Are we excited?

I am SO excited.

You don't even understand.

SO EXCITED!

And by the way, if you have Love's Divine by Seal... it's like my best song choice ever. Listen to it.

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Debbie's Blog

I need to sit down. I have no idea what just happened.

First of all, Addison Shepherd left her baby in the care of Meredith Grey. Mini-Shepherd immediately started to scream bloody murder only to be rescued and comforted by He-Shepherd. Unfortunately Mini-Shepherd has lost me a lot of money, Derek IS her father, as I learned from Dr.Grey. Apparently we are all blind and the baby has Derek's eyes. If only I was one of the many women that get lost in his eyes on a regular bases, I might not have lost $200.

So just as the world is settling down from the paternity shock, She-Shepherd shows up. The former Mr. and Mrs. GLARED at each other for a full minute (it was like an old western without the tumbleweeds) before starting an all out brawl in the middle of the hall.

Now I have no idea what it going on. I heard 'custody' mentioned.

Oh god. One of them is going to draw blood.

May be this is a dream.

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"This is the meanest thing that you have ever done too me."

"I'm sorry Meredith," Addison apologized, "Believe me, I am not doing this on purpose."

Jameson's eyes brimmed with tears.

Addison winced, "And I should warn you, she gets a little anxious around strangers right now so she is not going to like it when I leave."

"Strangers?" Meredith questioned, "Are you sure she isn't just genetically disposed to hate me?"

"That's funny," Addison chuckled, "You're funny."

"Thanks," Meredith replied dryly.

Addison gave her an apologetic look, "I am really sorry," she backed away, "I really am."

James watched wide eyed as Addison disappeared through the swinging doors.

Meredith stood motionless, please don't cry, please don't cry.

James furrowed her brow and let out a piercing cry.

Meredith cursed karma. So she slept with a married man. It was a very long time ago. They weren't still dwelling on it, why were the karmic gods?

Meredith paced up and down the hospital corridors. The shoulder of her scrubs was soaked through with Jameson's tears and she showed no sign of relenting. No one would even come near her. She actually saw George turn and sprint in the opposite direction.

Suddenly James started to squirm. Meredith could barely keep hold of her as she strained desperately to get out of her arms.

"Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa," she screamed desperately, trying her hardest to get to someone she recognized, "Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa."

Derek gently lifted the screaming baby out of Meredith's arms. James clung to him with all her strength.

"It's not me," Meredith explained defensively, "Addison said she does this with all strangers"

Derek simply nodded, rubbing the baby's back already pacifying her.

Meredith walked over to the nurses station. A gaggle of nurses stood motionless, completely in shock.

Meredith shook her head, "You can't actually be surprised? She clearly has his eyes."

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"Page Dr.Grey," Addison instructed.

"She's in surgery with Dr. Bailey."

"Excuse me?" Addison dropped her chart on the counter, "Then where is my daughter?"

"Dr. Shepherd has her," the nurse smiled knowingly.

"Derek's back?" Addison's head snapped up, "He's a day early."

"James must have missed him," the nurse continued, "As soon as she saw him she started to yell 'DaDa'."

"Did she," Addison murmured icily, "He must have been thrilled."

"I was."

Addison turned to face him, her chart clutched tightly to her chest, "Where is she?"

"Sleeping in Richard's office."

She glared, her jaw set and her eyes narrowed.

"Addison..."

"You should probably stop by the house before tonight," Addison informed him cooly, "I have someone coming over at 6 to change the locks."

"What?"

"All your things are in the garage." Addison turned on her heel and walked away.

"Addison..." Derek took several long steps to catch up with her, grabbing her by the arm, "What the hell is going on."

"Do not touch me," she hissed.

"Addison!" he refused to let go of her arm, pulling her back when she tried to walk away, "We are going to talk about this."

"Talk to my lawyers," she spat, "You want to fight me for custody, you are going to have to fight me for custody."

"What.."

"You lied to me," she raged, "I was barely even pregnant and you were drawing up custody papers. I never want to see you EVER AGAIN!"

Derek paled, "You went though my stuff..." he murmured.

"No!" she exclaimed, "I packed your stuff! I thought you couldn't forgive me this time, and that was fine, I deserved that. But you've been planning on leaving me all along. You never loved me! You used me!"

"I did not!"

"April Derek! They are dated April! We had only known a few weeks. Why? Why did you want to take her from me? God. I let you back in. In to my home, in to my life. And all you wanted was her. How could you do this to me? To me? How dare you use me like that! You really wanted a child that badly that you would make me believe that you loved me? How could you? You convinced me it was true. I doubted you and you convinced me. You betrayed me Derek! Again. You convinced me to have her just so you could take her away. I never should have trusted you! NEVER!"

"Addison," he grabbed at her arm again.

"Let go!" she exclaimed ferociously

"NO!" he jerked her arm violently, "Tell me what I was suppose to do. Just give me some indication of what I was suppose to do. She is all I have. She is the only thing that is mine, and there is NOTHING stopping you from taking her away from me. I just DIDN'T WANT TO LOOSE MY DAUGHTER."

"You..."

"Listen to me. Just LISTEN TO ME Addison! You refuse to get married..."

"Smartest decision I have EVER made!"

"So you can LEAVE ANYTIME YOU WANT ADDISON!" he threw his arms up in the air, "You can leave and you can take her. You have no obligation to me! So what was I suppose to do? Wait until you disappeared back to New York or off to Italy before I did anything? I love her more then anything! I could not sit back and let you TAKE HER FROM ME!"

Addison stared at him. "I cannot BELIEVE you!" she pulled back and hit him as hard as she could with her chart, "You have been sitting back," she continued to hit him, madder then she was before, "You have been SITTING THERE just WAITING for me to SCREW UP. WHY?"

"Addison!" Derek attempted to block the blows.

"How could you NOT TRUST ME? GOD! Derek!" she let her arm drop to her side as she panted for breath.

"How could I?"

Her eyes flashed, in an instant her chart was coming into contact with his arm again, "ARGH!" she exclaimed, "HOW. COULD. YOU. NOT. TRUST. ME? AFTER. EVERYTHING! I CAN'T. BELIEVE. YOU. THINK. I WOULD. CHEAT. ON. YOU. AGAIN."

"You DID!"

"I. DID. NOT!"

"Stop HITTING ME Addison!"

"I. CAN'T. BELIEVE. I. WASTED. ANOTHER. YEAR. WITH. YOU!"

"STOP!" Derek made a mad lunge at her wrist and pinned it across her body pressing her hard against the wall. Her chart clattered loudly against the floor "... stop it."

She froze, "You going to hit me again Derek?" she breathed hoarsely.

He didn't react.

Neither moved for what seemed like an eternity.

She winced "You're hurting me."

"You hurt me first," he replied gruffly, but loosened his grip on her wrist considerably.

"I don't know how to fix us anymore," she whispered, "It's to hard."

Derek nodded and took a step back.

His eyes locked with hers for a long moment. Then he turned and walked away.

"Derek?"

He turned back to face her just as her arms went around his neck pulling him towards her.

"Addison," his hand attempted to push her away.

"Just hug me Derek," she instructed.

"Addison..."

"Put your arms around me," she told him again, tightening her own across his shoulders "I'm not letting go."

Obediently he put his arms around her, stiffly, trying not to touch her.

They stood motionless in the middle of the hallway, staff all around them staring.

Slowly their breathing evened out and synchronized. She knew the exact instant when he forgave her and she forgave him; his arms seemed to relax and tighten around her at the same time. She sighed, relaxing against him.

"We are stuck with each other," she informed him, "We might as well accept it now."

His arms tightened, "We are to screwed up for other people anyway."

"Exactly," she smiled, "But we are perfectly screwed up for each other."

"Mm hmm," he murmured his agreement against her shoulder.

She sighed softly, "I love you."

He squeezed her tighter.

She leaned back and rested her forehead against his, "This is where you say that back."

"I love you too," he replied gently.

"Do you mean it?"

He chuckled, "Very much."

"Good," she whispered with a smile playing on her lips, "Now kiss me."

He smiled brushing his lips chastely over hers.

"Okay, kiss me better," she teased.

He laughed, pulling her tightly against him, lifting her slightly off the ground as he kissed her. She squealed as her feet left the ground, and they smiled against each others lips.

"Add?" he smiled, "Will you marry me?"

She grinned, tightening her arms around his neck and kissing the tip of his nose, "Absolutely not."

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Then the rainstorm came over me

And I felt my spirit break

I had lost all of my belief you see

And realize my mistake

But time through a prayer to me

And all around me became still

I need love, love's divine

Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind

Give me love, loves is what I need to help me know my name

Through the rainstorm came sanctuary

And I felt my spirit fly

I had found all of my reality

I realize what it takes

'Cause I need love, love's divine

Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind

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