What the Lord puts together, none shall tear apart.

Yesterday showed the hope that I so desperately needed to go on, I WILL NOT give up on my princess. I have fought long and hard to keep her and I'm not stopping now.

We didn't get home last night or I should say this morning till 3 and as soon as it gets light we will all be out searching again.

It's crazy but I'm going insane
Feeling lost, confused and ashamed
It's crazy hope you're feeling my pain
You stole my heart
Stolen

Deep in thought I realise not only has my baby been stolen, my baby stole my heart long ago, from that second I saw her at the bottom of the Cohens' driveway my heart was stolen and only she can make me feel whole again.

It's just passed 5 and the sun is just rising. I drive along listening to the CD Marissa gave me when I was hiding in the Model Home. Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah plays as I remember her telling me that this song reminds her of me and I smile.

I have been searching all day and everyone is getting tired. Everyone is heading back to Mom and Dad's but I think I'll pass; I have a lot I need to think over. Slowly pulling in the driveway the clouds break and it begins to pour.

I pull into the driveway and somehow between the garage and the front door I manage to get completely soaked.

Walking slowly up the stairs to our room I see all the pictures of us together and I try to be strong. I reach our room and just make it to the bed before I break down completely. Grabbing Marissa pillow once again I burry my head into it and sob. I cry out "Lord, please help me find my baby. I need her, we are suppose to grow old together it's not suppose to end like this. Please Lord I need her more than air, I can't do it without her here with me." I push my head into the pillow as far as it will go taking in her scent, all I want to do is hold her. I can't even remember my life before I met Marissa; it's all black before I met her she brought sunshine.

As my sobs soften I here something on the other side of the room. I look up seeing Marissa sitting in the corner just like my nightmare; I slowly stand hoping that she doesn't disappear, as I get closer she looks up and just like my dream I see the bruises, the blood and her eyes. Her eyes pierce me, I feel like someone has just stabbed me in the chest. She's rocking back and forth, begging for me. I rush to her side and in one swift move I pick her up cradling her gently.

Carrying her to our bed I carefully sit placing her on my lap. She whispers burying her head into my shoulder, "I . . .I . . . was pregnant" she sobs and I gently pull her close to me, I would do anything to take away her pain but I know nothing will be able to erase what has happened to her in the passed few months. "It's ok baby, I know," she sobs body-wracking sobs and no matter how close I hold her she doesn't stop. I carry her into the bathroom, as I slowly undress her I see all the bruises that cover every inch of her precious body. I begin kissing every one of them better. I undress myself also and run the shower.

I dress her in her Pj's's and lay her on the bed placing the covers over her as she shakes.

I dress myself also and check her once more before I pick up my cell and dial Mom and Dad's number. "Hello?" "Hey Mom its Ryan" "Hi honey, I'm... I'm so sorry we didn't find her" "Actually that's what I rang to talk about. Who's there with you" "Julie, Seth, Summer, Sandy and Jimmy has just arrived. Why?" "Ok, good can you put me on speaker please?" there's silence followed by a beep "Ok honey you're on speaker" I can hear the silence as I begin I can't even hear anyone even daring to breath "um, when I got home this evening Marissa was there" it's silent and then I hear Julie wail "my baby is safe she, you, you found her" "yes, she's sleeping at the moment but she's hurt pretty bad, I'm going to take her to the doctor tomorrow" as I listen I can hear everyone crying and then I hear Dad, "that's wonderful that she's safe we'll call in the morning again cause everybody needs some serious beauty sleep" "Goodnight everybody" I pause to hear sniffles "I Love you I could never have dreamt of a better family".

Hey guys, Marissa is safe now but there's still a lot more that Ryan and Marissa need to deal with together. R&R please) a few twists coming so keep watching out for new posts. xxx Shar-Lyn