Disclaimers – I still don't own them, sad as it may be.
June 9th 2006
Dear Diary,
She finally confronted me yesterday.
It was the first time she'd spoken to me since our kiss the previous day.
I don't think I've ever been so nervous in my life… I had no idea at all what she was gonna say.
She seemed nervous too, though, and, you know, it's better if you're both nervous.
Heh.
"Hey Greg." She addresses me calmly – almost too calmly. "Hey." I was afraid to say anything more than that, due to the way she makes me feel. I didn't know it was possible to feel this way. "About yesterday, we really have to talk." Does she think I don't know this? "Yeah. I know. Talk then." I look up at her; She seems hurt. Maybe my tone was a little harsh. "Oh. Okay. Look, Greg. Um, wow, this is extremely awkward. Well, I guess I should start by saying that I do have feelings for you. Strong feelings; Real feelings." She looks flushed, and I can literally hear my heart pounding in my chest. "Yesterday, it took me by surprise, you know? You caught me off guard. But, well, that wasn't the way I would've wanted to react in that situation…" What does she mean? "What do you mean Sara?" She stares directly into my eyes. God, she's beautiful. "What do I mean?" And with that, we're kissing again. But this – this is different from yesterday. It's real, perfect. "Greg, Sara. It's –" Oh God, oh God. Busted! By him, no less. "Grissom! Oh my God, this isn't…" She doesn't finish her thought. "No, Sara, don't. Just – it's time to get your assignments. We'll talk later." His emphasis is on the word 'TALK.'
So, Grissom caught me making out with Sara.
Sara. His girlfriend.
Well, who knows what they are now?
Shit! I ruined everything. I think.
Maybe.
Is it wrong to actually hope that I ruined things between them?
Probably, but I don't think I care.
I want them to be over so I can have my chance with her.
I love her.
I love Sara Sidle more than anything else in this world.
Forever.
XOXO
Greg