hey there I'm back I guess you think it is strange my story loaded on the same day but I guess its just cause I couldn't get the plot of my head. Well for your enjoyment the next chapter. Oh by the way I have always wondered how Kanami met Kazuma in the first place. Honestly I am not sure but this is my take on it. One last thing even though I know how much you want to get to reading but there ages might be a little out there yeah sorry but it is my fanfic.

Disclaimer- I do not own sycred for if I did Kanami would end up with Kazuma and the title would actually make sense to me.

A LOST MEMORY

I was dreaming, in my dream the day seemed to never stop and that was okay to me. Even though the rain was pelting my drenched clothes that had clutched my freezing skin I still felt lazed by him this boy who was full of so much pain and not enough time. Still I could that a void began to fill with thoughts of warmth. I could see thru his dull exterior into his soul were there was a kindness that surpassed my own. In his eyes that had such a fears ness and raw determination that well hid the subtle glow of the kindness and carefree spirit his body had latch to. He came out of no where I knew I had never seen him before. He only gave me a gruff look and with a grimace he glanced at me. I thought for a moment I heard him say he was hungry but I didn't see his frown of a face move still I knew he wanted it somehow the bread that was sitting in my palms. It was one thing of bread that was so suppose to last me all the day. I looked at it and then found myself offering it to him with a frighten look to his gesturing response.

"Humph are you giving this to me, don't be so dumb if you do that then what will you have to eat. You should think before you act or you won't have anything."

After his tirade I heard the faint sound of his stomach growling no matter what words he spoke I knew that he was hungry so I again offered the bread this time breaking the bread in half to split. Huh was the only answer from him then he slowly took the bread and gnawed on it slowly.

"by the way what is your name," he spattered in a delicate voice half choking on the food.

"Kanami Yuta my name is Kanami Yuta." I could only pause to see his kind smirk, "so then what is your name?"

he guffed at my questioning, "Kazuma the shell bullet that is my name,"

"Kazu, Kaz… Um Kazakun." I gave him my genuine smile and puppy dog eyes. He only complained about that not being his name yet still to me that would always be his name in my heart maybe he will be like that again splurging on food and again laughing with me like it use to be and then at that thought I could only wake and feel a ache from the dusted memory.

For a moment in the depths of my mind had whispered it to be true and everything else I had that shared a slight resemblance of a remembrance was attached to my heart and stayed there forever I whished that he would return but by know his joyful childish spirit had disappeared as with him while he continued the enduring fight with Ryho. Even though I love Ryho, a love that was more of a friendly affection than truly love for only loved one person In my life and that was my dear Kazakun. Still it pained me to see them fight so helpless was I the only thing I could was understand why they were fighting as they were. The had vowed to become friends but there ego clouded there judgment to a fill scale and the only way to settle it was the only way they had been raised to and that was to fight. I knew that I was envy that I was feeling about Kazukun's disappearance from my heart but it aches less than what it use to when I lost his heart altogether long ago. And I even lost the sensible heart of my dear comrade Ryho. Now I was use to the suffering without them it was not like he didn't leave me all alone all the time so I should be used to it. I wasn't at all the only thing I was use to was living peacefully in that house when it was just me and Kazukun. Before I found out that he was an alter user. before Kimishima had died because they were trying to protect me. Before Kazukun had left me and forgot me. Before Ryho had made a whole in my life as my new friend. Before I was kidnapped and cast as an alter user. Before Kazakun rescued me. Before he just left me. I wish that it was back before when could barely afford to by food. We got away with the little money we had. When he used to give me company at the farm somewhat help me with working. When he would knowingly criticize my cooking even if secretly he knew it was good. When he use to listen to my dreams and say hi Kanami and wave by to me before I was about to collapse from exhaustion from not enough sleep. When he use be missing days at a time and would show up with that big grin that only mean that could escape my mouth was… "Your such a dummy." And continue to laugh as he rambled about how he lost it or gave it away. I wish I could have an alter that could cast dreams so I could fall asleep in a wonder land and which I would never wake up and be with my Kazakun and Kimishima and Ryho a world with the people I care about and of course Kiriu we could live happily ever after but Kazakun would probably that was childish and dumb if your life didn't turn out that way then it isn't meant to be that way. That doesn't say you cant change your own destiny though.