Disclaimer: I don't own 7th Heaven, or the name Care Bear. 7H belongs to
the WB, and the nickname is from 8 Simple Rules.
A/N: This chapter is pretty intense, and it's the description of Carrie's rape. If you can't handle it, skip this chapter and go on to the next one. I'll put the summary of it in the A/N of the next chapter, so you won't be lost. Also, this is written in flashback.
Chapter 3: Shocking Tale of Horror (graphic chapter)
Carrie was in school one day on an average day for her. History was boring her out of her skull, so she tuned the teacher out and stared out the window next to her. A guy entered the room, and the teacher announced to the class that there was a new student. His name was Xavier Trekker and he transferred from Washington D.C.
Carrie was immediately drawn to the new guy. His black hair was spiked and he wore baggie black pants with chains and a black T-shirt that said "My therapist says it's not my fault." He took the empty seat next to her and stuck out his hand.
"I'm X, and u r...?" He told her oozing charisma.
She wasn't intimidated by his suaveness, "X, huh that's an unusual name. I'm Carrie by the way."
The teacher had given up trying to teach the class since it was the day before Christmas vacation and was sitting at his desk waiting for the bell to ring like the rest of his students. X and Carrie continued to get to know each other and exchanged numbers before the bell rang.
They talked on the phone every night during Christmas and Carrie found herself having feelings for him. Her mother also started to have feelings for her new friend. They had been chatting on the phone for a couple of months, and her mom told her she was going to date him. Carrie tried to call her siblings to stop it, but they all gave up and decided to accept him.
X was the sweetest guy she had ever known. He would confront anyone who would dare to mess with Carrie, which was often since they did live in the big apple. They talked about dating, and by January they were a couple.
The day before Valentine's Day her mom told her that she was going to marry Sam. He was okay, but Carrie always got a creepy feeling when they were alone together. He had brown hair and piercing blue eyes, which stared at her any time she entered the room. Kevin thought he was an okay guy, though, and she trusted his judgment more than her own.
Her mom went to see Kevin propose to his girlfriend, and she thought it would be a good chance for Sam and Carrie to bond. Carrie was angry that her mother would leave her and they got into a huge argument before she left. She would be returning the next day, so she asked Sam to stay the night.
*****
Carrie took a breath and looked down in the middle of her story, "Kevin, I don't think I can do this."
"It's okay sweetie, it's okay," he told her, and wrapped his arms protectively around her.
"I'm just so... so tired," she said as she looked at Kevin.
The two had been in the "Hello Kitty room" for an hour just talking. She hadn't finished her story, but she needed time to prepare herself for the next part. Carrie hadn't told anyone what happened, so this was really hard for her. She knew Kevin would help her and nothing would happen to her as long as she was with him. She rubbed her eyes and scooted away from Kevin. It was harder for her to tell the story if she was touching anyone.
She smiled to reassure him and said, "I'm ready to continue."
*****
Carrie's mother had only been gone for a few hours when Carrie decided to go to bed. She told Sam goodnight and walked up the stairs into her room. She put her pajamas on and brushed her teeth. Her day had been stressful and she was angry with her mother for not allowing her to go out with X that day, so she had to settle with talking to him over the phone. Carrie climbed into bed, but before she could fall asleep her door cracked open.
Sam walked into her room with a beer in his hand. Carrie sat straight up in bed and knew immediately he was drunk. She knew he liked to drink, but she had no idea he would get drunk while "watching" her. Slurring his words, he ordered her to get out of bed. She obeyed reluctantly just in time to feel the first slap. He started to hit her over and over again and Sam wouldn't stop.
"Please, ow! That hurts, please quit," Carrie choked out.
He didn't pay any attention to her as he lifted her effortlessly onto her bed. She was paralyzed in fear and pain. Carrie couldn't understand why he was doing this and her mind raced. Sam hiked up her gown and slid her panties off as she hit and kicked him as hard as she could. He acted like he didn't even notice her as he got himself undressed. Sam was so drunk that wearing a condom was the furthest thing from his mind.
She shrieked in pain as he drove into her as hard as he could. Carrie had been a virgin and this feeling was too much for her. The pain shot through her entire body as Sam took full advantage of her. She yelped in pain with each thrust and she wanted to die; she thought she would die as the realization of what was happening hit her full force. An agonizing two hours later it was all over. He had taken Carrie's dignity and self respect in the course of those two hours. Sam stumbled out of her room and passed out on the floor in the living room.
Carrie moved into fetal position in her bed and cried hysterically over the taking of her virginity. She felt dirty and violated in the worst possible way. She painfully limped into the bathroom and sat in the shower still in her nightgown and let the water run over her. She used a whole bottle of soap, but the filthy feeling that haunted her would not leave so easily. Only time would heal the emotional wounds he had inflicted on her.
*****
By that point, Carrie was openly sobbing as she told Kevin the story about her rape. Shock was the only word to describe the look on his face. He didn't think any person could do that to such a sweet girl. That... that creature took his baby sister from him before she was ready to grow up. He hated Sam and if he had been their he would have killed him. Kevin wrapped his arms protectively around Carrie and didn't tell her to "hush" because she had EVERY right to cry.
After a few deep breaths, Carrie felt better. She quickly dried her tears and moved away from Kevin to continue the agonizing tale once again. She looked at him to see if he wanted to hear any more of it, and Kevin reluctantly nodded his head as he fought back tears for the hell his Care Bear had endured.
*****
Carrie lay in bed for almost an hour crying when a gut wrenching thought reached her. What if Sam woke up? As fast as she was physically able to, she called X and told him to come get her. He asked her what was wrong, but all she would say was it's an emergency. Carrie hobbled past where her future step father was laying face down on the floor and left the apartment to meet X. She was still in her nightgown and she was soaked to the bone.
The second X saw her he pleaded with her to tell him what happened. She refused but he knew it was horrible. He drove her to his apartment, luckily his parents were out of town. X pulled out one of his old T-shirts for her to change into along with a clean pair of boxers. She changed into them, and noticed in horror that blood was running down her leg. Apparently, something had torn because she knew the bleeding from her losing her virginity would have already stopped by now.
She quickly wiped away what was there and put the boxers on ignoring the evidence of a serious problem. She shuffled into the living room and saw X waiting for her on the couch. Sitting down next to him, Carrie looked anywhere but at him. Even though he asked her what happened, she wasn't ready to admit it out loud. The tears silently spilled down her cheeks and he held her as she let her pent up anger and sadness out.
By April, her period was two months late and fear swept through her as she considered the possibility of being pregnant. She still hadn't told anyone about the rape and all she wanted was to put the whole terrible incident behind her. Sam hadn't touched her again, but she knew he wasn't remorseful about his actions. Carrie tried her best to avoid him as much as she could. Since she had school, Carrie wouldn't be able to see Kevin and his fiance get married, but that also meant that her mom and Sam would be in Glenoak the next weekend and she would be left at her aunt's house. Once she was at her aunt's house she knew it would be safe to see if she was pregnant.
She couldn't breathe. A blue line just predicted her future, or lack there of. I can't have a baby! It wasn't my fault! she thought as she held the stick in her trembling hand. X deserved to know, and she knew she had to tell him but she didn't know how to. She decided she would tell Sam first and see what he would do, since he was the father. An involuntary shiver worked its way over her. When Sam got home the next day, she would tell him what he did.
Her mother had to leave, and she again entrusted Carrie with Sam. She broke the news to him and didn't expect the reaction she got. Sam became violently angry and started to scream at her. He called her a "stupid bitch" and said he wouldn't allow her to ruin HIS life. He paused in mid- sentence and grinned the evilest of grins.
"Have you told anyone about this?" Sam asked her.
Carrie gulped and answered him, "N...no."
"Good, that's a good girl Carrie," he replied as he started to move towards her.
He trapped her in a corner and ripped off her clothing as she screamed. He raped her quickly before he started to beat her. Sam kicked her in the stomach hard until she couldn't move. Carrie knew there was no way a baby could have survived that, and she grabbed her stomach in pain. Sam laughed at his success and whistled as he left the room.
Carrie didn't know how long she laid on the floor that day. The next thing she knew it was dark and Sam had left her house. She knew she had to leave. There was no way he would rape her again. Carrie went into the bathroom and got some towels to clean up the blood on the floor and she changed her clothes. Tears slipped down her cheeks as she thought of the baby she'd never have because of him. Even though it wasn't conceived in love, it was still a part of her and it was her child. She threw everything away and packed a small bag. She wrote X an email and left her home in New York.
*****
Kevin stared at her in disbelief. He hated the entire ordeal and he was sick with grief. Carrie didn't look good at all. She was bruised on her arms and wrists and Kevin hadn't even seen her stomach. Kevin didn't even want to think about the damage that he did to her while he raped her. The thought sent hatred through his veins and he wanted to avenge this crime committed against her sister.
"Have you been to a doctor, yet," he asked her quietly.
Carrie took a breath and let out a strangled answer, "No."
Kevin looked at her for the first time in ten minutes, "You should probably see somebody. Let's go."
"Okay," Carrie agreed as she followed Kevin out the door and down the stairs.
A/N: Whew! That was the hardest chapter I've EVER had to write. I know it's intense, which is why I warned you at the beginning. If you did not heed my warning it's ur own fault, cause I did warn you. Tell me what you thought of it please!!!!! If u do I'll give u kudos.
A/N: This chapter is pretty intense, and it's the description of Carrie's rape. If you can't handle it, skip this chapter and go on to the next one. I'll put the summary of it in the A/N of the next chapter, so you won't be lost. Also, this is written in flashback.
Chapter 3: Shocking Tale of Horror (graphic chapter)
Carrie was in school one day on an average day for her. History was boring her out of her skull, so she tuned the teacher out and stared out the window next to her. A guy entered the room, and the teacher announced to the class that there was a new student. His name was Xavier Trekker and he transferred from Washington D.C.
Carrie was immediately drawn to the new guy. His black hair was spiked and he wore baggie black pants with chains and a black T-shirt that said "My therapist says it's not my fault." He took the empty seat next to her and stuck out his hand.
"I'm X, and u r...?" He told her oozing charisma.
She wasn't intimidated by his suaveness, "X, huh that's an unusual name. I'm Carrie by the way."
The teacher had given up trying to teach the class since it was the day before Christmas vacation and was sitting at his desk waiting for the bell to ring like the rest of his students. X and Carrie continued to get to know each other and exchanged numbers before the bell rang.
They talked on the phone every night during Christmas and Carrie found herself having feelings for him. Her mother also started to have feelings for her new friend. They had been chatting on the phone for a couple of months, and her mom told her she was going to date him. Carrie tried to call her siblings to stop it, but they all gave up and decided to accept him.
X was the sweetest guy she had ever known. He would confront anyone who would dare to mess with Carrie, which was often since they did live in the big apple. They talked about dating, and by January they were a couple.
The day before Valentine's Day her mom told her that she was going to marry Sam. He was okay, but Carrie always got a creepy feeling when they were alone together. He had brown hair and piercing blue eyes, which stared at her any time she entered the room. Kevin thought he was an okay guy, though, and she trusted his judgment more than her own.
Her mom went to see Kevin propose to his girlfriend, and she thought it would be a good chance for Sam and Carrie to bond. Carrie was angry that her mother would leave her and they got into a huge argument before she left. She would be returning the next day, so she asked Sam to stay the night.
*****
Carrie took a breath and looked down in the middle of her story, "Kevin, I don't think I can do this."
"It's okay sweetie, it's okay," he told her, and wrapped his arms protectively around her.
"I'm just so... so tired," she said as she looked at Kevin.
The two had been in the "Hello Kitty room" for an hour just talking. She hadn't finished her story, but she needed time to prepare herself for the next part. Carrie hadn't told anyone what happened, so this was really hard for her. She knew Kevin would help her and nothing would happen to her as long as she was with him. She rubbed her eyes and scooted away from Kevin. It was harder for her to tell the story if she was touching anyone.
She smiled to reassure him and said, "I'm ready to continue."
*****
Carrie's mother had only been gone for a few hours when Carrie decided to go to bed. She told Sam goodnight and walked up the stairs into her room. She put her pajamas on and brushed her teeth. Her day had been stressful and she was angry with her mother for not allowing her to go out with X that day, so she had to settle with talking to him over the phone. Carrie climbed into bed, but before she could fall asleep her door cracked open.
Sam walked into her room with a beer in his hand. Carrie sat straight up in bed and knew immediately he was drunk. She knew he liked to drink, but she had no idea he would get drunk while "watching" her. Slurring his words, he ordered her to get out of bed. She obeyed reluctantly just in time to feel the first slap. He started to hit her over and over again and Sam wouldn't stop.
"Please, ow! That hurts, please quit," Carrie choked out.
He didn't pay any attention to her as he lifted her effortlessly onto her bed. She was paralyzed in fear and pain. Carrie couldn't understand why he was doing this and her mind raced. Sam hiked up her gown and slid her panties off as she hit and kicked him as hard as she could. He acted like he didn't even notice her as he got himself undressed. Sam was so drunk that wearing a condom was the furthest thing from his mind.
She shrieked in pain as he drove into her as hard as he could. Carrie had been a virgin and this feeling was too much for her. The pain shot through her entire body as Sam took full advantage of her. She yelped in pain with each thrust and she wanted to die; she thought she would die as the realization of what was happening hit her full force. An agonizing two hours later it was all over. He had taken Carrie's dignity and self respect in the course of those two hours. Sam stumbled out of her room and passed out on the floor in the living room.
Carrie moved into fetal position in her bed and cried hysterically over the taking of her virginity. She felt dirty and violated in the worst possible way. She painfully limped into the bathroom and sat in the shower still in her nightgown and let the water run over her. She used a whole bottle of soap, but the filthy feeling that haunted her would not leave so easily. Only time would heal the emotional wounds he had inflicted on her.
*****
By that point, Carrie was openly sobbing as she told Kevin the story about her rape. Shock was the only word to describe the look on his face. He didn't think any person could do that to such a sweet girl. That... that creature took his baby sister from him before she was ready to grow up. He hated Sam and if he had been their he would have killed him. Kevin wrapped his arms protectively around Carrie and didn't tell her to "hush" because she had EVERY right to cry.
After a few deep breaths, Carrie felt better. She quickly dried her tears and moved away from Kevin to continue the agonizing tale once again. She looked at him to see if he wanted to hear any more of it, and Kevin reluctantly nodded his head as he fought back tears for the hell his Care Bear had endured.
*****
Carrie lay in bed for almost an hour crying when a gut wrenching thought reached her. What if Sam woke up? As fast as she was physically able to, she called X and told him to come get her. He asked her what was wrong, but all she would say was it's an emergency. Carrie hobbled past where her future step father was laying face down on the floor and left the apartment to meet X. She was still in her nightgown and she was soaked to the bone.
The second X saw her he pleaded with her to tell him what happened. She refused but he knew it was horrible. He drove her to his apartment, luckily his parents were out of town. X pulled out one of his old T-shirts for her to change into along with a clean pair of boxers. She changed into them, and noticed in horror that blood was running down her leg. Apparently, something had torn because she knew the bleeding from her losing her virginity would have already stopped by now.
She quickly wiped away what was there and put the boxers on ignoring the evidence of a serious problem. She shuffled into the living room and saw X waiting for her on the couch. Sitting down next to him, Carrie looked anywhere but at him. Even though he asked her what happened, she wasn't ready to admit it out loud. The tears silently spilled down her cheeks and he held her as she let her pent up anger and sadness out.
By April, her period was two months late and fear swept through her as she considered the possibility of being pregnant. She still hadn't told anyone about the rape and all she wanted was to put the whole terrible incident behind her. Sam hadn't touched her again, but she knew he wasn't remorseful about his actions. Carrie tried her best to avoid him as much as she could. Since she had school, Carrie wouldn't be able to see Kevin and his fiance get married, but that also meant that her mom and Sam would be in Glenoak the next weekend and she would be left at her aunt's house. Once she was at her aunt's house she knew it would be safe to see if she was pregnant.
She couldn't breathe. A blue line just predicted her future, or lack there of. I can't have a baby! It wasn't my fault! she thought as she held the stick in her trembling hand. X deserved to know, and she knew she had to tell him but she didn't know how to. She decided she would tell Sam first and see what he would do, since he was the father. An involuntary shiver worked its way over her. When Sam got home the next day, she would tell him what he did.
Her mother had to leave, and she again entrusted Carrie with Sam. She broke the news to him and didn't expect the reaction she got. Sam became violently angry and started to scream at her. He called her a "stupid bitch" and said he wouldn't allow her to ruin HIS life. He paused in mid- sentence and grinned the evilest of grins.
"Have you told anyone about this?" Sam asked her.
Carrie gulped and answered him, "N...no."
"Good, that's a good girl Carrie," he replied as he started to move towards her.
He trapped her in a corner and ripped off her clothing as she screamed. He raped her quickly before he started to beat her. Sam kicked her in the stomach hard until she couldn't move. Carrie knew there was no way a baby could have survived that, and she grabbed her stomach in pain. Sam laughed at his success and whistled as he left the room.
Carrie didn't know how long she laid on the floor that day. The next thing she knew it was dark and Sam had left her house. She knew she had to leave. There was no way he would rape her again. Carrie went into the bathroom and got some towels to clean up the blood on the floor and she changed her clothes. Tears slipped down her cheeks as she thought of the baby she'd never have because of him. Even though it wasn't conceived in love, it was still a part of her and it was her child. She threw everything away and packed a small bag. She wrote X an email and left her home in New York.
*****
Kevin stared at her in disbelief. He hated the entire ordeal and he was sick with grief. Carrie didn't look good at all. She was bruised on her arms and wrists and Kevin hadn't even seen her stomach. Kevin didn't even want to think about the damage that he did to her while he raped her. The thought sent hatred through his veins and he wanted to avenge this crime committed against her sister.
"Have you been to a doctor, yet," he asked her quietly.
Carrie took a breath and let out a strangled answer, "No."
Kevin looked at her for the first time in ten minutes, "You should probably see somebody. Let's go."
"Okay," Carrie agreed as she followed Kevin out the door and down the stairs.
A/N: Whew! That was the hardest chapter I've EVER had to write. I know it's intense, which is why I warned you at the beginning. If you did not heed my warning it's ur own fault, cause I did warn you. Tell me what you thought of it please!!!!! If u do I'll give u kudos.