Disclaimer- I don't own Inuyasha nor the song "There For You," by Flyleaf.
Title- Love Isn't Luxury
Summary-Kagome, a middle-class girl never thought she would be at war with Inuyasha, a rich pretty boy which she met at school. However, neither of them thought they would fall in love either.
Genre- Romance/Humor
Chapter 35: Almost
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Inuyasha took another gulp of tequila and watched his crazy friends dance to the beat of the music.
He was happy he finally graduated and got to share this special day with the people he is closes to. But. . .
Not everyone.
He mentally groaned. He wanted to be happy for at least one day, but Kagome always pops out of no where and invades his thoughts.
He furrowed his brows in confusion. He admits thinking about his mate makes him very depressed, but. . .
Why is it so different right now?
'Why do I feel like something was ripped away from me?' he asked himself.
"Hey, Inuyasha! Come on and stop being a party pooper!" a drunken Miroku yelled from the dance floor.
Inuyasha rolled his eyes. He shook his head and walked to the closet and ignoring the couple making out there, he grabbed his coat and left the party.
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She struggled to open her eyes but managed. She groaned as the bright light burn her vision. She took in everything around her.
White walls. Wires. An annoying beeping sound.
Then it hit her.
"Hiten. . ." Kagome breathed out. A tear slid down her cheek.
'He d-d-died,' she thought sadly. 'But why am I still here?'
She looked around to see anything. She's in a hospital bed.
She furrowed her brows. 'What?'
She tried hard to remember what happened. It was all fuzzy to her. She remembered Hiten and her heart clenched. Then she remembered this pain.
Why was she in pain?
She knew she was in pain for the lose of her dear friend.
But. . .
This was a different kind of pain.
She remembers something red.
It was on her legs, running down.
Kagome's eyes widen. 'No. . .'
Her hand immediately went to her stomach. She didn't feel the familiar, roundness.
Kagome choked a sob. She placed a hand on her hands and tears started to run down.
"W-w-what. . .b-b-bab-b-y. . .," she couldn't even speak for she felt her throat run dry.
The door opened and she quickly turned to see it is.
It was a nurse.
"You're awake," she said monotonously.
Kagome sniffled. "W-w-what happened? Where's my child? Is my baby okay?" she asked urgently. She needs to know. And she needs to know, now.
The nurse sighed. She hates it when her boss makes her say the bad news.
"Tell me! Where is my baby?" Kagome demanded. Tears ran down her cheeks uncontrollably.
"Miss Higurashi. . .your baby. . ." the nurse said hesitantly.
Kagome closed her eyes and groaned. "Please. . .tell me," she begged.
"The baby was born premature. . .and it's in an incubator," the nurse said gently.
Kagome sighed. She bit her lips. "Tell me the truth. I'm not stupid. What's wrong with my baby?" she asked desperately.
The nurse gave her a sympathetic look. "We don't know if it'll live. She needs a machine to help her breathe and her heart beat is not. . .well let's just say. . .it's not up to the standards of surviving," she explained. "But we will try everything we can to help your child live."
Kagome felt her body shake as she cried. She buried her face in her hands and cried.
She cried of pain.
She cried of agony.
She cried hoping for her child to be alright.
"C-c-can I have some time alone. . .please?" Kagome whispered.
The nurse nodded. "Um. . .if you would like to call someone there's the phone by your side," with that the nurse left.
Kagome laid on the hospital bed sobbing. She turned to her side and, indeed, there was a phone.
She took a deep breathe and with a shaky hand she reached for it and began to dial.
'I hope you pick up,' she begged in her mind.
"Hello?"
Kagome closed her eyes and bit her lips. How is she going to break the news.
". . .Inuyasha," she said weakly.
"Kagome?" he sounded like he was in disbelieve.
"Hi. . ." she sniffled.
"Kagome? Are you crying? What happened? Is everything okay? Are you hurt?" he asked urgently.
Kagome let out a sob. "Can you come, please?"
She heard him sigh. "Okay. . .where are you?"
"I'm at the hospital," she whispered.
"WHAT?"
Kagome closed her eyes. "Please. . . not now. Just come."
"I'll be there. Which one is it?" he asked.
"It's the Grace Hospital at 55th street," she said quietly.
"Kagome. . .are you okay?" he asked gently.
Kagome cried more. "No. . .I'm not. Please come," she begged.
"I'll be there soon, sweetie," with that he hung up.
Kagome hang up the phone and looked up at the ceiling.
"Why?" she whispered.
She took a deep breathe and sat up. She groaned of the pain that crossed her whole body. She slowly moved her body to sit on the edge of the bed and in a quick move she got off.
She hissed and begged for God to help her. She bit her lips and started to take off all the wire, except the IV she had. She focused on her balance as she walked to the door. When she was about to reach for the knob. . .it opened.
It was a doctor.
He looked surprised at the girl in front of him.
"Miss Higurashi, you must rest," he ordered her gently.
Kagome shook her head. "Get the fuck out of my way. I need to see my baby," she said faintly.
The doctor sighed. "You must rest," he said.
Kagome glared at him. "I will not rest until I see my child! And I want to see it now!" she said firmly.
The doctor shook his head. "I'm sorry, but you must rest," he said gently pushing her back into the room.
Kagome tried to fight him but the pain in her body prevented it and she lost.
Once the doctor settled her on the bed, he walked to a radio that was at the corner of the room. He turned it on.
"You can listen to some music but please don't get out of the room. You will see you're child soon," he said. He started walking away when he heard her speak.
"Why?" she asked with tears in her eyes.
The doctor turned to her. He sighed. "One of the nurses tried to stop you by going up the stairs but you didn't listen. They were to much for you. And watching your friend die made you very depressed and sad, of course. The feeling inside you were so deep that your hanyou pup sensed it and acted up. Demon babies tend to act up when their mother is in grave pain, like you were. Both emotionally and physically. And since your's was emotional it affected your child. Also, since you were not with you're mate or the father of the child it acted up even more severely and we had to. . ." he trailed of.
"But wh didn't my baby act up before?" she asked.
The doctor furrowed his brow. "Before?"
"It's true I was not with my mate, but that's because we're in. . .a difficult situation and are not currently seeing each other," she explained.
The doctor sighed. "That would explain a lot."
"What?"
"When you're friend. . .died. . .did he bring out any depression of some sort?" he asked.
Kagome sighed when he mentioned Hiten's death. But he did say stop running away and go back with Inuyasha. "Yes, he brought up my mate and then he died," she said quietly.
The doctor nodded. "Perhaps all the pain you have suffered and tried to fight, fought back and got to you which made your pup act up like it did."
Kagome wiped her tears. She looked away from the doctor. "Please leave," she didn't want to sound rude, but she wants the doctor to go.
And he did.
Kagome looked at the radio and sighed at the song that came out.
Sometimes I'm selfish fake
you're always a true friend
and I don't deserve you
'cause I'm not there for you
please forgive me again
Kagome let the hot tears run down her cheeks.
'This is my fault,' she told herself. 'My child is almost dying and. . .it's my fault. I shouldn't have made him wait.'
I wanna be there for you
someone you can come to
runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you
Swirling shades of blue
slow dancing in your eyes
sun kisses the earth
and I hush my urge to cry, cry
'I should have been with him and none of this would of happen,' she thought sadly, 'He was ready to be there for me, but I pushed him away. I want him. I want to be there for him, now. He suffered as much as I have. And I only focused on mine.'
I wanna be there for you
someone you can come to
runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you
'Cause I hear the whispered words
in your masterpiece beautiful
you speak the unspeakable through
I love you too
'He silently begged for me to come back, but I ignored it. But I still love him. I really do. I never stopped. I was scared. I love him,' tears burned her eyes.
I wanna be there for you
someone you can come to
I wanna be there for you
and be someone you can come to
the love runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
'I wanna be there for you, Inuyasha. I don't want you to wait anymore.'
The door opened.
She turned and like an answered prayer.
He was there.
Looking at her with fear, concern, and love.
Kagome let out a sob. "Inuyasha!"
He immediately ran to her side and hugged her, but not so tight because he didn't want to hurt her. He wiped the tears of her face with his thumps.
He pulled away and examined her body to see where she was hurt. Nothing but. . .
Her round belly wasn't there.
Inuyasha's eyes widen and looked at Kagome eyes which were covered with tears and fear.
"What happened?" he whispered, feeling tears of his own threatening to fall, as well.
Kagome shook her head slowly. Tears running down her angelic face. "I'm sorry," she whispered.
Inuyasha tighten his jaw. "What happened?" he demanded, hoping it wasn't what he thought it was.
The door once again opened.
Both teens turned to see who was he one that came in.
It was the nurse.
"What do you want?" Inuyasha growled.
The nurse bit her lips. "I know I shouldn't be doing this but.. . .I think you have the right to see your child," she said softly.
Kagome gasped softly. "Are you. . .?"
The nurse nodded. "But please promise me that you will rest after this, Miss Higurashi."
Kagome nodded instantly. "As long as I get to see my baby."
She struggled a little to get out of bed, but was help by Inuyasha. He wrapped one of his strong arms around her waist and the other he hold her hand.
The nurse nodded and motioned with her hand to follow her.
And they did, slowly.
Kagome could feel her heart beating faster and faster with each step she took.
"Tell me," she jumped when she heard the hanyou whisper to her, desperately.
She didn't know what to say.
"Please, Kagome," Inuyasha whispered.
A tear made it's way down her cheek. "It was born premature," she finally said. "Doctor said she might not live because she can't breathe on her own and her heart beat is low."
She felt his hand squeezing her hand and heard him whimper a little.
"This is it," the nurse said as they reached a door. She turned to the couple. "Are you ready to see your daughter?"
Kagome felt her heart leap. "It's a girl?" she asked in awe.
The nurse nodded and smiled sadly. "Yes, it's a girl," she said softly and opened the door for them. She told them to step inside.
Kagome hesitated at first. She was breathing harshly. She felt something tighten around her and noticed it was Inuyasha. She turned to him and almost gasp.
He was crying.
"Come on, Kagome," he said in lighter than a whisper.
"I'm scared," she said.
"Me, too," and with that they both stepped into the room.
They both saw a clear thing that looked like a case. They knew what was in it. Their child. Their daughter.
They stood a few feet away from it. None of them knowing what to do.
Kagome took a deep breathe and was the first one to take a step toward the incubator where her daughter is.
She felt Inuyasha follow her.
She placed a hand on her mouth and let out a sob. She could hear Inuyasha sniffle a little.
There. . .
Right in the incubator. . .
Their daughter laid. . .
Staring at them.
They both took in their daughter's feature's. She looks almost like her mother. Half-open, bright, blue eyes staring at them. She had a little cute nose but the nostrils are almost stuck to each other. But what she got from her father is the short silver hair and the dog ears on top of her fragile, small head. Her chest was little sunken. Her arms and legs were skinny. She wasn't moving, but she was staring at them, directly with emotionless eyes.
Kagome bit her lips. "She's so tiny," she whispered.
"She's beautiful.. ."Inuyasha breathed out.
"Miss Higurashi. ..I'm sorry if I'm being rude. . .but time is cutting short and the doctor will have my head. . ." the nurse started to speak.
Inuyasha turned to her. "You can go. I'll make sure you won't get fired. Just leave us alone," he said.
The nurse nodded and left the room quietly.
Kagome placed a hand on the plastic that separate her and her daughter.
So close, yet so far.
Funny how that line is os true.
A hand was placed on top of her's and she looked up to see Inuyasha staring at her, intensely.
"What happened?" he whispered.
Kagome sighed, shakily. "He died."
"Who?" he asked.
Kagome looked at her daughter. "Hiten. He had AIDS and he died. I ran up the stairs to the fifth floor when one of the nurses tried to stop me, but I didn't listen. I didn't care how fast I was going or how much pressure I put myself into. And when I watched him die. . . the baby acted up. The doctor said it's because she sensed my pain from his death and old pain returning making it worse," she explained.
"Old pain?" Inuyasha asked. He felt bad for Hiten. He never knew. . .
She looked at him with teary eyes. "Hiten told me something. He told me I should stop running away and face reality. To face you," she said weakly.
Inuyasha blinked away his tears and looked at her with a questioned face.
"I was running away. Running away from you. I was afraid to get hurt again. So I was with Hiten as an escape from reality. I guess I was with him only because he understood me and was the only person who didn't remind me of you," she whispered. "Who didn't remind me of the fear of losing you again. When you were engage with Kikyo I was torn and when you told me you weren't I was happy but doubt toke over me and made me wonder what if this were to happen again? I don't want more pain. But then Hiten made me realize I was hurting myself. I wasn't with you. And I'm sorry. This all my fault! My fault!" she broke down and cried.
She almost fell to her knees but Inuyasha caught her and hug her.
"It's not your fault," he whispered into her hair.
Kagome shook her head. "Yes it is! I shouldn't have made you wait! I was stupid to make you wait! This is my fault! It's my fault!" she sobbed into his chest and clutched his shirt.
Inuyasha closed his eyes. "It's not your fault. You were scared. Everyone gets scared," he whispered. "It's not your fault."
"Yes it is! Our daughter is dying because of me!" she yelled.
Inuyasha hold her tighter to his body. Tears ran down his face. He looked at his daughter and sobbed. "S-s-she can't," he whispered. "She won't."
The door opened, but none of them bother to turn who it was.
"Miss Higurashi, I thought I told you to rest, but I guess you really needed to see her," the doctor said with a sighed.
"What now?" Inuyasha spat.
'Must be her mate,' he thought. "I have news about your daughter," he said. "But they're not good."
Inuyasha growled.
"What is it?" Kagome whispered.
The doctor sighed. He looked at the couple intensely. Yes, they do look like they have suffered a lot which now kills him to say this.
"She only has 10 percent to live by tomorrow," he said, sadly. "All we can do is hope for a miracle. I'm sorry."
"Leave," Inuyasha snarled.
And he did .. .quickly.
Inuyasha felt Kagome shake in his arms. She was crying even harder. But who could blame her?
"I'm sorry," she said in a faint whisper.
Inuyasha bit his lips.
She pulled away from him and looked at her fragile daughter. She placed both hands on the plastic and cried.
"I'm sorry," she whispered.
"I'm sorry," she said.
"I'm sorry!" she yelled.
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" she chanted and fell to her knees.
Inuyasha knelt down and wrapped his arms behind her. He looked up at his daughter.
'Don't go' he begged silently.
He let out a sob and hugged his mate tighter.
All they can do is. . .
Hope.
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I feel sad now. This is my last summer vacation update. And I feel sad for Kagome and Inuyasha. And I'm the one who wrote it.
Thank you darkXvampireXkiss for recommending me this song. I'm sorry if I took long and you're right, it is a complicated song. But I hope I did good in using it well.
So any suggestion , please tell me.
Question of the Day- What if the one person you're close to but never met, left you alone in life?
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Hana