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The Wall That Naru Built
Chapter Three
Confessions of a Broken Hearted Fox
A/N This is just my opinion but I am going to portray Kitsune in a way that you probably haven't seen before and in my opinion this is probably the most plausible reasoning behind her endless drinking and her personality. In the previous chapter, had Keitaro gotten fed up with her then Shinobu would have probably said what she said in the previous chapter. And yes they are gonna be short because I want each character to have their own chapter. In canon, they have no background so I am trying to give a realistic background to each of the characters.
And then there was Mitsune "Kitsune" Konno, the so called party girl of the dorm and one who was hardly seen with a sake bottle in her hand.
Everyone thought that she was happy and content with her life but that was just a mask that she wore. When she was alone, she revealed who she was. A sad, depressed suicidal girl who had everything she could have ever wanted but because of one mistake had cost her everything that had mattered to her. She had a boyfriend who she had loved deeply and was going to be a successful young woman with the love of her life beside her but that never happened.
She had just graduated from high school and Kitsune and her boyfriend were going to a party to celebrate. They knew that there was going to be alcohol there but that didn't bother either of them. They both drank until they were drunk and had a merry time but when they were to go home, she decided to get behind the wheel and drive home. She knew that she shouldn't drive home drunk but she drove anyway. On the way home, she lost control and got into a serious car crash. She left the wreck without a scratch but her boyfriend wasn't so lucky.
He was seriously injured and made it to a hospital but he didn't make it. The pain of knowing that it was her stupidity that caused his death. It was her fault but she didn't get hurt. She felt that she deserved to die in that fiery wreck and not him. It wasn't his fault but her own and that feeling ate away at her. She withdrew from the future that she had built for herself and started drinking heavily to forget why she hurt so much inside.
When she was with her friends, she wore the mask that nothing was wrong and she was happy. None of her friends knew about the accident and they really believed that she was happy. On the night stand next to her bed was a bottle of pills that she would use to end it all. Every night she tried to find a reason why she shouldn't just open that bottle and swallow them all and end her life. One day, she decided that night would be the day she finally ended it all but fate intervened. It was the day that Keitaro Urashima had come to the Hinata Sou.
When she first saw him, he reminded her so much of him. The man that was her boyfriend. The way he looked, the way he acted, it reminded her so much of him and she just couldn't do it. As time went on, he showed her a side that she had long forgotten and she found a way to be happy again. She threw that bottle of pills away and stopped drinking so much. When she saw what her friend Naru was doing however, it hurt her that she saw her doing almost the same thing. The same thing that she done.
She killed the love of her life and Naru was going to do it with her endless beatings. The way Keitaro started to treat Naru those many weeks ago had saw that inside he was dying and that broke her heart. She wanted to confess to him and to everyone what was going on inside her mind to everyone. She would lay her heart and soul out for everyone to see. She would show who the real Kitsune Konno was and the not the mask that she had shown for so long.
After Shinobu had said her piece, she knew it was her turn.
"I wanted to confess to you all that I am not the happy party girl that you had all thought I was. I had everything that I could have ever dreamed of but I was stupid and foolish and because of that I had lost the one thing that mattered most. I had a boyfriend and I had a future waiting for me but because of this. . . crap.
She pointed to the bottle of sake that she held in her hand.
The contents of this bottle and many just like it had cost me the love of my life and I felt responsible for it. I had a bottle of pills that I was going to use to end my life when I felt that there was nothing to live for and on the day that I had decided it was time . Fate intervened and gave me something to live for.
She pointed to Keitaro when she said this.
He reminds me so much of him and because of him, I now have something to live for and I just couldn't do it. I threw that bottle of pills away and he showed me that there was someone who did care about me. When I look at you Naru, I see me when I had cost myself everything that felt important to me and I just can't stand to watch it anymore.
I don't know if this make sense to any of you but this song will show you how I really feel. . ." Kitsune said.
It's easier to be blind
then facing all the pain that burns inside
It's so much easier to be blind
then face all the pain when you think you're all alone
something has been taken
from deep inside of me
a secret I've kept locked away
No one has ever seen
wounds so deep yet they never show
they never go away
like moving pictures in my head
for months and months they've played
If I could change it I would
If I could go back I would
redo every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take his place I would
If I could take all the pain to the grave I would
If I could change it I would
If I could go back I would
redo every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take his place I would
If I could take all the pain to the grave
It's easier to be blind
then facing all the pain that burns inside
It's so much easier to be blind
then face all the pain when you think you're all alone
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and taking my own life
and never going forward so because of one single man
If I could change it I would
If I could go back I would
redo every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take his place I would
If I could take all the pain to the grave I would
If I could change it I would
If I could go back I would
redo every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take his place I would
If I could take all the pain to the grave
Just watching innocence die
all of my helplessness inside
pretending I don't feel his pain
It's so much easier to run
It's easier to be blind
then facing all the pain that burns inside
It's so much easier to be blind
then face all the pain when you think you're all alone
It's easier to run
If I could change it I would
If I could go back I would
redo every wrong move that I made I would
It's easier to be blind
If I could change it I would
If I could go back I would
redo every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take his place I would
If I could take all the pain to the grave
the wall still stood but another crack had formed.
END
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Sword of steel, heart of broken glass