I'VE CHANGED THE CHAPTER A BIT, BECAUSE I HAVE MADE SOME NOTES SOMEWHERE ELSE AND I DIDN'T WRITE THEM IN THERE!

Hello my wonderful liking-teen-titans friends! How are you? We here are having 15 or so days for holidays, for Christmas. We don't have Thanksgiving, or Halloween, but our festivals here in Greece are…Oh, silly me, why am I doing so? What do you care about the festivals, you want me to go on with the story, right? Here it is! Chapter three up! Enjoy!)

Raven closed her eyes and lied back on her bed. She hugged one of her pillows and started looking out of her window. The rainy clouded sky outside was a gorgeous view for her eyes. Raven stood up; the pillow still in her arms. She went close to the window and looked outside. Raindrops fell hardly on the glass. The rain outside seemed like a shelter from her sadness to Raven. She let the pillow drop and went outside. She flew through the walls of the Titans' Tower, levitated for a while and then went on the top of the Tower. She stayed positioned in the middle of nowhere, levitating, thinking of him and letting the raindrops take her over. From somewhere in the city, she could hear on of Evanescence's new songs

"….And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall

Pour real life down on me… "

Once she heard these words (she knew the lyrics), she started crying again. Everything around her reminded her of Beastboy. The volley web, the ball, the abandoned ball for stinkball, one abandoned shock of his, still smelling….Everything. She didn't want to go in the Tower again, because the others would tell her again to go join them. No. She wanted to stay up here, alone, in the rain. The rain helped her think. And even maybe relax, and feel a little bit more…happy. 'Oh, silly you…' Raven thought "How can you be happy after…" she said to herself

"Um…Raven? What are you doing alone up here?" Robin suddenly appeared.

"Robin, I…" Raven turned to face him "Nothing"

"What nothing? You're standing alone under the heavy rain and this is nothing? You're solemn and sad, from the moment we came back here you haven't talked to anyone, you were locked in your room and now you're standing alone in the rain; crying. What's wrong Rae?" Robin asked her.

"It's nothing Robin…Really!"

"Come on Raven…"

"Please Robin…It's personal." Raven responded as she sobbed

"No matter how personal it is, you've always been telling me everything! You know you can trust me Raven…Tell me, what's torturing you?"

"I just can't bear the loss" Raven whispered

"What loss?"

"Uh…" Raven lowered her head and closed her eyes. "I miss him so much Robin…"

"Who? You didn't make clear what loss you can't bear"

"Beastboy's loss…I can't take it. I…" Raven turned her back to him.

"Why? You and Beastboy were always fighting…How's that possible?" Robin asked surprised

"I love him Robin…You and Star were way too busy with your own little romance to notice that, but we were together…For just the past two days." Raven said and she lowered her head

"Then that's why you…"

"I feel weak without him…I can't see happy faces around me…I miss him very much…"

"You know you can tell me anything you wish…"

"I do"

"…No matter what time, no matter what place…I'll always be by your side"

"Thank you"

"No need"

"It's just that I…"

"You can't take the loss"

"I guess…"

"Or…You mean that…When did you start dating?"

"You can't really say it was a date…He took me to the park with the cedars….Remember that day when he asked you what was my favorite flower?"

"You mean Thursday?"

"Yes…That was our first……'Date' if you like."

"Uh, Raven, I'm so sorry…I didn't know…"

"It's ok Robin…The only problem around here is that he can't be with me anymore…"

"You'll get used to it. I'm sure. And don't forget that, as you said, he wished you to live a happy life! Not a miserable one!"

"Yes, but without him…"

"Um…But…look, now I know what your problem is, but you will not overcome it if you stand here in the rain and just…You know. Furthermore, the only thing rain will help you to get is a cold!"

"Without him…Life has no meaning. Last night I was thinking that if something ever happened to him, if I lose him, I would commit suicide because I don't want my life without him!"

"You really don't mean it, do you?"

"…"

"YOU DO?"

"I'd rather die from catarrhal pneumonia but staying alive and be without him. Oh, how I wish I would have showed him my love earlier…." Raven fell to her knees and started crying. She shivered and her shoulders trembled.

"You must be joking! Look at me Raven…Do you really want to DIE because some psychotic villain killed Beastboy? This doesn't make sense! Are you sure that THIS is what you really want? To commit suicide?"

"But at least I will be with him…"

"Never be sure. You never know"

"But…"

"Listen to me Raven. Beastboy died. He was your boyfriend, ok, this is a real loss, but life goes on! No matter how hard we try, and whatever we do, we can't bring him to life or turn back time. You need to move on. You really shouldn't stop feeling now!"

"Only Beastboy made me have happy feelings…Now that he's gone…"

"This doesn't mean that you should dive again! Raven, you're the most touchy-feely person I know! Truly, I don't believe that you can't feel!"

"I'm not saying that I can't feel, I'm saying that I can't have happy feelings! Neither happy emotions, nor happy thoughts. He showed me the greatest love I've ever felt, he was everything I could ask for…But…What I can feel now is….Sadness. Misery. Despair. Sorrow. And…pain. Nothing else. He made realize how great life can be, but I guess I'm not worthy enough and they took him away from me…He's dead and I'm still alive; that's the most clear proof of how cruel life can be"

"Raven…"

"Forget it Robin….I will never learn my lesson. I just can't take it. And the rain…"

"What's with this damn rain?"

"The rain…Don't blame anything on the rain…It helps me…."

"With what?" Robin asked "Raven come on! The rain will help you with nothing but gaining this damn pneumonia you want so much! But when you'll lie down sore and sick, you'll blame me for letting you up here! C'mon!" He wrapped her wrist and pulled her to his side.

"NO! Let me go! LEAVE ME ALONE ROBIN! Raven cried out loud and her voice were colored from her pain .She freed her hand. She turned her back, put on her hood and cried out loudly. Her tears fell one next to another, she couldn't stop anything. She turned to face Robin once again and sobbed.

"Raven think of what I've told you…You're not alone, you still have us!"

"Yeah, but Cyborg has Jinx…"

"Bumblebee"

"Whatever. Cyborg has Bumblebee, you have Star…Even Red X and Slade have girlfriends…And what do I have?"

"Wow, wow, wow, take it easy…Red X and Slade have what?"

"You didn't know?"

"I had no idea!"

"Anyway. Red X picked a relationship with Jinx and Slade found a common –God knows how- with Blackfire and now they are together…."

"You've got to be kidding right?"

"Do I look like I'm in the mood for jokes?"

"No…"

"Then just think of what I've said. Cyborg and Bumblebee. Red X and Jinx. You and Starfire. Slade and Blackfire. You all have your ideal match. I…Even before his death, he had a girlfriend who was WAY too good for him, he had Terra. It's obvious; I don't deserve such a special gift…."

"But Raven…"

"Good night Robin. And please go"

Robin let her go and looked at her. Her eyes where shining out a dark sorrowful light. Her look reflected pain, sorrow, self-disgust, grief, affliction and despair. She looked even more paler, and if that was possible, she was livid. Raven lingered and she noticed that his masked eyes were staring at her. She turned her back to her –for now- best friend

"Fine then. If you want it so much, you can stay up here. Tomorrow morning…it's his…his funeral. 9:00 a.m. . . . Be there Rae. You really need to say goodbye." Robin said and went down.

Raven stood alone in the rain. The raindrops were mixing up with her tear and you couldn't tell if she was crying anymore or not. In her mind everything was a mess. Thoughts, words left unspoken, memories, moments she shared with him…All these times she have punched him, kicked him shouted and yelled to him so he would leave her alone…The memory of his green skin and black-pink uniform hugging when she have beaten Trigon…His hand helping her up everytime she fell…His warm embrace when Malchior tricked her…And their soft first kiss just a day ago…She couldn't take anything anymore. Raven looked down at the city lights. Blinding lights that allowed her to see all parts of the city clearly.

She scanned every little corner of the city with her eyes and reached the place where Slade had done what he could to destroy her life. Killing one of the Titans meant that he was weakening the others. And most of all Raven, who seemed to be the second most powerful in the team.

Raven shook her head. No, she wasn't going to sit still and let everything run through her hand. She wiped away her tears and stood. She flied back to her room, picked the pillow from where she had dropped it and lied on her bed. She was going to go to Beastboy's funeral, yes, but she was going to make Slade pay for everything he'd done to her. She was going to make him beg her for mercy.

Ah, man, I like it, I like it, and I like it when Rae gets angry….YEAH! I wrote this chapter on the space between paragraphs on my chemistry book…Can you believe it? And I got a "get out of the class, Miss Polatidou" from my teacher when he read it…He thought that because I was out of the class and I didn't attend the lesson, I would not understand anything. Fuck him. I wrote a test and I got 19/20….Who cares about stupid chemistry when you have to deal with TT? She kicked butts now, didn't she? REVIEW!

P.S.: The lyrics are from Evanescence's new song, "Good enough", from their new cd.