NOT UNTIL EASTER
CHAPTER 10
Long silence filled the whole room
"Ed...I'm..."
"Sorry?" Ed completed the sentence as he slowly tried to compose himself to get on his knees. "Like I said a commonly abused word in this cruel world," Ed murmured, "If you were truly sorry you wouldn't have done it"
He rubbed his cheek slowly and tenderly trying to heal the current bruise on his face.
See, when Roy hit him it wasn't those wimpy bitch slaps it was those hard ass hits. Actually, it was more like a punch than a simple slap, which left memorizing painful bruise on the young blonde-haired boy's face.
"Also" Ed started with heavy heartbreaking distress in his voice "your right, you aren't like my dad" Ed got up completely on two legs "I'm SURE he would have never hit my mom"
He made his ways to the steps "I...I'm going to bed. I-I have a lot of things to think about" Ed brushed out between his teeth.
"No, Ed, please!" Roy pleaded, he did not know what to say, I mean, if you hit somebody you care a lot about across the face sorry would not even cut it.
Ed continued up the steps a hiss of pain that came from his voice as he touches his bruise. Roy caused that. He did it. He despised himself for doing such a sinful deed.
So, he just ran after him instead.
"Ed, please!" Roy screamed from the bottom of the steps.
The blonde looked down at the doorknob of their room, he turned it only to be grabbed around his mid section, forcibly pulled into a hug, and Roy bent down on his knees holding the only thing keeping him alive to this day. "E-Ed...P-please...just please," his voice sound faulted up, sounding, sounding as if he was about to cry. Ed has NEVER seen Roy cry as long as he has been with him.
He looked up at him, he was, he was crying his heart was pouring out pain. He truly was sorry but even though he meant it, he could not forgive what Roy did so easily. No. Not yet.
It broke him into pieces to see him like this
Ed turned his head so he would not see his face; it was too much his soul could not take it. Roy lowered his head on the side of Ed's face lying on the cheek that was not hurt physically.
"Please..." Roy kissed his cheek, only for tears to fall on his lover's handsome face. Roy continued to trail his kisses slowly to Ed lips, but it was not in lust or passion, but in forgiveness.
"Please Ed" he found his lips he was trying to his best to push Ed head to the right so he could kiss him. He slowly started to move his lover's skull, but he was being resistant.
"Please..." He finally reached Ed's lips and talked into them "Just...please..."
He kissed his lips after using some of his force to turn his lovers head to face his position; he closed his eyes tight as the older man was trying to coat his mouth with his own saliva. Roy kissed Ed on his lips he was not trying to put his tongue inside his mouth he was trying to show he did not want him to go. "Ed please kiss back," he pleaded as hard as he could "please forgive me"
Ed felt terrible doing this to him, but what will he learn if he just came out and apologized? He did not know he was just angry at the fact all the people that could have hit him and it had to be the person he was most attached to.
Roy had hugged him tighter as he kept his lovely lips on his world "Ed, please kiss back, for-forgive me," he sobbed. "Please Roy" Ed pushed up on Roy's shoulders, Roy was not resistant he wanted to hear what Ed had to say. "I know your sorry, bu...but I'm just a little tired, I need, I need to go lay down."
Ed pushed Roy completely off him with, what seemed like; Ed was just ignoring his cry for forgiveness. He walked to there room without even looked back at the older man he closed the door and locked it, why lock it? Because he knows how Roy is.
The graduated college student was determined for Ed to love him again. He got up and knocked on the door, there was no answer but he knew he was listening.
"Ed, you have no idea how, well, sorry I am. Being the dumb-ass I am, I hit you, and you didn't deserve anything I did today." You can here the tears drying up in his eyes, "it's just, it's just, I worked to hard for your love and I don't want to loose you!"
There was a long silence after that "You make me sound like an item" Ed cringed as he sat on the bed, he looked down at his feet as they shifted on the wood floor
"Ed, that's not what I meant"
"You make seem that way," Ed stated
"Ed..." he trailed off
"When somebody usually works hard something it's usually for something they want. Example..." he started, "kids, for example, sometimes work small jobs, selling lemonade, cutting grass, or being a paper boy. They do it to buy something they want to buy."
"But Ed..."
"I'm not finish" he cringed, Roy went silent again "after they get that item they get tired of it after awhile finding out the thing they bought didn't look so appealing, or didn't come up to be the excitement they claimed it to be in the commercials, is that what I am Roy?" Ed said with turmoil, " Just an item, an item you work hard for!? I feel bought, Roy!! You didn't win my heart, you bought my heart!!"
"Ed, I love you to death!!"
"And I think you mean that!!"
A shocked gasp came form the older man
"To DEATH is all I hear, you hit me, what will you do next? Until death do us part, a married couple says. We're not married; you shouldn't have taken that oath yet!!"
A horrible silence filled the house, all you can hear is the clock ticking.
Tick, tick, tick, it wouldn't stop.
"Then where will I sleep? You might not know it Ed, but you are the thing that helps me sleep at night, your, your my teddy bear. When you left that night, I-I couldn't sleep. I heard you screaming and crying upstairs, I didn't move. I don't know why though, I guess I didn't want to impose." Roy sighed "but that's no excuse for what I did, nothing is." He pause again, "maybe just knowing you're in the house can help me sleep then."
Roy touched the door with his hand "goodnight Edward" he whispered softly "and I again apologize with all my heart and soul, if only-" he paused "if only you knew how sorry I'm truly am"
With those few words he kissed the door and walked back down stairs. Ed stared at the door for the longest having confusing thoughts in his head; it was so silent only his breath was to be heard in his godforsaken house. His eyes strained as he looked down at his feet once more, teeth grit, heart stung with pain. His fingers fidgeted for the longest, his eyes went wide as he fell back on the bed crying in his fingers. This wasn't only taking a toll on Roy's heart but Ed's too.
Hours on end, as Roy said, he could not sleep, Ed, Ed was his teddy bear. Roy just stayed staring at the hand that caused his lover pain in his beautiful face.
He stared painfully at the hand as that same realistic clip played in his head. Him hitting Ed, the boy hitting the floor, Roy realizing, realizing, that he was not good enough for Ed. To him Ed needed somebody better, somebody that would not dare abuse him as he did today.
He felt like he just did the biggest sin in the world, and did not think he deserved forgiveness, just years of never ending un-forgiving pain. He deserved it. He knew he did.
Roy was now realizing how truly a monster he was, he is the reason Ed did not graduate from High school (I will give you full detail on that later; just say I am planning something.) He was the reason Ed was always late for work, he was the reason why he always got in trouble, he was the reason for the bruise that he now had on his face.
Roy turned his head sideways to look at the wall behind, and then looked at his hands as the blood in it was still under skin from the earlier conflict with him and his lover. He looked back at the wall, and then looked down at his feet. He slowly stood on both feet and turned around to face the wall; he got on his knees on the couch and continued to stare at the wall.
He balled his hand into a fist; he reared back but hesitated as he looked at his fist again. His face scrunched up as the whole day rushed through his mind.
Tell me the truth!!- Roy
You might accuse me of having sex with the information I give you!!-Ed
I said I was sorry!!- Roy
His fist tightened
Ok fine...leave.. Hohenheim-Ed
Don't you dare call me that!!- Roy
Go ahead leave!! Your acting just like him!! Leave and never come back!! -Ed
He grit his teeth as sweat played down his head, the words echoed through his head
SMACK!
If you were truly sorry, you wouldn't have done it-Ed
He continued to echo
If you were truly sorry...
He reared back
You wouldn't have done it...
Roy comes on to the wall with full force with his fist ready to hit the hard construction. However, that is when he felt arms wrap around his waste. He stopped with a confusing gasp.
It was not long until he found out who it was, he didn't look back, to ashamed to.
"What are trying to do, Roy?" Ed said sounding a little mad but understanding, "what are you trying to accomplish by doing this, a few broken bones and excruciating pain? Don't do this"
Roy just sat there with his knees still settled on the couch cushion "No..." he paused, "the goal I was trying to achieve was to..." he paused once more "was not to stop until I experienced the same depressing morose you felt during the whole day. Even if I did punch until my fingers were cracking to the point that no amount of medical attention could fix it, it still would not compete to how much you felt today, no, it wouldn't. I wouldn't blame you if felt disappointed and ashamed, as I feel the same way right now."
Ed let go of him
Roy turned his head around to see Ed's eyes faulted up that brought enough attention to him to turn completely around to get on his feet.
"Yo-your right, you doing this is disappointing, sure, what happened earlier did make me upset, but seeing you like this is what really makes me really upset, please Roy don't..." tears flowed
"Ed don't..." Roy wrapped his big bear arms around him, and slowly moved back so he could sit down with his lover in his arms. Ed cried in his shoulder as he sat on Roy's lap on the comfortable couch "please Ed don't, don't cry please. I can't see you cry anymore it's to heart breaking to see you cry for me." Roy explained sadly "just to see you crying for me makes me feel like a black-hearted unforgiving ignorant bastard, I should be crying for you not the other way around"
Ed tears started to dry up as he heard Roy's words "I don't deserve your forgiveness, I don't deserve you, I deserve satins next best thing."
Ed lifted his head up but stayed in Roy's lap so he could stare in his beautiful eyes "don't say that, please DO NOT say that, I deserve you as much as you deserve me. No more depressing words." He still had that bruise Roy looked down "Don't worry this will heal, don't beat yourself up. Please if not for yourself than for me."
Roy shakes his head in understanding.
"Good, but I couldn't sleep, you might not know it but your my bed, I can't sleep unless your under or over me" Ed explained.
Roy smiled.
He wrapped his arms around him again, laid him down on the couch, and laid on top of Ed, "so how's this?" Roy asked as he felt his little teddy bear at the bottom of him "Perfect" Ed said silently.
Roy looked at him with loving eyes "what?" Ed asked smiling.
"You know you are so sexy when you're mad" he whispered in his neck ready nip it.
He's back
Ed knew what he was up to "Oh, you have to earn that back" Ed said.
"Huh?"
"Yep, you have to earn sex with me back"
"You haven't completely forgiving me yet, huh?" Roy sighed
"Not all the way, I am still a little mad ya know"
"I suspected so" Roy sighed, "I want force it on you, whatever you say I'll do, I'll earn it back I wouldn't blame you" Roy smiled. "I'm glad" his love smiled back. Roy laughed as Ed laughed in his chest, it was awkward to be laughing after what all happened not too long ago, it would take awhile to build there relationship back up, Roy knew that and he was willing to wait as long Ed would stay with him.
Soon the laughter stopped Ed rested on the couch as he felt Roy's well-built chest on his face, he closed eyes. Roy sat there for a moment thinking of something that is important "Ed...?"
"Hm?" Ed yawned.
"I think that, I think that we should go to the clinic"
"Why?" Ed opened his eyes now
"To be, well, to be tested."
"To be tested for what?" Ed looked at Roy now with a confused expression.
"To make sure you don't have anything, to what happened that night when you were, well..."
"Oh..." Ed looked away he knew where this was going "Ok..."
"Good" Roy sat there for a minute thinking again how he could forget the most important question he should have asked him. "Ed I want to know..."
"Know what?"
"I want to know who raped you." Roy said sternly. Ed looked at Roy's determined eyes, his eyes went flat looking in a different direction "I don't know, I-I couldn't see his face, it was to dark." he lied
"Ed please don't lie to me," Roy said.
"I'm not lying" Ed lied again as he grit his teeth. The reason he would not tell is he remembered what Envy had told him that terrible night: tell anybody and I will make sure you boyfriend goes missing with out a trace the note had said and he wouldn't let those words slip from his head "I really don't know"
Roy could not help but to think that his pride and joy was lying to him, but he's now learning to be trust worthy and believe everything Ed says. Even though his incoherent thought of doubt wrung through his head he decided to believe it even though he would not let it go, he WAS going to find out who did it.
Ed noticed he was thinking kind of TOO hard on it "Roy..." he wrapped his arms around him "lets just go to sleep" Ed closed his eyes, "Right" Roy agreed, he too fell asleep on top of Ed still having the thought of revenge on his mind, but for now it was time for some sleep. Yeah sleep, sleep was good.
As said they both headed to the clinic that morning, Ed did not like the shot they gave him but he was also curious if he had a disease or not. They told them they would call them in a week to tell them if any disease occurred in his blood.
Since then Ed has stayed near the phone tension build up in his body, he wasn't too scared though he was kind of sure that he didn't have anything but it didn't hurt to know too. He knew he did not have anything confident he screamed "YEAH!", but sat back down quickly staring back at the phone, still did not hurt to know.
On Sunday, Ed was watching TV did not expect the phone to wring, until the phone wrung. He stopped and looked at the phone on the coffee table he stared at it for the longest. He swallowed as he answered the phone "hello?" he composed himself.
Roy had walked down stairs from upstairs wondering who was calling; he saw Ed's face it turned into shock, then into a melancholy expression. His eyes went wide. What had happened? He stood there just staring at the young blonde wondering what was up with all the horrible expression.
"Ok...than-thank you" as soon as Ed hung up on the person who called he was about to fall off the couch when Roy caught him, he was about to faint at the news he just heard. "Ed, what happened!? Who was that!?"
"Th-that was the people at the clinic..." he did not look up, to ashamed to bear to look.
Roy gave a small gasp "wh-what did they say..?"
Ed eyes widen as he looked up at Roy " Roy you have to promise!" Ed yelled
"Promise wha-"
"Promise, promise you won't leave me!!"
"O-of course I won't!"
"Just promise..."
"I...promise..promise to god and hope to die"
"Ok..." Ed sighed, with sobbing with anguish in his voice "they said they tested my blood and..."
Roy looked hurt "so...so...what did they say?"
"They said I had aids...I'-I'm so sorry Roy!!" he cried hard "pleas-please don't leave me!!" Roy hugged him "I will never think of doing such a thing, it never even crossed my mind" Roy sounded so hurt though, even those words came from his lips. "It never crossed my mind."
Boy, I know some of you just hate me right now. Some of you just want to snap me in half. Well, there are three more chapters the next chapter it is finally Easter!! Some of you are going ask if Ed has that disease then how are they...don't worry I have something up my sleeve you don't know about the next after that is deleted scenes and bloopers and then after that is talking with Ed and Roy but there will be more info on that later XD!! See ya Cutemonic out!!
ps. MEAT PIES PLEASE!!!
Comments I expect to get: I HATE YOU!!
or
"All the diseases in the world and you had to pick that!? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!?"
or
"HOW THE HELL ARE THEY GOING TO HAVE SEX IF HE HAS THAT!!?"
Don't fret, like I said I have something up my sleeve
Since you don't yet know what I have up my sleeve don't go stating the obvious, because, I promise you WILL like whats up my sleeve just give me a chance thats all I have to say bye!! XD!!!