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Summery: What if Sanzo was actually a woman? How long will she able to keep it a secret? And how will the others react when they find out? Read what it would be like if Sanzo was actually a woman!
Pairing: Sanzo x Just about everyone
Note: This is just going to be the basic original story in the books, with a few minor changes.
And this little special piece for Tsuki, this is a Tsuki x Kozen pairing. This is the story of how they first met.
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What is love exactly? Is it what you say when you want to have sex with someone? Or is it what you say when you really like a person? Isn't love just another word for lust? Or is lust another word for love?
Is love really that big of deal? Don't people just say that when they want something? When they want to use them?
Everyone around me says they love me. But how can they love me when they don't know me? They don't love me. They love only what they see. The body they see. They love my high status, nothing more. If only wanting me for my body and power is love, then it would seem that everybody really does loves me.
What is the point in loving someone? In the end they only bring you pain. I've seen it. Love is just a sweet way to get hurt. Like poison. What's the point in loving someone if you just get hurt in the end?
They are all lustful fools. I hate them all. They all make me sick. So sick I could puke for ten years.
If love is getting your heart ripped out and stepped on over and over until you die, then who needs it? Who wants it?
If love is just a way to get sex, then who wants it? Not me. My body belongs to me. They can tell me all the lies they want, but I can see right through them.
Everyone sprouts such shit about love I could laugh.
They're nothing but lies.
Everyone talks about how great love is...
But no one ever mentions the pain.
Who needs that pain? Who needs love? Not me. Never me.
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Tsuki Yomi's eyes were emotionless as he stood outside a window. Inside the room before him was a dying old woman. She looked around 50 and was thin and fragile. Tsuki walked through the wall like a ghost. The woman looked at him weakly. She was obviously ill with a sickness.
"Oh..." she said quietly. "Who are you?" Tsuki didn't answer. He just raised his long black scythe and quickly brought it down on her chest. There was no blood. Instead the woman opened her mouth in a small gasp and suddenly her soul came out her mouth and came into Tsuki's hand.
"Me?" he said with a small smirk as it disappeared into his pouch. "I am death."
'That's all I am. Death. I gather souls... And lead them to the other world. Every step I take, I cannot help, but think that this maze of living death is my punishment for something I did. I don't want to live like this anymore, but I have no choice. I cannot die... So what choice do I have? So I will keep my heart cold as ice and I will take all the harsh words and things and bear them like a stone, not feeling a thing. For that is what I am. A stone.' he thought as he walked outside. Then he grew two black wings and flew towards the full moon.
//Meanwhile//
Kozen Douji slammed some documents onto the Kanzeon's desk. She blinked at them.
"What are these?" she asked, her head rested on her fist.
"The documents you asked me to fill out." Kozen replied shortly.
"They're wrinkled."
"That's because you only gave them to me last night and you wanted me to finish them today. Honestly, can't you find a secretary to do this for you?"she said in exasperation. Her aunt smirked.
"What do you think you are, dear?" Kozen growled as she turned on his heel.
"I don't have the patience for this today! Good night!" she snarled.
"What's up with you? You seemed more annoyed than usual. I didn't think it was possible." Kanzeon asked as she picked up a glass of water. Kozen was quiet as she stopped at the door.
"Hey. Who were my parents?" she suddenly asked. The Kanzeon sprayed out her water and began to cough.
"Ah! My lady!" exclaimed Jiroushin.
"What the hell brought that on?!" she gasped when she stopped coughing.
"Does it matter?" asked Kozen as she turned back to look at her. "It's not like it's a difficult question. I just want to know who parents were. I didn't just grow off a tree, did I?"
"Well, no..." said the Kanzeon slowly. "But I don't think it's the right time. I'll tell you when I'm older." Kozen raised a irritated eye brow.
"Why not? It's a simple question, dammit! Who are my parents? I'm over 200 years old(in god years that's young.), if I'm not old enough now then when will I be?" she snarled. Then he stomped out, fists clenched. Kanzeon stared after her and sighed.
"She is just like her mother." she said. "Although she has he father's pretty hair."
Kozen stomped down the halls, all the gods clearing out of her path. This wasn't fair! She was over 200 years old and her aunt was still treating her like a child! She went outside into the moon lit garden. It was always so beautiful at night. All the flowers were illuminated by the moon the sky like a glass orb. She touched a white rose that looked purple in the moonlight and smiled to herself. It was so pretty.
Just then she heard the flapping of wings. Her curiosity getting the best of her she snuck in a bush to see what the sound was. Her eyes widen in amazement at what she saw.
Standing in the moonlight with long, ink black wings was a man around the age of 17 with long purple hair and deep amethyst eyes. He had bright white light around him as the leaves seemed to dance around him. Kozen stared at him, fascinated. He looked so... Enchanting.
//The Next Day//
Tsuki walked down the halls, yawning.
"Aw, man. I'm so tired. Isn't Amatsu suppose to help me?" he yawned as he opened the door to the Kanzeon's office.
"Old hag, I'm here to report--" he started. Then he saw someone else there. It was a woman with long, golden hair that rivaled the sunlight and deep amethyst eyes.
"Oh. If it isn't my favorite nephew. Not. Have you met my niece?" said the Kannon. Tsuki snapped out of his trance.
"Uhh... No. No I haven't had the pleasure." said Tsuki as he looked Kozen over.
"Well, this is Kozen Douji. My favorite, ill- tempered niece. Kozen, this is Tsuki Yomi, my nephew. He is also known as the Endless moon, and one of the rulers of the Underworld as well." introduced Kannon. Kozen took a sharp breath when he recognized him from the other night.
"Don't refer to me like that! You make me sound like a stiff." pouted Tsuki as he walked over to Kozen. He stared at her not saying anything.
"...What?" Kozen finally growled. Tsuki grinned.
"You're kinda cute. But... You look like a really boring person." he said. Kozen crushed the papers she was holding as her cheeks redden a little in anger.
"And you look like a total idiot, bird boy!" she growled as she threw the papers she had crushed right in his face.
"Ah! My lady!" exclaimed Jiroushin, surprised at Kozen's sudden burst of anger. Kozen ignored him as she stomped out of the room.
"That was a really bad pick up line, Tsuki."said Kanzeon as she sweat dropped at Tsuki, who was rubbing his forehead.
"I wasn't tryin' to pick her up. I just said what I thought. I don't get why she was so angry." he replied as he held the papers with one hand. "Really strong throw though. I really wasn't expecting that."
"You really have a lot to learn about women."
"Tell me about it. I don't think women like me though. All the ones I know are trying to kill me."
//With Kozen//
'The nerve of that man!' Kozen thought angrily as she stomped down the halls.
"You look like a really boring person."
Kozen put her fingers to her head.
"I could have... told him that much." she said to herself. Then she walked to Tenpou's library. Tenpou, who had been reading a book, looked up.
"Ah. Kozen. What brings you here?" he asked when she entered.
"Nothing, really." she said as she leaned on his desk sexily.
"Oh? Then why do you look so bothered?" asked Tenpou, noticing that something was wrong with her.
"...Tenpou... Do you think I'm boring?" she asked after a minute. Tenpou looked a little surprised.
"Huh? What brought this on?"
"Just wondering." Tenpou rubbed his chin thoughtful. How could he reply without getting hurt?
"Well, to me you're not, but I've known you for awhile, and to others you might... seem a little boring." he said. Kozen was quiet then said,
"I see." She stood and walked out. Tenpou blinked after her.
"Did I... Say something wrong?" he wondered aloud.
Kozen returned to her office, where she tried to do her paperwork, but found she couldn't.
'This is stupid.' she thought to herself as she scowled. She couldn't believe this! Her day was completely thrown off because of one thing that bird boy said. Was she that pathetic? Was she so pathetic to be hurt by such trivial words?
//Meanwhile//
"I don't get it. What did I say that was so wrong?" Tsuki wondered aloud as he laid on top of his sister's desk. Amaterasu glared at him.
"Why are you here? Get off my desk before I cook you." she said.
"I just don't understand!" Tsuki sighed as he slid himself off Amaterasu's desk. "Why are you women so complicated?"
"We're not, you men are just too simple." said Amaterasu. "Look, Tsuki. You always talk without thinking. You say whatever comes into that little brain of yours. You're so open and honest with yourself and everyone... You're like a baby or something."
"Hey!" said Tsuki. Amaterasu ignored him.
"But sometimes words can hurt people. Especially your words."
"Me?" said Tsuki as he pointed at himself.
"You're half god and half devil, Tsuki Yomi. Your words are a very powerful thing, as all words are." explained Amaterasu.
"You're speaking in riddles again, Ama-chan." said Tsuki with a sweat drop.
"Look, I need to get back to work, so I'll make this simple so that even you can understand. Your words are what makes you so dangerous. You say whatever you're feeling at that instant. Then you'll say something tactless and make a girl cry. That's why all the goddess in heaven are so nervous around you. And for the record, Kozen hates boring things. You called her boring. Do the math, fool!" Amaterasu snarled.
"But I don't like math!" Tsuki whined.
"GET OUT!!" Amaterasu yelled as she literally kicked him out.
"Ow!"
//Later with Kozen//
Kozen let out a loud growl as she threw her pen down on her desk.
"Why can't I do this?!" she growled. Everything was going bad! First her aunt wouldn't tell her about her parents, and now that bird boy has the nerve to call her boring! Arg! And worse! He was her cousin! It was official. Her whole family was nuts!
"Wow... You're doing paperwork? I was right, you are boring." said a voice from beside her.
"ACK!" Kozen exclaimed in surprise as she fell back in surprise. "You!" she yelled when she saw Tsuki.
"Me." said Tsuki as he stared down at her, a smile dancing on his lips. "Are you a secretary or somethin', cuz' that's a lot of paperwork."
"Do you want something?" Kozen growled as she stood up. How embarrassing!
"Not really. Just wanted to see what you do. And I was right. You do have a boring job." he replied. Kozen's cheeks redden a little in anger as her eyes flared.
"Well, excuse me for being such a boring person!" she snapped as she threw a ink bottle at him, which he just barely managed to side step. Suddenly he began to laugh.
"Whoa! I really wasn't expecting that. I see. You're not as boring as I thought. In fact you're a pretty interesting person! Especially for a god. You're really fun." he laughed. Kozen stared at him as her face went motionless. He rubbed the back of his head. "Sorry if I made you mad earlier. I'm basically an idiot so I do that a lot. But... Don't let that effect your opinion of me. Let's be friends! After all we are family." He then turned. "I gotta go now, but I'll see ya later. You can count on it." Then he left.
//Later//
"Wow, Kozen," said Tenpou later when she entered his library again. "I am graced with your presence not once, but twice! I am honored."
"Don't make me hurt you, Tenpou." Kozen said as she maneuvered through his messy library. "And this place is ridiculous! You really need to clean up."
"Ha, ha. Well, I try, but every time I put something back, another thing falls out of place. So I think to myself, 'Why bother?'." Tenpou laughed. Kozen glared at him.
"Watch it Tenpou. I'm in a bad mood right now and I really will kill you." she growled.
"My, my. You seem to be in a frightful mood, and yet I cannot help but think, you are happy right now. Care to tell me what happened?" asked Tenpou. Kozen 'ch'ed as she folded her arms and sat on his desk.
"Today I met this bird boy who had the nerve to call me boring at first, then he has even more nerve to come to my office to say my work is boring! That stupid bird boy..." she growled with a dark aura surrounding her. Tenpou laughed nervously with a sweatdrop.
"Oh, dear..." he said. "I'll feel sorry for the bird man whoever he is."
"But then..." Kozen continued, now blushing just slightly. "He called me... Interesting. He even said I'm... 'fun'. Of course he just could of meant I'm fun to tease. But still I guess I have to admit... I was a little taken aback." she admitted. "That really was the first time... I'd been told anything like that. So it made kind of... happy. Or something." Tenpou stared at her, then smiled.
"It sounds to me like you made a new friend." he said.
"NO WAY IN HELL!!" Kozen shrieked loudly. "I compete and totally hate him!!"
Meanwhile Tsuki, who was spying on her from outside put a hand over his chest as the words 'hate' echoed through his mind.
"Ooh... That hurt." he said with a sweat drop. Then he grinned. "But... I'm not that easy to get rid of, Ko-chan. It's gonna take more than a few harsh words to get rid of me. Although with your arm, I'm gonna have to learn to dodge quicker."
For the next few weeks Tsuki became Kozen's little stalker, following her everywhere(except the bathroom.), and popping out of no where and surprising her(not to mention scaring the hell out of her.). And Kozen always greeted him the same way. Bashing him through the roof, wall, and bashing him over the head with vases, books, and her fists. But no matter what, Tsuki kept trying. He was very persistent, Kozen had to give him that.
And although she would never admit it, at night after he came back from his nightly rounds, she snuck into the garden to see his wings. She was simply fascinated by them. Even though they were pure black they a radiant white light surrounding them. It was enchanting in more ways then one to her.
One day Tsuki was looking for Kozen in a flower field.
"Damn. I lost her. Where could she be?" he wondered aloud to himself. Suddenly he found Kozen and stared at her with wide, amazed eyes. The sun was shining on her long golden hair, making it shine brightly as it flowed in the wind, with sakura petals blowing around her and kissing her cheeks. She looked absolutely beautiful. For a second Tsuki had forgotten how to breathe.
Tsuki then snapped back to reality, then decided to sneak up on her.
"Oh, Koooooooozeeeeeeeen." he said an eery sing song voice from behind her.
"Gaaaaah!" Kozen yelled as she threw all the papers she was holding in the air. Tsuki laughed as he began to roll on the ground.
"Oh, man! That never gets old!" he laughed.
"Dammit, bird boy! Why do you always sneak up on me?!" Kozen snarled as she glared at him.
"Because it's fun!" said Tsuki as he stood, humming a little.
"Don't you have work to do?"
"Not until nightfall. Till then I'm yours, Ko-chan."
"I don't want you. And don't call me Ko-chan."
"How mean!"
"Go away!"
"No. I want to play with you."
"Go play with someone else."
"But I want to play with you!" whined Tsuki.
"No! I, unlike you, have work to do! Now leave me alone, bird boy!" snarled Kozen as she picked up her papers.
"Stop callin' me that, goldie! I'm not a bird!" said Tsuki as he bent down to help.
"Isn't there someone else you can annoy?"
"Well yes, but Ama-chan's scarier than you. She throws fireballs!"
Kozen growled to herself.
"I don't get it. Why do you insist on following me all the time? I thought you said my job was boring." she asked.
"Because I like you." Tsuki said simply. Kozen blushed as she dropped the papers again.
"Nani?!"
"I said I like you." Tsuki said again as he finished picking up the papers.
"Y-You mean you like to tease me." she muttered.
"Well, yeah, but that's not all. I also like your spirit, the way you always seem to turn red when I tease you, the way you always seem to be in control, and the way you seem to be able to see into everyone's soul. I would say I love you, but I'm not sure what love is. Whenever I think of love, I think of my sister and how she was hurt over and over and how no matter how hard she tries she's always rejected and hurt over and over. I never understood why she would put herself through that over. And when I was younger my mother would always say sweet thing like I love you, but she never loved me. She only wanted to use me. She sold me for her own benefit, and abandoned me to die more times than I can count. And when I was little, for the first time in my life I had real friends! Real friends who wanted to be with me, but in the end... In the end, I had to take their souls because they were humans! My heart hurt so much... What is the point in loving someone? In the end they only bring you pain. I've seen it. Love is just a sweet way to get hurt. Like poison. What's the point in loving someone if you just get hurt in the end? That's what I used to think. But then when I saw you, I became very interested in you. I finally understood." he told her as he looked Kozen straight in the eye. "If love means wanting to be with someone no matter what and wanting to do whatever they can for each other and being there for them whether it's laugh or cry, then I guess I love you Kozen Douji!"
Kozen stared at him with wide, surprised eyes. Then she looked away.
"...I don't understand. Because I hate myself... What could you love about me? I'm cold, I'm cruel... I hurt people, even myself. I use them. And my heart is cold. What can anyone... possibly love about me? Is it for my body? I'm a real horrible person, Tsuki..." she said as she held the papers to her chest.
"I know that." said Tsuki. "You're short tempered, rude, and love to yell, and you have a terrible personality. And you'd rather kill a person than help them. You really are a sad excuse for a god, just like your aunt!" Kozen felt a stab at every word. "But..." he continued. "You're really strong... and you never give up, you're stubborn, and deep down... you're very kind. You seem to understand everyone's hearts... So I just want to hug you and hold you tight. And I don't mind if your heart is could. I like the cold. And maybe someday I can warm it up." Kozen stared at him. Then looked away.
"I... I have to deliver these papers." she said without looking at him. He smiled.
"I understand. But I meant what I said. I don't care if it takes a thousand years. I will make you believe me. I really do like being with you. Although I could go without the bird boy thing." he told her. Kozen didn't reply. She just turned and ran.
When she was inside she remembered a long time ago when she was a child.
//Flash Back//
"Auntie... What's love?" a child Kozen had cutely asked the Kannon. The Goddess of Mercy looked surprised, then smiled as she looked down at her.
"Love is something you feel for a special person. Your 'someone just for you' you could say."
"Someone just for me?"
"Yes. A person who loves you for who you are. Someone who loves you because you are you. Love is hard to explain, even I can't describe it. It's different for everyone, you see. But I think you're familiar with the concept of embarrassment, right? Like when you realize that someone has been staring at you when you thought you were alone. Well, the feeling of love is similar. It can't exist without someone else." the goddess told the child. Then she stood straight. "Someday you will meet a man who catches your eyes and then you'll be able to find out what love is yourself."
//End Flash Back//
Kozen stopped as she held the papers closer to her body. She did have more fun when Tsuki was around, and when he was with her she didn't feel bored or lonely. She really did like being with him. He was so much fun and full of life unlike everyone else in heaven...
Then Kozen realized something.
She wanted to be with Tsuki right now. He brought fun and entrainment to her life. If love meant wanting to be with someone no matter what and wanting to do whatever they can for each other and being there for them whether it's laugh or cry, then she was in love with Tsuki Yomi! She dropped her papers as she began to ran down the halls, frantically searching for him. But she couldn't find him. Panic began to swell in her chest. Where could he be? Where? She searched all over Tenkai for him for hours, but she couldn't find him! By now she was exhausted.
'Where could he be?' she thought as she leaned on her knees for support. 'I outta kill him for making me run around like this.' She wiped her forehead. 'One more place. Just one more.' She ran outside to the lake where she saw Tsuki for the first time.
When she got there she let out a sigh of relief. Standing in the lake, was Tsuki, his wings out and a bright white light around him. She stepped towards him.
"Tsuki..." she breathed. She was tired from running so much and her cheeks were red and her hair stuck a little to her face from the sweat, but she didn't care. She had found him at last! Tsuki turned, looking surprised.
"Eh...? Kozen?" he said. Suddenly Kozen ran forward and tackled him. "WHOA!!" he exclaimed as they fell back into the lake. "Oow... What's that about, Ko-chan?" he moaned.
"...You're such a idiot..."
"Huh?"
"You're such a idiot. You're annoying, you never take anything seriously, you're always causing trouble and saying stupid things like a big baby. And I can never tell if you're serious or not and you're a stalker." Kozen said quietly as she held him.
"Hey!"
"But... You're so kind. You're honest and so free... You never lie ether. You're always so honest with yourself, and everyone else. I feel so... happy when I'm with you. If that's what I'm feeling right now." she continued. "If love means wanting to be with someone no matter what and wanting to do whatever they can for each other and being there for them whether it's laugh or cry, then I guess I love you too, Tsuki Yomi! You're... My special someone just for me." Tsuki looked surprised, then smiled as he held her.
"Oh, really?" he said as he titled her head up. "Good. Because I was starting to get bored." Then he brought his lips down on hers... and kissed her passionately.
That night... They shared their first kiss under the moon lit sky, in the icey cold lake, in Heaven.
For the first time it really did feel like Heaven.
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GWNL: Aww!! Wasn't that so sweet? Too bad it had to end so tragically!
Readers: What's that suppose to mean?
GWNL: Nothing! Uh... Here are the polls so far for the story!
Goku-3
Hakkai-0
Gojyo- 3
Kougaiji-1
Tsuki- 1(who was just added.)
Tsuki: I told ya people loved me!
GWNL: It's just one, little boy.
Tsuki: Well, I'll be getting more votes after this little sweet chapter!
GWNL: I guess we'll have to wait and see.