AN: Sorry, that I did'nt update for soooooo long. I was on a little vacation with no internet within miles. Well, I have some news...

I finally got a beta reader who already took a very helpful look at this chap and turned it to the better! Okay, I admit, he didn't only look at it but edited it also more than a little bit ;-) Way to go and thank you very much Danielc ! Now, have fun with reading and forgive me, if this chap is a little bit fluffy ;-)

Chapter 5 – What do we do now?

She hugged him gently from behind and leaned her head on his shoulder.

"I didn't want to hurt you, Harry. I really enjoyed this kiss. I understand what you are trying to say. Do… do you like me? Please, be honest!"

He only nodded.

"In that way?" she had to be sure.

"Yes" came the whispered reply.

"Why? What do you see in me, Harry? I am nothing but a cruel Death eater! You know very well that I only got luck today because they only questioned me about what I did while being controlled. You know that I, in fact, did some of these crimes intentionally. Why me?"

"I don't know. I only know what I feel. I only truly discovered it just as you kissed me. It was as if you ignited some dynamite that destroyed the wall of pure stone surrounding my heart" he said quietly.

She sighed and hugged him more firmly.

He sighed as well and turned around. She raised her head and looked into his moist green eyes.

"I don't know where we will go from here, Harry. I don't know what I feel about you. I never learnt to love or even to like someone. I can only assure you, that this kiss was not without emotion. I do feel something for you, something nice, that I never felt before. I… I don't want to be without you anymore. I … I want to kiss you again, and I like it, when you hug me or even brush my hair. But is this love?"

He smiled, one of his rare, honest, and moving smiles, "I don't know either, Bella. But it sounds very similar to what I feel about you."

She sighed and leaned her head now on his shoulder. She was nearly as tall as him.

"I am also afraid about my age. What, if I find out that I do in fact love you? Aren't you worried that I am old enough to be your mother? Harry, you may not realise it but you can get nearly any witch on this planet if you wanted to. You are a nice young man and beyond that you are rich and powerful, but you are also caring and loving. You're what every witch wants in a wizard. What if someday you see some young chick and decide that I am too old for you?"

He hugged her, "I am not that type of man, Bella. I said it before and I will say it again, you are a very beautiful witch and as sexy as a witch can be. I don't care about immature giggling teenagers. They would never be able to truly be with me. They are kids with no concerns.

"I may be young in age but I have a great burden on me. I have suffered and will continue to suffer even more. I have been hurt and I will be hurt again. I have already killed, even tortured, and I will do it again. I need a strong woman at my side, a woman who can bear what it means to be with me, not a girly teenager who only cares about make-up or spending my money.

"I also need some one who can take care of herself in case somebody attacks us. … I need you as a friend, possibly more. Now I have poured my heart out to you. Now it only depends on you" He said seriously as he hugged her again and held her safely in his strong arms.

She sighed, "You know, you are a bad influence on me, Harry! I was never afraid of something and never insecure before, but now I am both.

"I like you but I am afraid to admit it. I am afraid to take this into a serious relationship because you are the first person who truly has the power to hurt me.

"I'm insecure, and I'm also unsure how I should decide. Normally all of my decisions are made thinking with my head, which says that I should stay away from you. It says that you are too young for me. But my heart says otherwise. My heart truly agrees with you, that you need a woman and not a girl. My heart…"

She looked up, searching his eyes, and found her own feelings, insecurity, hope, despair, love, and attraction, reflected back. Then she found one more thing in his eyes that wasn't there before … determination. The determination to do the right thing, not the easy thing but the right one.

Her eyes widened, as he was leaning forward and his lips touched hers. It was like a spark that flew between them.

From her point of view, the first kiss was mostly to tease him, but also to thank him and show a little bit affection mixed with a curiosity as to what kind of a kisser he was.

But now they both were fully aware of their feelings, however unclear they were before. Now this soft and gentle kiss was simply breathtaking. For her it was like a little spark that exploded into a huge bonfire. Now she was the one who was, for a second, afraid that the kiss was nothing but a tease. But this second was quickly over. She knew that he would never do such a thing, not to anyone and especially not to her.

She didn't know how she knew that, but nonetheless she was sure of it. She gathered all her courage to give in to him and she did it.

She finally opened her heart to him. She kissed him back and opened her lips slightly. He was inexperienced but he was passionate. He licked her lips gently with his tongue before he slipped it slightly into her mouth where her tongue was waiting for his. She touched his tongue gently with her own and the gentle kiss turned into one full of passion and emotion.

As they separated both had a new fire in their eyes. Harry led her to the bed and sat down. She stood in front of him uncertainly but she relaxed as he pulled her down in his lap and she leaned into his hug.

"I think I like this new development a lot, Harry" she said, now more certain.

"I think I do too. We have to find out for ourselves if this is true love but I am fairly optimistic about it."

She grinned, "You could be right for once."

Then she became serious, "Thank you for everything that you have done for me today, Harry. I don't think you will ever understand how much this has meant to me."

"I believe I can, Bella. Don't forget, that I was a prisoner as well until this summer."

She nodded; it was easy to overlook his true life if all you saw was such a gentle and caring person in front of you. But she would never make the mistake of overlooking it again. And above that, she was one of the few witnesses to his dark side that had come out this summer. She was willing to bet that not even his friends had known about this and she was also sure that the incident in the park had only been the beginning.

Her eyes widened, "Harry! What will your friends say about us?" she asked full of concern.

He shook his head disbelievingly, "Bella! Please think about it and ask me that again!" he laughed, "You, one of the most powerful witches on this planet, not to mention a very dark one as well as a former Death eater, are worried about the reaction of some students when they find out about us?"

She laughed as well, "If you put it that way… no. Honestly, it only matters to me what you think about it."

"I know and I don't care what they think. Frankly, I don't believe they can hurt me much more than they already have. I mean, I only got one letter from them! They had the guts to tell me they could not write me for security reasons! Nonsense! If that was the case, there are still telephones and Hermione is a muggleborn witch."

"I remember! The little mudblood!"

"Bella! While it may not matter to them how I feel, it does matter to me if someone insults them. At least as long as they are still officially my friends. So far they haven't done anything to me. Please do not sink to that level! You are too intelligent to truly believe in purebloods. If you think about it, wizards need muggles, be it for food or fresh blood. How many pure blooded families are there? How many will be still there after the war? How long does it take for inbreeding to cause effects?"

Her eyes widened, "Shit! You are right! That is the second time in one day!"

He tickled her, "You're mean!" he said while she laughed and twisted on his lap.

"Stop that!" she said and slapped him slightly.

Both yelped, stared at each other, and then laughed again.

"Yeah! I have to… otherwise you will get your proof that you are indeed as sexy as I claim you are," he said, only slightly blushing.

Without hesitation she started to grind herself against him and put her hand down on his lap perfectly between his legs. He froze as she began to grope him gently. He became as red as a tomato but couldn't do anything to stop her. He also couldn't evade her hand since she still sat on his lap, effectively holding him in place.

It wasn't long before he became hard and started to groan. "Bella!" he said sternly.

She snickered, "Your voice says you don't like it but you body disagrees. Which should I believe?"

"You! Are! Evil!"

She shrugged, "And you like me."

He rolled his eyes and pulled her into another hug. He tried to kiss her but she pushed against his chest so that he fell flat on his back. She was on him a second later and kissed him again, this time full of lust.

While she was kissing him, she rubbed her pelvis against his.

He began to groan again, this time not because of her teasing, but because of his own lust.

"Bella! What are you doing?" he asked with a shaking voice.

"Why, I'm seducing you, of course" she replied amusedly and kissed him again.

He pushed her gently away and looked deeply into her blue eyes, "Are you sure about that?"

She smiled one of her own rare but true smiles, "As sure as I am about this relationship. We don't know if it is going to last but we agreed to try. Sex is a part of a relationship and I for one am looking forward to doing it for the first time of my own free will.

"I want to be honest with you Harry. I already thought about giving myself to you as kind of a birthday present but, at the same time, I was afraid you would reject me… and I was right about that by the way you rejected my kiss."

He nodded.

"But it doesn't matter anymore. You nullified it as a present, but you made it mean so much more. I only want to do it now, because I want to do it! Wow, that sounded silly! Okay, in other words. I want you now, because I like you. What about you?"

"Did I tell you, that you are crazy?" he asked grinning.

"No, but I knew it anyway." she said and smirked.

"Well, that's a start at least." He joked, but then he became serious.

"Bella, I do like you, and I do find you attractive. If you want to do this, I want it too. But…"

She smiled as she saw how uncertain he suddenly was, "The great Harry Potter is afraid because it's his first time?" she teased him but then became a little bit more serious, "Don't be, Harry!

"We will learn more about each other and our bodies together, ok? All you need to know is that I am safe for at least for the next eight months because of a contraceptive potion. Now… where were we?"

She kissed him again and then started removing her clothes.

He stared again at her as he saw her completely naked for the first time.

Gently he stroked her breast for the first time and whistled, "You are truly beautiful, Bella, even more so than I had imagined."

"Thank you… but now it is time to show me how well built you are! What I just felt between your legs was promising." she teased him further.

She pulled his shirt over his head and stroked over his lean and defined upper body.

"Nice." she said and licked her lips. Then she leaned down and began to kiss his nipples while her hand travelled further down and opened his pants.

She removed it seconds later and began to stroke his manhood.

It didn't take long until they became united for their first time and, certainly not the last time, on the night of his birthday.

It was early in the morning that they finally snuggled up against each other to sleep.

It didn't matter to Harry because he was up with the sun despite the long night. He was only glad, that he didn't have any nightmares anymore.

As he thought about it, he hadn't had any visions or nightmares since the ministry incident. Maybe the moment he pushed Voldemort out of his head, he finally severed the connection?

It wouldn't hurt to learn Occlumency anyway. He would have to ask the black haired angel, or more the devil, next to him when she was awake.

He decided to skip the training for the day and enjoyed watching Bella sleep instead.

As he moved an inch to get into a more comfortable position, she snuggled further against him and a faint smile graced her lips in her sleep.

Nothing could have made him happier than that.

She opened her eyes slowly half an hour later.

"Hey! What are you doing in my bed?" she asked in a dangerous voice.

His eyes widened in fear but she grinned, "Relax! I'm only teasing you!"

He let his breath out loudly.

"That was really mean, Bella." he scolded her.

"Relax! You hooked me and you won't get rid of me that fast. Did you enjoy the last night?"

"Of course! It was the best night ever…. And… and you?" he asked hesitantly.

"For me too. I mean I had sex before but that was different, truly different. You were right; to have something like that powered by emotions is much more enjoyable. And you were great!" she said sincerely.

"Thank you." he said with a light blush. He looked a little bit uncertain in her eyes, "Uhm... do you… uhm… want to…"

She grinned, grabbed him and pulled him over to her. As she had hoped he lost his balance and came to lie on top of her.

"Yes!" she nearly yelled and kissed him passionately.

Some minutes later they continued what they began the night before.

They didn't get down in time to eat breakfast so they started with lunch.

Just as they began to eat, two owls and a black eagle swooped down to Harry and dropped of some letters before they left again.

"Wow, letters!" he said sarcastically.

He performed some analysis charms on them but they were clean.

"My OWL's." he said and noticed her concerned look.

"What is it, Bella?"

"I… I… it was so nice to be with you that I didn't realise that you have to go back to Hogwarts."

"Hmm, I didn't either." He mused, while he looked over his scores.

"How did you do?" she asked.

"O+ in DADA, O's in Transfiguration, CoMC, wow, and Charms. E in potions, I bet that caused Snape some nightmares even if I didn't meet his O-level. A's in Herbology and Astronomy and a D in divination and history. 12 OWL's."

"Congratulations! That's not bad, not bad at all." She added more quietly, "I bet Sirius would have been proud and your parents as well."

Harry smiled and shook his head, "Sirius would have had a field day with my E in potions and he would went on how much like my father and mother I was with my O's in Charms and Transfiguration. But he would also tease me about not having more fun and causing pranks."

"That sounds like something he would do." She sighed.

"I bet he is looking down on us and is proud of us both, now that he knows the real you. I bet he would even approve of me learning dark magic, from you, to kick Voldy's ass."

She nodded, "He knew quite a bit of the Black magic himself."

"That reminds me of something." Harry grinned and picked the next letter up.

As he had guessed it was from his most 'favourite' headmaster.

"He wants me to come over tomorrow evening. Of course I will be 'escorted'."

Her eyes widened now in terror.

He laid his hand reassuringly on hers, "Don't be afraid, Bella! I don't intend to leave you. But somehow I have to at least go for a visit because of the books. We will find a way. Now let's take a look at the last letter."

There were two signet rings in there and a thick letter.

One showed a dragon and a sword, that was the Black seal.

The other showed a striking griffin with unfurled wings, the seal of the Potters.

He grinned and put them on. He received a tingle with both rings, showing that they were magical.

He read the deeds over and grinned even more.

"Guess we should move out of here."

"What? Where?"

"How about Gryffindor Manor?" Harry asked.

Her eyes widened for the third time that morning but this time it was in shock and not in fear.

"Any other options?" she asked stunned.

"Yeah, a small ranch in Texas, a small cottage on Majorca or a flat in New York."

"Ok, Gryffindor Manor. You do know that the home is legendary? You must be the heir of Gryffindor!"

"Who cares? I am Harry, just Harry, and hopefully your boyfriend."

She hugged him, "Yes, you are my Harry. What about your invitation?"

Harry grinned, took the letter of the headmaster and turned it around. Of the empty backside he wrote two words: "No, thanks!"

"We give it Hedwig before we move out."

She nodded happily.

"What about Hogwarts?"

"How long do you estimate I need to become proficient enough with the Black Magic?"

"At least a year."

"Well, how about an apprenticeship for a year and then we can think about me going back for my seventh year? I mean that is where the action will be. Maybe we can work something out until then so that we can still be together, but I won't even think about leaving you now."

"I would be happy with that but only if you truly want that. I assure you, I am still a demanding teacher."

"I hope so."

"Well then, I would be happy to stay together with you."

"So it is decided then. Is there an official way to do this?"

"There would be but I am not sure that it would be in your interest to let the old coot know that you are my apprentice."

"That's true. Can I take my NEWT's independently at the ministry in the worst case?"

"Yeah, that is possible."

"Well, we could do that so Dumbledore doesn't get his weapon back. Care for some DADA training, Charms and Transfiguration as well?"

"Of course. You know by now that I was and still am a really studious type."

He shuddered.

"What? Don't like that?" she asked with an accusing glare.

"Sure I like you. I only thought about Hermione. You know, she is also very studious. Who knows what would happen if she, someday on her own, delves into the dark arts, just because she wants to learn. I don't know if her mind is strong enough to resist the temptation that comes with the dark arts. She could maybe become nearly as powerful as you are."

"Really?" Bella asked astounded, "Seems that the dark lord and a few other purebloods underestimated her."

"They do. Now enough of that. We have to organize a moving and I want to get some kisses in before that. Besides as funny as it would be to see you torturing my relatives, it would be better if we were out of here before they come back."

"Why would I torture them?" she asked.

"Trust me you would the moment they say their first words to me, or you. People like them are the reason why Riddle became Lord Voldemort. His father was like them. His hate made Riddle hate muggles."

"The dark lord has a muggle father?"

"Don't say you didn't know you kissed the robe of a half-blood!" Harry said and as he saw the terror in her eyes, he began to laugh hard.

She groaned, "Stop that already!"

"Or what?"

"Or there will be no more kissing and definitely no more sex!"

"Oh, okay." He stopped his laughter and kissed her. She kissed him back but also groped his ass, which made him groan.

"If you don't stop that we aren't going to get anywhere!"

"You're no fun!" she pouted.

"And you have mood swings!" he accused her and ran up to his room.

She yelled "I will show you mood swings, Potter!" and ran after him.

She reached him in his room and tackled him onto his bed.

Bellatrix contemplated for a moment, how to achieve her vengeance on him, and then smirked for a second. Then she kissed him and began again to rub her pelvis against his groin. As he started to groan she got up and said coldly, "Get up! We have work to do!"

"You… you… argh!"

"Vengeance is sweet, little Harry." She said teasingly and formed a kiss with her lips.

"I second that." He said smiling.

She watched him with wide eyes, as he flicked his wand some times and only minutes later all their things were neatly packed, shrunken and placed in his trunk. He closed it, took it and her hand and asked "Well, shall we?"

"And you call me insane!"

"No, I called you crazy, and I am not insane, that is reserved for Voldy."

"Harry! Don't make fun of him! He is dangerous." She reminded him sternly.

"I know that, Bella." he reassured her.

"Don't you want to leave them a note or something?" she asked.

"Why? They won't even realise that I am not here. Or maybe they will since they would miss their slave. I don't really care. Come over here! The Goblins said in the letter that my ring is also a portkey to the manor."

She obeyed and took his hand.

"You know, it is nice to simply hold your hand." She said sincerely, "I think, trying to find out if this relationship is going to work was one of your better ideas."

"Thank you, but to be honest, you were the one who started it. You kissed me before I found the courage to admit my feelings even to myself. The rest was the easy part."

"It doesn't matter."

"No." he answered, smiled and they were whirled away as he activated the portkey.

Musashi47: Well, as came out during his first meeting with Bella, he is allowed to use magic now... and even if they registered THAT he used magic, there is nowwhere in JKR's books written, that they can detect what kind of magic he used. So... they do NOT know, that he used a little crucio on his lovely aunt -grinning evilly-

Roter Draconis: Oh Mann, immer die selben gemeinen Fragen. Ich habe gesagt, ich werde KdM beenden... allerdings wird das nicht so bald. Ich hänge da wirklich fest obwohl ich inzwischen ein paar nette Ideen habe, wie es weiter geht. Sorry, aber das wird ne ganze Weile dauern und ich weiß nicht, wann das nächste Kap kommt. Ich habe momentan einige andere Projekte am Laufen und werde bald weitere neue Stories hochladen, so vergib mir meine Langsamkeit was Kristall der Macht angeht!

Just me: Concerning Dumbledore... just you wait! As you know by now, if you read Warlock, I don't like the old coot. He will get his in this story too ;-)

Patwas-Potter: Just to humour you and bring you up again ;-)... Of course not only that, but to answer your question too.. I didn't write a reaction of the Slytherins per se only a meeting with Malfoy. And he won't go to the roof but he is going DOWN. Hope, I didn't reveal too much now.

athenakitty: Hi Kitty! Nice to hear/read from you again. Well, everyone can do magic in the household of the Dursleys, well at least if they CAN do magic ;-) It isn't monitored about magic anymore, because Harry is officially allowed to use magic. Harry doesn't own the house at GP, so he can't toss the order out, but he will have his fun there anyway. And yes, Dumbledore will take a while to find out who is the head of the Blacks. To be realistic, he should be able to guess it, but in my story he won't. Hope, that isn't too ooc.

ShadowRains: As you know by now, I don't care too much about spelling or grammar errors, even if I do try to avoid them if somebody points them out to me. Now, with my beta, they should decrease anyway. But what do you mean with inconsistencies? That would really interest me, because that is something I do NOT like. Of course, please take in account, that Harry is a little bit ooc in this story. I see no way, that he becomes this evil in such a short time, at least not from JKR, but heprobably could , if his live continues the way it went up to now... with more time I think.

To all others... thank you for your reviews. I appreciate it.