So I know that half of you hate me and the other half are like "who are you again?". But I'm back with a great chapter. Seriously! I had a HUGE case of writers block and it almost made me cry. But now its gone and I am free to write again!!! Oh and by the way did I tell you how cool it is that I have 145 reviews!! Oh man its amazing. I love all y'all who review. It makes me happy! So just an overview of the last chapter:

Tommy said he loved Jude (yay! )

But then she ran away scared (boo!)

So then she goes to Andrew's grave (dead fiancé) and like cries and stuff and then Andrew comes and says its ok to be with Tommy (yay!)

While all that was happening Tommy was being all depressed and crying (but your not suppose to know that) and he thinks his life sucks.

So that's it. Chapter 17 in a nutshell, with commentary by me, Koli. Ok so here is chapter 18!!!

The next morning Tommy stared at the clock until the alarm went off. A loud metallic ringing filled the silent room followed by a thud. Two nights with out her were taking its toile on him. Two nights with out sleep because she was gone. The realization hit him again as he entered the bathroom. She was gone, she didn't want him. He looked down at himself to find he was in the clothes from the day before. He smoothed out the wrinkles and decided to just not care today. He walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror, the sleepless night apparent on his face. He had a five o'clock shadow and his hair was a matted mess. Dark circles surrounded his iceberg colored eyes as he splashed water on his face in an attempt to make himself somewhat presentable. Once again he found himself in the mirror and sighed as he pushed down his hair. He walked into his living room, grabbed his keys and headed towards work in hopes of seeing her.

Jude woke up the next morning tired. The past two nights had not been kind to her. Without him sleep was difficult to obtain. It was like chasing a mirage only to see it disappear right in front of her eyes. She sat up in her bed and looked over at the clock. It was too early to get out of bed and too late to go back to sleep. Of course whose to say she would even sleep. At 5:30 in the morning she crawled out of her sheet sand walked into her kitchen. While making a pot of coffee she made the decision to skip out of work for the day. Seeing him would just make her life harder, even though she knew she would have to return to work someday, that day was not here yet. It was the middle of January and most of the tourist had gone home for the winter. It was her favorite time of year; she put on a pair of pants and a jacket, grabbed her shoes and keys and headed to the Montgomery's Cabin in the mountains. When she reached there she sighed. The first time she had been here was with Andrew and his family for Christmas. After he died Mrs. Montgomery had given keys to come here and cope. Her coping involved her drinking half the cabins supply of liquor and passing out in her own vomit. Not a lovely picture, but those were the memories that lingered there. The Montgomerys had not been there since Andrew's death and just as she had suspected she had the cabin to herself once again. She wondered around remembering that Christmas and smiled as she remembered them kissing under the mistletoe. She walked over into the kitchen and noticed that liquor cabinet had been restocked and she decided against reliving two yeas ago. One can only wake up in their own vomit so many times. That's probably why she wasn't a heavy drinker. She sat down in the living room and removed her shoes after placing her coat on the couch. After resting from the car ride she started a fire, made coffee and watched The Lake House. A wonderful movie in her opinion, though it was a love story it had a psychological appeal. She fell asleep half way through the movie and awoke in the middle of the night to a smoldering flame. She placed more wood inside the fireplace and went back to sleep. She spent two days there and finally went home. It was around 10 in the morning when she arrived to her little apartment. She removed her clothing took a shower. After getting dressed she made lunch and watched yet another sappy love story, A walk To Remember. Followed By City Of Angels. A tissue box and a half tub of ice cream later she finally decided to watch some thing to cheer her up. Benchwarmers was next on the agenda. She laughed until her sides hurt and immediately felt better. Thoughts of Tommy lingered through her mind as she sat enjoying the beauty of stupidity.

Around four Tommy realized that Jude was not coming in making it the third day she had missed. Slightly angry and more depressed he took his keys from his pocket and walked to his car. Unsure of where he was going he drove, ending up at Jude's apartment. He pulled into the parking and sat in the car.

" Ok, Go." Tommy told himself willing his body to move. " Ok seriously this time. One, Two, Three. Go!" as hard as he tried Tommy could not make himself exit the vehicle. Tommy finally exited his car after ten minutes of arguing with himself. He pulled out his phone and called her house, checking to see if she was there. He didn't want to waste his adrenaline on an empty house. Nerves hit him as he waited for her to pick up.

" Hello?"

" Hey, uh, Jude. It's Tommy. Can I talk to you."

Tommy sighed angrily when he heard the phone click signifying she had hung up. He walked the rest of the way to her door and knocked on it, allowing the proper amount of time to pass before he knocked again.

" Come on Jude I know you're in there. I just talked to you on the phone."

Jude was standing near the door and looked out the peep hole.

" How do you now, I could have forwarded all my calls to my cell phone, smarty pants."

" And now I know you're really there. News flash when your trying to hide in your house its best not to talk to the person you're trying to hide from."

"Damn."

" Just open the door. I wanna talk to you."

" No."

" I'm not leaving until you open the door."

" Then I guess you'll be there for a while."

Tommy sat down with his back against the door and opened his phone, he speed dialed one and wait for It to ring.

" Hello?"

" Jude open the door."

" No! You stop calling me," and with that she hung up. Jude ran upstairs and took a long hot bath to ease the tension building in her shoulders. Her head began to ache and she took aspirin, nearly falling asleep in the tub. After she finished she slipped into some plaid pajama bottoms and a tank top and went to make herself something to eat. After eating she quietly stood and walked towards the door. Looking through the peephole once more she found that Tommy was still sitting at her door and was eating pizza. She almost laughed at the sight but then she remembered why he was there. Around ten she heard Tommy singing.

"If you feel like leaving, I'm not gonna make you stay. But soon you'll be finding. You can run, You can hide but you can escape my love."

Jude ran up the stairs into her bedroom and crawled into the sheets.

Why can't he just leave me alone?

Because he loves you

Shut up

I'm just sayin is all

Jude cursed at herself in the silence, she was arguing with herself, great. Total sign of insanity. She stared at the ceiling thinking about the man sitting outside of her door. Tommy glanced at his watch seeing it was 10:30 pm. he looked up to the heavens and said a silent prayer, begging that she would open the door soon. Jude got out of her bed and walked down the stairs, the clock flashing 11:15. She walked up to the door and wasn't surprised to find Tommy outside the door curled up into his leather jacket, resting in the frame. He smiled as he felt her moved down the wall and curl up against the door. Jude placed her cheek against the cold wood and drifted to sleep as Tommy did the same.

Jude awoke with a jolt fearful and unaware of her surroundings. Her eyes began to clear and she recognized her living room and remembered she had been sleeping on the door. She looked up at the clock to see it was 4:47 am; she rubbed her eyes, sighed and stood on her wobbly legs. Tommy stirred on the opposite side as he felt her move away. He stood as she did and waited. At the sound of the first lock being unlatched his heart rate sped up. at the sound of the second his leg shook nervously. As the door slowly opened Tommy let out a heavy breath. Jude was slightly shocked to see him standing there and sighed.

"Tommy, go home."

"No."

"Why not?"

"You won't talk to me."

"You really aren't gonna leave are you?"

"Not a chance."

Jude opened the door wide enough for him to enter and stepped back as he stepped in. she closed it softly and motioned to the couch. They sat in silence and waited for the other to talk.

"Why are you still here?"

Tommy took a few more seconds of silence and chose his words.

"Tonight was the first night I slept, actually felt reenergized after resting. I slept instead of reaching for you only to get empty bed sheets. I can't keep lying to myself saying that you leaving didn't hurt, cause it did. I don't wanna eat, sleep, breathe without you. I am so in love with you Jude. I don't even know how to describe it. Its scares me but it's a fear that I wanna face with you."

"I'm scared too. Look at you Tommy, million dollar playboy. Different girl every other day. How do I know I'm not just another flavor of the week? How am I gonna know that while you're on tour you'll be faithful to me? How will I know you aren't out partying?"

"You'd have to trust me."

"I don't know if can."

"I'm asking you too."

Jude shook her head and Tommy moved closer and wrapped his arms around her. he placed his cheek on top of her head.

"Please baby? Give me one chance. I'll never hurt you."

"You can't promise something like that."

Jude pulled away and walked out of her apartment. Tommy fell to his knees and whispered, "I can try."

ok so end of chapter 18. sad I know but I cannot control the story. they just have me write for them. so basically I own nothing in this story except the plot. peace and love and please review