Chapter 4: The Whole Truth
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A/N: Sorry for the long wait. Here is the next chapter and there will be more letters this time around..
Jack,
I can not wait to see the look on your face when you find out where Claire and I went… but maybe I shouldn't tell you. Maybe it would be better not to. I know you'll be even angrier if I wait to tell you.. and I'm sorry to say, but I want to see you angry after how you've treated me. I know that's not the best thing right now since you are probably busy with something important, but still you should at least talk to me. You're not acting like the Jack I met, and it's scaring me. What are you hiding from me?
Kate
Kate sighed in frustration. She had started the letter angry and with a mission, by the end of it she was confused and sad again. She slammed the book and put it back in her backpack and swung her backpack over her back and left her tent, hoping to find some sort of distraction to get her through the day.
Kate saw someone out of the corner of her eye and realized it was Ana running. She stopped in front of her tent and seemed to be talking to someone. Kate got closer trying to see who it was, while trying to stay out of view. She could only hear snippets of the conversation as she hid behind the tree and she didn't understand it at all.
"We've got a man…. Others" Locke said.
Ana said something then Locke said, "Me and Jack."
Kate's ears perked up. What was this now?
"How long…..been …. There?" Ana asked.
Kate was really confused now.
"…Days…. Others…cop…." Locke said.
"Does Jack know…. Me… this?" Ana asked.
"…problem…Jack's permission.." Locke said.
Kate had no idea what was going on. A man? Did Jack and Locke find one of the Others?
By now Ana and Locke had left and Kate decided to follow and see what happened.
As she followed them, she decided to make her presence known and to see how they would react.
Kate walked onto the main path and caught up with them. "Hey! What's going on?"
"Nothing. " Ana flashed her a smile.
"You guys look like you're on a mission or something." Kate tried again.
"Oh we're just walking to the hatch." Locke said uncomfortably.
"Well can I come along?" Kate looked at their reactions.
Ana glanced at Locke.
Locke didn't miss a beat. "Sure."
Kate was disappointed. Oh well. Maybe when I get in there I'll find out what's going on.
Ana then engaged with Locke in a conversation about some of her problems on the other side of the island and Kate just fell silent.
When they reached the hatch, Kate began looking around for anything to be looking out of place. Everything looked fine.
Jack was sitting on the couch and when they arrived he got up. "Hey." He said, looking at all three of them, but avoiding Kate's gaze.
Kate stood still and tried to figure out the knowing glances the three of them were giving to each other. Kate just wanted to yell at them telling them she wasn't stupid.
It was silent in the room and finally Jack cleared his throat. "I think I'm going to go take a shower." Then as he walked past the three, he gave a knowing look to Locke. The look was saying, "Why did you bring the two of them in here?" but Kate had no idea what the look had meant. And right before Jack disappeared into the other room, he gave Kate a small nod and she just looked away.
Locke and Ana stood there looking at Kate. Kate felt like the odd man out and she realized she wasn't going to get any information out of them so she decided to leave.
"Well I'm just going to go then." Kate said. "I have to get to the beach to.. talk to Claire."
"Ok." Locke said.
"Yeah. See you later.'
Well try not to stop me there.. Kate thought.
Kate walked onto the path and finally decided to branch out and sit by herself. Sitting didn't help her any though so she took out her notebook again.
Jack,
Interesting how I've stopped with the formalities huh? I'm still mad at you, but more hurt than anything. I mean how can you hide whatever is going on from me? Who all knows about this little thing? Of course, I am hiding something from you too, so I guess we are both to blame. I would love to talk to you, but just looking at you scares the hell out of me. Why do you look at me like that? It drives me insane. I get all tingly inside and I can't handle it. I miss you so much. I just want to touch you, to talk to you. HOW DO YOU FEEL? I can't take this much longer.
Kate…..
Kate sat there for a long while, not sure of what to do. Things were getting really complicated around here.
Kate finally got up and started to walk again.
Suddenly, she ran into Sun.
"Are you ok?" Kate asked.
"Yes. Yes I am fine." Sun looked kind of flustered.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing." Sun forced a smile, hiding something behind her back.
"Sun please tell me. You know we are friends." Kate said softly and put a hand on her arm. She felt it tense up. Then suddenly it relaxed again.
"Ok." Sun submitted, then brought out the test from behind her back. Kate gasped.
"Sun? Do you know yet?"
"No. You see, I'm really nervous and I can't seem to read the instructions on how to know." Sun said, kind of embarrassed.
"Well here let me do this with you. You really should do this with someone for support." Kate was wondering where Jin was but considering what happened she figured it was something she shouldn't question.
After Kate read the instructions, they sat down on the beach and talked. Finally it was time.
'You're pregnant." Kate smiled.
"Is it 100 percent sure?" Sun asked.
Kate looked at her, then signed innerly. She knew where this was going to have to lead. "There's only one way to find out."
She stood up. "I'll go get Jack. You stay here all right?"
Sun looked up at her. "Ok."
Kate saw that she looked very troubled and it puzzled Kate. But she didn't think about it and she went to the hatch. Once again, she was going to Jack in order to help someone else, and the funny thing was, it was for Sun again.
She reached the hatch, her heart slightly beating faster, and spotted Jack leaning against the armory door, staring down so he didn't notice Kate coming in.
"What are you doing?'" Kate asked.
Jack looked up, obviously startled. "I'm uh.. just standing here… thinking."
Kate couldn't help but feel angry again because she knew he was hiding something, but she was grateful for feeling angry because that's how she wanted to feel towards him.
"Do you think that you could come down to the beach for a little bit?" Kate asked, enjoying the prospect of knowing something he didn't.
"Why?"
"Sun needs you."
Jack straightened up. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing too serious." Kate said calmly, but in a way that she knew would irritate Jack, and sure enough, it did.
"Well if it's not serious then why do I need to come now?"
"Just trust me."
Jack stared at her for a second, then sighed and walked into the other room to find Locke. Kate followed him.
"John? I have to go to the beach for a while. You think you're ok here with everything?"
John nodded from the spot at the computer. "Yeah."
"Do I need anything?" Jack asked Kate.
Kate shrugged nonchalantly. "No I don't think so."
Jack seemed to be thinking for a minute. "Well since I'll be going there anyways I might as well take my backpack. There's always going to be someone who will need help."
Kate watched as Jack grabbed his backpack.
"Ready?" He asked.
"Yep."
Jack began walking and Kate followed him
As they walked Kate felt the awkward silence between them, but she was enjoying his presence none-the-less. It was hard to get the doctor all to yourself. But as they got closer to the beach, Kate became less confident. He could at least ask me how I am.. of course I could do the same..Oh why do we have to be so stubborn? Without realizing it, Kate sighed loudly.
"What?" Jack looked behind him at her.
"What?"
"You sighed."
"Yeah so?" She made it sound harsher than she had intended.
Jack looked taken aback. "Is something wrong?"
Yeah. You've been avoiding me and I miss you so freakin' much and you don't seem to care at all. "I'm fine." She said, looking at the ground. That seemed to satisfy him and they moved on.
They finally reached Sun and Jack began talking to her. Kate wasn't really listening. She was looking at Jack, more like staring at him. She looked at his eyes first. Those big, caring eyes. The nose even looked more handsome than usual. She brought herself to look at his lips. Oh how she missed those lips. They'd not kissed long, but she could still taste him. She shook her head a little and tried to pay attention to the conversation.
"Oh it's possible." Jack said. He looked happy. So Sun was pregnant. Kate smiled.
"please Jack, this is private, nobody can know."
"You're not going to tell Jin?" Kate couldn't believe it. She knew that a marriage survived on honesty and loyalty among other things and she couldn't believe that she wasn't going to tell Jin. Of course, she reminded herself yet again of when Jin had learned she spoke English.
"In time I will, it's just-it's complicated."
"As complicated as Kin being the last one on the island to find out you spoke English? Sun, my advice, and it's just that because I'm the last person to ask about this, but," Jack bit his lip and Kate tried not to sigh. She loved it when he did that.
"You should tell him. Ad when you do you should tell him everything. The whole truth."
Kate looked down. The whole truth…She realized she'd be pondering that sentence later on.
"I'm going to get back to the hatch. Congratulations Sun." Jack said and turned to leave.
Wait, he's leaving? He just got here! There is definitely something going on…Before she knew it, she was confronting him. "You've been down there a lot Jack." Kate rushed out, then slowed down and gave him a once over. "Is everything ok?"
Jack turned around and looked at her. Kate's breath got caught in her throat. Was that hurt she saw in his eyes?
"Sure yeah. Everything's fine." He nodded and gave her a small smile then he left.
Kate sighed. That was obviously all she was going to get from him.
A/N: Sorry for the long wait! I'll try to get the next chapter up faster. This story is going to end at the end of S.O.S. if you are wondering. And of course it will be a different ending. The next chapter will start with a letter.