Author's Notes: W00T SPRING BREAK!Thanks so much to all those who reviewed! It was greatly appreciated! It's fun rewriting it, and I hope you guys find it enjoyable to read. BSH has drawn a sorato picture for chapter 5 weee because chapter 5 is about Sora and Yamato. It will be posted on my profile since won't let me post links in the pages... unless... hmmm I'm adding spaces to the URL so you have to take them away in order to view the picture www. photobucket. com/albums/v44/1hunn-ie/mindgames.jpg She also gave me nice music to listen to, her dance teacher uses it duringher stretching andbalancing warmup,great music to get me into a good atmosphere to write the continuation to Sisters, which will be way darker. They're kind of sad. I just love the songs! If you guys wanna know some she sent me they are: Fallen -by Delerium, Caught In A Moment -by Sugababes, I Wish I Wasn't -by Heather Headley
Now to respond to my most lovely reviewers:
KoumiLoccness Thanks for reading! Although, since you're a Koumi fan, it won't come in this fic, I'm sorry, but it will happen in in the continuation! I hope that doesn't stop you from reading this story though!
theladyknight I'm glad you like the conversations between Sora and herself lol, I enjoy writing about that, although I may be making her a bit OOC, but depending on the people and surroundings, no character can be OOC because they are dramatically effected by their environment. Unless I'm making her like Mimi, that's a no-no. lol. Oh right, so you're confused as to why Mimi and Sora are half sisters? All your answers will most likely be answered throughout the progress of the story, or in the continuation which is more indepth plotwise.
Tai-for-you Hey! That's great you read this story before, which means you're an old reader of mine! yay!That's great you're reading this again, I enjoy the support! Can you guess about any changes I made to the story?
Aino Yuy aka Usagi-Hater No Mimi this chapter! Lol, I see you're taking a dislike to Mimi, that's not surprising, although I didn't intentionally make her this way, it just, popped up! I'm glad you think it's good and continued to read this story even after almost a year, bad me for making you wait! BSH thanks you for your comment on her art, she said that she'll draw you a picture if you'd like!
Yvonne Yamato and Sora will be together soon... but not so fast, because pacing in a story is good. But I hope I don't make it too long, and I don't want to make it so quick too! So patience is always a virtue!
RW Grimm And I'm so happy that you're happy that I continued to write this! lol Thanks for reading it, really. And the links to BSH's artwork is posted on my profile or sometimes here, like this chapter's. Hope you like them!
MiDnItE Thanks for reading! And I don't think an author actually ever forgets to update, it's one of those pests called plot bunnies they have slay, or maybe just a writer's block. Thanks so much for reading!
A final thanks to all you wonderful people for reviewing! Sorry if the author's notes is a bit too long, I tend to blab a lot. Please read and review!
Sisters
By: Xplicit
Chapter Five:
Mind Games
Sora
Why is fate so cruel? Why was I forced to follow my sister to this wretched school and ultimately, my demise? Why did I leave my dad in the first place? Nothing is making sense anymore, my ramblings to myself aren't making any sense anymore, I'm not making any sense any more. Heck, I don't even know if I have any more sense left in me! Okay, I may be over exaggerating things, and it might seem like I need to take some anti-depressants, but ever since I've came to this school, my brain and my emotions have been tested. I don't like being tested on anything that is not on paper.
I can't concentrate as much as I used to due to minor distractions in my life. My day sucked. I can name off a number of reasons why my day sucked, and it's entirely because this school sucks, the people suck, and my life sucks. But first of all, let me tell you why I suck:
Here I was, eating lunch all by myself in the courtyard.
I'm brooding like a lost dog, being really sad and pathetic.
And I'm actually having a conversation with myself.
- Three weeks... It's been three weeks now since I've last talked to Yamato… -
- Missing him? -
- And the thing is, my sister is always studying with him! Every week. Sometimes twice a week! And she's always walking around with this silly grin on her face… -
- You wanna know what I think? -
- No, but will that stop you? -
- I think you're jealous. -
- What? -
- I think you're green with envy… -
- No way! -
- …sick with jealousy! And do you know why? -
- Let me guess, either way you're going to tell me, aren't you? -
- It's because you're in love with Yamato yourself! -
- Please, that's preposterous! -
- Really? Then why do you always have this disgusted look on your face whenever you see Mimi and Yamato together huh? -
- I do not. -
- You do too. -
- Do not! -
- Do too! -
- DO NOT! -
- DO TOO! -
- How would you know? -
- I know all about you! -
- You're being a child. -
- Am not. -
- Are too. -
- Am not! -
- Are too! -
- AM NOT! -
- OKAY, okay, stop it. So what if...let's just say, as a hypothetical...what if I do like Yamato? -
- Ah ha, I knew it! -
- I'm talking hypothetical here! -
- Well, if I were you... -
- You ARE me! -
- Then I would totally make a move on Yamato. -
- What about Taichi? -
- Personally, I like Tai better than Yamato. -
- Well, thanks a lot for that input, now I'm even more confused than I was before. -
- Hey, don't shoot the messenger. I'm only telling you what you're thinking subconsciously. -
- I hate you. -
- Self hate leads to depression, which leads to suicide, you know. -
- I really just wish I could totally slap you, you know? -
- You can, you know, there's no one stopping you from slapping yourself. -
- Shut up. You're a bitch and I hate you. -
- It's like we're married isn't it? -
- Shut up. -
- We've got it all… The arguments, the fights, the threats, name calling, domestic violence… -
- Shut up! -
- We could make a beautiful couple…
- Shut up! -
- Oh Sora, I loooooove you! -
- SHUT UP! -
- Not as much as you love Yamato though… -
- I do not love Yamato! -
- Oh, how can I compete with the likes of him…? -
I leapt to my feet. "I SAID, SHUT UP! I DO NOT LOVE YAMATO!"
- Uh oh. Don't you just hate when that happens? -
My hands shot straight to my mouth and clamped over it, but sadly, that was after I realized what an idiotic thing I just did. I was forced to hear the lingering echo of my outburst reverberate against the corners of this school's inner courtyard, and in my blank mind. My eyes darted uneasily around my surroundings to see that many people, with curious scrutinizing glances my way, were staring at me as if I were some crazy bum on the streets of downtown exclaiming that the apocalypse was approaching. In truth, I wish I was the bum because everyone would understand my deathly mental problem.
- Hey! -
And in another confession of truth, I wish what I would say as the bum, which would be 'the end of the world is coming!', would be true too, because then everyone would die and I would be happy. Of course, I'd be rotting in the flames of hell along with everyone else too. But Hell seems like a better place to be right now than this quiet courtyard at the moment.
I willed my legs with all my mental and physical strength to move so I can bolt right out of there, but they remained immobile as if petrified into stone and cemented to the ground. Come on! Mind over matter, mind over matter… Oh, that crap does not work!
"Isn't that girl the one that got kicked out of that public school? How did she get into this school?" I heard a girl whisper to a friend beside her. Even though it was just a whisper, the whole courtyard could still hear it. That particular girl whispered loudly enough for the rest of the courtyard to cast me a new set of awkward looks of disgust.
But that's not all, her friend, who I wish I could slap fifty times over with an iron rod and then sew her lips shut with unbreakable thread, didn't respond in a whisper, but rather she replied quite loudly. "I heard from Michael that her and her sister seduced the principal!"
"Ewww!"
- Oh God, Kill me, just kill me now. -
- See what I mean by depression leading to suicide? -
Yamato
Life's a real bitch.
Sometimes when things are going good, when I'm finally content with everything that's going on in this damn world, life has to waltz in with a screwdriver for a reality check, and screw me ten times over and turns my life upside down. One day I have this beautiful girlfriend who loves me as much as I love her, the next, she decides to leave me for my best friend. How freaking warped is that?
And then, just when I've finally moved on, erasing every memory imprinted of her inmy mind, someone who looks remarkably like her ambles in and doesn't know that she's leaving me breathless. And then later on, my life crumbles when I find out that she falls easily for my ex-best friend. How can you not pity me? Some one up there is not letting me forget about my ex girlfriend! This is a merciless joke, and I'm the victim of the torment.
The worst part of life is that I have an inner voice that won't let me ignore this new girl. It's like as if she's the only thing that matters, even though I've barely spoken more than ten words to her. Funny isn't it? I just don't understand… do I like her because she looks like Sara? I wish that was the case because then I'd be done with that emotion and not so confused like I am now.
I walk into the school's central courtyard, and immediately I see her sitting on the grass of a makeshift hill. From my view, it looks like as if she's daydreaming since her head is slightly tilted to the side and not moving. If I was able to see her face, some may say that her expression was cute.
I smile. What if life is giving me the real deal this time to make up for last time? Although Sora may look like Sara, it doesn't mean they are the same. They have different names, and they're different people. Plus, the way she looks at me… it's as if she feels what I feel. As if... we understand each other. What's the term for it? Soul mates. Yes that's it. Can it be? Maybe life isn't that cruel after all to present me with her… to bring her into my life…
With my thoughts and feelings finally taken care of, I'm walking towards her now from behind. But what would I do when I see her? Apologize? Ask her out? Ask to take her to the Semester ball?
Almost in an instant, Sora suddenly stood up, as if she knew I was approaching her. "I SAID, SHUT UP! I DO NOT LOVE YAMATO!" she proclaimed to the entire courtyard.
After seconds of stunned silence and the feeling of my heart being shot simultaneously by a firing squad, I swiftly turned and headed out the nearest exit. As I hurried away, I resentfully thought that I knew better than to believe life would ever be on my side.
Like I said, life's a bitch, and she has something against me personally.
