Ok, uber short chapter, why? Because I want one. This is basicly a short chapter on Ryuichi's thoughts. I thought it was kinda pointless, but read anyways.

Disclaimer: Must I say this? You already know what I own, and don't. Like Gravitation for instance, I don't own that. My dead bonzai plant, yes I own that.

If you too thought this was pointless, just gimmie a shout. I don't mind.

"Am I selfish for wanting the things that I want? Or am I too selfless to not care about the consequences?"

Silent Interlude:

I can feel their gazes on my hand, which is now grabbing a part of Sakuma-san's shirt. Why am I doing this?

Like hell I know.

"Are you feeling alright Tatsu-chan?" Yumi's hands feel as cold as ice, as she pries my fingers off of his expensive shirt. I just stand there, looking like a idiot with no purpose at all, but to stain that expensive shirt with my grubby hands. The whole room is tensed up, I can feel it.

I open my mouth. But as quickly as I had opened them, I shut them back closed the same way. I can't speak.

Unless he knows how to read lips. He'd have so many good qualities then.

Arg! Stop thinking about that, what happened to good ol' Tatsuha, before he came into my life. Girls, girls, girls. Yep, that was the life. I should just turn around, let him leave, then go back to gathering all the sexy girls that I know.

But that won't happen. I feel like theres an invisible box surrounding me, only giving me enough room to breathe. Why won't they say something? Why doesn't he say anything? Is he disgusted by my act?

I just don't know.

Ryuichi's POV:

Why I chose to come here, was completely my choice. Thanking Tatsuha wasn't what I really wanted to do. Shuichi was kind enough to give me directions, but lying to him made me felt a little guilty. But he doesn't need to know the real reason.

I just can't shake off this feeling that Tatsuha doesn't want me around. Maybe Tohma did a bit too much damage on his brain. I don't know, but after I saw that girl and Tatsuha "together", I wanted to hurl. She was wrapping herself all over him, like snake beginning to choke it's prey. I wanted her off. Did he want the same thing?

Then it was sudden, very sudden. His little act almost made me jump in fright. It scared me, not being able to know what Tatsuha was thinking. I couldn't read him, he wasn't like the open book Shuichi was like. Tatsuha... Tatsuha is different. His eyes could fool any pretty girl, and at times, they could fool me.

I feel dirty.

His simple act of touch made me feel like the criminal I am. I hurt him, therefore I am the devil, in which his angelic touch burns across my skin. Even if it was indirect, I could still feel it, the lingering hope which he emitted at that time. A hope for what? False wanting? He has that girl by his side, he would no longer want me. Besides, after all the horrible occurrences that have happened around me, why is Tatsuha to blame? It should be me, and me only. I will take on the punishment in which my sins that are still not atoned for harshly. I should not even be here.

Somehow, he still makes me feel like a human being, not the false me. Just me. Even if he is another one of my fans, he continues to cheer me on. It makes me feel warm, and his voice lets me know that every thing is alright. My worries disappear on the stage, and I sing. Sing for him. My words reach his ears, and he listens. To every last detail in which I give.

A new song plunders in from a different source.

And the crowd disappears.

I am the last one on the stage, and yet he is still here. By my side, without doubt, a true fan till the end. How much longer can he stand this? Can he wait idle forever, or must I give him the first push?

I watched as he opens his mouth to possibly say something, but it never came out. It only shut as fast as he had opened it. If he wishes to say something, then say it! Either I will be rejected, or I won't, but what hope is in my acceptance? He may just throw me out as fast as the other people have before.

This silence is deafening.

Why doesn't he say anything? Have I faded away so much that even my voice will not reach you any longer?

I will not sing for you.

I will not give you the push.

Please, Tatsuha.

What do you want?

I just don't know.

Didn't this chapter kinda feel like a pointless rant? Oh well, thats just what I think. This is the first 2 worded title so far, and it does have a meaning. Silent, because none of the two main characters talk, cept Yumi at one point, but that doesn't count.

I'll be gone in California for about a month, or shorter, so don't expect anything soon.

Cya soon my fans! (Hopefully)