Chapter Nineteen – Epilogue
I spent another day without you…
It's been a long time since you've been here. The trees are the same and the sky is still blue, but the world just isn't the same without you. I keep waking up each day, going to school and laughing with my friends, but still I can't stop thinking about you. This isn't like the other times. You didn't come back with the rest of us. I don't know if it's because you can't or won't or…
I know it's selfish of me to cry every night but I can't seem to sleep when the pillow feels so dry – so lonely. The others are just as lonely. Nobody came back. None of them. I didn't see Mina-chan for a whole week after we came back from that place and even when she did finally come back to school, her eyes were red and the beauty had been washed from her cheeks. I can understand though. I miss him too.
Ami-chan has been quiet too – even more than usual. She spends all day at school making sure her schoolwork is done but it seems different somehow. If I ask about it, she just laughs and denies everything. I can really tell though. She'd trade anything to be with Kurai-kun again.
Mako-chan might be the worst off. Nothing about her has changed. In fact, she's been trying twice as hard to cheer everyone up by cooking lunch everyday. She never got to know Kage, but I still think she cared for him more than she lets on. When she thinks no one's looking, I see her looking into the sky and thinking about him – thinking about what could have been. But Haruka and Michiru have been with her more often than usual and I think that's really helping her.
What can I tell you about Rei-chan? She seems to be above all of it. She seems distant. I went to see her at the shrine the other day and found her sitting with those two birds. She was smiling with her hands held over her stomach. I still don't understand how Yamito came back and helped us against Anubis, but I feel that something inside Rei-chan changed when he did. I felt jealous. I know I never told you about what happened between me and Yamito but seeing that part of him with her made me feel…alone. But I guess I'm being a little selfish. You stayed with me until the end too. You were stronger than Anubis and helped me. I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't been there. I couldn't have survived without you.
I miss you so much, Mamo-chan. I want you to come back. I somehow feel that you're out there…looking for me just like I'm looking for you. I know I'll be able to find you. I know somehow that this isn't all over. Setsuna has disappeared and Hotaru hasn't returned. Things feel wrong – unanswered.
Plus…we promised to be with each other for eternity. We've fought and suffered and lost too much for this to be it. I can feel you…somewhere. I know you can feel me too. I'll use all of my power to bring you back. I promise not to be selfish anymore. I won't be a burden for you. I just want you back. With the help of my friends, I know I can do it too.
Please wait for me. I'll come soon.
This isn't the end.