A/N: Thanks for the reviews guys… it meant a lot… I'll continue this story for now to see how it goes… So here's next chapter… Hope you like it…

Chapter 2 (Sawyer POV)

"I love him"

That's what she had said. He was pretty damn sure he heard those words coming out of her mouth while he was being tortured. At first he thought he imagined it. That he wanted to hear her say it so much that he actually heard her confess her love for him. But it wasn't his imagination. No. She had said it. And he believed her. Even though she denied it later he believed that once in his life he was being truly loved. Loved by the woman he himself loved. And God it felt good.

"I love you too"

He had said it too. For once he confessed his true feelings without holding anything back. He was being honest and he liked it. At first he was scared. Scared that she'd reject him. Tell him that their encounter was a mistake. And that she was sorry. But she didn't. She just kissed him. He supposed that was her way of telling him her feelings. That she couldn't find the words or she was just too scared. So he accepted it. He was too happy to think otherwise. Too in love to see what was truly that she was feeling. And that was pain. He knew that now.

"I can't leave without you"

He kept thinking of these words. Over and over again trying to find a different meaning each time. At first he thought she was just being good. Not let anyone down, try to be a good person for once, not leave anyone behind. Then he thought she was feeling guilty. After all Jack had done for her, including him sacrificing his life to save hers, she couldn't just leave him behind. Couldn't let him die because of her. After that he started to think about their relationship and the time they used to spend together. So he thought she was feeling guilty once again but this time cause she hadn't chosen Jack. She had chosen him. And maybe she couldn't bear hurting him twice. These were his first thoughts. Thoughts he had while they were running to escape. But now they were back. And everything was different. Everything.

"Hey Sawyer"

It was Charlie. "Great, exactly what I needed."he thought bitterly.

"What do you want, shortie?"

"Nothing Just wanna sit with you. Can i?"

"No actually you can't. Why the big interest? Did someone make you come here as a punishment or did you lose a bet?"

"Hey man no need to be mean. Just came here to see if you were ok but apparently you're not. So what's the problem?"

"It's none of your business. So I'd suggest you leave now before I get up and make you leave."he said obviously not in the mood for talking.

But Charlie wasn't gonna give up so easily.

"Is it Kate?"he asked wanting nothing more than to find out what happened between them while they were captured .

Sawyer didn't say anything. He just glared at him showing he wasn't happy with where their conversation was going. But Charlie was determined to find out.

"Are you together?"

With that Sawyer got up without warning and came face to face with him looking at him with an angry look that could kill.

"If I were you I'd start running now cause I won't hold back much longer" he threatened. His fists clenched to his sides ready to hit him so hard he'd begged for mercy.

But Charlie seemed not to care so he asked the one question he knew that wasn't going to end up well.

"Did you screw her?"

It all happened at once. Sawyer attacked Charlie with all he got. Fists, knees even with his head. They fell to the ground wrestling with each other. It was obvious Sawyer had it. Charlie was just trying to save himself from the angry and furious Sawyer who seemed not to care even if he killed him. After a while people started gathering and few of them tried to separate them. Sawyer just wanted to kill Charlie but Charlie had gotten what he wanted. Answers. Even if Sawyer hadn't given them straight he now had a pretty good idea about what had happened. So he just turn his back to Sawyer smiling and went back to where he was before.

However, Sawyer was not happy. After Charlie had left he started attacking to those who had stopped him. He didn't know why. He just wanted to get it out. The hurt, the pain, the anger. All at once. Everyone was yelling at him to stop but he couldn't. he was just like a wild animal that was freed. Until he heard her voice.

STOP!!!

He turned around and saw her. Angry and confused. She came closer to him, tried to touch him, to find out what was wrong with him but he didn't let her. He couldn't let her see how hurt he was because he hated when people pitied him. And that's what she would feel for him. Pity. And he couldn't allow that. So he left. He left her standing there not knowing what it was that she did wrong.

After a while of walking into the jungle he stopped. He didn't know where he was but he didn't give a shit. He wanted to get away. Away from people, away from her, away from love. He wanted so badly to stop loving her, to stop hurting. But his heart couldn't obey his mind. So he gave into it. Into his love for her and the pain she caused him. Tears started pouring down his face. God he hadn't cried for so long. Actually he couldn't remember when it was the last time he cried. He supposed it was when his mother died. She was the only woman he ever truly loved. Until Kate.

She was different. Good different. She had everything a man wants. But it wasn't just that. What made him love her was that she believed in him. Believed that there was good in him. That he wasn't that bad after all. And that's why he thought she loved him too. But he was wrong. He was so wrong.

Her heart belonged to the doc. Even if she didn't know it or she didn't want to admit it to herself it was Jack she longed for. It was Jack she needed. And it was Jack she loved. She was just too scared to realize it and let Jack know it. Cause she thought she didn't deserve him. That he was too good for her. That he'd end up hurt because of her. What she didn't know was that she was hurting him more by pushing him away.

Sawyer was only a way of forgetting him. A way to forget her feelings for him.

"I'm the consolation prize" he thought bitterly.

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