A/N: Ok, here's my latest update. It's not exactly like I had hoped. It's definitely not one of my best. I know where I want to go, but I don't like how I'm getting them there. I'm not sure if that made any sense haha. Anyway, I hope despite my not liking this chapter, maybe you guys will. Thanks to those who reviewed:)

Chapter 4: We All Have Good and Bad Days

Jude POV Harrison House, Toronto

I do believe this is the best Monday of my life. Wanna know why? This is my last day without "Tommy Time" as I call it, and Tuesday comes after Monday, which means Tommy comes home tomorrow! I woke up with a smile on my face singing that song from that Folgers commercial, ya know what I'm talking about? "Each moment I wake up, I reach for my smiley face cup…" Ok, so I might've fudged the words but it's something like that, that happens to be happy and very catchy. Either way I'm happy and it's noticeable.

"Good morning Jude!" I was greeted by my father as I was bounding down the stairs.

"Hey dad!" I kissed him on the cheek.

"I don't think I've ever seen you so excited to go to school before. What's gotten into you?"

"Tommy." Oops. I'm now receiving the death stare. Then it clicks. Dad might not be Tommy's biggest fan as of now because of the whole Sadie thing. I think I'll take this time to clear the air so he'll let me take off school tomorrow to go to the airport and then dinner with you-know-who. Wait, it looks like I have to listen to him talk first. Ugh.

"I find it absolutely amazing that he cheated on your sister, and you don't seem to care." He said slightly smirking and shaking his head.

"Well, you cheated on my mom and I still talk to you." Ok, that might not have been the nicest thing to say, he looks sad. Damn. "I'm sorry, but it's true. Besides, Tommy never cheated on Sadie, and he's my produce/best friend type person."

"How do you know he never cheated on her?"

"Because dad, he's Tommy and he has no reason to like to me. He never has and never will. I believe in him."

"I guess I understand. Forgive me though; I'm not as overjoyed about the whole thing as you are about the whole ordeal." He said with sarcasm and a slight smile. I love my dad, he's so me sometimes. "Anyway, why doe he have you so happy?" Then a weird look came on his face. "Oh no, Jude! You and he…aren't…ugh!"

"OH MY G-D! DAD! NO!" I blushed a little at the thought. "He's been gone for a few days and he's coming back home tomorrow."

"Phew, you had me worried there for a second." We both laughed.

"Well dad, I was wondering…could I maybe not go to school tomorrow?"

"Why?" He probably knows why and is just torturing me.

"Tommy's coming home tomorrow, like I said earlier, and I wanted to surprise him at the airport tomorrow since he was there to see me when I got home from tour." It seemed logical enough for an "on the spot" answer. Besides, I didn't want to tell my dad about Tommy's sister and our potential date. It's his personal business and he may not want everyone to know, and as for the date…well, I just don't think my dad would be that accepting.

"I guess it's alright. I've been keeping contact with your teachers and they've said you've been doing better. Yeah…you can go."

I practically screeched with excitement as I leaped at my dad. "Thank you so much! It's getting late so I should get going to school then to the studio. I love you! Bye!"

And with that, I was off to school.

Tommy POV Montana

I didn't sleep at all last night. Maybe 2 hours tops. Part of my non-sleep was due to my great conversation with Jude. But the main source of my restlessness and tears last night were because of Leslie.

I had cried, but sometimes it just takes a while for thing to just click. I had moments but it just didn't really feel final until my mom came in to tell me what time I had to be ready for the funeral today. I wouldn't see her, or hear from her ever again.

It's still too early to start getting ready, and I have nothing to do. And as for right now, I think I'm all cried out. Maybe I could call Jude again! No, wait, it's like 5 here, so it's gotta be like 8 there. She's probably in her first period class :laughs: sleeping.

Jude. I'm so happy about our conversation last night. I thought there would be a lot of yelling and screaming and not so many smiles and laughs. She's goanna be the first person I see when I get off that plane tomorrow. And it's with those thoughts that I finally drifted off to sleep.

2 hours later…

I felt a gentle shaking and my name being called. I opened my eyes and saw my mom. She threw me a warm smile and gave me a tight hug.

"Morning sweetheart. We're leaving for the ceremony in another hour or so. Try to be downstairs by 8 so you can grab a quick breakfast." With a kiss on the cheek, she began heading towards my door.

"Hey mom?"

"Yes Thomas?"

"Can I talk to you about something?" She takes a deep sigh. She probably thinks I'm going to talk about Darren again. She would be right. Once I finally got back to sleep with sweet thoughts of Jude, Dane and what we had been talking about last night kept drifting in and out of my mind.

"Is it going to upset me?" I looked at her pale complexion that usually had a rosy tint and a beautiful glow, her frail looking limbs, and this shadow of exhaustion that seemed to overtake her other wise usually cheery exterior, and I just couldn't do it.

I smiled. "Is it raining outside, because I was wondering if I should where a jacket?"

"No, it's not raining." She got up to leave. "Thank you for not asking what you really wanted to. I'm not sure I can do that today. Remember, downstairs at 8 o'clock."

A few hours later….

I watched everyone proceed past me putting flowers on my sister's casket as they were leaving towards their cars. I had cried some more as I listened to people go up and talk about what a great person Leslie was. Funny thing is, well things more like it, was that hearing people talk about her actually made me feel better. I thought it wouldn't help at all, but it was nice to see that other people were touched by her life, and that made me smile.

The other thing you may ask just happened. I've been watching Darren. He didn't go up and say anything about Leslie, his wife. Not a word. Not a tear shed. He kept on looking towards the back of the church and checking his cell phone, and it wasn't for the time because he was wearing a wrist watch (yea I checked, sue me). He just went by with his flower and smiled into the grave. The smile sent a shiver down my spine.

I finally rose from my seat and placed the last rose on her casket and whispered to her.

"Good bye Leslie. I love you." I looked down. "Dane and me will figure out what really happened. Just watch out for us and we'll see you again some day singing with the angels. Bye." One more silent tear fell down my cheek as I felt a strong hand on my shoulder.

"Everything's goanna be alright Tom." I heard Dane say. "I'm going back to Toronto with you." My head snapped to look at him with a look of confusion. He must've sensed the question I was about to ask him.

"Listen Tom, I started looking at what I had gathered last night, and everything I have leads back to Toronto, back to all of ours hometown. Tonight we mourn, and tomorrow on our 5 hour flight, I'll fill you in."

Dane turned and walked away. I followed shortly there after, wondering what kind of ride I was in for this time.

A/N: Well, I hope it wasn't a disappointment. Please read and review, I always enjoy reading what you guys have to say because I read a lot of your guys fan fictions that you post and I enjoy them too. If anyone has any ideas, let me know, it might help me haha. Anyway r&r and I'll most likely have a chapter out tomorrow with Tommy's arrival back home with his brother and the date haha. Love to you all :)