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I Killed

You saw my pain
You saw my soul
But you were out to gain
It had no meaning to you at all

You saw through my eye
Things I didn't want you to see
But all you said was: 'Goodbye,
I'm leaving, you mean nothing to me.'

You saw too much
But you didn't care
About the kiss, about the touch
About the feelings that weren't there

Now I stand here, alone
And I don't feel any guilt
No calls anymore on the phone
Nothing about the relationship we had build

There's nothing now to talk about
I killed, so you left me once again
You saw too much and I'm too proud
To let anyone take over my heart and my pain

Rain

The rain is falling
Creating a pool
The water is calling
But you can't hear it... you fool

It's calling for me to go outside
Back to where I belong
Now there's no need for me to hide
I've been away for too long

I'm walking in the rain
I can almost see the mere
All I feel now is the pain
And people who'll ask 'Where?'

'Where is she? Where has she gone to?'
But then I already passed the gate
Living is something I never did and never would do
Now it's already too late

I drowned myself, I drowned
In the water, in the rain
This is what it was all about
Now I leave it for you, the pain

Everything

Everything I wanted
Was just some understanding
Everything I felt
Were my feelings stranding

Everything I needed
Was a loving heart
Everything I thought
Was to create a new start

Everything I knew
Was that my life had no meaning
Everything I made
Was a plan, a well thought-out thing

And everything people said
Was that the girl laid down her head
And everything people thought
'What a waste of the knife she had bought.'

Jump

I walk up the stairs
Step by step
My feelings not there
Secretly kept

People walk by
Glancing, 'Hello'
But those feelings of mine...
They don't know

I don't know them too
May it be hate?
Do I hate you?
Is it too late?

No, it isn't
I still have time
To do this, and
To complete this rhyme

Now I reached my goal
I walk on the deck
I jump in the black hole
And I'll never come back

Loved

You know I love you
You know I do
But you also know
That I hate you too

You know what you have done
You threw my love away
Suddenly you were gone
Leaving me with the pain

You know I loved you
You know I did
But you also know
That I'll kill you to make it fit

New Life

I see it in your eyes
You don't love me anymore
You lied behind my back
And I don't know what that's for

I still loved you
I really did
But your love wasn't true
Your love didn't fit

So I walked away
To start a new life
To find someone worth my love
To put away the knife

I left you behind
And I didn't let a tear
I'm not pushing 'rewind'
This is how it's supposed to be

See The Beauty Of Life

You can't keep taking
And give nothing back
You can't keep erasing
Things you did, so black

You have to become white
And know what it is
To have your beloved ones by your side
The feeling, the touch, the kiss

But you have no heart
Or it is made of stone
But it's not yet torn apart
It can still be made whole

Then you have to begin giving
And see the beauty of life
Only then you can start living
And put away your knife

© M.C. 2006