Ok, are we ready for the ANGST to resume? As if it never stopped, right... Angst away!

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James found Sirius an hour later at the edge of the Forbidden Forest, Remus following, curious as to what was upsetting his friend. Sirius turned at their approach and tried to crack a smile.

"Hey, Padfoot. James brought me."

"I see that."

"Tell us, Sirius!" Remus demanded. "Is it a girl?"

James glanced at Remus then back to Sirius, sighing. "C'mon. You can tell us."

"IfuckedSeverusSnape."

"What you say?" James asked.

"I-fucked-Snivellus." Sirius strode backwards and collapsed against a tree, watching his friends' astonishment grow.

"WHAT?" James rushed forward and grabbed Sirius' shirt.

Remus slowly approached them, "I really hope that you don't mean that, Sirius."

"Remus - I wouldn't lie to you," he snickered. Ah, crap. He couldn't let his friends know... know what? He didn't actually like the little bugger, right? Did he pity him suddenly?

"Sirius, stop joking," Remus begged.

"I'm not."

"Then...why? Why?" James let go of Sirius and knelt before him, Remus shivering in the cold behind.

"I don't know..."

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In the Slytherin Common Room, Severus huddled in a corner reading. Luckily it was dinner time so no one was there. But he couldn't concentrate; he couldn't help but think of Sirius; why he made him leave... He realized that he was truly scared. He feared himself; he feared his feelings for Sirius Black. He would rather simply not see him ever again that have to face him in the school everyday and ignore him as he had always done since he first came to Hogwarts. But that was simply impossible.

Setting the book aside, he stretched out on his stomach, limbs spread, and remembered Sirius atop him. He felt the pressure; they were right over there - "NO!" he yelled into the floor. He pushed himself up and decided that he needed air.

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Sirius couldn't get the other two away from him. Thank Merlin that Wormtail wasn't around. But Remus and James only stood silently as Sirius rested against his tree.

Suddenly, all three were startled from their silence when one of the many large doors of the castle swung open and a Slytherin emerged.

"Get in the forest!" James whispered, not even waiting to see the identity of the figure. He started to scramble but was held back by Remus who watched the boy approach. Sirius held his breath, thinking that he wouldn't be seen. Remus and James both watched as Severus Snape slowly approached the wood at an angle away from the threesome. He didn't notice them until Sirius finally pushed from the tree.

Sirius had to do something. For whatever reason his trademark cool left him and his nonchalance ceased to exist.

James tried to pull him back but Sirius broke away, stuffing his hands in his back pockets and slowly strode towards Severus, ignoring his friends hisses to come back. He heard Remus whisper to James, "I can't bloody believe it... What do we do, James?"

He didn't hear James' response as he kept walking.

Severus saw motion form the corner of his eye and halted, pulling out his wand. When he realized it was Sirius, he still kept his position. He noticed James Potter and Remus Lupin fleeing back into the castle. Why were they out here? Why was Sirius?

"Hey, you can put that down, Snivellus. I'm not going to touch you. I don't even have my robes. Can't put a wand anywhere!" It was a stupid thing to leave one's robes in the common room. It was so fucking cold!

Reluctantly, Severus stuffed his wand away and stood his ground to Sirius. "What did you tell them?"

"Nothing."

"I don't believe you."

"...They won't say anything."

"What? Why would you even want them to know?"

"Know what?" Sirius stopped a few feet from Severus.

Severus' brow was sweating slightly.

"Why are you out here anyway?"

"Why are you?"

"Believe it or not, I also think, Severus."

"I wouldn't have believed it."

They stood a few more moments, silent before Severus spoke again. "If you don't mind, Black, I'll be returning indoors." He started to swish away towards the school but stopped when Sirius called his name again.

"I'll stop if you want me to."

Severus stepped around to face Sirius. Black seemed - forlorn? - but he was good at acting. He had seen Black act with girls before. He never trusted him, and he still didn't. What the hell was he up to?

"Stop what?"

"Messing with you. I'll stop."

Oh Merlin, another dilemma? Was it really a dilemma? He didn't know what Sirius really felt, if anything, and he didn't understand what he himself felt or why! Stop it, stop it! I don't want him!

Yes, you do.

NO! He'll use me! I'm smart enough to realize he has already.

But you care. You want him.

NO!

"Severus?"

Snape quickly spun around, unable to control the flushing of his face or his scowl at himself. He tried to move quicker through the snow but suddenly was pushed to the ground and tossed over, legs and arms tightly pinned under Sirius' weight. Severus grimaced and scowled up at Sirius, who was not scared in the least.

"Talk to me, Severus."

"Get off of me!"

"No!" He pressed his entire lower body to Snape's, his face inches away, hair splayed down, tickling Severus' visage. "Do you want me to stop? Tell me to stop, Severus! Because I won't! I can't!" I just wanted to fuck with you, but-," he was panting and squeezed his eyes shut, trying to calm himself. "I'm not fooling with you anymore. I just wanted to fuck the other night. But - today - "

"I don't believe you can change your mind that quickly, Black."

"Yeah? Yeah, maybe. Maybe. But you wanted it, didn't you?"

Sirius could feel himself flipping out. Severus was completely unemotional beneath him. And he was freezing. Severus - Severus was warm. At least externally. How did he ever let it come to this? Pleading with his best friend's worst enemy? He did just fuck with him. He never meant any of it, right? So how'd he let Severus get away and become scared of a girl who obviously read Sirius better than he knew himself? He was just playing. He did not intend for any of this -

"Yes."

Back to reality: "What?" Sirius muttered.

"I did."

Sirius let go of the ground and clasped Severus' cheeks, kissing him hard, subduing his mouth instantly, lapping at his lips, biting him... He let go only a few moments later and scooted up a leg between Severus'. Then he saw motion - looking towards the castle, a group of students who had finished eating late began outside.

"Shit," Sirius hissed. "Fight me."

"What?"

"Punch me!" Frantically, Sirius looked back at the castle, noticing some of the students looking at them, and immediately felt a punch to the jaw and rolled aside. "Not seriously!" He scrambled up, students watching the two of them. "I'm really sorry, mate. Gimmie your wand."

"What?"

He tackled Severus, kicking, flailing, stealing his wand, "Petrifi-"

"Mr. Black!" The Gryffindor head of House...

"Ah crap." He threw the wand atop Severus and bolted away towards Hogwarts.

Severus couldn't help but smirk at Sirius wildly being chased by the professors towards the other end of the castle...