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Chapter4:

Raven as a Girl

Raven showered,trimmed her nails and washed her mouth using half of her toothpaste.She looked herself in the mirror,still naked,and examined her body with curiosity.'What made that boy praise me? She still wondered.Feeling like a boy,she put on her pink cotton panties,pink stockings and a pink bra.She loved the way her favourite color ''fights'' her pale skin.Again she sighted because of the lack of curves on her body.'I look just like a boy…' She thought and sadness touched her,but she shook her head a decided not to think about it.

Black shirt.Black jeans.Black steel-enhanced boots.Black leather jacket.Gloves.She didn't look black.She looked like the Grim Reaper himself.

''Umm…kill the christians?'' She tried the standard line.'Err…Raven?Lay off the crap,mmkay?'

''Right!'' She said to herself and went towards the main room.

The Titans team was gathered infront of the TV.They watched some new teenie-blond-haire-cheerleader-comedy-blockbuster.

''Guys?I'm going out.I don't think I'll be back early.'' Raven said.

''Aha.Yeah.Sure.''

They didn't even look at her.She frowned.

''And I'll screw with some guy who probably has aids and I'll get hooked on heroin.'' She tested their reaction.

''Aha.Yeah.Sure.''

''Fuck you guys.'' Raven opened the main door and flew towards the city.

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The club has prosaicly called ''Soddom'' and it was usually filled with misfits.The neo gothic decorations on the walls and overall dark atmosphere suited Raven quite fine.She sat in the dark corner and watched a bunch of headbangers wave their hair in all directions on the dance floor.She was smoking and drinking a small beer,not wanting to get drunk.She never drank alcohol of any kind so she was a bit worried.She didn't want to finish her first ''public appearence'' by puking on people.Things were going fine but something was wrong.No,not the music,the music was good.A local band was playing songs from almost every metal band known to man(and Satan).It was the fact that 95 of the girls was currently being groped.Yet,she sits alone.Raven noticed that small groups of girls that arrive in the club dissapear in a matter of minutes.Guys were acting like sharks!So…why is she still without a man?It took her awhile to realize that her whole posture is wrong.She was sitting with her legs and arms crossed so it seemed that she was angry.Her emotionless expression didn't help either.

'Strategy change!Hmm…folk tales say that a girl who is single always finds a guy if she starts to dance alone.I should…give it a try!' With fear she went to the floor and stood there for a few embarrasing seconds.Then she started to ''dance''.Raven doesn't dance at all.She never did.And her sense for aesthetics told her that right now she is dancing like a headless chicken.Not that other people were much different.But magick happened.A few guys formed a circle around her and started to give her inviting looks and touch her ''accidentaly''.She was blushing and sweating like a pig,nervous because of her ignorance about human mating rituals.She managed to smile at one of the guys,a strong killing machine.Losing her reason for a moment she leaped into his arms and frenched him.With relief she noticed that his breath was almost as bad as hers,so he wouldn't mind.Other guys sighted and scattered.Raven and her goth danced together for awhile,and she allowed him to touch her.She was gathering courage for the next move.With a shaking voice she asked him ''Wanna do it?''

He nooded and they went outside in the alley.Not a very romantic place.Raven saw a rat which was bigger than some cats.But she wanted this.Starfire said it was ''glorious'' and she couldn't bare the thought that she'll stay untouched for a long,long time.Even so,he won't realize that he is her first.Raven used her fingers to tear her hymen when she was 13.She didn't want to give such a pleasure and a reason to brag to some idiot.No guy will have the chance to say ''I popped Raven!''

They started to kiss and touch eachother and Raven sighted every time his hand would touch het crotch.

''I want to taste your blood…'' The guy whispered in her ear.A common phrase used by goths.

''Yes…I want to taste you too…'' Raven replied and started to kiss and lick his neck.The smell of man was slowly pushing her over the edge.

He reached into his pocket to find a condom when Raven sank her teeth into his vein.

He screamed like a little girl and pushed her away,jelled something at her and started to run.Raven stood silent for a minute,trying to figure out what just happened.

'But…I thought…fuck him.Fuck them.' ''Fuck you all!'' She screamed and went back into the club.She started to drink.

'Fucking posers…why did I come here?They are not like me,I'm not like them…they are just a bunch of metal crazed teenagers.I am real.I was born like this…black is my heart…' She continued to drink hard liquor and after fifteen minutes her thoughts were blurred.But she continued.

Sometime after four the security guys threw her outside and she wandered the city.She went home,but had trouble remembering where home was and what it ment.She puked her guts out several times and was covered with vomit.She was unsure did someone call her name.

Someone was infront of her.It was a man.

''Fuhk u,u cuck suhkin cum slut…I..I am a suprrheero.'' She blabed and tried to punch the guy but instead she fell down on her forehead.

''Ts!Kids these days…'' The man spoke and looked at her with disgust.Raven was lying unconcious on the sidewalk like a experienced drunk.

Yes I did change some things.R&R