The next day came and it was a rather blustery one. The trees seemed to blow with a fury not seen before by any of the boys or girls at Hogwarts school of Witchcraft and Wizardry. Sirius awoke remembering his unfortunate d-hall. "Ugh.." He groaned and turned over.

Remus felt the movement of weight and blinked his eyes open. "Huh?" he whimpered, cold air piercing the warmth of his skin when the blankets moved.

"I don't want to go to detention..." He mumbled through the pillow. "I have to go to quidditch try-outs first... Then I have to go to that..." He groaned even louder.

Remus, still in sleep mode, didn't register this, but snuggled into Sirius' arms, whimpering for warmth.

Sirius wrapped his arms around his love and kissed him on the cheek. His tanned skin against Remus' pale made him look even paler.

Remus smiled and looked up, fully awake and blushing. "M-morning."

Sirius grinned back. "Good morning." He ran a hand through Remus' sandy blonde hair and stared into his eyes.

Moony sighed contently, and put his head back down. "God, I don't want to get up...I just want to stay like this."

"It is Sunday so we've got a good... 5 hours before we have to be anywhere." Padfoot muttered looking at his watch.

"mmm...what can we do for five hours?" replied his love, yawning.

"Whatever you want..." He smiled and stretched. "How about we go find Wormtail and give him a wedgie..."

"Sounds like a plan." Remus said smiling. He curled closer to Sirius and sighed. Looking up, he lock their eyes, and just stayed there for a bit, wandering what was running through his love's head.

Sirius stared into Remus' eyes. He wondered how suddenly his life could change so fast. Just yesterday he was worried about coming home for the holidays and now all he had to worry about was Remus' next cute comment. He smiled to himself. "You know... we could also go for a fly. I have to be down at the quidditch pitch at 3 for try-outs... then at 8 we're due at McGonnagall's."

Remus frowned. "I don't like using a broom. I can never control it. Brooms have a death wish for me..." he said, his eyes narrowing at the thought.

"You won't have a thing to worry about it if I'm on the broom with you, love. Though we could also sneak to Hogsmeade. I'd like to look for a birthday present for you." He grinned.

Blushing, Remus snuggled his face into the sheets. "Me? A present?"

"Of course, my love. You. A present." Sirius chuckled. "So cute..."

Remus glanced up, he lower face still hidden. He blinked once or twice, then blushed deeply under Sirius' dominant gaze. "Um...Maybe...we should...do...something," he suggested, unusually flustered.

"Do something?" He laughed. "What do you mean?"

"I..I...I don't know!" he whimpered and hurriedly turned around to face the closed off curtains. Then, he burrowed into his blankets, escaping the light...and Siri.

"Are you suggesting we have sex again?"

Remus burrowed further under the blankets, giving no vocal response.

Sirius pulled him close. "Because that's perfectly fine with me..."

Remus scooted away, and further into his burrow, giggling madly.

Sirius smiled and strattled the boy's back. "You want to or not, love?"

Remus moaned at his touch and stopped his fidgety burrowing. "N-not yet...I..." and before he finished his sentence he slipped out of the bed and dashed into Sirius' to hide beneath his comforter.

Sighing, Sirius went over to him. "Why are you so jumpy all of the sudden?" He slipped under the comforter and wrapped his arms around Remus.

Remus squirmed and wriggled under his touch, whimpering quietly.

"What, love? What's the matter." Sirius nuzzled him.

Remus calmed down, and he became very, very still. "Wh-what? What just happened?" he asked, putting a hand to his forehead.

"You were acting all giggly..." Sirius looked extremely confused.

Remy turned around to face him, his face was more pale than normal and his eyes were dilated. "I...I don't remember that. I blacked out."

"Have you been doing any type of drug lately?" Sirius asked.

Remus gave him a dry look. "Sirius...did you really just ask ME that?" he said, giving his love a 'you hafta be kidding me' look.

"Sorry... that's the only explanation I have for such behavior..." He mumbled. "What the hell is going on?"

Remus looked concerned. His look became distant and lost. "I...I know why..." he whispered, clutching the sheets below him.

"Maybe we should talk to someone who might know." Sirius surveyed his boyfriend.

Remus looked up at him. "But, I know why...I...I just wish...it would go away..."

"What're you talking about, Rem? You know why it's happening? Then tell me."

Remus pushed himself away quickly, scrambling out of the bed. "I...I can't...I'm sorry Sirius."

He rushed to his trunk. pulled out some pajama bottoms, pulled them on quickly, then dashed out the door.

Padfoot looked confused and hurt all at once. "I thought we could tell each other anything now..."

Remus rushed out of the portait hall and wandered down a the nearest hallway. "I'm..so sorry my dearest," he whispered, tears streaking his snow-colored skin, "I just don't want him to hurt you..."

I wouldn't dream of hurting him. A cold voice muttered in the back of Remy's brain.

"Shut up. You liar..." he croaked, "That's exactly what you said about Amy..." Remus stopped, and leaned against the wall. He waited for the reply of his wolf.

You know he's lying... He always is. His wolf side muttered. He had a rough voice that wasn't really cold or scary.

Remus slid down the wall, his head throbbing. "Stop talking to me...It hurts...just go away...away."

They seemed to disappear. Sirius came walking through the portrait hole. "Remus... Did you mean...? Are we.. through...?" He looked on the verge of tears.

Remus looked back at him, his face was flushed and sickly. "Of..of course not Sirius. Why would I leave you?"

"I-if you don't want to tell me about that.. I'm perfectly fine with it. You can tell me whenever you feel like you can." Sirius blinked away some tears.

Remus clawed his way back up the wall and wobbled over to Sirius. He through his arms around him and hugged him tightly. "Don't cry. I love you."

"I love you too... I just want you to be happy, my love." He wrapped his arms around Remus' waist. "If you need help, I'm always here."

Moony nodded, his face resting in the crook of Sirius' neck. "I'll remember that." he said, hugging him tightly again. Sirius nodded and wiped his eyes. Remus pulled back and smiled at his love. "Let's go get dressed. I want to go on the broom ride with you..."

"R-really? You trust me to not let you fall?" He smiled as he went back to the common room.

Remus smiled playfully. "Of course. You'd never hurt me, would you?"

"Of course not." He replied quickly.

"Good. Now let's go." he said, pulling his boyfriend back to the tower.

They got back up to the boy's dorm and Sirius began to get dressed. He put on a shirt and pulled pants over the boxers he had put on to chase after Remus.

Remus stripped from his pajama pants and pulled on some boxers, jeans, and a t-shirt. He sat on the floor to pull some socks on, and he looked up at Sirius with a smirk. "Don't think I didn't notice your woody when I took those pajamas off."

Sirius laughed. "I've got a permanent woody... Especially when I'm around you."

Remus blushed, then averted his gave to pull his sneakers on.

Sirius buttoned up his red and black stripped shirt and put on a matching belt. He then pulled on his black and white converse. "Let's go find Lily and James making out and hide… then when they start playing tonsil hockey we'll make farting noises." Sirius chuckled. "I'm so immature."

Remus picked himself up off the floor and laughed heartily. "Sounds like fun!"

"I know where they go to make out... Apparently Lily thinks it's romantic, but James just like how nobody bothers them... Except me."

"Us." Remus corrected, taking the hand of his love.

They headed out of the boys dorm and went through the portrait hole into the hallway. "They go to this little clearing in the forest. James said something about trying to get laid today so I hope we don't walk in on anything..." Sirius beamed. "I think it would be great to see. Oh wait... Does Lily know about James and me having..." He sort of trailed off.

Remus frowned when Sirius mentioned this. He was still irked about James getting to be with Sirius before he could. "She probably doesn't" he answered, his voice a bit icy.

"Do I sense some hostility?"

The wolf gave him an irritated look. Behind that irritation was a bit of pain.

He kissed him lightly on the mouth. "I'm sorry, Rem. I don't love James like I love you. You know that."

Remus smiled. "Okay Siri, whatever you say."

"It's true... You're the only person I've ever had sex with that I actually loved." He grinned and wrapped his arm around his boyfriend's shoulders.

Remus blushed at the vivid memories from last night as they flooded into his mind. "Um...you too."

"I too what?" He asked as they stepped outside. At which time Sirius pulled out a cigarette and lit it. He took a long drag and blew out the smoke slowly.

"You're the only one I've ever...you know." he said, his face turning red very quickly.

"No... I don't..." He said through his cigarette and looked at Remus.

Remus flushed. "You're the only one I've ever had sex with!" he huffed, frustrated by his boyfriend's antics.

"Oh... I know." He said as he took another drag of his cigarette and offered it to Remus.

"No. It makes me sick." he said, pushing the cigarette away.

"Okay. I didn't know it did. Does me doing it make you sick?"

"Kinda," he said, "I just didn't want to insult you."

He threw it down on the ground and stepped on it. He then flung the package into the grass below him. "If you don't like it I won't do it."

Remus blushed. "N-no! You don't have to!"

Sirius shook his head. "You don't get it do you, Rem? I love you. I'd do anything you want me to. I'd give up anything... change anything if it didn't please you."

Moony stared at him. He was shocked. No one had ever said that to him before. "Si-Sirius..." he whispered, before throwing himself on the boy, hugging him tenderly.

"I'm... just telling you the truth." He hugged Remus back and smiled.

"I know...but...it's touching."

"More like Corny, but it's how I feel." Sirius admitted. Remus laughed and hugged him tighter.

Sirius smiled. "It's so weird... I never thought I'd feel this way."

Remus looked him in the eyes. "I agree. I never thought this emotion was real. Till now..."

Sirius nodded. "Shall we go and find Potter and his slut?" He laughed jokingly. "I kid. I love Lily."

Remus rolled his eyes playfully. "Sure. But, I always thought the slut in that relationship what James..."

Sirius chuckled and led his love to the forest. There was a path that was barely visible and wouldn't have been so if one hadn't been looking for it. Padfoot started into the forest as though he was walking into his own house.

Remus cautiously followed him, giving paranoid glances around every moment or so. "Are you sure we won't get caught. We just walked in here in broad ass daylight..."

Sirius chuckled. "I really don't care, Rem. And nobody pays us any attention." He turned around and embraced his love. "Don't be worried."

The wolf smiled and nuzzled the neck of his boyfriend. "Okay love, I trust you."

He took Remus' hand and led him through the path. They got to a small clearing and saw Lily laying on the ground. James had his head between her legs. They didn't even notice who had happened upon them.

Remus' face became red instantly. "Ohmigod!" he whispered hoarsely. "Wha-are...um...YOU CAN DO THAT TO A GIRL?!" His head spun suddenly and the next few things that entered his mind where things along the lines of "straights are gross".

James jumped and brought his head up. "Uh..." Lily pulled her skirt down quickly. Sirius turned and hurried off. An unreadable look plastered his features.

Remus snapped to his senses and ran after Sirius. He was surprisingly fast for how sickly he looked. In almost no time at all, he caught up with Padfoot and they both came to a stop outside the forest. Breathing heavily, Remus knelt on the ground as his chest heaved rapidly, attempting to recover oxygen loss.

Sirius plopped on the ground and put his head in his hands. "I didn't think it would hurt like that..."

Moony looked over when he said this. His chest still tight and heaving, he managed to get some words to come out of him mouth, "What? What hurt?"

He shook his head and put a weak hand over his heart.

Remus blinked. His breath had settled and he crawled over to his boyfriend. "Sirius? What's wrong love?"

"Doesn't even come to check on me... She must not care at all anymore. I only did it because... because I wanted her to be happy..." Sirius didn't even seem to notice his boyfriend close to him.

"What..." Remus said under his breath. It hit him so suddenly, what was wrong with Sirius. He still loved Lily. He rose from his spot on the ground, because where he was was the last place he wanted to be after realizing this. He backed up a few paces, then turned and ran. He reached the castle doors and stopped. His lungs were on fire, and he couldn't breath. Then he collapsed.

Sirius was brought back to reality by Remus running away. He stood up and looked after him, not sure if his legs would work. He saw him collapse, and he forgot his worries. He ran to him and knelt beside him. "Rem... I'm sorry..." he wrapped his arms around the boy and cuddled him close.

Remus' breath was shallow and steady, like someone that was sleeping. He didn't react to anything Sirius said, nor did he hear it. He was too exhausted, too tired...then it all went black.