Chapter 5

Spiederman ran forward, wrapping his arms protectivly around Jude's limp body and pulled her from Tommy, her legs falling, her upper body weight being supported by her boyfriend. SME members, all three, had extreme reservations about Tom Quincy...especially since he was back, who knew what damage he could cause if he left Jude again. Now that she had seen him.

"Jude?" Speid kissed her forhead and brushed the hair from her face before Wally grabbed her feet, laying her down on the couch near them Spied sat next to her. No one was paying much attention to Tommy, giving him the want and need to back out of the room and make Jude think she'd just imagined it all. But he had to recap, he'd already screwed with her head for two years, could he really leave her again? Tommy rubbed his forhead...after that kiss...there was no way he could deal with that. No way.

"Call an ambulance," Tommy said loudly, hoping that Jude was ok. He'd made her pass out, he'd kissed her so good she passed out? Tommy shook his head, flipped open his cell phone and began dailing 911 before Spied knocked the phone out of his hand and his fist connected with Tommy's jaw.

"What the hell are you doing here man?" Spied yelled. "What the fuck did you do to her this time!" Spied was yelling and a crowd of techies was beginning to form around the two. Tommy simply stood there, his hands in his pockets, staring at the now two piece cell phone that had flown near Jude. "Jude's been through so much shit because of you and you have the goll to come to her concert here! What the hell is wrong with you?" Spied couldn't control himself at that mment, all he wanted was to kill Tommy. Kill Tommy a hundred times for each tear Jude cried.

"I'm...fucked," Tommy said and turned on his heel, preparing to walk away before he felt someone grab his shoulder. An infuriated Spiederman was seething, but he waas in control of himself too.

"No, you're not leaving her again...not again Tommy, she needs you." Spied said before clenching his teeth and walking away, he placed a goodbye kiss on Jude's lips and went to sleep on the bus. The other two band members following right as Jude was coming to.

Jude sat up instantly, her hair flying everywhere, it was silent, everyone had begun scurrying around to clean up after the show and everyone in the audience was blocked out to anything going on backstage, although they had seen the scene between Tommy and herself, the press was going to be hot with pictures of that kiss. Jude put her hands over her eyes and sighed, huffing back tears as Tommy came into view and sat down next to her.

"Jude I..." She cut him off, sucking back in her hiccups and tears. She had to be strong. Tom Quincy wasn't going to just get off by kissing her senseless and then leaving, not anymore. Standing up she looked at him in the eye before grabbing his hand and dragging him to her dressing room.

"You're an asshole Tommy, a straight up class A asshole." She began. He nodded at her before leaning against the wall. "But there's some things I need to show you." She said quietly. "First," Jude locked the dressing room down and took off her pants, revealing black boyshorts with pink writing. Taking Tommy's hand she placed it on the T tattoo, he stared at it, his eyes widening. He wasn't getting action, he was getting a taste of what he'd done to Jude. "Do you know what that is Tommy?" She asked sternly as his finger traced the scar up and down, tears forming in his eyes.

"No...Jude you didn't..." He pulled his hand away and she pulled her jeans up.

"That's the first thing, a cut I did when I figured you weren't coming back. "She zipped up her jeans and buttoned them and reached into a drawer in her dresser before looking at him. "Not both of us had an easy way to deal with something that hurt Tommy, that was mine." She said simply before handing the journal she'd pulled out. "Every damn song in that journal is about you, I tried so..." She choked, "So...hard to let you go, kick you out of my heart and mind...but you wouldn't go away." Moving closer she looked at the page he was reading.

Each tear I've cried

Each smile I've faked

Each thing I've said

Is to make you go away

But each time I think you've gone, you reappear

My heart rips out

Because there are only two people in the world that do that to each other

You & Me

Tommy reached the end of the first verse before snapping the book shut, this was not the place to read this. He stared into the eyes of Jude...his Jude. She had a cut on her leg with a T, she was his in a way no one would ever understand. He could see in her eyes she'd done almost everything under the sun to forget him. She'd tried drinking and sex and music...but he was there. With her every step of the way. In one way it was a blessing, in the other it was a horrendous curse that he'd lay upon her, expecting her to understand. Tommy knew it was too much for a seventeen year old to take. Now she was eighteen...now he could have her. But would she want him after all this?

"Jude listen I..." He put his hand on her cheek, his thumb ran across her lips before he crashed theirs together for five seconds before pulling away. "I never wanted to leave...Porsche...she um finally let me know we had achild, she didn't couldn't take care of her, something happened...I have a daughter and I love her...I ummI couldn't tell you. I had to leave you babe." He whispered the last part. Tears were falling down his cheeks, "I never wanted to leave you Jude...baby I need you so much you don't even know." He choked out before pulling him as close as he could, she didn't resist but she didn't give back either, she was stock still. Jude had no idea what to say at that moment when her own tears were flowing down her cheeks, mixing with Tommy's...Tommy...he was back in her arms again.

"Tommy..." She sobbed, wrapping her arms around his neck. "God dammit Tommy I don't know to say...I hate you so much...but I love you too...don't ever leave me again ok?" She begged, her tears falling against his neck. Kissing her neck gently Tommy nodded into her shoulder, his hands around her waist.

"Never again..." He inhaled her scent. She hated him, but she'd always love him, that was a comfort he couldn't even begin to describe. Now he had to figure out what to say to Porsche and Jude about his daughter. About what was going to happen now. He'd lost Jude for a year already, he was not about to lose her again. There was no way he'd live through that again. No matter if they had contact or whatever, he couldn't take not having her again. "I love you Jude..." He whispered into her ear before keeping an arm around her shoulder and walking her out to his car. Telling the tour bus they were going to dinner. With the understanding that she had to be back by eight the next morning Tommy climbed into the car and took off. He had no idea where they were gonna go, but they were together. For however long they were together.

"I hate you...I love you..." She choked before laying her head in his lap as he drove.

AN: Sorry so short :) But I'll get on it soon! haha

-Mriss