Ryu watched him sleep. Everything was still, everything was quiet. Kyo was here but he felt he had gone somewhere and left him. What it would be like if Kyo was gone and it would be just Jin and him? What life would he have? Would Jin be like Kyo, gentle as Kyo, caring as Kyo? He got used to one brand of loving, Kyo's. He was spoiled, loved with a love that was selfless. They have mutual respect for each other, complimented each other. Needs, wants…everything, they had known each other all their lives, they haven't known anyone who could understand them like they do each other. So Ryu made a decision. He would give Jin a chance, two weeks, if nothing serious sparked between them he would go back to the life he had with Kyo. When he smiled, Kyo stirred from his slumber.
"Hey, handsome." He whispered, kissing him. "Hey." Kyo called back, weakly. Ryu touched his face, "Hungry? Want something to eat?" He asked. Kyo nodded and smiled. Ryu kissed him again, and got up.
After lunch, Ryu said they needed to talk; Kyo raised his hand, signaling he wanted to say something. "If he is the one you want in your life, fine. I won't make it hard for you. You made your choice. I made mine. Just give me time to make arrangements and I will leave you to your heaven." Kyo said, and looked at him. Ryu looked; Kyo looked at him, "Is there anything else?" Kyo asked. Ryu shook his head. "Then leave." Kyo said, opening the door to his bedroom. Ryu was taken aback. Kyo looked at him again; Kyo gave him a questioning look.
"Jin won't be home till later." Ryu hinted, still sitting there on the bed.
"I'm not your toy, Ryu. You made your choice." Kyo said. Ryu looked at Kyo, he doesn't look the same, and he is cold and uncaring. As if this is not the same Kyo he made love to a few hours ago. He got up and walked out of the room. Kyo closed the door behind him without a word.
After an hour, he saw him at the balcony, a can of beer and a cigarette in hand.
"You shouldn't be doing that, that's bad for you." Ryu said. Kyo looked at him, and blew smoke on his face.
"Who says? Are you my mother?" Kyo said.
Ryu let out a gasped, "What's wrong with you?" he asked, walking to him, about to touch his forehead. Kyo stood up and walked away.
"There's nothing wrong with me. You wanted to meet the real Kyo, right? I never thought I will be this way again. But you made me, Ryu. I was planning to settle down with you, spent the rest of my life with you. But suddenly, you kicked me out of our bedroom, bring in your lover and now you're kicking me out of my own house. I hope all your plans won't back fire. I hope your guy is a good lay in bed." Kyo said, threw his cigarette butt out and bumped into him on his way back in the house.
After an hour, he heard the door to Kyo's bedroom opened, he was all dressed up. Put on his boots and walked out of the door.
Ryu was thinking what went wrong? This is not the way he planned to spend the week. This is not how he expected Kyo to behave. How then? He asked himself, still submissive and passive, harmless Kyo? Endless sex marathon for a week? He jumped when his mobile rang.
"Honey, I won't be coming home till next week, Dad asked me to go to the other branch. I'm sorry, are you guys doing okay?" Jin asked.
Ryu didn't know whether to laugh or cry. "We're okay, don't worry about us. You want me to come in tomorrow?" He asked.
"No, no. Stay with Kyo. I got our branch covered; it's the other one that is having some problems, am on my way there now. I love you, call you later." Jin said.
"Love you, too." Ryu heard a click. Great a week of being a house sitter, Ryu said, glumly.
Suddenly he heard voices and giggles, a girl giggling; he turned to check the front door. It opened and revealed Kyo with a girl in tow! And he was kissing her! Ryu's eyes went wide, he was about to protest when Kyo dared him with a look. So he watched them helplessly as Kyo led her to the bedroom, and after a few minutes he can hear moans and other noises in the bedroom.
Ryu slumped down on the divan by the patio, is Kyo doing this on purpose, showing him if he can do it, he can do it worse? He never realized how much it hurts. Did he really hurt him that way? That hard?
Ryu didn't care anymore. He walked to the bedroom and lay down to take a nap. Now he is the one feeling miserable.
It must have been an hour or two when he woke up hearing the front door closing. He checked to see if Kyo left with the girl. He had a fleeting glance of long hair. He walked to the bedroom and saw Kyo lying there, half naked with a blanket thrown at his legs haphazardly. He went near the man and shook him, "Kyo." He called. All he got is a moan and the blanket rode up dangerously. Ryu looked around the room, beer cans and a bottle of whiskey scattered on the floor, he leaned closer and sniffed Kyo's breathe. Nice he reeked of alcohol. He was peering at the radio clock on top of the TV, it was almost 9pm, he was gonna get up when Kyo's arm snaked through his neck and gathered him in an embraced. "Ryu." Kyo whispered.
What now? Ryu thought. He tried to disentangle himself from his position but when Kyo moved to hold him tighter, the blanket fell away, revealing a naked Kyo. When Kyo moaned his name again and released him, Ryu was still staring at the inviting erection of Kyo. He touched it, it stood up, inviting him for a lick, it was warm and dry. So, he didn't went to bed with the bitch, Ryu confirmed, Kyo was only trying to hurt him back, they probably just faking it all along, or probably watching porn and drinking, and the girl left because Kyo passed out drunk.
He moved closer to Kyo again, kissing his neck, trailing kisses all over his chest. He elicited a groan, and Kyo was pulling him close, moaning his name over and over again. He went into frenzy with Kyo's warm body and hands traveling all over him, undressing him, he forgot everything. Kyo opened his eyes, his eyes burning with desire.
"Take me." Kyo commanded. Ryu teased him first with his tongue, circling, licking and sucking, Kyo was bucking and moaning. When he knew that Kyo was ready, he grabbed for the lube by the night table and readies his love for him. This would be the second time; Kyo is still tight, very hot and tight, arousing every senses in Ryu.
After they climaxed together for the nth time, they lay exhausted and spent in Kyo's bed, limbs tangled, arms around each other, as if nothing happened the few days.
Ryu was aroused from his slumber when the bed was shaking, he thought it was a tremor or something, it was Kyo, curled up in a ball, crying softly, trying so hard to hold back the whimper, his body glowing with sweat, his face bathe with tears, he must have been crying for hours. He didn't know what to do, to hold him or just let him. Now he wanted to cry, too. He moved a little on the bed, Kyo tried to hold back his sobs, he feigned sleep when Kyo rolled over and face him, leaning over him, brushing his hair, kissing him over and over again, he embraced Ryu and with a final kiss he got up from the bed. He must be faking that he was already okay he almost swoon back on the bed, Ryu panicked about to get up and catch him, Kyo dropped to his knees and waited till the vertigo subsided. He walked to his drawer and hunt for his medication.
When Kyo fell back on the bed to sleep, wrapping his arms around Ryu, it was his turn to stare into nothingness and think. What to do now? He wondered. He didn't want to send Kyo away anymore but one of them has to leave. He didn't want to decide, he was selfish, and he wanted both men. He stared and stared up the ceiling hoping to find his answers there.