I just read the previous chapters and ugh… I feel like I can't write for nuts. There's this Creative Arts Programme in my school; and I highly doubt I'll be able to get in. I actually gave up on this fic, but well… I guess I should finish what I've started.

So… once again I'll apologize for not updating & for (possibly) making the story end up cliché and stupid.

Oh, um, Jakotsu & Kagome exchanged numbers when they went for the date…yes, sorry, didn't mention it before…

3 things a girl needs when she's depressed:

Ice cream, chocolate, & her best friend.

The minute Kagome got home, she grabbed a tub of ice cream from the freezer & a Cadbury bar somewhere in the fridge, and headed for the sofa.

She whipped out her cell phone with a sigh.

She needed to call Sango, even though she'd most likely be lectured or given an immature "I told you so" as a response.

98765342…

She waited, listening to the phone ring, until she heard someone pick it up. Before that someone could even mutter a "hello", she began to rant.

"Oh my gosh, Sango! I'm doomed… I think he knows something's up. I mean, my voice cracks sometimes. Which normal 16-year-old guy still experiences voice breaking? And I hate the name Raito Eiri. It sounds so…ick. I should've asked you for your opinion before I decided to approach him… right?"

"Eiri-san?" came Jakotsu's voice from the other line, sounding completely confused.

OH. MY. (Insert any word you want here)

Kagome cleared her throat (it was a habit; she still wasn't used to automatically putting on her male voice) and prayed that he was too dumb to have caught whatever she had blabbered on about just now.

"Hi!" she said; attempting to disguise the obvious shakiness in her voice.

"Eiri-san…" Jakotsu's voice was suddenly all scratchy and soft. "You're a (bleep)-ing GIRL?"

Kagome froze. Okay, so he wasn't dumb at all. And boy, even when he sounded like he was about to cry, he could still swear…but that wasn't the point.

The point was… he knew she was a girl.

"Yes," she admitted, using her normal voice.

"You knew I hated girls! You're nothing but a filthy, sneaky, horrible, lying bitch!"

Filthy, sneaky, horrible, lying bitch.

She'd heard Jakotsu insult other girls before, but he'd never said anything mean to her (except for that Inuyasha incident).

When she had still been crushing on Inuyasha, he'd called her annoying, idiot and sometimes when he was angry, wench.

But it hadn't hurt as much then.

God, how it hurt now.

" So what if I'm a girl? If you like me, it shouldn't matter at all," she choked out, trying her best to hold back her tears.

She had to be brave.

And that was when she heard sobs.

Jakotsu was crying.

"I liked you a lot," he was saying, " I liked you so much more than anyone I'd ever liked before. And I thought that maybe it was love, finally. But no, you turned out to be a freaking girl." He spat the last word out in disgust.

"Well, I'm sorry I was born a girl, okay?" Kagome yelled, fed up with how sexist Jakotsu sounded. "I'm sorry I pretended to be a guy just so I could be with you! I'm sorry for being so in love with you that I'd really become a guy, if I could…" and it was here that she broke down.

She squeezed her eyes shut, trying to force every single tear possible out; and was just about to hang up when she heard him whisper:

"I wish you could."

YUCKS! What kind of crap am I writing nowadays? Horrid dialogue, zero vocab… no imagination?

I'm so sorry for killing you with this rubbish of mine. Silver Element (if you're still reading this… ) , I'm sorry for having so little confidence in myself & apologizing all the time, but I really do feel like my writing is pathetic…