I'm so sorry that I wasn't brave enough to tell you this face to face. I feel that I should have at least owed you that much. But I didn't want you to try to talk me out of it. If you are reading this, then I really did it. I'm gone. I'm okay as much as I can be anyway. Hatori will be checking up on me. And no I don't want him to tell you and I'm not going to tell you where I'm at. At least not right now.

I would be lying to say that I don't love. Because Kyo I do love you, I think I feel in love with you the first time I saw you. I know that you love me. But right now that isn't enough. And it would be so unfair of me to be with you now, that your curse is broken. And that you are free, I would just be another curse. Part of me wants nothing more than to just be by your side, to have you hold me in your arms, for us to really be together. I've always wanted that. Remember the night, that Shishou-san, took your beads. How I begged you to stay with me? I just wanted to be with you. But now, I'm not the same person I was. I look in the mirror and there is a stranger staring back at me. I can't imagine ever being with anyone again. The thought of just kissing, makes me sick and shaky. I'm not the same person that I was. Please try to understand. I need this time, to myself. Don't look for me. Find someone else find someone that you can really be with, the way you should be. As much as this hurts me to say, I want you to find someone else who loves you like I never can, not anymore. I will never regret knowing you, loving you or the time we spent together. You mean more to me than my own life. I will love you till I die.

All my heart and soul

Tohru

She is in love with me. The thought hit him hard. He looked back down at the paper, not knowing if the tears were hers or his that stained the bottom of the page. Her letter brought back so many memories, of that night. She was shivering in the rain, holding on to him crying and pale, wanting him to stay. How could she think that I would ever be able to love someone else. Tohru, I will wait forever for you if I have to. You stood by me, now I will stand by you. "Don't look for me." Right, I'm going to find you and bring you home.

Yuki sat at his desk trying to concentrate on his homework, his eyes kept drifting to the tiny pink envelope. Did she hate me that much? Is that why she left? Is that what's in the letter? Is this my fault to. He carefully opened the letter and began to read.

Yuki-kun

Other than Hana-chan and Uo-chan you were the first person that I could call my fried. I don't blame you for that night, it wasn't your fault. I also don't blame you for not wanting to look me in the eyes. I hate looking at myself, all I see in the mirror is someone dirty and broken. So if you see the same thing how could I blame you.

How could she think that? Yuki said to himself, staring at his ceiling before beginning to read again.

I know that I should have said something before leaving. But you or Kyo-kun would have tried to stop me. I'm not leaving because of you or him. I've left because of me. Please don't hate me Yuki-kun. Please? I will come back home, when I'm able to. I am also not going to be finishing school this year. I'm not able to face all those people and I'm already so far behind. I just need my space.

You are one of my very best friends, I love you for everything that you have done for me

Tohru

Yuki closed his eyes, holding back the tears. He was hurt and relived at the same time. Tohru you should know that you would never be ugly to me. I'm glad that you don't blame me. I couldn't live with the guilt and shame thinking that you did.

Shigure was sitting in the dark kitchen finishing a cup of tea. He lit a cigarette and watched as the smoke rose towards the ceiling. He began to wonder about Tohru. I wonder what she is doing right now? Does she miss us? Is she okay? How do we deal with Akito? Hatori had said that it was for the best that they don't mention Kyo's curse being broke yet. He decided that he would just try and avoid the master for a while. He exhaled deeply and watched the smoke slowly spread across the ceiling. I don't feel any guilt. Any guilt at all over that guy. "Dirty old man" He smirked as he flexed his knuckles they were a bit sore still. Bits and pieces of Tohru's letter came back to him. It was almost as if she were standing there in the room, next to him.

Shigure

I can never thank you enough for everything, you took me into your home. You've shared your secrets with me about the family. You made sure that I had a place to stay and food to eat. You are like family to me, except for mom , no adult has ever claimed responsibility for me before…..

He crushed his cigarette out and began to pace.

I'm not sure when or if I'll ever be back. Thank you for understand why I had to leave. If you can explain it to Kyo and Yuki. I wrote them letters to trying to explain, but I know that they probably won't understand.

I'll never forget you or what you have done for me.

He walked to his room, suddenly feeling his age and older

I hope that one day I will be able to come home

Love Always

Tohru