Ahh you all suck for not giving me reviews,and yet i am gracing you with another fun filled chappie. S'ok tho. i'm writing better stuff now. and wont have to worry about this one no more. i think im gonna abandon it. Even the hits are slowing down. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
After
a tiring day of work, Axel dragged himself inside and to his bedroom
where he collapsed onto his bed and intended to fall asleep
immediately.
"You know, that was really cruel of you to do to me
this morning." Axel rolled over on to his back and gave a tired
grin to Roxas who seemed, sure enough, not very angry at all.
"So,
you gonna punish me?" he asked closing his eyes.
"I'll think of
something," Roxas replied and crawled next to Axel on the bed.
"Why
are you still in my house?" Axel asked after a long pause. Roxas
snuggled closer to Axel and breathed into his best friend's ear.
"I'm pretty sure I missed you," Roxas whispered,
"And I'm
pretty sure I promised myself I'd never leave you alone if I could
help it," he added and closed his eyes, Axel's warm body encasing
him in a sanctuary, feeling sure that he would never leave it.
It wasn't until later on in the week when Roxas finally went back home to deal with life without Axel beside him every minute of the day. Things started out alright and he went to visit Axel every chance he had. As he finished off his day at work, he couldn't help but think of how much longer it would be until he could see Axel again. He walked through the front door of his house, and instead of going to the phone, he went straight to the computer, as he knew almost definitely that's what Axel was doing at his own home, talking to his now ex-girlfriend Namine.
By the time Roxas had logged on, he
started to second guess his relationship with Axel. Had he really
broken up with her? He was still talking to her quite a bit, almost
obsessively. Sure enough, there he was, online along with Namine. Not
even a couple of seconds later, he was being added into a full blown
conversation that the two had already been in for what seemed like
hours. A little jealous, Roxas played nicely by masking his jealousy
with his regular, goofy self. The conversation went on for a pleasant
five minutes until Namine made a joke about Axel having secret
feelings about her.
"You know Roxas, that Axel loves me more, and
that he'd do anything for me," she started, until Axel cut in and
continued.
"It's true. I owe you so much Nami," he said, not
realizing that Namine probably meant what she said. Roxas, filled
with jealousy and anger lashed out almost instantly.
"You know your
right, so why don't you go out with her instead, I don't need you
and I don't need anyone, and if that's what makes you happy, I'm
willing to find another person to care about. Not to mention it'll
be a girl, because I'm normal and that's what normal guys usually
care about, girls."
In a watery haze beneath his glazed, teary
eyes, he tried to type a lasting response to the boy who shattered
his heart.
"You're a freak Axel, what kind of guy pretends to
love another guy, that's wrong and everyone knows it!" With that
sentence out of the way, Roxas rushed to the washroom, where he threw
up and rested, alone on the cold, ceramic floor. Roxas regained his
composure and sat up to hear the phone ringing. He didn't feel like
answering but the ring wasn't letting up and was giving him a
slight headache.
"Hello," he managed to say without revealing how
much of a mess he really was.
"Hey Roxas, it's Namine. Don't
hang up it's about Axel he might be in trouble." Roxas held his
thumb on the hang up button and was about to push it when he heard
Axel's name come out of her voice cracked and worried. He left his
thumb on the button but refrained to push it down.
"What happened,"
his voice faltered slightly, giving of some evidence to the state he
was in at the moment.
"He's really sorry, I'm really sorry. I
shouldn't have said what I said. I should be happy for you two, I
just haven't really let go of him yet. He didn't realize that I
was serious, he thought it was a joke between us two,"
Namine's
voice cracked completely, and she started to sob.
"Blame me,
please, I don't think you understand how much he loves you, how
much he'd do for you, what he'd give-"
"I thought this was
about Axel being in trouble," Roxas cut in, trying his hardest not
to fall to pieces listening to Namine tell him what he already knew,
how much Axel actually cared for him, how Roxas had virtually
destroyed his own feelings and Axel's feelings, the only person
that loved him more than what he could ever understand.
"So, what
happened?" he finished, not expecting an intelligent reply.
"He's
acting…funny," Namine choked out after a long pause.
"Please,
come back online, and tell him you love him. If it's true that is,"
Namine hung up without even a hint of a goodbye and Roxas, feeling
like he should apologize, regardless of how much more he owed Axel
for telling him those lies, went to see what Namine was so worried
about. Again, when he logged on, he was spiraled into a conversation
being held between Axel and Namine.
"Just tell me who Axel!" the
familiar pink letters popped up onto the screen revealing Namine's
identity.
"I'm sorry, but I have to go! They're after me Nami!
Help me! I can't take this! I can't go back there!" The red
letters had their own life to them, stabbing Roxas with a fear he's
only ever had once.
"Axel calm down baby, it's me, Roxas. It's
in your mind Axel, it's the heroin. No ones after you ok?"
Roxas
was breaking down himself when he typed what he knew. It was only
when Axel had overdosed on heroin when Roxas felt this weird,
agonizing pain in his chest. He didn't know he was right this time,
but like the first time, without even seeing his best friend put the
needle into his skin, Roxas had felt that something was terribly
wrong.
