Free From Hell.
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Chapter 19: Daft, Crazy And Insane.
Stay low/ soft dark and dreamless/ far beneath the nightmares and loneliness/ I hate me/ for breathing without you/ I don't want to feel/ anymore for you...
Dark thoughts kept going through Jack's mind as he sat in his cabin and drowned himself in rum. He didn't want to be in this world anymore without Karla. It had been weeks since she had died, but yet to Jack it still felt so close. He hated feeling so alone. He didn't want to feel the pain and suffer anymore for losing his best friend. He didn't want to live without Karla.
Grieving for you/ I'm not grieving for you/ nothing real love can't undo/ and though I may have lost my way/ all paths lead straight to you...
Jack took another swig from his rum bottle. He felt like crying again, but all his tears had run dry. He was still crying and screaming on the inside. He didn't want to breath without his younger sister. He thought that he could get over this and move on, but he still could not seem to find happiness anywhere in his soul. There was only one thing in the world he wanted anymore.
I long to be like you/ lie cold in the ground like you...
Jack thought his shattered heart would never end. He thought his wounds would never heal. He knew he was going insane, giving in to the depression that seemed to surround him now. He could never feel and think like he used to before. He felt he would never be able to be positive ever again. He never would have thought that something would hurt this bad. He would have never imagined the agonising pain that Karla's death had put him through. Most of all the thing that pained him the most was that Karla had died at the hands of her own father, her own flesh and blood did that to her. Jack hated himself the most for letting his beautiful, innocent little sister down. He hated himself for letting Karla get hurt.
Halo/ blinding wall between us/ melt away and leave us alone again/ humming, haunted somewhere out there/ I believe our love can/ see us through in death...
Jack never wanted Karla to be so far away from him. He was scared now, was Karla even safe where she was? Did it really set you free? He just didn't know...Karla seemed so sad to leave this world, or maybe it was a look of peacefulness for finally being free from this hell of a life. Maybe Jack should go so he could be with his family too...maybe he would be with Karla if he went to sleep and escaped into his dreams again.. Maybe he would be with her again, maybe she will be able to see him and know how much Jack really loved her. Jack just wanted to feel her one more time, all he wanted was to be able hear her innocent little voice again. He just wanted to see her smile and her eyes again. he wanted to make sure she was truly happy.
I long to be like you/ lie cold in the ground like you/ there's room inside for two/ and I'm not grieving for you/ I'm coming for you...
Jack finally passed out and went into his fantasy world again where he would be with Karla. He saw her smiling as she lay in that coffin and he smiled. He was finally next to her...where he belonged and he wanted her to know that he was there and he loved her, and that she wasn't alone. Jack would always be with Karla, well at least in his dreams he could be.
You're not alone/ no matter what they told you/ you're not alone/ I'll be right beside you/ forever more...
I long to be like you sis/ lie cold in the ground like you did/ there's room inside for two/ and I'm not grieving for you/ and as we lay in silent bliss/ I know you remember me/ I long to be like you/ lie cold in the ground like you/ there's room inside for two/ and I'm not grieving for you/ I'm coming for you...
Jack woke up and a fresh lot of tears came and filled his eyes. Why couldn't he really be there with her? He thought his tears had run dry, but then again now his emotions were so unpredictable and so mixed up. He sobbed as he longed to be with his sister...or at least to know that Karla was here with him somehow and that she was happy. Suddenly he felt an invisible hand wipe away his tears, he looked up and around the cabin, but no one was there. Jack thought he really was going insane. Jack...why are you so sad? I'm happy and free big brother...and I'll always be with you. Jack looked around in confusion and wonder.
"Karla? Karla is that you sis?" He asked standing up drunkenly as he looked around. He couldn't see Karla anywhere, but he could definitely hear her sweet innocent voice. He looked around again and called out.
"Where are you? I-I can hear you, but I can't see you...Karla I don't understand..." Jack said as he really thought he had finally cracked and lost his mind. Your not going crazy Jack...I am here...I'm in the ship and inside your heart and everywhere. I loved the Black Pearl so much I thought that I would live here now, so I was close to you and everything. And I'll be free too. Jack heard Karla giggle and smiled.
"Wow...so does that mean as long as I'm on the Pearl ye'll be with me?" Jack asked. He was still in awe of this but he really did believe that Karla was still here now. He felt his heart and soul's darkness and all his wounds lift away...well at least a little bit. He was still in pain, but he felt a lot of his confusion and loneliness suddenly vanish. Jack...no matter where you are I'll always be with you. Jack heard Karla say as an invisible hand touched his shoulder gently. Jack's mouth grew into a big grin and he rushed up onto the deck.
"Captain! She's still here! She's still here!" Jack laughed happily as he approached Captain Williams and Bootstrap at the helm. They looked at Jack confused at his exclamation and his sudden joyfulness.
"Who's here Jack? what on earth are you rambling' on about?" Bootstrap asked with a small grin. Jack grinned at him lopsidedly.
"Karla, savvy? She's still here!" He said happily. The captain and Bootstrap looked at Jack still confused.
"How is she here, then lad?" Captain Williams chuckled. Jack looked at the captain with a glint in his eyes.
"She's the Pearl! She told me! She's living in the Black Pearl." Jack replied gleefully as he rushed back down to the galley to get some food. He hadn't eaten for days and he just realized he was starving.
Captain Williams and Bootstrap looked at each other with a Jack-has gone-insane look on both of there faces.
"Jack has really gone daft now, savvy?" the Captain chuckled to Bootstrap.
"Aye, but at least his got his life back in him and he's happy again, eh?" Bootstrap replied as he laughed.
Jack was a lot happier now knowing that Karla was still here, but he still had a pain that he needed to fix. He knew that he needed to avenge Karla's death and he was gonna do it for Karla. He was gonna give his father a taste of his own medicine. He knew it wasn't going to be long now aswell. Karla deserved the justice and Jack was going to give it to her.
AN: There, I know this is still sad, but I did try to end this chapter with a bit of happiness, savvy? I hope you enjoyed this chapter and thanks for all the reviews, please keep it up.