.fault…
If Tezuka allows himself to think about it, maybe it was his fault for not being stronger, for not standing firm and saying "no" or "this is wrong" or "you're mistaken; this isn't what you really want", and that maybe he should've just ignored it, turned around, walked away while he still had the chance. But now…
Now, he had seen the look in Ryoma's eyes, had seen the determination and the passion and the intensity and what could've been Ryoma's very soul reflected in those eyes, all because of him, for him… And he realizes, with a bit of irony, that he hadn't been careful enough, that it was too late… He was already caught.
From then on, there would be no turning back.
…end.