Disclaimer: I don't own anything. Just the same thing you read over and over again in every fic.

Warning: This takes place in Season 12, so if you don't know what happens it will ruin everything.

This is my first fic so...

Anyway, I want to thank Eva Cale for her support and help with this fic. And also Kira (elohimdancer319) for her help as well with grammar mistakes. English isn't my main language so I do apologize for any mistakes I might've missed. Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy! Please review!

I can sense he is uncomfortable the moment those words came out of my mouth but I have to be honest with him. If I want this to work there is no holding back and he needs to know.

"When I was with Richard... I... I got pregnant. I was scared and I didn't want the baby to grow up in that environment and I didn't want the baby to be bipolar either. I just freaked out and then I had an abortion. Richard never knew. I know you are against abortion but I have to tell you."

I look at him expecting some sort of disgust or something but heholds my hand tighter in his.

"Come here…" he says as he pulls me on his lap.

I lay my head on his shoulder for about a minute before I look back at him when he begins to talk.

"Look Abby, I know that what you just told me wasn't easy for you so I have to thank you. First, for telling me about the abortion and second, about this baby. I'm not the one to judge you for a decision you made when we didn't even know each other and I'm not the one to tell you if it was the right choice to make or not. It was your life, it's still your life and it's still your body. But I want you to know that I believe that we are here for a reason. There is something that brought us to this moment, and I'mglad that I have you right now."

If I didn't want to cry hemade it impossible. The tears are rolling down my cheek and I'm unable to hold them back, and a part of me doesn't even want to.

"Thanks for being so understanding" I mumble.

He bends down and kisses me softly on the lips.

"What do you say if we go to bed? You must be really tired and I think we could use some time to think over this. You found out this morning and I know it's not enough time, we don't have to make any decisions now."

"I like the idea."

So I get up and offer him my hand. We walk to my bedroom and he goes into the bathroom while I get inside the bed.

A moment later I can feel his arms wrap around my waist and I have to turn to face him. He kisses me gently on the lips and I move my hands to his back. His wearing a t-shirt, he forgot it the other day and I had left it in the bathroom. It smells good, just like him. Our kisses finally deepen and I have an urge to feel his skin against mine. He sits on the bed and removes his clothes while I remove my own. He is looking at me with longing eyes, and as his hands moves to my shoulder I can sense that this isn't going to be just sex but something more. We are discovering, understanding, learning about each other...

He's kissing me everywhere, and as I kiss his neck his hands are wrapped around my back. He is laying on top of me, and he moves to my belly and kisses it softly, he looks at me and I have to smile. I know what he is thinking of, we are both probably thinking of the same. There is a life inside me and we created it. And that's what terrifies me the most. He comes up to my eye level and kisses me passionately on the lips. I welcome his tongue inside me and I shift my hands to his back. His skin is so soft and warm. He moves to my ear and softly whispers:

"Thank you for everything..."

And I just look in his eyes and know he really means it.

"You're welcome any time" I say and he smiles.

I don't think I've ever understood the meaning of making love to some one till now. As we are laying next to each other arms wrapped I can feel his heart beating in my ear and I'm at peace. He kisses the top of my head and I begin to doze a little bit. I don't think there are any words that can actually describe what we just experienced and I'm not even sure how to tell him what I'm feeling.

"Luka..." I finally manage to say.

"Yeah...?"

"Thank you. I'm also thankful about everything, I just wanted to let you know."

Our eyes meet and he bends to kiss my lips and after he says:

"I know."

He is smiling and I'm smiling. I actually thought this was going to be an odd night after I had told him the news but it's far from it. I think I've never felt connected to anyone before this. And at the same time is weird because I know everything is going to change since tomorrow. I remove that thought from my head trying to seize the moment and remember I should live the present.

"Abby..." He is calling my name.

I open my eyes and look at him again. I didn't even realize I had closed them.

"Yes...?"

"Would you like to spend New Year's eve together?"

"That would be great…" I say while I nod.

I have to smile again.

"Good. We should celebrate we are together and I'm not letting you go anytime soon."

He says while his arms hold me closer to him. And then I eventually fall into a dreamless sleep.