Kai knew it's all about Ryu but he didn't want to interfere. It's got nothing to do with him and he really didn't know anything about Kyo or Ryu, only those things that Kyo had related to him. Kai met him where he works part time. Kyo looked so lost sitting there, nursing a cold coffee. He was sitting at the loneliest part of the bar, the back booth, away from prying eyes. He looked so lost and out of place. He is not from around here, that's for sure.
The bar is empty and Kai got nothing to do, so have time to observe the lonely stranger sitting at the back of the bar. He wondered what's wrong, he was just sitting there staring into space. Suddenly his head slumped on the table, Kai was about to see if something happened, and then he can see Kyo's body shaking. When Kyo lifted his head, Kai saw he was crying.
Kai had seen a lot of things like that, some would even relate to him their story, and even some would force you to listen to them. But this guy was different. He would look away and try to hide himself. The years he had worked as a bar tender, he learned not to ask, not to pry, and not to get involved. But with this stranger, he felt so drawn. Those kind eyes, that face. He can't help it, but stare and be drawn. Take him in your arms and tell him everything would be alright now, because you will be there for him.
He didn't know why he did it but it was too late now, he already poured the Whiskey on a shot glass and was already near the stranger's table. Kyo sensed someone coming and wiped his tears quickly.
Kai set the Whiskey glass in front of Kyo, and took the cold coffee away. "H-hey, I-I didn't order this." Kyo said, grabbing his arm before he could walk away. Kai smiled, "Looks like you could use it." Kai said.
"I-I don't have money to pay for this." Kyo said, panicking. Kai smiled again, "Don't worry it's on the house, I would get you coffee and something to eat." Kai said.
Kyo opened his mouth about to protest, "My shift ends in thirty minutes, I hate eating alone, I'm inviting you to dinner, I hope you don't mind." Kai said, with a pat on the back. Kyo didn't know what to say, he just smiled, realizing he was hungry.
"Thank you." Kyo said.
"Okay then it's settled. I will bring you coffee and see you in 30 minutes." Kai said, extending his hand. "My name is Kai."
Kyo shook his hand, "Kyo. Thank you, Kai." He said. Kai nodded and walked away. Kai had never done that before, walk over to a stranger, invite him for dinner and introduce himself. He smiled, maybe because I like his face. He seemed to be a nice guy. Kai shrugged and went to get Kyo his coffee.
Kyo sat there and wondered, here I go again, on to my next chapter. I'm tired, so tired. I don't want this life anymore, am tired being me, every time I'm with someone I end up this way. Why am so gullible sometimes? Why do I trust so easily when I already know they are lying I still pretend I didn't know any better. So here's another stranger, am sure he will want to know my life, too. I will just tell him that Ryu is my best friend and we have a falling out so I needed to move out, I will leave it at that. I took out my wallet about to check if I still have my injections, I only have one left. So I took out one of those pills instead, I have to find a job to get more of my prescriptions.
My mind is so clouded and fuzzy from all these emotions , they are mixed up, I don't know what to think and how to think, how could you do that to someone you love? Does greed over powers love? How can you swear that you don't love a person, don't you bite your tongue when you know you are lying? Life is so full of mysteries, maybe Ryu is weaker than I am, maybe that's why he is always been the uke, he can't lead, he may look tough, but underneath that bully exterior he was really afraid. I don't know how to feel, there's just an ache, I can't breathe, and if I give in it will pull me in.
I looked up when the bartender showed up with a tray of food, wearing his street clothes. Yes, I am better than you, Ryu. I will forget. I swear, I will forget you.