Disclaimer: Not mine …
A/N: The parts in italics are like Greg's memory :-)
June 1, 2006
Dear Diary,
It was bound to happen eventually.
Grissom put us on the same case. Just the two of us – no Catherine, no Nick, no Warrick – just Sara and me. It's almost like he knows how I feel and he's putting us together just to punish me.
But, of course, in my rational brain, I know that's not true.
"Cath, Nick, there's a DB in a gully off the I-15. Greg, Sara, officer involved shooting at the Tangiers. Warrick, you're with me on the Starkey rape case." Grissom casually handed out the assignments for the shift. "Officer involved shooting? What officer?" Sara asked. "Markson. He's new. Let's get going now – Ecklie's on my case about starting too late in the shift or something. Sara, I'll see you later." "Yeah, make sure you don't forget. My apartment, after shift." Sara winked at Grissom.
She winked at him! WINKED! It's bas enough that we had to work the same case, but now I had to have that memory embedded in my brain.
Oh, how I wish I was a lab rat again at moments like this. Then I wouldn't have to deal with being around her the whole day.
"Greg? Hey. You ok?" Sara asked, seeming genuinely concerned. "Yeah, yeah, I'm fine Sara." Not really, but hey, what am I supposed to say? That I love her? Don't think so! "You sure? You seem a little off today Greggo. You know you can talk to me about anything," She smiled that cute gap-toothed smile. I hate when she smiles at me, it makes me love her that much more. "I know, yeah. Really, seriously, I'm totally fine." Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just thinking about how much I despise the fact that you're dating Grissom when you should be with ME!
Sara Sidle should be with me. Me, not him. Not Grissom! But she isn't with me, and she is with him, and – oh hell, what am I gonna do?
He doesn't love her like I do; I know that for a fact. Damn it! I need to find a way to make her mine before I go crazy.
She probably thinks I already am crazy.
XOXO
Greg