"A Love to Remember"
Chapter 6: Realizations?
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Narrator's POV: At Sesshomaru's family cottage:
Sesshomaru drove up to his family cottage for about 2 hours and Kagome was still asleep. 'How could I let this happen to her? Weren't there any signs or warnings that this was going to happen?' No. And he knew it. There were no signs that hinted that Inuyasha was going to try to rape her. Yet, he kept blaming himself for her misfortune.
If he had told her his feelings earlier instead of being a coward, then she wouldn't have been in this position now. Pulling up into the cottage garage, Sesshomaru parked the car in the enormous driveway. Sesshomaru turned towards her and stared at her and gently moved a strand of hair out of her face.
The face that belonged to the woman that he wanted for a long time now. He leaned over slightly and placed a gentle kiss on her lips. The kiss was so gentle and soft that it felt as light as a feather or as air, barely noticed.
He chuckled to himself. He compared the kiss to his actions towards her. The kiss was passionate, deep, and was intimate, yet if not paid close attention to, it could and would go unnoticed. His feelings too, were passionate, shy, and yes, if not paid close attention to, they would go un-noticed, and they did go un-noticed. How ironic huh?
He could only stare at his angel. Usually, the average 17 year old male (his age) would be having dirty thoughts about her, seeing that all she was dressed in was her bra and panties and his jacket pulled around her, but not enough to cover her full developed body. However, remembering what she had just been through, he felt that even if they where just thoughts, they would betray her trust towards him. And that ladies and gents was the last thing he wanted to do.
Realizing that the sun was setting and that it was getting a little chilly, he decided that it was time to awaken his beloved-beauty. (Kawii)
Lightly shaking her shoulders to awaken her, but not to harm her Sesshomaru said "Kagome, sweetie, you need to get up now"
Kagome's eyes started to flutter open and the first thing she saw where a pair of golden eyes. Thinking that they belonged to another, her eyes widen tremendously.
"Please" was all she could make out in a low voice, like a whisper. Scared of what horrid fate she would endure now.
"Shh, shh, it's okay. You're with me now," Sesshomaru replied stroking her cheek.
"S-Sessho?" She asked shocked, memories of the past few hours rushing back to her.
"Yes, I'm here with you. And now I won't ever let you go."
He got out of the car and walked to her side and opened the door. Thinking that he was going to let her walk, Kagome moved her feet out of the car and prepared to walk. However, Sesshomaru never intended to let her walk, so he bent down and lifted her up into his arms and walked to the front door with her in his arms.
Placing the key in the lock, Sesshomaru pushed the door open and walked inside. After closing the door, he walked with grace, around the house and up the stairs.
Kagome couldn't believe her eyes. Even thought it was a cottage, which meant that it wasn't suppose to be SO lavish with antiques, but with Sessho's family you should always expect the best even dealing with the simplest matters. Looking around the gorgeous house, Kagome could only stare in awe, at the house and at her savior.
However, one question just kept reeling its ugly head 'what did he mean when he said, "I love you",' Sighing to herself, she just rested her head upon his shoulder and relaxed and tried to prepare herself for what was to come. But something told her that what ever it was, she could never be prepared for it.
Sesshomaru walked down the hall, and entered the second room to his right, turns out the room was a bedroom. Kagome was a little nervous and apprehensive of being taken into a bedroom, but after seeing how it was decorated, she felt a lot better.
The room's color scheme was all different shades of blue. The bedding had a dark blue comforter, which was pulled back slightly, and the sheets where a soft ocean blue and the pillows had a color verity of many different shades of blue. The dresser was a nice big size, bigger than an average one. It was a light wood color, but it didn't look cheap, nor did interrupt the scheme or the room. On the far end of the room, where two giant windows, that had white blinds and baby blue currants. On the wall opposite of the bed was a 44 inch TV. Many other grand objects adorned the room, but Kagome only found interest in the most obvious ones.
Turning towards Sessho, she gave him a gaze that clearly asked 'what is this for or why are you bringing me in here?'
Walking into the room completely now and setting Kagome on the bed, Sesshomaru gave her a quick "I'll be right back" and he left the room and walked into the adjoining bathroom.
I hope I'm doing the right thing by bringing her here he thought to himself.
Kagome was thinking something along the lines of that also. I hope I'm doing the right thing by coming with him.
Kagome's thoughts:
Why did he do it? Was I THAT ugly to him? Did I lead him on? Why is Sesshomaru being nice to me all of a sudden? Is he pitting me? I don't want his pity. What did he mean when he said that he loved me? I don't want to know love, if love leads you to the path of nearly getting raped then it can go straight to hell!
End of her thoughts:
She couldn't take it anymore. All of the stress, the emotions, the events where getting to her. They would get to anyone. Sessho rushed out of the bathroom after hearing her soft screams of agony and ran to her side. He lifted her up into his lap and rocked her back-and-forth while rubbing her back and saying sweet words of comfort such as "its ok", "let it out", or (my fav one!) "It's okay I'm here with you. You have nothing to be scared of".
"I-I can't take this. W-why w-w-would he do this? Sniffs Am I that a horrible person to deserve this?" Kagome choked out, if he wasn't there right next to her he would have missed what she had said.
Sessho gently grabbed her arms; even though it was gentle, it was also forceful enough to get her attention, but not to harm her.
"Kagome, look at me." When she didn't he got a little frustrated. I mean wouldn't you get frustrated after seeing the one you cared about get nearly raped/ beaten, then see them brake down and try to blame themselves for someone else's actions? Exactly.
He shook her a little and allowed a little more authority into his voice, but still kept it soft and caring and said again " Kagome look at me," When she continued to avoid his gaze he said in a low, pleading voice, "Please,"
Then she, o-so finally, decided to look at him. What he saw made his heart ace. Her eyes where dull, and puffy, and her face held an expression he never wanted to see again. Defeat.
Sesshomaru's eyes filled with tears. Yes, tears. Tears of pain and hurt for the love of his life, and tears of helplessness. He hugged her body so close and tight against his that he was sure to suffocate her, but he didn't care. His world was slowly crumbling because of his cowardliness. He cried because he was scared of "what if –". That scared him the most, 'what if he didn't come back for his wallet?' 'What if he didn't forget his wallet?' 'What if he told her his feelings a lot sooner?' Those questions and a million more were eating at him.
They both cried for about an hour, and then Kagome was the first to speak,"Sessho, w-what d-did you mean when y-you said that you l-loved me?''
"Kagome, baby I've loved you for along time," Sesshomaru replied while taking her face in-between his hands and looking her dead in the eyes.
Kagome was in shook, well shook was an understatement, and she was in complete awe.
"T-then how, why, didn't you tell me?"
"Because you where completely gaga for Inuyasha,'' Sesshomaru said.
"But you still could have told me,"
"Kagome, all I wanted was your happiness, and if that meant you being happy with another man, then, 'sighs' I guess I would have to just deal with that.''
Putting her hands on top of his, while blushing Kagome asked, "When did you, um, start liking me?''
Chuckling a little from her embarrassment, he answered, "Since 9th grade, while you where in the 8th grade. You and Inuyasha were working on a school project and I just fell for you then.''
Blushing madly, Kagome leaned towards his face, and said "I liked you then too, but you never showed any kind of hint that you were even aware that I was alive, so I settled for him.'' Giggling she added, "I guess we've both been cowards,"
Giving a rare and genuine smile, he replied with a small "yes'', and kissed her on the cheek. "Let's get into some 'real' clothes shall we?'' he suggested, while getting up, but still having her safe in his warm and loving arms.
Blushing again, Kagome just nodded while adverting her eyes from Sessho's gaze.
"But, um, I have no clothes here," she said kind of confused as to where she was going to acquire clothing. (I felt so smart writing, well, typing that LOL!)
"I have some spare clothes that you can borrow, and when you're ready, we can go shopping,"
Shopping? All he said was a word, he has no idea as to what position he put himself in when he said "'we' can go 'shopping' '', Girls, you know what I mean!
"'Yawns' okay, but I'm a little tired so can I change and take a nap first?'' she asked uncertainly.
"Sure," he said while walking out of the "blue room'' and walking down the hall and entering another room.
"This is my room," he answered her before she had time to ask the question. Sesshomaru gently placed her on the bed and walked to the closet and chose a t-shirt and a pair of pants. The pants must have been from his 'younger years' because they looked like they would fit her. And with him being 6'0, his pants that he wears now would be a little TOO big for her.
As he picked out some clothes for her to wear, Kagome looked around the room, and saw that the color scheme must have been red. (Not surprising! 'Rolls eyes')
His room looked exactly like hers except it was different shades of red instead of blue.
Handing her a pair of pants, socks, and a t-shirt he pointed to a bathroom that was connected to his room. He also handed her some soap and a wash cloth and a towel so she could take a shower.
After seeing her walk into the bathroom and hearing the water run, Sesshomaru walked downstairs to fix them something to eat. He was sure that she was hungry. So, he fixed her favorite, Spaghetti. (He-he that's my favorite so I just had to put it in there!)
--Skips—an hour later:
Kagome walked out of the bathroom, feeling refreshed. She felt like going to sleep, but she was still slightly weary. She kept thinking about what Sesshomaru said, and she felt like she could trust him. But the last guy she said she could trust, well, she really didn't want to entertain the thought of what could have happened.
Sitting on his bed, Kagome just thought about what would happen if she and Sesshomaru got together.
(Another lovely conversation with Kagome's inner-self)
Bold is an inner-self response:
Italic is Kagome's responses:
Can I trust Sessho?
Kagome, you already know the answer to that, yes you can.
But, the last guy I trust, I was nearly raped, I don't want to go through that again.
Kagome I understand that you don't want to get hurt, but you can't blame every guy for one guy's mistakes.
I know I know, but do I simply trust someone just because his words sound good? No.
True, true, but do you abandon the chance of love and trust because you got hurt badly? No.
No. 'Sighs' but I won't simply give him all my trust just yet, but I won't abandon love either. I'll wait until I'm sure before I completely trust someone.
Good!
Okay.
(End of conversation):
Giving herself a re-assuring nod, Kagome fell asleep on Sesshomaru's bed. And she dreamt dreams of love, and not once did she have a nightmare, at least, not now.
With Sesshomaru:
Sesshomaru was very proud of his accomplishment. He had prepared one of Kagome's favorite foods without having to call for the fire department. Yes, I would say that's an accomplishment alright. Turning off the stove, he went upstairs to check on his beauty, his angel, his 'hopefully' soon-to-be girlfriend.
Walking into her room, he saw no one, so he decided to check on her in his room. Walking into the room he saw her lying on his bed, on top of the covers resting peacefully.
Smiling to himself, Sesshomaru silently walked towards the bed and gently picked her up, so he won't wake her, and he placed her under the covers. Her raven hair mad a dark, yet beautiful curtain on his pillow. Walking to the other side of the bed, Sesshomaru took off his shoes and carefully got under the covers as well. He scooted closely behind Kagome's back and wrapped his arms around her waste. He didn't let the fact go un-noticed that she bathed in his soap and washed her hair with his shampoo.
The scent didn't make him turned on, nor did it turn him off. It just made him think, this feels so right. She was in his bed, even thought they weren't doing anything, she had his clothes on. She washed in his soap and shampoo, and she was wrapped in his arms. Hell, she might as well have Sesshomaru's name tattooed on her. Right now everything about her said Sesshomaru. No matter what anyone said, Kagome was finally his.
He fell into a deep slumber, a peaceful one at that, knowing that finally, Kagome was his.
However, unknown to the couple, their troubles were far from over.
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