The Aftermath.
The night after was then officially the worst. Dad invited Spike and Melissa to dinner. It was hard to sit and watcher her all loved up with him. I bet he found it hard too, because he spent most
of the night staring at me, only when I looked at him he looked away.
After we ate I excused myself and said I had some college work to do.
I had been attending UC Sunnydale for only a month now and I really did
have work to do. So I figured I would get some of it done, at that point
I would have done anything to take my mind off Spike.
"In the periodic table, O is……" I thought aloud.
"Oxygen." A voice said from behind me.
I knew whose voice it was, Spike's.
I turned around and looked at the floor, "Hi." I said trying to be polite.
"We need to talk." He said bluntly.
"About what?" I was playing dumb then,
normally it worked, but not on him. Not on Spike.
I placed down my pen and looked at him.
Not in the eyes though, I couldn't.
"So…" I was the first to start.
"I'm sorry."
"For…?" I asked to sound like
I already had forgotten about it.
"Kissing you. You're a kid and I shouldn't have."
"A kid?" I was shocked, I knew I was young, but a kid? He had just gotten himself into my bad books then.
"Well, yeah." He looked confused at my sudden anger.
"I am not a kid, I'm eighteen for god sake." I stood up and clenched my fists.
"Easy there tiger." Spike said laughing at me being angry.
This made me even madder.
"Do not laugh at me." I gritted my teeth and swung for him,
it didn't work. He grabbed my fists and twisted me so he was at the back of me. I really wanted him to get off me then. For the first time I met him I really disliked him then.
"Get off me." I screeched loud enough for my mom or dad to hear.
"Your parents have gone out. Going to get some ice cream,
so it's just me and you in the house. And I really think he should talk."
I stopped tensing that moment and he let me go. I fell to the floor when he dropped me.
It kinda hurt, but I'd had worse.
"I think we should forget about it." I said,
I didn't want to. But it was the right thing to do.
Spike agreed he looked sort of disappointed.
"It's for the best." I said when he was about to leave and he just nodded.
I really regretted saying that. i wanted to be with Spike.
I knew I couldn't, he was my dad's best friend and work mate.
Besides I thought then it would never work out.
Boy was I wrong.