A/N: Ok I know that Padme is probably out of character… But I think that if somebody hurt you so much, you wouldn't just live your life would you? You would probably blame yourself for not being good enough. If you were so in love with that person, you wouldn't just go on with your life wouldn't grieving from the pain. That's what I think, you might think differently, but this is what the story is based on.

Just trying to clear up things for people. Heads up, this chapter is short… Sorry! I had to cut it off because there's a cliffhanger… Sorry again! It makes it more interesting with the cliffhangers… Hehe… Ok well thanks for all the reviews they mean a lot to me! Give me some comments about this chapter ok? Hehe… Enjoy!

I DO OWN STAR WARS OR THE VERONICA'S!

If You Come Softly

Summary: AU, during ROTS. Padme is married to another man under Anakin's wishes. But will her love for Anakin get in the way? And what is Padme's deadly habit? Can Anakin save her?

Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired and low
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
'Cause I know I'm better
Off on my own, oh
Leave me alone
-The Veronica's 'Leave Me Alone'

Chapter 4

Padme leaned against the wall, her make-up running and her eyes lifeless. She sighed and wiped away the messy black lines. She looked around for Sabe who was getting a towel to wipe off the rest of her ruined make-up.

"Is this what you do all day?" Padme turned towards the voice; she was not expecting anybody but Sabe. She found herself starring into a pair of familiar blue eyes.

"What are you talking about?" Padme snapped and stood up, wanting to get away from him.

"I'm asking you a question."

"I do not want to answer. I am not required too." She fiddled with her wedding ring to make sure that he saw it. She could be open with her marriage. She wouldn't have been able to if she was with Anakin.

"I was just asking you a simple question."

"Why don't you shut up before I get security."

"I am security." Anakin answered and looked at her. She looked around helplessly, searching for somebody to talk to.

"Whatever." She simply said. "Leave me." She ordered and waited for him to leave. He didn't. "I told you to leave me."

"I want the answer to my question." He ordered firmly.

"You will never get one." Padme said and flipped her brown hair over her shoulder. "I would die before every listening to you."

"It was along time ago Padme. Why don't you let it go?" Padme felt her heart break at his words. She shook her head. She felt tears welling up her eyes.

"Let it go? Let it go? You want me to let go of everything you've done to me? Are you serious! I knew you were an idiot." She stopped for a moment. "Tell me you're not serious!" She looked at him. "You are serious aren't you?"

"Yes."

"You are exactly the same as the last time I saw you! You're such a jerk. I will never forget what you did to me. You have no idea how much you hurt me. I hate you. Get out of my life!" She yelled and walked away from him. She could not forgive him and she would never see him again. At least that's what she though…

Anakin stood there. He wasn't shocked by her reaction; he hadn't expected anything less of Padme. He shook his head and felt saddened by everything. If only he hadn't let her go. But it was the right thing to do; he didn't want to ruin her life. Her happiness meant so much more then anything else in the world. He would not let her give up everything for him. He just could not allow it.

That day he broke her heart, he hadn't meant too. But it had to be done. He had gotten a call from Obi-Wan who told him that he knew something was going on with him and Padme. Obi-Wan said that he didn't break things off, the council would find out and then he would be expelled. Also Padme would be kicked out of office and they would be separated for life. He couldn't bear to be away for her longer then a couple of hours. How could he spend his whole life without her? At least this way, he could see her whenever he wanted… Except she didn't want to talk to him. At all…

"Anakin?" Sabe questioned as she rounded the corner. "Do you know where Padme is?"

"She went that way." Anakin said as he pointed to the direction that Padme had run off in.

"I told her to stay here… Did something happen?"

"I got her upset. I'm sorry if you can't find her." Anakin confessed and Sabe smiled slightly.

"Do you think she is alright?"

"I think she will be fine… She just needs sometime."

"Anakin?" Sabe hesitated.

"What is it?"

"Can you not talk to her for awhile? She will come to you when she is ready."

"If that is what's best for her." Anakin said and looked away. Sabe nodded.

"It's what best for her." Anakin nodded and stared out at the flowers. He would leave her alone… But he knew that Padme was hiding something. Something that probably nobody knew. He shook his head; he would figure it out sooner or later.

"Again, I'm sorry if you can't find her."

"It is nothing, I will find her. Thanks." Sabe walked off. Anakin turned around and went back into the meeting room. Was this pain worth all that he had sacrificed? He wasn't so sure anymore.

NABOO – LAKE RETREAT – LATE AFTERNOON

"Stupid… Worthless… That's what you are! You are a worthless scum, you never deserved Anakin anyways." Padme said to herself as she walked around her room. She didn't deserve Anakin and he didn't deserve her.

"I should have just left when I had the chance. I shouldn't have said those things… Now he hates me. He was the only one that loved me. I mean Bail loves me… But I don't love him! OH YOU STUPID GIRL! YOU NEVER DESERVED ANYBODY! YOU DESERVED TO BE LOCKED AWAY!" Padme yelled at herself as she looked at the mirror. She threw her fists into the mirror.

She looked at her fists as tears formed in her eyes. No… She thought to herself as she looked at the bloody mess. "You did this to yourself Padme!" She was bleeding everywhere.

She had come home from yelling at Anakin and cut herself. This time it was deeper then before. She cried out as she noticed the glass was stuck in her hands. She sobbed and fell to the ground. She tried to pick out the glass, but it wasn't working. She felt the pain and knew that she had did this to herself. She shook her head and tried not to think about it. This was her fault, she did it. It was nobody else's fault.. It was always her fault.

That's why Anakin left her. He didn't love her, she wasn't good enough… She was never good enough for a Jedi like him. He went on with his life while she could not. She couldn't let anything go. Was that her fault? Of course it was, everything was her fault. Padme didn't dare to think anymore about it. She didn't raise her hands up and wipe away her tears; she would scar her face with all the glass in her hands. She cried out again and this time, the door flew open.

"PADME!"

End of Chapter 4