She froze. Nothing in her body would allow her to move. She felt as if time has completely stopped. She felt the cold metal of the door knob in her hand but nothing else. All she could do was just stare, stare at him. His face, his beautiful eyes, and those lips. Those wonderful lips. She remembered the last time he kissed her. It was two days before he left with Addison. They were in the stairwell at the hospital. She had gone there to cry, to be alone. She had lost a patient. A patient she had become attached to. While standing there grieving Derek had seen her and had gone to make sure she was okay. When he walked up to her she just looked at him and cried even more. He held her.
"It's okay…let it out" he has whispered to her, rubbing her hair, taking in the moment. He longed for moments like this with her. He dreamed of them, in fact it was what he lived for. He knew he made the right choice picking Addison, but his heart never forgave him for it. His heart longed for her, her touch, her laughter, her love. And since he wasn't allowed to have it, moments like this meant more to him then she would ever know.
She pulled away "I'm okay. I shouldn't even be crying I feel rather silly actually" she said.
"It's never easy, loosing a patient, but as time goes by you'll learn how to cope better" he said while wiping a tear from her eye. "I promise" he said while giving her his classic Derek smile. The smile she loved the smile that made her heart melt. At that moment their eyes connected and without even thinking they did what felt natural. They leaned in and kissed. It started off quick, she pulled back for a second but when he didn't she leaned in and allowed her body to have what it was craving for for months. The kiss was passionate, and expressed more feelings and love then they could ever express to each other in words. When they finally pulled away he touched her face ever so lightly and gently and stared into her eyes.
"I love you more then you'll ever know. You are the love that I have searched for my whole life but thought I would never find"
And with that walked out of the stairwell and two days later out of her life all together. She had analyzed that moment over and over and over again in her head for weeks. How could he say that to her and yet still leave? How could he just walk away, and not even say goodbye.
She was quickly snapped back to reality when she heard Christina's voice next her.
"I didn't know he was coming. I don't even know why he's here. I swear"
She wanted to tell her it was okay, but she couldn't. She couldn't say anything, she was still frozen. Starring at him wondering if he would ever look over and see her.
Mark put his hand on her back. "You okay? I know this isn't easy for you, maybe we should leave"
She nodded ever so slowly like finally getting out of a trance. Yes, leave, she thought. She couldn't be here, she couldn't face him. What would she say to him? How would she act? She was in love with Mark, she was married to Mark, Mark his best friend who had once slept with his wife was now her husband. She let go of the doorknob and turned around making eye contact with Mark. He could see the fear in her eyes. He understood. He said nothing just put his arm around her and held her. Together they walked through the dinning room and then to the kitchen to sneak out the back door. Marked turned to look at Christina to say he was sorry for leaving but before he could speak she just nodded letting him know that she understood. She just wanted her out of here. Away from him away from whatever he was going bring. Cristina may not have known why he was here but she knew it wasn't a good idea.