Gobstoppers: Hey didn't mean to keep ya waiting for so long..... I think I
might have forgotten about this site because of my boyfriend..... Hehehe
oops! I've been meaning to update in a LONG time. So I'm updating on
Mother's Day. Anyway, here's your next chapter.
After
I'd give anything now To kill those words for you
(Ryou's POV)
I looked of to the setting sun.... painting the sky of all the colors of the rainbow. I wishing he was here with me to share this moment; to show him the kind of love he deserves. I'm not a perfect person..... I make mistakes to you know! This mistake just happens to one of the biggest I have ever made. By making this choice I had killed my darker half! I killed him!!!!!! I did..... No one else did... Not the drunk, not my friends, not god, not Mailk, not even him.... But me. I said things to him that I should have never said. I lied directly to his face and to him that I loved him. I did but then we grew apart; more like I grew apart from him and I destroyed are love. That's just like! Leave it up to me to ruin everything. Sigh I knew he deserved better than me. I would only hurt him if I held onto our relationship.
Walking away from something that caused the death of a loved one is something that will destroy your life forever. It will haunt you and kill you from the inside out. That's what has happened to me. I stopped loving, stop caring, stop all together. I broke it off with Mailk and hurt him as well. He was found dead three weeks after I dumped him. They said he was rapped and murdered. I know that was my fault too. If I had been with him I could have tried and protect him. Everything is my entire fault.
Looking up to the heavens I screamed all my pain away. How could I do something so careless? Why did they have to be killed, why not me? I sat up and dried my tears away vowing never to cry again. I stood up and brushed away the dirt off my pants. Walking into the house I settled on the couch and turned on the T.V. Finding something interesting I began to think. The show was about horrible car crashes. I thought back to the day I lost him. Shaking my head I looked back to the T.V. They're talking about where I live and about a crash that took place three years.
I watched as my past was resurfacing as they replayed the crash of my lover three years ago. I felt tears well up as the car and Bakura became one for a moment. My tears of pain turned to rage as they began to talk bad about my ex-love. I turned up the volume making sure I heard correctly.
"Three years ago a car crash that shook this once quiet town into a raging fit of tears. A young man no older than 15 was hit by a car. His body was slammed into a light pole; with the car pinning him to the pole. The young man was still alive but died shortly afterward as the car was removed from its place. Some people say that it was suicide and some say he was crazy and abusive. But really happened that day and was this a possible suicide as it is listed in the history of this crash. I talked to a professional therapist a day ago about this horrifying crash. Here's what he had to say:
The crash was by far one of the most death defying ones that year. Yet, the crash wasn't supposed to happen. If the drunk hadn't came along that same young man would have still been alive today. As you see in the roll back clip, you can see him walking to side of the rode where his twin is warily waiting for him.
Though, he was the one that walked into the rode in the first place and stood there waiting for fate to take him. This act was a cry of help and ......" I couldn't take anymore and threw the remote and the television. Sparks flew as the screen crashed inwards and shards of glass flew everywhere. I brought my hands to my face and cried into them.
Each time I say something I regret I cry, I don't want to lose you But somehow I know that you will never leave me
(3 hours later)
I groaned as I awoke to the ceiling staring down at me. I looked around and realized I had fallen asleep. I sat up and stretched my stiff and aching muscles. Standing up, I walked to my bathroom and looked into the mirror. I glared at the figure staring back at me. This is me. I look like something worse. My hair was messed up and I had bags under my eyes. I sighed and walked over to the tub; turning the knobs to warm I stepped in. Pulling up the handle for the shower; I allowed my aching muscles to relax. Reaching for my shampoo; I poured a generous amount in the palm of my hands. Once my hair was lathered I rinsed and began washing my body.
Once I was done I turned off the water and stepped out of the shower. Walking over to the clouded mirror I wiped away some of it so I could see myself. I shrugged at my appearance. It was better than what it looked like before. Walking out of the bathroom I went to my room. Opening the closet I pulled out a black baggy shirt along with black baggy pants. I pulled on my cloths and walked over to my dresser. Picking up my chains, I hooked them onto my pants. One I used as a belt, my second chain was used as nothing really. It just hung from my belt loop and dangled there. My last three was used to connect my pants in the back. Once I was done with the chains I picked up my hand guards. Pulling them on me, I took my golden ring and place it over my finger. I opened my dresser and picked up my necklace. It was a cross made out of skulls. I loved this necklace. Once it was safely around my neck I took the town of my once white hair. Instead I had dyed it black with small highlights of blood red in it. I may have looked different but I was still the same inside. I hated that!
Walking over to my keys, I picked them up and left he house. I strolled up to my car and climbed into the front seat. Putting the keys in the ignition; I slammed on the gas peddle. I raced over the speed limits to the Kami Game Shop. I didn't even bother to stop at any stop signs or stop lights. I arrived there in record time.
Stepping out of the car I locked it up. Yugi and Yami came running out of the shop and stared at me in worry. I shook my head and laughed a little.
"Is there something wrong, Ryou?" asked Yugi in concern. I shook my head no and sighed. I walked up to them and forced a smile.
"No, Yugi, nothings wrong. I just thought I come and visit. Is there something wrong with that because if there is then I......" I started but Yami cut in.
"No! No, nothings wrong with that. We just thought you were in some kind of trouble, that's all." Yami said in a kind voice that I despised so much. I use to be that friendly and trusted anyone. Not anymore. I'm not going to be that innocent little weakling anymore. He's gone and never coming back. Just like.... Never mind. I walked past the and inside the game shop. They looked at me confusingly and shrugged.
"We're glad that you're not in any trouble. How have you been?" asked Yugi as he ran up behind me. I sighed and looked at him. He was so innocent. He wouldn't understand what I was going through.
"I'm doing fine. A little bored but fine, you?" I answered and he smiled. He looked over his shoulder to his lover Yami. Yami nodded and Yugi's smile grew wider.
"Guess what!!!!!!" Yugi screamed at me. I put my hands to my ears as he screamed. I took my hands away and shrugged. I hated guessing games. Yugi held up his right hand and pointed to a ring. It had a big diamond in the middle. Around the big diamond were six little ones. Looking at the gold carefully I could tell it was about 4 kg. gold. The ring must have been one hefty price. Looking to Yugi in shock, he smiled.
"Yami asked me to marry him! As you can see I said yes even though he didn't have to get me a ring." Yugi said as Yami walked up to him. I forced a smile and congratulated them. Inside I was screaming with rage and hate. Why should they get to be together forever while both of my lovers where dead?! Why do they get to be happy while I suffered?! Why?!
"Well, koi, I wanted to get you a ring because I care about you and I thought you deserved one. Plus it wouldn't be right if you didn't have one." Yami said as he placed his arms around Yugi. I glared at them and looked away. They looked so happy together. Bakura and I were like that before...... No not now!
"I was wondering Ryou if you'd like to be my best man." Yugi said and I was taken back by that. I thought for a moment. I don't know what to say. I had convinced my self that everybody hated me because of what happened.
Flashback
Cause you were made for me Somehow I'll make you see How happy you make me I can't live this life Without you by my side I need you to survive
The funeral of Bakura was held on April 19, 2001. It was drizzling and thunder clouds roamed over head. I sat by myself in the back crying silently. I looked up as Yugi and the gang toward me. I sighed and looked down at my shoes.
"I'm sorry Ryou." Tea said in a whisper. I nodded and looked out the window. Yugi placed him hand on my shoulder and sighed. I looked back at him. My eyes where red and soar from crying so hard and long.
"What happened? That day when he was....." Yugi stopped from finishing the sentence. I looked away and sighed. I began to tell them my story. When I was finished they all looked at me in surprise and disgust. I looked away as Tea and Honda walked away from me. Shortly after Joey, Mairk, Seto, Yami, and Yugi followed Tea and Honda. I held back tears as my boyfriend sat next to me. He looked at me with pity.
"I'm sorry I did this to you and Bakura. I should have never told you I loved you. Bakura would still be alive and you won't be hurting. I didn't mean for all this to happen. I.... I...." Mailk started but stop do to the tear he began to shed. I pulled him close to me and allowed him to cry on my shoulder. I looked up and saw my friends glaring at me. I sighed and looked down at Mailk.
"Mailk you didn't do anything wrong. I messed up big time. It isn't your fault so don't blame this on your self. Don't hurt yourself because of me. Please don't. I killed Bakura not you...... not you."
End of Flashback
"It would really mean a lot to me. Please!" asked Yugi and I smiled slightly. I nodded and Yugi smiled. I sighed and walked into the living room of the small apartment that came with the shop. I stop shortly as I saw the whole gang here. Joey was holding Seto in his arms and laughing. Mairk was sitting by himself in a chair and growled at Honda who I guess said something about him. Tea sat and smiled at the two bickering.
Tea looked over at me and stopped smiling. Soon Joey and Seto were looking at me as well. Mairk followed shortly after along with Honda. They all looked at my weird before Yami and Yugi walked in the living room as well. I sighed and walked in with them. Why are they all staring at me?! Do they still not like me?!!!?!
"Yugi can I speak with ya for a moment." Joey said and Yugi nodded. They left the room and Tea walked up to me. She looked at me weirdly before she spoke.
"Who are you?" she asked in a kind voice. I growled inwards but forced a smiled at her. She back away from me. Guess I look like Bakura when I do that. At the name of him I looked away sadly before I shook my head.
"Guess." Was all I said before Tea took another step back in shock. Guess she wasn't expecting the innocent Ryou to look like I do now. I laughed mentally and sighed.
"R-Ryou..... Is that you?" asked Honda as he stood up and walked over to me. Soon everybody was standing around me in shock.
"Hn.. Yes it's me." I said and made shivers run down everybody's spine. I guess they think I sounded like him. Good! I want to be him... Well, anyway.....
"Hn... I like the look, Ryou. Very you." Mairk said and I nodded. Everybody rolled their eyes and went back to their seats. I went and sat next to Tea who from the corner of my eyes scooted away some.
"So, Ryou, how have you been. We haven't seen you in like three years. What happened" asked Honda. I sighed and put my head in my hands.
"Hn, nothin' much. Why?" I asked as I looked at Honda with the same death glare he gave them before...... Stop thinking about that!
"Oh..... Well you got a job?" asked Honda. I've only heard him talk twice but he was already getting on my nerves. I glared at him and spoke in a harsh tone.
"Yes, I do have a job." I said and Honda nodded. I looked around and sighed. Just when I thought I was in the clearing Seto spoke up.
"So what do you do?" he asked as he folded his arms across his chest. I did the same and growled. Will they stop asking questions?! Why would they start caring now?! It's been three fucking years and they could have at least called! Yugi was the only one who tried to understand what I was going through. He was, after all, at the accident.
"None of your damn business." I growled and they all looked at me in shook besides Mairk and Yami. Rolling my eyes at them I leaned back into the couch. Just at that moment Joey and Yugi walked back into the room. Joey looked a bit pissed off but oh well. He walked back over to Seto and smiled. Sitting down he pulled Seto in his lap.
"Guess what guys! Ryou's going to be my best man at the wedding!" Yugi said happily and everybody looked from him to me and back again. They all nodded and smiled slightly. Yugi walked over to Yami and sat in his lap.
"Ryou, you're going to have to do something with your hair..." Yugi said and I gulped. As much as I hated my hair in the morning I still liked it. It took me two and a half years to grow it past me back.
"Why... I happen to like my hair." I said a little too harsh and Yugi shook his head. I glared and Yugi glared back at me. For a little guy he sure was high in confidence.
"Fine.... At least dye it a different color then black..... Please." Yugi said as he threw his hands in the air as he gave up. I smirked and laughed a little.
"Fine... but after the wedding it's going back to black and blood red. This color was expensive you know." I stated and they all laughed. I sighed and stood up. They all looked at me in worry.
"I have to get to work now... My boss won't be very happy if I'm late....Anyways, later." I said and walked to the front door. I was stopped by all my friends who had come up to me. I sighed and continued to my car. I smirked as all the mouths dropped at the sight of my car; well all but Yugi and Yami.
I took a moment to look over my 1972 Chevrolet, Corvette Stingray L88. (A:NThe most powerful corvette that I know of....) I climbed back in the front seat and started up my car. Waving bye to my 'friends' I slammed on the gas once more. As I looked in the rear view mirror I saw all of them shake their heads in disgust at my driving skills. Well to god damn bad! If you don't like it then look the other way. I did after all get my driver's license!
Turning left four miles down the road I ended up on one of the poorest streets in the city. I groaned as I thought about the job I had taken up. Damn people who smoke crack and fucken get drunk all the time! Sighing once again I turned right on the main road and drove for about a mile and stopped in front of a small yet powerful drug dealer's house. Stepping out of my car I went to the trunk and pulled out a cover. After placing the cover over my corvette I walked up to the door and rand the door bell.
A young girl answered the door and smiled. She ran up to me and gave a hug. I didn't hug back, though. I pushed her away lightly and walked into the house. I waited by the front door as the little girl ran to get her father. A young man no older than walked up to me and shook my hand.
"Hey Ryou. How have you been? Anyway, down to business. I need by tonight at least a hundred grams of coke sold. I own a powerful someone money and I need that money. Think you can do that?" the young man asked and I nodded. He gave me the coke and I set off the do my 'job'. I was back in my car six minuets later after I placed the coke in the trunk. Selling the coke was easy but the hard part was not to get caught by the cops.
Driving to my first location I climbed out of my car and walked up to the run down house. I knew that this guy was dieing to have more coke since he ran out a week ago. I laughed at this and walked in the run down shack. I searched the bottom floor before I went to the top. He wasn't anywhere to be seen. Typical of him. Never around when I actually have the crap. I was about to leave when I found a note on the back of the front door. Tearing it off, I read the note to myself.
Ryou, I ain't gonna be home till late 'morow. The $ for the coke is in da ketchin in da cookie jar. Leave ma coke in the jar... Put as much as I can afford... Later
Jason
I could tell this was Jason's hand writing by the misspelled words and slang. I sighed and set of to the kitchen. Opening the cookie jar I took out the money that was there. Counting it out I noticed there was enough for four grams.... Where the hell did he come up with the money? Oh well, at least I can start off by selling this shit quickly. After going out to my car and measuring four grams, I walked back inside and place the coke in the cookie jar. Leaving the house and climbing back into my car I took off to the big location where I normally sell most of my coke.
It took about thirty minuets but when I got there my car was already crowed by my customers. Coke was a big part of this side of town. Climbing out the car I walked to the trunk. I saw a line was forming and I smiled... What idiots! They're rotting away their brain with the crap and they don't even care.
"Hey buddy! You gonna 'ell me....hic.... coke or 'ot?" asked the lean guy in front of my. I smirked and nodded. He pulled out sixty dollars and handed it over. Cheap ass guy. Sixty is only gonna get him a gram.... I hate poor people! I gave him his coke and shoved away roughly. A young girl about the age of fourteen was standing in front of me. I shook my head and pointed for her to leave. She glared at me and I glared back. One rule is not to sell to anyone under sixteen. Parents are a major worry in this fucking business. She kicked the dirt and stormed off. I smiled slightly and looked at my next customer. This girl was a reagy here. She always bought from me. I took her money and repaid her with the damn shit. She thanked me and walked away. I sighed and went back to work.
It was nearly ten a night but I had finally sold the last of the shit. I got back in my car and drove to my boss's house. He was waiting outside the door for me. When I pulled up he smiled. He walked over to my car and I gave him the money. He nodded and started counting the money. I groaned as he finished nine minuets later after counting the money twelve times. What an ass huh? He said bye and thanked me but I just nodded and told him any time. I drove away quickly and to my home.
Four hours later I was resting in my bed after a nice dinner and shower. I rolled over and looked at a picture of Bakura on my night stand. I felt tears well in my eyes. I buried my head into my pillow and began to sob. Why can't I get over him..... Why does this pain not go away? Every time I hear that name I begin the cry. No matter what I do I can't get him out of my head. I looked up through my tears to my window and sat up. Walking over to it I stared out it for some time. A song that I played at Bakura's funeral came to my head. I began humming the tone until I said that last two verses out loud.
So stay with me You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside That I'm sorry
And you forgive me again You're my one true friend And I never meant to hurt you
After
I'd give anything now To kill those words for you
(Ryou's POV)
I looked of to the setting sun.... painting the sky of all the colors of the rainbow. I wishing he was here with me to share this moment; to show him the kind of love he deserves. I'm not a perfect person..... I make mistakes to you know! This mistake just happens to one of the biggest I have ever made. By making this choice I had killed my darker half! I killed him!!!!!! I did..... No one else did... Not the drunk, not my friends, not god, not Mailk, not even him.... But me. I said things to him that I should have never said. I lied directly to his face and to him that I loved him. I did but then we grew apart; more like I grew apart from him and I destroyed are love. That's just like! Leave it up to me to ruin everything. Sigh I knew he deserved better than me. I would only hurt him if I held onto our relationship.
Walking away from something that caused the death of a loved one is something that will destroy your life forever. It will haunt you and kill you from the inside out. That's what has happened to me. I stopped loving, stop caring, stop all together. I broke it off with Mailk and hurt him as well. He was found dead three weeks after I dumped him. They said he was rapped and murdered. I know that was my fault too. If I had been with him I could have tried and protect him. Everything is my entire fault.
Looking up to the heavens I screamed all my pain away. How could I do something so careless? Why did they have to be killed, why not me? I sat up and dried my tears away vowing never to cry again. I stood up and brushed away the dirt off my pants. Walking into the house I settled on the couch and turned on the T.V. Finding something interesting I began to think. The show was about horrible car crashes. I thought back to the day I lost him. Shaking my head I looked back to the T.V. They're talking about where I live and about a crash that took place three years.
I watched as my past was resurfacing as they replayed the crash of my lover three years ago. I felt tears well up as the car and Bakura became one for a moment. My tears of pain turned to rage as they began to talk bad about my ex-love. I turned up the volume making sure I heard correctly.
"Three years ago a car crash that shook this once quiet town into a raging fit of tears. A young man no older than 15 was hit by a car. His body was slammed into a light pole; with the car pinning him to the pole. The young man was still alive but died shortly afterward as the car was removed from its place. Some people say that it was suicide and some say he was crazy and abusive. But really happened that day and was this a possible suicide as it is listed in the history of this crash. I talked to a professional therapist a day ago about this horrifying crash. Here's what he had to say:
The crash was by far one of the most death defying ones that year. Yet, the crash wasn't supposed to happen. If the drunk hadn't came along that same young man would have still been alive today. As you see in the roll back clip, you can see him walking to side of the rode where his twin is warily waiting for him.
Though, he was the one that walked into the rode in the first place and stood there waiting for fate to take him. This act was a cry of help and ......" I couldn't take anymore and threw the remote and the television. Sparks flew as the screen crashed inwards and shards of glass flew everywhere. I brought my hands to my face and cried into them.
Each time I say something I regret I cry, I don't want to lose you But somehow I know that you will never leave me
(3 hours later)
I groaned as I awoke to the ceiling staring down at me. I looked around and realized I had fallen asleep. I sat up and stretched my stiff and aching muscles. Standing up, I walked to my bathroom and looked into the mirror. I glared at the figure staring back at me. This is me. I look like something worse. My hair was messed up and I had bags under my eyes. I sighed and walked over to the tub; turning the knobs to warm I stepped in. Pulling up the handle for the shower; I allowed my aching muscles to relax. Reaching for my shampoo; I poured a generous amount in the palm of my hands. Once my hair was lathered I rinsed and began washing my body.
Once I was done I turned off the water and stepped out of the shower. Walking over to the clouded mirror I wiped away some of it so I could see myself. I shrugged at my appearance. It was better than what it looked like before. Walking out of the bathroom I went to my room. Opening the closet I pulled out a black baggy shirt along with black baggy pants. I pulled on my cloths and walked over to my dresser. Picking up my chains, I hooked them onto my pants. One I used as a belt, my second chain was used as nothing really. It just hung from my belt loop and dangled there. My last three was used to connect my pants in the back. Once I was done with the chains I picked up my hand guards. Pulling them on me, I took my golden ring and place it over my finger. I opened my dresser and picked up my necklace. It was a cross made out of skulls. I loved this necklace. Once it was safely around my neck I took the town of my once white hair. Instead I had dyed it black with small highlights of blood red in it. I may have looked different but I was still the same inside. I hated that!
Walking over to my keys, I picked them up and left he house. I strolled up to my car and climbed into the front seat. Putting the keys in the ignition; I slammed on the gas peddle. I raced over the speed limits to the Kami Game Shop. I didn't even bother to stop at any stop signs or stop lights. I arrived there in record time.
Stepping out of the car I locked it up. Yugi and Yami came running out of the shop and stared at me in worry. I shook my head and laughed a little.
"Is there something wrong, Ryou?" asked Yugi in concern. I shook my head no and sighed. I walked up to them and forced a smile.
"No, Yugi, nothings wrong. I just thought I come and visit. Is there something wrong with that because if there is then I......" I started but Yami cut in.
"No! No, nothings wrong with that. We just thought you were in some kind of trouble, that's all." Yami said in a kind voice that I despised so much. I use to be that friendly and trusted anyone. Not anymore. I'm not going to be that innocent little weakling anymore. He's gone and never coming back. Just like.... Never mind. I walked past the and inside the game shop. They looked at me confusingly and shrugged.
"We're glad that you're not in any trouble. How have you been?" asked Yugi as he ran up behind me. I sighed and looked at him. He was so innocent. He wouldn't understand what I was going through.
"I'm doing fine. A little bored but fine, you?" I answered and he smiled. He looked over his shoulder to his lover Yami. Yami nodded and Yugi's smile grew wider.
"Guess what!!!!!!" Yugi screamed at me. I put my hands to my ears as he screamed. I took my hands away and shrugged. I hated guessing games. Yugi held up his right hand and pointed to a ring. It had a big diamond in the middle. Around the big diamond were six little ones. Looking at the gold carefully I could tell it was about 4 kg. gold. The ring must have been one hefty price. Looking to Yugi in shock, he smiled.
"Yami asked me to marry him! As you can see I said yes even though he didn't have to get me a ring." Yugi said as Yami walked up to him. I forced a smile and congratulated them. Inside I was screaming with rage and hate. Why should they get to be together forever while both of my lovers where dead?! Why do they get to be happy while I suffered?! Why?!
"Well, koi, I wanted to get you a ring because I care about you and I thought you deserved one. Plus it wouldn't be right if you didn't have one." Yami said as he placed his arms around Yugi. I glared at them and looked away. They looked so happy together. Bakura and I were like that before...... No not now!
"I was wondering Ryou if you'd like to be my best man." Yugi said and I was taken back by that. I thought for a moment. I don't know what to say. I had convinced my self that everybody hated me because of what happened.
Flashback
Cause you were made for me Somehow I'll make you see How happy you make me I can't live this life Without you by my side I need you to survive
The funeral of Bakura was held on April 19, 2001. It was drizzling and thunder clouds roamed over head. I sat by myself in the back crying silently. I looked up as Yugi and the gang toward me. I sighed and looked down at my shoes.
"I'm sorry Ryou." Tea said in a whisper. I nodded and looked out the window. Yugi placed him hand on my shoulder and sighed. I looked back at him. My eyes where red and soar from crying so hard and long.
"What happened? That day when he was....." Yugi stopped from finishing the sentence. I looked away and sighed. I began to tell them my story. When I was finished they all looked at me in surprise and disgust. I looked away as Tea and Honda walked away from me. Shortly after Joey, Mairk, Seto, Yami, and Yugi followed Tea and Honda. I held back tears as my boyfriend sat next to me. He looked at me with pity.
"I'm sorry I did this to you and Bakura. I should have never told you I loved you. Bakura would still be alive and you won't be hurting. I didn't mean for all this to happen. I.... I...." Mailk started but stop do to the tear he began to shed. I pulled him close to me and allowed him to cry on my shoulder. I looked up and saw my friends glaring at me. I sighed and looked down at Mailk.
"Mailk you didn't do anything wrong. I messed up big time. It isn't your fault so don't blame this on your self. Don't hurt yourself because of me. Please don't. I killed Bakura not you...... not you."
End of Flashback
"It would really mean a lot to me. Please!" asked Yugi and I smiled slightly. I nodded and Yugi smiled. I sighed and walked into the living room of the small apartment that came with the shop. I stop shortly as I saw the whole gang here. Joey was holding Seto in his arms and laughing. Mairk was sitting by himself in a chair and growled at Honda who I guess said something about him. Tea sat and smiled at the two bickering.
Tea looked over at me and stopped smiling. Soon Joey and Seto were looking at me as well. Mairk followed shortly after along with Honda. They all looked at my weird before Yami and Yugi walked in the living room as well. I sighed and walked in with them. Why are they all staring at me?! Do they still not like me?!!!?!
"Yugi can I speak with ya for a moment." Joey said and Yugi nodded. They left the room and Tea walked up to me. She looked at me weirdly before she spoke.
"Who are you?" she asked in a kind voice. I growled inwards but forced a smiled at her. She back away from me. Guess I look like Bakura when I do that. At the name of him I looked away sadly before I shook my head.
"Guess." Was all I said before Tea took another step back in shock. Guess she wasn't expecting the innocent Ryou to look like I do now. I laughed mentally and sighed.
"R-Ryou..... Is that you?" asked Honda as he stood up and walked over to me. Soon everybody was standing around me in shock.
"Hn.. Yes it's me." I said and made shivers run down everybody's spine. I guess they think I sounded like him. Good! I want to be him... Well, anyway.....
"Hn... I like the look, Ryou. Very you." Mairk said and I nodded. Everybody rolled their eyes and went back to their seats. I went and sat next to Tea who from the corner of my eyes scooted away some.
"So, Ryou, how have you been. We haven't seen you in like three years. What happened" asked Honda. I sighed and put my head in my hands.
"Hn, nothin' much. Why?" I asked as I looked at Honda with the same death glare he gave them before...... Stop thinking about that!
"Oh..... Well you got a job?" asked Honda. I've only heard him talk twice but he was already getting on my nerves. I glared at him and spoke in a harsh tone.
"Yes, I do have a job." I said and Honda nodded. I looked around and sighed. Just when I thought I was in the clearing Seto spoke up.
"So what do you do?" he asked as he folded his arms across his chest. I did the same and growled. Will they stop asking questions?! Why would they start caring now?! It's been three fucking years and they could have at least called! Yugi was the only one who tried to understand what I was going through. He was, after all, at the accident.
"None of your damn business." I growled and they all looked at me in shook besides Mairk and Yami. Rolling my eyes at them I leaned back into the couch. Just at that moment Joey and Yugi walked back into the room. Joey looked a bit pissed off but oh well. He walked back over to Seto and smiled. Sitting down he pulled Seto in his lap.
"Guess what guys! Ryou's going to be my best man at the wedding!" Yugi said happily and everybody looked from him to me and back again. They all nodded and smiled slightly. Yugi walked over to Yami and sat in his lap.
"Ryou, you're going to have to do something with your hair..." Yugi said and I gulped. As much as I hated my hair in the morning I still liked it. It took me two and a half years to grow it past me back.
"Why... I happen to like my hair." I said a little too harsh and Yugi shook his head. I glared and Yugi glared back at me. For a little guy he sure was high in confidence.
"Fine.... At least dye it a different color then black..... Please." Yugi said as he threw his hands in the air as he gave up. I smirked and laughed a little.
"Fine... but after the wedding it's going back to black and blood red. This color was expensive you know." I stated and they all laughed. I sighed and stood up. They all looked at me in worry.
"I have to get to work now... My boss won't be very happy if I'm late....Anyways, later." I said and walked to the front door. I was stopped by all my friends who had come up to me. I sighed and continued to my car. I smirked as all the mouths dropped at the sight of my car; well all but Yugi and Yami.
I took a moment to look over my 1972 Chevrolet, Corvette Stingray L88. (A:NThe most powerful corvette that I know of....) I climbed back in the front seat and started up my car. Waving bye to my 'friends' I slammed on the gas once more. As I looked in the rear view mirror I saw all of them shake their heads in disgust at my driving skills. Well to god damn bad! If you don't like it then look the other way. I did after all get my driver's license!
Turning left four miles down the road I ended up on one of the poorest streets in the city. I groaned as I thought about the job I had taken up. Damn people who smoke crack and fucken get drunk all the time! Sighing once again I turned right on the main road and drove for about a mile and stopped in front of a small yet powerful drug dealer's house. Stepping out of my car I went to the trunk and pulled out a cover. After placing the cover over my corvette I walked up to the door and rand the door bell.
A young girl answered the door and smiled. She ran up to me and gave a hug. I didn't hug back, though. I pushed her away lightly and walked into the house. I waited by the front door as the little girl ran to get her father. A young man no older than walked up to me and shook my hand.
"Hey Ryou. How have you been? Anyway, down to business. I need by tonight at least a hundred grams of coke sold. I own a powerful someone money and I need that money. Think you can do that?" the young man asked and I nodded. He gave me the coke and I set off the do my 'job'. I was back in my car six minuets later after I placed the coke in the trunk. Selling the coke was easy but the hard part was not to get caught by the cops.
Driving to my first location I climbed out of my car and walked up to the run down house. I knew that this guy was dieing to have more coke since he ran out a week ago. I laughed at this and walked in the run down shack. I searched the bottom floor before I went to the top. He wasn't anywhere to be seen. Typical of him. Never around when I actually have the crap. I was about to leave when I found a note on the back of the front door. Tearing it off, I read the note to myself.
Ryou, I ain't gonna be home till late 'morow. The $ for the coke is in da ketchin in da cookie jar. Leave ma coke in the jar... Put as much as I can afford... Later
Jason
I could tell this was Jason's hand writing by the misspelled words and slang. I sighed and set of to the kitchen. Opening the cookie jar I took out the money that was there. Counting it out I noticed there was enough for four grams.... Where the hell did he come up with the money? Oh well, at least I can start off by selling this shit quickly. After going out to my car and measuring four grams, I walked back inside and place the coke in the cookie jar. Leaving the house and climbing back into my car I took off to the big location where I normally sell most of my coke.
It took about thirty minuets but when I got there my car was already crowed by my customers. Coke was a big part of this side of town. Climbing out the car I walked to the trunk. I saw a line was forming and I smiled... What idiots! They're rotting away their brain with the crap and they don't even care.
"Hey buddy! You gonna 'ell me....hic.... coke or 'ot?" asked the lean guy in front of my. I smirked and nodded. He pulled out sixty dollars and handed it over. Cheap ass guy. Sixty is only gonna get him a gram.... I hate poor people! I gave him his coke and shoved away roughly. A young girl about the age of fourteen was standing in front of me. I shook my head and pointed for her to leave. She glared at me and I glared back. One rule is not to sell to anyone under sixteen. Parents are a major worry in this fucking business. She kicked the dirt and stormed off. I smiled slightly and looked at my next customer. This girl was a reagy here. She always bought from me. I took her money and repaid her with the damn shit. She thanked me and walked away. I sighed and went back to work.
It was nearly ten a night but I had finally sold the last of the shit. I got back in my car and drove to my boss's house. He was waiting outside the door for me. When I pulled up he smiled. He walked over to my car and I gave him the money. He nodded and started counting the money. I groaned as he finished nine minuets later after counting the money twelve times. What an ass huh? He said bye and thanked me but I just nodded and told him any time. I drove away quickly and to my home.
Four hours later I was resting in my bed after a nice dinner and shower. I rolled over and looked at a picture of Bakura on my night stand. I felt tears well in my eyes. I buried my head into my pillow and began to sob. Why can't I get over him..... Why does this pain not go away? Every time I hear that name I begin the cry. No matter what I do I can't get him out of my head. I looked up through my tears to my window and sat up. Walking over to it I stared out it for some time. A song that I played at Bakura's funeral came to my head. I began humming the tone until I said that last two verses out loud.
So stay with me You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside That I'm sorry
And you forgive me again You're my one true friend And I never meant to hurt you