Love Isn't Luxury Chapter 32: Can't Let Go, an inuyasha fanfic

Disclaimer- I don't own Inuyasha nor the song 'Let Go' by Ne Yo.

Title- Love Isn't Luxury

Summary- Kagome, a middle-class girl never thought she would be at war with Inuyasha, a rich pretty boy which she met at school. However, neither of them thought they would fall in love either.

Genre- Romance/Humor

Chapter 32: Can't Let Go

Hiten sighed as he sat in the in an empty doctor room.

His mind kept going back to yesterday. About what Kagome told him. She told him everything that happened in the bathroom. Inside he was furious, but outside he looked calm. Furious, why? Because he knows he will never have someone that will love him, like Kagome loves Inuyasha. It didn't bothered him that Inuyasha kissed her or begged her, that he told her and reassured it. But the love they both have did. She told him about the mate mark, and he told her he already knew about and not to worry. How he wished he would find true love, but he will never find it. He will never find his true love.

Hiten and Kagome thought it would be better if they forget about yesterday. They will continue dating and let life flow.

Hiten came back to reality when the door from the room opened.

An old man with black hair that looks that it's falling off because there are some bald spots. Wrinkles covered his tired face. His blue eyes looked weary. Although this old man looked useless and weak, he isn't. He has great wisdom and has a very strong will.

"Dr. Lee," Hiten nodded.

Dr. Lee nodded in his direction as a greeting, as well. He looked through the folders and papers and looked up at Hiten.

"How are you feeling?" he asked in a dry voice.

Hiten lowered his gaze to his shoes. "Okay, I guess. Is the usual. Sick if I don't take medication. Feeling weak when I do take medication."

"But you don't show it," Dr. Lee commented.

Hiten shrugged. "I don't like to show weakness."

Dr. Lee sighed. "It's getting worse, my boy."

Hiten closed his eyes and took a deep breathe. "I know. I feel it, but I just don't want to think about it," he opened his eyes, "I just want to live my life to the fullest, for now."

Dr. Lee gave him a look of sympathy and nodded. "I will give you stronger medication."

Hiten nodded. "I don't want it anymore. I'm sick and tired of taking medication all the time. If I get sick, oh well, but I'm not going to anymore. I know the consequences but I know what I'm doing."

Dr. Lee stared at him for a moment. He gave him a slight smile. "Never in my life as a doctor have I ever seen one of my HIV patients so brave as you."

Hearing the word. The disease. The curse. THAT word, made Hiten's heart clench.

Inuyasha sighed. God! How stupid can he be?

'So much for an anniversary surprise," he thought.

Yes, anniversary. That's why he wanted Kagome to stay away from school for two weeks. Yes, it is a stupid idea, but then again he is stupid.

In two weeks, is going to be the three months anniversary of Kagome's pregnancy and the day they conceive their child and admitted their love for each other. And he even paid the school to have the spring dance early this year and have it on their day. He was going to tell her there, but now.. .it's too late. But the dance is still on, though.

'Am I really that stupid?' he asked himself.

He touched his lips with his fingers. He could still feel her lips against his. How soft they were. How delicate they are. It made his whole body shiver.

'But she needs time,' he told himself.

He shook his head. He should of told her, instead of making her suffer while he was practically celebrating for being free from Kikyo.

'But does she have to date that Hiten guy!'

He didn't liked what he heard when Souta told him about Hiten. But he did seem like a nice guy. Too nice for his taste, though.

'What if she may never want to go back with me? I could wish and wish and hop and hop but she might not come bak. It's true. Everytime we're happy something happens, but I have to wait. I have to have patience. Some way. . .'

Inuyasha sighed, again, from frustration.

'I hope she's happier than me."

Kagome wiped the last of her tears. She looked up the ceiling.

"Why is life so complicating?" she asked.

She doesn't know if she's asking herself that or God.

She sighed and put her head down. She rubbed her belly.

"Did Inuyasha wanted to wait to tell me about everything in two weeks because of our anniversary?" she whispered.

'Maybe he did.'

Kagome rolled her eyes and put on a scowl.

'What do you want? Didn't you ruin my life enough already?'

Her conscience sighed. 'How the hell was I suppose to know he was trying to get you back? I was trying to help you.'

Kagome sighed. She knows she shouldn't blame her conscience. After all, they are there to help you.

'Sorry.'

'It's not your fault or mine, so you shouldn't have to apologize.'

Kagome stood quiet for a moment.

'What am I going to do?'

Her conscience sighed. 'For the first time, I don't know anymore.'

A tear ran down Kagome's cheek.

Two weeks later. . .

Hiten rang the door bell, now waiting for someone to open it.

When it was opened, Hiten put on a nervous smile.

"Uh. . .hi," he said sheepishly.

Souta rolled his eyes. "Oh shut up and get inside. She'll be down in a few minutes, but if you want to wait outside like a dog, that's better for me."

Hiten frown. "I'm sorry if it bother you if I'm dating your older sister, but I think she can make her own decisions," he said sternly.

Souta frown. "I know she can make her own decisions but you just had to come in the middle when she was about to be happy."

Hiten sighed. "She was, I suppose. But she did have the right to know what the hell was going on, instead of letting her suffer thinking she will never get her mate back!"

"Oh, so you do know she has a mate. And you still date her?" Souta asked mockingly with a raised brow.

Hiten took in a deep breathe. "Yes, I knew before she told me, but there is something about her that I cannot ignore. She's very special to me, now."

"You just fuckin met her!" Souta declared.

"I know, but I can tell who's a special person without knowing all the facts and she is very special," Hiten explain.

Souta sighed and pointed to behind him with his thumb. "Get your ass inside before I leave you outside. I don't feel like arguing with a gay ass bitch." Souta moved to let him in.

Hiten took deep breathes to control himself not to hurt the little kid. He entered the house , on the cue, Mrs. Higurashi entered the little hall and noticed Hiten standing there with his tux.

"Oh, Hiten. How nice of to see you. Goodness, you look incredibly handsome today. I'll go tell Kagome to come," she said warmly.

Hiten blushed a little. 'What is it with Higurashi women that make me all giddy,' he thought. He shook his head and cleared his throat. "Thank you Mrs. Higurashi and it's very nice to see you too," he said politely.

Mrs. Higurashi smiled and nodded. She excused herself to go upstairs and bring Kagome down.

Hiten just stood there, patiently. Kagome asked him if he wanted to go to the spring dance with her and he couldn't help but to agree.

"So. . ." he heard behind him.

He turned and saw Souta still standing there with his arms crossed.

"Yeah?"

"Why do you continue to go out with my sis, when she already has a mate?" Souta asked.

Hiten chuckled. It's obvious this kid doesn't like him, at all. "To tell you the truth, it's none of your business."

Souta frown. "The fuck? This is my business. Dude, your fucking dating my sister! She's pregnant. She's been hurt and if she gets even more hurt by you. . ."

Hiten raised an eyebrow. "What? You gonna kick my ass or somethin. Kid, you can't do shit to me. And I wouldn't want to hurt Kagome. Okay, she's pregnant but that doesn't change anything about her."

Souta shook his head. "You know it's not good if you get me angry. I'll go all green on your ass."

Hiten couldn't help but laugh. "Oh, god! You're funny. I like that."

Souta didn't seem to be paying attention to him, since his gaze was fixed behind him and it looked like he was staring at the stairs with a soft look.

Curiosity took over him and turned around. He almost gasped from what he saw.

"Kagome..." he breathed.

Kagome smiled at him. She wore a baby blue dress. It was spaghetti strap and it was just a little loose on her body. She didn't think it would be appropriate for a pregnant woman to wear tight clothes. It's a very simple dress, but it looked beautiful on her. And her hair, loose and wavy. Her make-up was light. It was just powder face, eyeliner, mascara, and pink lip gloss.

She walked down the stairs and smiled even more when Hiten stuck his hand out to help her.

"Hi," she said shyly.

Hiten gave her an award winning smile. "Hey yourself," he said lightly. He leaned to kiss her on the cheek, causing her to blush a little. "You look beautiful," he whispered.

Kagome squeezed his hand as a 'thank you.'

"Can you guys please hurry up and stop with all the mushy stuff! It's getting on my nerves!" Souta called out.

Kagome rolled her eyes. "Come on," she said as they all left the house.

In the car, Souta turned on the radio loud, on purpose. Hiten and Kagome sat in the front seat while Souta sat in the middle of them. He was going to the dance, too. And he's going to make sure Hiten keeps his hands to himself. He told him he's keeping an eye on him since Kagome forbidden him not to bring the ruler.

It was silent in the car. It was kind of awkward and disturbing for Hiten and Kagome, but Souta just sat there with a smile on his face.

"You really do look beautiful," Hiten said, trying to break the ice.

"Why, thank you. You're so kind," Souta said sweetly, batting his eye lashes.

Kagome punched him on the shoulder. She shook her head and looked out the window.

'Idiot!' she thought.

Inuyasha has never left so left out in his life. Here he is sitting at the table alone while Miroku is dancing with Sango and Kouga is somewhere of with Ayame doing god knows what. He has never been to a dance without a date.

When the song was over, he sighed. He saw Miroku and Sango coming back and sat down next to him.

Miroku reached for a napkin from the center and dabbed it on his forehead to get rid of the sweat that formed. From the corner of his eye, he saw his best friend sulk a little. He turned to his girlfriend, who had a soft face, also sensing the depression coming from the hanyou.

They noticed how depressed Inuyasha has been. Today is the anniversary of him and Kagome admitting their love and it's now three months Kagome's been pregnant.

They sighed and stared at the hanyou.

Inuyasha looked back at them with an annoyed look on his face. "What?"

Miroku shook his head. "Maybe you should try to forget about her," he said softly.

Inuyasha gasped and his eyes grew wide. "What?" he whispered.

Sango sighed. "Inuyasha, I hate to admit it, but. . .Miroku's right. Maybe you should forget about her. Well not forever but until she's ready. You should go out and date other people, you know? She is. You shouldn't feel down. Leave it alone. It shouldn't bother you. Just go and have some fun."

Miroku nodded.

"Do you know that is the most stupidest and shitty advice I have ever heard?" he said angrily. "You think I can just forget her until she's ready? NO! I fuckin love this woman and if she needs time, I'll wait. I'm not going to screw around with some other girl. What if she's ready and I'm dating this girl? Just dump her and go back? No! I will not let someone else feel pain like we are right now. I will wait for her. Even if it takes years, I'll wait for Kagome. And to tell you the truth, if I couldn't get her out of my mind even before we got together or before she met me, you think I'm going to forget her now? I don't think so. And for Sango to say something like that is bull shit! You're her best friend and you don't have any right to say that! So why don't you guys shut the fuck up and leave me the hell alone!"

Sango and Miroku sat there with eyes wide open.

Miroku looked back at his beloved and shook his head. "See what you do? You give bad advice."

Sango punched him on the arm. "Asshole! That was what you advised him. I just supported your idea."

Miroku laughed nervously.

Inuyasha rolled his eyes. His friends could be the most stupidest people ever.

His ears tweaked when he heard some girls talking.

"Oh ma gawd! Girl, ya have no idea who just came here with a hot guy," one said.

"Who and what hot guy?" another answered.

Inuyasha rolled his eyes. 'Is that what girls talk about?'

"I think he's a college student. But I never thought SHE would bring such a hot guy, after she was dumped from her serious boyfriend," the first one said.

Now this got Inuyasha's attention. 'A college guy, dumped, serious boyfriend? Why does that sound familiar?'

"Ou giiiiiiiirl, ya better tell me who the hell this chick is cause I don't see her?" the second one said.

The first girl giggled. "Well. . .it's Peasant Girl."

Inuyasha eyes widen.

The second girl looked around. "Yo, I don't see her ass anywhere. Where she at?"

The first girl pointed. "Bout next to the punch bowl."

The second girl gasped. "Is she pregnant? I wonder who's her baby's daddy. Knowing that slut, it could be anyone's. Heck, ya think it's from the guy who got Kikyo pregnant, too. That shit was funny as hell."

Ignoring the last comment and ignoring the girls, Inuyasha quickly turned his attention to where the punch bowl is. His felt his heart stop when he saw how beautiful his mate looked. She was glowing. Her stomach was slightly big, but not big like she's going to be for a few months. It was a cute little slump. And her dress brought out the color of her incredibly beautiful eyes.

Then he growled.

'She's with him!'

He saw Hiten wrap his arm around her waist and whispered something in her ear. Apparently, it was funny since she giggled. This is going to drive him crazy, but why should it bother him if she's HIS mate? He knows she loves him.

'Because she's not with you,' he told himself.

"Inuyasha?"

Inuyasha turned from his mate to his friends, who had a questioning look. Their gaze went to where he looked and they both sighed.

"It'll be fine," Miroku said, trying to make him feel better.

But Sango stood quiet. Right there, she realized how selfish it was of her to tell Inuyasha to forget her best friend and how much it pained him to see her with another man, even if it's not serious.

Inuyasha looked down for a moment and looked back up. He gave his friend a soft look and stood up and left.

Miroku watched his friend walk to the door that lead to the hall way. He sighed. Knowing the hanyou, he wants time alone.

Kagome felt her heart clenched when she saw Inuyasha leave. She guesses he saw her with Hiten.

It pained her. She feels so guilty. And she should feel guilty.

"Kagome? Are you okay? Hiten asked, worried.

Kagome looked back at him. She gave him a small smile. "Yeah," she said quietly.

Knowing she didn't want to talk about it, he asked her dance instead.

She agreed.

They danced a few songs and decided to sit down. Kagome could of sat with Sango, but Inuyasha was there. He returned right after she finished dancing. Now he's sitting there boring his eyes at her.

Kagome avoided to look at him or even at the table. She can't face him when he's looking at her like that.

Sensing something wrong, Hiten sighed. He knew Kagome felt uneasy. He noticed how she looked everywhere but on direction. He looked and finally realized why. Just by seeing a silver hair hanyou staring at her, he now knows that is Inuyasha. And his eyes caught his attention. There was pain, anger, and one thing Hiten will never get. . .love.

As if he sensed him, Inuyasha turned his eyes from Kagome to Hiten. He gave him a hard look. Hiten sighed. He motioned with his head to the hallway door. Getting the hint to meet him there, Inuyasha nodded and stood up and walked there.

Hiten waited about a minute and told Kagome he was going to the bathroom.

When he made it, he found the hanyou leaning against the wall with his eyes close.

Hiten walked towards him. "Inuyasha, right?"

Inuyasha opened his eyes and glared at Hiten.

Hiten sighed and gave him a look of sympathy.

"Don't you dare give me that stupid look," Inuyasha said lowly.

Hiten stood quiet. He didn't really know what to say.

"You have a lot of nerve to bring her here," Inuyasha spat.

"She was the one who asked me to come," Hiten said quietly.

They both stood quiet.

"She loves you," Hiten said.

Inuyasha lowered his gaze. "I know," and looked back up, "but you're still with her."

"Because we agreed to do so. But I'm not trying to take her away from you or anything. She belongs to you, that I know but. . ."he trailed of.

Inuyasha smirked. "You fell for her didn't you."

Hiten sighed. "I care about her, but I don't love her. She's already marked and either way I know I will never get a chance with someone like her."

"There isn't someone like her. She's different from everyone," Inuyasha said.

Hiten smiled, "That's what people say about the one's they love."

Inuyasha stood quiet.

"She's excited about the baby," he commented, "The doctor said it's going to be a very healthy one."

Inuyasha looked away. He bit his lips.

"You should dance with her," Hiten said.

Inuyasha looked at him with a shocked face.

Hiten shrugged. "Just do it. It doesn't bother me."

"I don't care if it bothers you or not," Inuyasha growled.

Hiten raised his hands up. "Then go dance with her."

"She wouldn't want that," Inuyasha whispered.

"How do you know?" Hiten asked.

Inuyasha just gave him a glance and walked to the dance floor.

Hiten sighed and leaned against the wall Inuyasha was on. He took deep breaths.

'Without the medication. . . my life is soon to be over,' he thought.

Kagome took a let out a deep sigh. Hiten hasn't come back, yet.

"Kagome?"

Her heart leaped and looked up and saw Inuyasha standing in front of her.

Her lungs tighten and she couldn't breathe air.

His eyes looked so scared as if he might get rejected.

"Dance with me," he said and stuck out his hand.

Kagome looked at it and then at him. She didn't know what to do. She looked to the doors of the hallways and saw Hiten standing there. She was surprised when he nodded. She looked back at Inuyasha, who looked that he was about to beg her. She bit her lips and took his rough hand with her soft one's.

He pulled her to the middle of the dance floor and placed his hands on her hips while she place her's on his shoulder.

She was nervous, he could tell. He pull her close to his chest, earning a soft gasp from her. He could hear her heartbeat beating fast.

I know its past tense
its been a minute since
we were a couple
and, walking and holding hands
kisses and I love yous
doing what lovers do
baby

Inuyasha stared straight into her eyes.

Or baby that was then
cause now we don't
talk no more
you gotta a new man
and, it shouldn't bother me
but girl its driving me, crazy
and everybody says
boy why don't you just leave it alone
but I don't think I can

Kagome sighed. His eyes always have such an affect on her. She felt him wrapping her closer to him.

I sit up all night
thinkin' bout ya
and know it ain't right, baby
but I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
that I can let go (don't think I can let you know)

im home alone and hope
I know it's a foolish thought
think that someday she might come back
wish on it all the time
knowin' it may never happen
but see I'm not a fool
cause no we don'ttalk no more
you gotta new man
but, I'm gonna keep it safe
I've got the patience
that some way...
but everybody says
boy why don't you just leave it alone
but I don't think I can

'Stupid DJ,' he thought to himself. Again, a song is getting him all emotional.

I sit up all night
thinkin' bout ya
and know it ain't right, baby
but I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
that I can let go (don't think I can let you know)

Kagome jumped when Inuyasha buried his face into her neck, hiding in her hair.

She shivered when he whispered against her skin.

"I have a problem."

I don't think I can let you go
I can't let you go
no...
I don't think that I can let you go
let go...
and everybody says...
and I don't think I can...

"What?" she whispered back.

She felt him sigh and he took a deep breathe, breathing her rosy scent.

"I can't let you go,"he whispered sadly.

Kagome closed her eyes, for she cannot let the tears already forming in her eyes fall. She wrapped her arms around him tightly to bring him close to her.

I sit up all night
thinkin' bout ya
and know it ain't right, baby
but I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
that I can let go (don't think I can let you know)

He kissed her tenderly on the neck and pulled slowly away from her.

"I'll be waiting," he said. "I won't let you go."

Kagome opened her eyes. A tear fell down. "Inuyasha. . ."she breathed.

Inuyasha bit his lips. He cupped her cheek. "Happy anniversary," and with that he left.

Kagome stood there, breathing hard. She spotted Hiten next to the exit and walked there.

"Home?" Hiten nodded.

Kagome could only nod.

He help her in the car and drove her home. They made sure Souta got home safely with Sango and Miroku.

They sat for a few moments in front of her house, when they got there.

"He can't let me go," she whispered.

Hiten looked at her, but she didn't look at him. She kept her eyes straight a head.

"Does it bother you?" he asked, gently.

Kagome closed her eyes. "Yes," she said shakily.

"Why?" Hiten had a grim look.

Kagome opened her eyes and looked at him. She let out a sob and tears ran down. She knew not only is she hurting herself, but she knows she's hurting Hiten.

Despite his depressing look, she whispered to him.

"Because I can't let him go."

Hi! I know everyone is mad at me for not updating. I'm sorry. My brother had freshman orientation and since he is in special ed, I went with him just in case. But now it's over. Today was the last day, and I apologize for not updating. But you guys cannot tell me it's not fair or that I'm mean. I update almost everyday and no author that I have known has ever done that. So because I didn't update for a few days, I shouldn't be hated. I love you guys and I love this story, but my brother does come first. He always has. I mean a lot of other authors, no offense, don't update for months and/or abandon their stories. Just be lucky I don't do that.

Okay. :sighs and takes a very deep breath: Sorry about that. I don't want to seem mean. I just had to put that because I know some people will be all like 'why didn't you update sooner,' or 'we deserve two chapters for the long update.' And I know I have been on my MySpace, that's because I have to check my e-mail from my friends since I'm having a cotillion pretty soon . . . I think it's going to be in about 10 more days or something . . . So I have to keep track if their coming and make sure they know their dance steps since we have a dance routine to remember. Besides that pointless information, that's to let you guys know.

Anyway . . . I hope everyone likes this chapter. And I hope you are enjoying the story so far.

Big surprise about Hiten, huh? Very depressing.

Now any suggestions you guys think should happen, feel free to tell me.

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