Im only updating for my new friend ff-kh-luvrgrl cuz she is awesome and totally digs my story. Thought i'dlike to give you a little insight into what axel went throught the first time. I never proofread it so im sorry if theres unclarity. Just let me know and ill fix it. LOVES YOU ALL MUAH
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The first time this had happened, it was night, it was dark and cloudy, no moon to light up the sky and Roxas was sleeping soundly, when he darted awake suddenly, no dreams, no disturbances, just a pain in his chest, like someone had punched him hard between the ribcage. His mind only thought of Axel when the pain subsided and with great fear for his friend, and a miniscule bit of curiosity, he put on a pair of pants and jolted out the door to Axel's house. Ten minutes later, Roxas reached the front door to his friend's house where his sister stood on the veranda half asleep.
"He's not here," she called to Roxas, like it was
normal for her brother's friends to stop by at three in the morning
every so often.
"Where is he then?" he replied, trying not to
give off the vibe of worrying too much, though her being outside this
late was also a little questionable.
"Don't know and don't
care," Kairi said and walked back into the house locking the door
behind her. Like second nature, Roxas ran off towards the alley just
within the borders of Traverse Town where Roxas knew Axel went to buy
various drugs laced with all kinds of other goodies. Like it was
fate, Roxas tore across to Traverse and did in fact find Axel in the
alleyway, just like what his gut had predicted. Roxas would never
lose sight of the memory of his best friend alone in that alleyway,
soaked with sweat and his left arm looking slightly dead, an
infection from the syringe spreading throughout his arm like the
deadly virus it was. Axel was unconscious at the time, and when Roxas
went to make sure his friend had a pulse, he couldn't find a strong
heartbeat from anywhere, and he was no expert at doing anything like
CPR or first aid. He fixed Axel so that he lay against a wall, and
called for an ambulance on the cell phone he took from his parent's
room. For what seemed like an eternity, he waited, desperately
praying for his friend to stay alive, let alone be alright.
It was days later when Roxas visited Axel again after his overdose, and it was only then that he found out that he wouldn't be able to see his best friend for months, possibly close to a year. He was being sent to a rehabilitation center for recovering drug addicts and Roxas felt like a part of him was dying.
"I don't want to go Roxy," his friend gasped, scared that he
might never make it home.
"Its ok Ax, their going to make you
better," Roxas mustered, hoping that Axel would be back sooner
rather than later, but understood that his best friend needed this
help.
"I'll see you soon ok Axel, you'll be back in no time,"
Roxas smiled and headed off, tearing away from his friend who so
desperately needed him by his side for support.
Roxas didn't eat or sleep for days after Axel left for rehab, although his mother felt this was completely normal for someone who had lost a friend for an extended period of time. It was almost habit for Roxas to refrain from speaking and run off to his room after school, if he even decided to go.
Four months later, Roxas had grown accustomed to
life this way, and had in his mind that this is how it had always
been for him, lonely and depressing. Roxas didn't even know what
day it was when it happened. He was sitting at home watching
television when there was a knock at the door. He didn't feel like
getting up, and so he didn't, leaving the responsibility to his
mother. Like he had expected, his mother answered the door, but
screamed loudly after a moment which was completely unexpected to
Roxas. He fell off the couch painfully from hearing the scream, the
side of his hip hitting the corner of a small, antique table his
mother kept right in front of the couch as he fell. Laying there in
slight pain he propped himself up fully intending to get up and glare
at the visitor who caused his mother to react in such a way.
"I
understand. Your trying to hide from me, that's alright," a voice
gently said to him before his eyes shot up to see the face of a
ghost. "Axel," Roxas stared looking up at his best friend, not
remembering the last time his friends eyes were so clear, Axel's
emerald gaze staring right at him, and a smirk he'd never seen
before. He looked so perfect and beautiful standing over him that
Roxas couldn't even find any words to explain how good he looked,
and how horrible he himself must have looked at that moment. After
realizing he couldn't find anything to say, Roxas jumped up and
hugged Axel tightly, almost crying at the sight of someone he swore
would never see again. They let go of eachother only slightly so that
they could see eachother face to face, and Roxas found himself with
the greatest urge to kiss his friend, passionately on the lips, the
lips of a perfect being, of a god. He shook the thought out of his
head, thinking he was just happy to see Axel again after what seemed
like an eternity and just stared into his bright green eyes, lost in
his friends deep, powerful gaze.
"How was it?" was all Roxas
could manage to say, still fighting the feeling of wanting to hold
Axel down and just make love to him forever. Axel hugged him again
and whispered into Roxas' ear.
"Don't ever make me go there again.
Please," Axel paused hiding a painful smile from his best friend
and Roxas felt warm tears fall onto his shoulder. Axel continued,
"Protect me from them, please Roxas."
"I promise," Roxas
whispered back, feeling horrible about Axel's experience, that he
might feel so scared of a place that is designed to help people, but
still feeling so happy that he was able to see Axel again, promising
himself he wouldn't send him away anymore.
Now, as he saw the words of pure terror stream
onto the screen, he remembered the promise he made to Axel, and to
himself, that day in his living room.
"I'm coming over now,
you'll be ok." Roxas shut the screen of his laptop and like it
was happening all over again, he bolted to Axel's house to protect
him from whatever he felt was coming for him.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
i might cut this story short and abandon it. Its not my type of thing no more... sorry.
this might be the second last chapter.