Truth lies and consequents
When Brenda got home from her meeting with Dylan she found her brother completely stressed out in the kitchen with her son in his baby seat who by the looks of it had the time of his live cause he was squealing loudly and he wildly waved around with his little fists, when he saw his mother a huge smile came across up on his little face. Brandon on the other hand looked like a complete mess his clothes where full of baby food and he even had some of it in his hair and by the look on his face he could be bursting in to tears any minute now. Brenda couldn't help but laugh at the site of her brother.
Brandon looked up and saw Brenda standing in the kitchen he immediately saw thru her laughter that she had been crying. He could always see that. If Brenda cried her cheeks flushed. But in the current situation she probably would ask him first for an explanation.
'Hi sis how are you? As you can see Kieran and I are having a wonderful time'. Brandon tried desperately to sound casual but by the look on Brenda face he knew it wasn't very successful.
Brenda looked again at the scene and started laughing again.
'I can see that, But could you please explain to me why you have baby food al over your self and my son has noting on his plate? Brenda said with a mocking voice.
Brandon scratched himself behind his ear.
'You know Bren there's a perfectly good explanation for that; you see shortly after you left this little fellow over here decided that he didn't want to sleep anymore and since he is a son of his mother thus extremely stubborn, neither Alex our I couldn't get him back to sleep. So we decided to give him something to eat just to calm him down. But then Alex dropped the last pot of mashed fruit mix and we ended up giving him the Broccoli, Potatoes and Cabot flavoured one but as you can see he doesn't really like it. So Alex went to the store to get an other pot of mashed fruit mix. But in the mean time Kieran is entertaining himself by throwing the stuff al over the kitchen.' Brandon rapidly explained half serious half laughing.
'I'm sorry Brandon I totally forgot to tell you that he really hated the Broccoli, potatoes, and Cabot flavoured one. I feel a little guilty for not telling you. But then again I would have missed this entire scene and I would have noting to laugh about today'. Brenda said semi serious.
She walked over to Kieran's chair and picked him up the baby jumped a little in her arms and put his fingers in his mouth and made little murmuring noises. Brenda held him real close to her and caressed his little back. Kieran slowly rested his head against her shoulder.
Brandon heard by the tone of Brenda's voice that something was wrong despite the fact that she had been laughing it was a little tensed. He had already known that she had been crying but then it wasn't a really good timing to ask her what was wrong.
'So I take it that your meeting with the producer wasn't really a success?' Brandon asked concerned.
Brenda sat down on a chair at the kitchen table still holding Kieran close to her. Brandon followed her example and sat down next to her. She looked him in the eyes and gives him a sly smile.
'What do you mean by that?' Brenda said she decided too play dumb with Brandon cause she wasn't ready too discuss her meeting with Dylan yet it al needed too sink in.
'Bren don't play dumb with me I know something is wrong with you; you have been crying cause your cheeks are flushed and I can hear it in your voice.'
Damm! Sometimes she hated it that Brandon could read her like a book. She sighed heavily.
'The meeting wasn't exactly what I expected it to be'. Brenda began her story.
Brandon listens closely to Brenda and he can't quite believe what he is hearing. So Dylan knew al along about Kieran? Why then did he come too asked for his help in the matter? Maybe Dylan hired the investigator after he had come by, that Brandon didn't really know. He realised again how far Dylan was willing to go get Brenda back and Brandon wasn't really sure if that was such a healthy thing, it lately seemed like that Brenda had become an obsession for Dylan, but then again he couldn't really blame Dylan for wanting a family he had never had, and Brandon knew that Dylan loved Brenda more then anything else on this entire planet and he also knew that Brenda loved him back the same way. But now it seemed that it wasn't enough to help there relationship survive. Right now how ever he had to deal with an emotionally wrecked Brenda who was completely clueless about what to do with the entire situation. And to be quite honest so was he never the less he decided too help her as best he could.
'So Bren what are you going to do? Are you letting Dylan see Kieran? And what about Alex are you planning on telling him al this? Brandon purred a ray of questions at his Sister.
'Yes Brandon I'm letting Dylan see Kieran after all he is his father and he has the right too be a father to him. And I'm telling Alex the truth I'm tired of lying that what's has gotten me in to this mess in the first place'. Brenda spoke with a determent voice.
'So what do you want me too do? Can I help you with anything?' Brandon asked with the same determination in his voice.
'Just be there for me Brandon like you always are when I need someone to talk too. You are always a very good listener and even a better brother.' Brenda said seriously.
'Thank you Bren; And I WILL be there for you al you have to do is asked when you need something'. Brandon replied back even more determent.
Brandon got up and kissed her on the cheek.
'Do you know when Dylan is coming to see this little guy?' Brandon asked her.
'No we haven't made an appointment yet'. Brenda said with a voice that sounded to come from far away.
'Hey listen Bren; Kelly called and I promised her to take her out for lunch today you and Alex are welcome to join us if you wish.'
'No thank you Brandon I think, it is best if I stay alone with Alex today I promised him I would. Say hi to Kelly for me will you'
'Ok I will see you tonight Bren love you'. Brandon said to her.
'Love you to Brandon have fun'. Brenda replied back.
'Oh and Brandon you might want too change you're shirt first cause you are still covered with baby food'. Brenda said with a subtle voice.
'Thanks Bren I forgot about that. What would I do without you?' Brandon said smiling
'You would look like an idiot just so you know it'. Brenda replied back laughing
As Brandon was about to leave the house he almost bumped in to Alex who by the looks of it had done some serious shopping.
'He Brandon where are you going?' Alex asked casual
'I'm having lunch with my lady'. Brandon replied back at him.
'Oh ok have fun'. This time Alex sounded quite relieved.
Alex rejoiced himself in the fact that he would spend the rest of the day alone with Brenda finally. He a grin slid across his face. As he walked in to the kitchen he saw that it was empty. Where was Brenda? She must have been home because Brandon left and he couldn't have left Kieran alone. He decided to check upstairs and saw Brenda standing by Kieran's crib she had probably just had put him to bed. He walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist and started kissing her in the neck. Brenda jumped at his touch.
'Wow, Alex you scared me'. Brenda said as she turned around in his arms.
'Why? Do you have a bad conscience?' He tried too say it playful but he couldn't keep a hint of accusation out of his voice. He hoped however that Brenda didn't had noticed it.
'No, why should I have a bad conscience'. Brenda replied back a little irritated.
Damm! She had noticed it. The last Alex wanted was to get into a fight with Brenda. He couldn't explain it but ever since they had gotten back to LA it seemed like he was slowly loosing Brenda. Maybe it was just him being insecure about his relationship with Brenda but one thing he did know was that he couldn't deal with loosing her and he wasn't about to let that happen.
'I'm sorry I was just kidding. How did your meeting go? Alex felt that it was saver to change the subject it was the best way to avoid a fight with her.
Brenda sighed. She dreaded the answer she had to give him because it would ineffability lead to a fight. And she had no intention of fighting with Alex with her son present in the same room.
'I'll tell you in the kitchen because I'm dying for a cup of coffee. Would you like some too?' she asked him with a light smile on her face.
'Sure'. He replied back sensing that something was the matter and he knew it was probably something what he was not going to like.
As they walked into the kitchen Brenda began too make coffee. Alex said down at the kitchen table and was watching her carefully.
Brenda tried to stall the moment of telling Alex as long as she could be she knew that she sooner or latter had to tell him anyway. When she was finished she sat down at the kitchen table with him and put a cup of coffee in front of him. She then looked him the eye and gives him a smile. However that couldn't clear the tension in the room. It felt so strange.
Brenda slowly began to tell her story and she could see the changes up on Alex face. He looked really pissed. And he was nervously ticking with his fingers on the table what really irritated her. When she finished her story it seemed like the temperature in the kitchen had dropped below zero, and Alex looked at her this time furious. Brenda braced herself for his reaction.
Alex was completely shocked by what Brenda had told him. That damm McKay guy!! How far was he willing to go!! Alex had several months ago hoped that he was out of there lives for good he thought that he had made sure of that the day Dylan got kicked out of England. One of his best friends was a DA with the English justice department and he had done Alex a favour by declaring McKay an unwanted alien normally Dylan probably just would have gotten a fine. But know that he was declared persona non grata it was possible too kick him out of England leaving Brenda alone and venerable so he could make his move on her. But now it looked like he had seriously underestimated Dylan McKay. And to make matters worse he knew that he couldn't compete with him and that made him even more angry and he wasn't able too keep his insecurities over his relationship with Brenda to himself anymore.
'I want you to quit that stupid show!! I don't want you any ware near Dylan McKay have you realised that he is your boss now Brenda! And he will use that position to break us up and I won't let that happen! Alex yelled.
Brenda for the first time in her relationship with Alex realised how insecure he was over there relationship and maybe just maybe he was right to be insecure.
'I'm not quitting the show because Dylan is the co executive producer he is not my only boss! And the truth is that I have worked to hard for this job and I have no intention of letting it go because of your insecurities over our relationship either you trust me our you don't!' Brenda replied back only her voice remained quite calm.
'I can't believe that you are saying this! He will break us up our so blind that you can't see that he wants back!? Alex screamed at her with a voice tight with frustrations.
'Of course I know he wants me back I'm not stupid! But if you had listened properly you would have heard that I turned him down! Dylan knows I'm in a relationship with you now.'
'And you really think that, that will stop him from going after you? Well think again he won't dammed Bren you're the mother of his son he will even use Kieran to get you back!' Alex said with the same frustrated voice.
'Leave Kieran out of this! I've already told Dylan that he could see him but that it wouldn't change the situation between us to much has happened for that. And I know that Dylan respects that! What is it Alex don't you trust me is that what al this is about?' Brenda replied back with a slightly tired voice.
Alex sighed he was afraid that she might say something like that and he knew that he deep down inside he didn't trust Brenda especially not when it came to Dylan McKay. But the consequents of telling her the truth would be to grim. So he lied.
'Yes of course I trust you!' he tried to sound as convincing as possible but he wasn't sure if had succeeded Brenda's face was unreadable.
Brenda sighed she wasn't quite sure if she believed Alex but quite frankly she was tired of fighting so she decided to give him the benefit of the doubt.
'You know Alex lets just leave this subject to rest I'm starving lets go have something to eat. I'm Dying for a Mega burger' Brenda said.
Alex was glad that they called it truce he really didn't want to fight with Brenda anymore and this was a perfect escape out of the situation.
'Yes I think that is a good idée. But Brenda just one question what is a Mega Burger anyway?'
Brenda smiled a little
'Lets go and I'll show you. Then I also introduce you to Nat I've really missed him and I think he will love to see Kieran'. Brenda said.
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Dylan McKay was standing in his living room his meeting with Brenda a week ago hadn't been to bad. They had been able to reach a sort of truce in there relationship and that was something that he was glad about he had only wished that they could have worked on there relationship there where just so many things unsaid that needed too be said. One of those things was that he resented the fact that he hadn't been able to see his son born.
He stared again at the portrait of Brenda above the fire place he loved her so much and he really didn't know if he could give her the time he had promised her. He wanted her back now and just the thought that she lay in the arms of an other man at night made him sick to his stomach. Suddenly he remembered the lie that he told her and it give him a wonderful idée. He would hire a private investigator to check out Alex, everybody had a past and Dylan hoped that Alex past was flooded with dirt that he could use against him. A grim slid across Dylan's face with some luck Alex would be out of Brenda's live al lot sooner then he had previously hoped for.
But that was not the only reason he could smile about today. Today would also be the day that he would see his son for the first time. A day after there meeting she had called him and asked him if he would like to see Kieran next Saturday he was overjoyed at the prospect of not only seeing his son for the first time but also seeing Brenda again.
His mother had asked him if she could come with him but he thought it would be best to go alone first to avoid any awkwardness. Dylan looked at his watch it was almost 13:00 O'clock he had to be at Brenda's at 13:45 he decided that he better leave now so he would be at Brenda's a little early. When he was just about to leave Iris came into the hall way.
'Are you leaving already?' Iris asked slightly surprised.
Dylan looked at her and a small smile crept across his face.
'Yeah, I thought it would be good if I got there a little early I honestly can't wait to see them both again'. Dylan confessed.
'I understand Dylan I kind of know how you feel.' Iris replied back.
Ever since he and Brenda had broken-up his mother had done her best to help him she had listened to him and tried to cheer him up by telling him that everything would work out it self. In some ways his break-up with Brenda had brought him closer to his mother. Previously his relationship with his mother was very rocky she had left him kind of unwillingly alone with his father when he was a little boy. His father had made her leave he had always resented the fact that his mother wasn't strong enough to have said no to his father. She was partly responsible for the fact that he had a rotten childhood and he had held it against her for the longest time. But now she really tried to be a good mother she had told him that she wanted to undue some of the damage in there relationship and that made him feel good. That was the only thing good that had come out of his break-up with Brenda.
Dylan signed
'I know you do'.
Dylan leant forwards and kissed her on the cheek and left immediately. He got in his car and drove of. He smiled a little to him self he still had his black Porsche speedster it was a classic and he had a lot of good memories of him and Brenda with that car. Like the time she had convinced him to drive it after the whole Rosemary incident our when they made out in it. No he would never sell this car it had just too much sentimental value. But now that he was a father he needed a second family car that would be much more suitable to transport his son. Maybe tomorrow he would go to a car dealer and have a look to see what kind of car would be ok. He sighed again he had always hoped that he could to such a thing together with Brenda he always loved to hear her opinion on things like that, even do Brenda had absolutely no clue when it came to cars.
As he drove into the Walsh's street he felt that his heart was beating faster and his hand palms where getting sweaty. As he drove up on the car porch he swallowed hard a couple of times. This was it he was finally going to see his boy.
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Inside the Walsh living room Brenda was nervously passing up and down. She knew she had promised Dylan he could come see Kieran today but maybe it was too soon there were so much unresolved issues between the two of them that the entire situation might become awkward our worst explosive. When she saw Dylan for the first time in over a year last week she had realised that she still loved him more than anything she also slowly began to realise that she wanted Dylan and not Alex. Yes she loved Alex but not close like she loved Dylan. She didn't feel the same electrifying passion when she made love to Alex. But when she made love to Dylan her whole body would tingle every fibre and every muscle stood on fire when he touched her it was like he brought her to another plain of existence where there was only the two of them.
But then again her relationship with Alex was save and it wasn't really complicated maybe just maybe she didn't need to have what she had with Dylan then at least she didn't have to hurt Alex in the end.
Brenda thoughts where interrupted with the sound of the doorbell her parents where at home and so was Alex but they had decided to give them some privacy so Dylan could have some time alone with his son. Alex of course wasn't really pleased with that but he eventually caved. Brandon and Kelly had an appointment with there wedding planner at Donna's so they weren't home either. Kelly had asked her yesterday if she would be her bridesmaid and Brenda felt really honoured so she said yes. She was really glad that her relationship with Kelly was slowly getting better.
When she walked towards the door she saw that her father had already opened it. And heard him talking to Dylan.
'Hi Dylan how are you?' Jim asked politely as he shook his hand at a friendly manner.
'Fine thank you Jim'. Dylan replied back.
'Cindy, good to see you again'. Dylan said to Cindy how standing next to Jim was
'It is nice to see you to Dylan it has really been to long.' Cindy replied back and pulled Dylan into hug.
Brenda knew her mother and father had really grown to like Dylan and they where not really happy about the entire situation she kind of suspected that they didn't liked Alex very much but maybe it was because they where still very protective of her especially her dad how thought that nobody was good enough for her and at least he knew Dylan for a very long time now. Never the less they stood by her and tried to help her as best as they could.
Alex was watching the scene from the kitchen entrance again he felt jealous at that McKay guy. Jim and Cindy never had treated him badly but they weren't exactly friendly to him either yes they where polite but that was it. But Dylan McKay got an all other treatment they where very friendly towards him and that was the same why when they spoke of him. What was it about that guy that everybody in the Walsh family found so special? Well at least Brenda's brother didn't really say to much about him so maybe that was a sign that he didn't like Dylan very much either.
Dylan looked to his left side a saw Alex standing there he immediately felt every muscle in his body tense up and he really had to fight the urge not to knock the guy down again. Dylan never had hated someone in his live that much as he hated Alex. That manipulative asshole had stolen Brenda away from him and Dylan just hoped that is PI would find something on him so Dylan could get his revenge.
'Dylan'. Alex spoke tensely.
'Alex'. Dylan replied back barely able to keep his anger out and turned his head towards Jim Walsh again.
'Are Brenda and Kieran in the living room?' Dylan asked him politely
'Brenda is; but Kieran is still sleeping I'll think he will be up in a half hour. You can go into the leaving room if you want Cindy, Alex and I are staying in the kitchen so that you can have some time alone with Kieran'. Jim replied back.
'Thanks I appreciate it'. Dylan said back and walked into the living room where Brenda was sitting on the couch biting her under lip. Dylan smiled a little when Brenda bit her lip it was a sign she was nervous. Just like he was. Just seeing her made al his defences crumble she was stunning as always wearing a bleu skirt and a with top with a bleu necklace that matched her eyes. Dylan felt his heart race in his chest being in the same room as Brenda was always intoxicating.
Brenda looked straight into Dylan's eyes. God he looked gorgeous he was wearing bleu jeans and a white blouse. She looked on to his face and saw that he handed shaved for a couple of days making him look even sexier. Brenda breathed slowly and locked eyes with him a sly smile.
'Hi Dylan how have you been?' Brenda asked shyly as Dylan walked over to here.
It was maybe a stupid question after all the things that happened between the to of them but she couldn't think of anything else to say.
'Fine Bren, how have you been?' he replied back. He was now standing in front of her still looking her straight in the eye what made her feel slightly uncomfortable. It was like he could read her thoughts and her heart so that she couldn't keep anything from him. She looked away from him trying to balance herself.
Dylan noticed that she wasn't very comfortable with the situation and gives her a comforting smile.
'Can I get at least a hug from you? I think that would be a proper way of greeting somebody you known for a very long time'. Dylan said semi serious.
Brenda hated the way Dylan said it he could always make her feel like a silly little girl. And the worst thing of all was that Dylan knew it. She decided that she didn't let it get to her. She looked up and stared defiantly in to his eyes.
'Of course you get a hug'. She replied back.
Dylan felt his heart skip a few beats. God!! She was so gorgeous the way she looked at him made him feel like he was on top of the world. And be able to hold her in his arms even if it was only for a few seconds made his day.
Brenda got up from the couch and he pulled her in for a hug. It felt so good; he moved his head to her neck and was ready to kiss her but before he could she pulled away from him. Dylan couldn't help but feel slightly rejected.
'Would you like something to drink? Coffee, thee our soda?' Brenda asked him casual trying to change the thence atmosphere between the to of them.
'Now thanks I'm fine'. Dylan replied back still feeling a little hurt.
'Ok then, I'll just go upstairs to see if Kieran is awake.' Brenda and started walking to the door when Dylan graphed her arm a stopped her so they where standing face to face in the living room. Brenda couldn't help but feel incredibly attracted to Dylan. And she knew by the look on Dylan's face that the feeling was mutual and it made her heart beat faster. He sat her down on the couch again and sat right next to her. Brenda felt slightly confused.
'I just want to talk to you before you go get Kieran; there are so many things that I been meaning to ask you and that we didn't got around to the last time we talked.' Dylan spoke with a warm and loving voice.
Brenda looked down at her hands not wanting to look Dylan in the eye. She still felt incredibly guilty about the entire situation and the way Dylan treaded her made it even worse. He wasn't accusative our angry towards her but instead of that he was warm and loving towards her. And some how it made her feel really bad.
'What is it that you want to know?' Brenda replied back softly
Dylan saw that she was hurting and it broke his heart he didn't want Brenda hurting because of him. He wished that he could take the hurt and pain away from her. He softly cupped her face and made her look at him but she pulled away from his gaze and looked down again. Dylan felt powerless and it made him angry. Why didn't she want to look at him!!
'Didn't you miss me after I had left London? Didn't you want me around when Kieran was born?' Dylan asked her with a slight bitterness in his voice.
'Yes Dylan I missed you I already told you that, and of course I wanted you around when Kieran was born and I felt incredibly guilty that I kept you in the dark but things between us had gotten so volatile that I got scared.
'You where afraid of me?' Dylan asked he knew that he had scared her with his outburst that night in London but he didn't really realised what kind of impacted it had of Brenda. He felt guilty
'Yes and I was afraid of us'. Brenda replied back dreading the answer.
'I don't want you to be afraid of me our us for that matter Bren. I'm so sorry I scared you. You know that I never mend to hurt you.' Dylan said slightly pleading.
'I know but you did and I need time to process that'. Brenda replied back.
'I know Bren and I have promised you time but I can't and I won't live with out you'. Dylan spoke with an absolute certainty.
'Dylan I'm sorry but I'm with Alex now you know that maybe it is just too late for us'. Brenda replied back.
'Don't say that Bren you know it isn't true. I know you love me and I know you got feelings for me why are you fighting them so hard?'
'I already told you Dylan I'm afraid and I don't know what to do about that'. Brenda replied back close to tears.
Dylan hated her answer she knew that he never had wanted to scare her, HELL she knew him better then anyone then way was she acting like this he couldn't really understand.
'What can I do to make it go away? Dylan spoke softly
'I don't know Dylan I'm sorry' Brenda replied back.
Damm again an empty answer. Dylan felt lost he didn't know what to do anymore, sure he had promised her time but come to think of it she had, had more then a year calculating the time that they had lived apart with it. He had tried to be understanding and forgiving towards her but it didn't really seem to help. Why did she keep rejecting him? He hated that feeling almost al of his live he had been rejected first by his parents and know by the women he loved more then live it self. It made him feel so angry, powerless and worst not wordy to be loved.
'Bren you just need to get over this and I will help you with that'. Dylan said to her.
'And what about Alex, Dylan? I love him and I want to give our relationship a chance it is not about you and me anymore there are other people involved now. And I need to think about Alex too.
'Do you love him the way you love me huh Bren?' Brenda looked away from him and tears where streaming from her eyes but for the first time Dylan didn't really care about it he was just too angry at her right now.
Brenda didn't answer Dylan. she knew she couldn't.
'Well I guess not'. Dylan said coldly still looking at her.
'Dylan this isn't fair'. Brenda said crying.
'No Bren you know what isn't fair? It isn't fair that I get to see my boy when he is almost five months old for the first time. It isn't fair that I wasn't there when he was born it isn't fair that my girlfriend decided to have a relationship with an other guy how pretends to be his father just because she is afraid. Well Brenda guess what, that is not a good of enough reason!! So don't you talk to me about fairness cause you're the one started this whole mess!' Dylan voice was angry and cold but he didn't yell.
Al Dylan resentment, anger and bitterness of the entire situation finally spilled over. He had tried to be nice and forgiving towards Brenda but that didn't help it just made the entire situation worse cause deep in his heart he knew that he was actually still angry at Brenda and that it wouldn't be very easy to forgive her. But at the same time he heard a little voice in his head telling him that he wasn't that innocent either and that bothered him even more.
Brenda was quite stunned by Dylan's words al this time he pretend that he wasn't really upset with her anymore but now he finally showed his true feelings. Brenda couldn't really explain it but she actually felt quite relieved with Dylan's confession in some how made her feel less guilty. But she really resented the fact that he blamed her for everything and she wasn't about to stand for that. It really hurt!
'So you blame me for all of this!? God! Dylan you're just like your father if everything doesn't go exactly your way you are pissed of and you try to make things go your way regardless the consequents this might have and you both refused to take responsibility for your own actions. Well guess what Dylan the world doesn't evolve around you!' Brenda replied him back at him defiantly fully knowing the effects her words would have on him but right know she didn't give a damm.
Dylan felt a sting in his heart when Brenda compared him to his father he knew that he had hurt her with his outburst but he hadn't quite expected of her to pay him back the same way. Maybe she was right and was he more like his father then he was willing too admit. But what bothered him the most was that he and Brenda where fighting again and he hadn't come to the Walsh house to fight with Brenda, but maybe they both needed to say what was bothering them to be able to move forward.
'I guess I deserved that.' Dylan said apologetically.
'Damm right you did!' Brenda replied back angry.
'But I resent the fact that you accuse me of not taking responsibility for my actions because God knows I do'. Dylan replied back.
But before Brenda could reply Dylan she heard whining coming from the Baby phone. Kieran was finally awake and he didn't sound very happy.
'Excuse but I'm needed upstairs'. Brenda didn't even wait for Dylan's response but moved straight upstairs.
In her bedroom she found a very cranky Kieran who was quite upset that his mother took so long to get upstairs. Brenda got the baby out of crib and kissed on his little dark haired head.
'Hey sleepy head are you finally awake?' Brenda talked softly to Kieran. But he was obviously I a very bad mood because he kept crying.
'Oh I know baby your hungry lets go downstairs and have a nice bottle of milk.' Brenda said softly Kieran's crying slowly got into whimpering when Brenda walked downstairs with him.
Dylan felt nervous again when he heard Brenda come into the living room. This was it he was finally going to meet his baby boy. When he saw Brenda came into the living room he was completely enchanted and a smile crept up his face. He couldn't really explain it be he suddenly felt extremely proud at Brenda and forgot al about his anger and resentment he had previously felt against her the bottom-line was that she and Kieran where his family and that was al he ever had wanted.
Kieran was a beautiful baby boy he was a perfect mix of him and Brenda. He had Brenda's dark hair his eyes where greenish/brown a perfect combination of him and Brenda's but he had his nose his smile grow wider when he saw that.
However Kieran was really hungry and he became quite impatient when he didn't got his milk bottle right away and started to cry very loudly again.
'Dylan would you hold him for me while I get his bottle?'
Brenda asked a little stressed out. She had tried to settle him down when she went downstairs be she hadn't been really successful Kieran was just a little cranky today and he wasn't in the mood to listen to her. But what bothered her even more was that Dylan could think that she wasn't a very good mother for not being able to settle there son down.
Dylan was ecstatic with her question.
'Of course I will hold him'. He replied back happily and walked over to Brenda to take Kieran from here.
'Hey Baby how you are?... I'm your daddy I know I havened been around before but I promise that, that will never ever happen again I will always be there for you no matter what happens.' Dylan spoke softly to Kieran he instantly calmed down he looked at Dylan intensely with huge eyes with his little hands I pinched Dylan nose softly and started making little squeals that made Dylan smile.
'Would you like to feed him?' Dylan heard Brenda asking he didn't even notice her come in he was so mesmerized with Kieran.
'May I?' Dylan asked a little surprised
'Of course he is your son too'. Brenda replied back.
'I know that I just thought that you liked to do that'. Dylan replied back.
'I do but, I thought you would like to spend some time alone with him'. Brenda said softly with a hint of pain in her voice.
Dylan looked at here intensely he knew it was difficult for Brenda to leave Kieran alone, and frankly he didn't want her to leave either he just wanted to be with her and his son for the rest of the day that's how it was supposed to be in the first place.
'No I would like you to be with me when I feed him so you can help out when needed '. Dylan said softly to here.
Brenda was grateful of Dylan's answer. It wasn't that she didn't trust Dylan alone with Kieran in fact there wasn't anybody in the world who she trusted more that Dylan except for Brandon maybe but she just wanted to spend as much time as she could with Kieran before shooting for the show began and then she wouldn't be able to spend as much time with him anymore. That was also something she really bad about.
'Thank you'. She replied back.
'Bren can I ask you a question?' Dylan asked her when he sat back on the couch feeding Kieran. It was something that Dylan wanted to know now for quite some time.
'Yes sure'. Brenda replied back.
'Why did you name him Kieran? I can understand James after your father but why did you pick Kieran? Its is not that I don't like the name I loved it but I was just wondering where you got it from I mean Kieran is a very Irish name.
Brenda was a little surprised with the question but she was also glad that Dylan had asked it. She looked at him and gives him a smile.
'I'm glad you like it' Brenda said thankfully
'Remember when we where vacationing in Ireland?' Brenda began telling.
'Yes of course how could I forget'? Dylan said smiling at the memory of that vacation it was one of the best vacations he had ever had.
' When we did the Wicklow mountain trail there was this really cute little boy at the riding centre who had fallen from a pony and he was crying so I went over to comfort him cause his mother who was still inside the barn hadn't seen it happen and I felt really sorry for him. So I comforted him and took him too his mother who worried sick about him cause he hadn't told here where had gone of too. So he confessed to here that he went out to ride the untamed pony that was standing in the field next to there house after she had explicitly ordered him to stay away. She thanked me for bringing him back and told me that he was quite of a dare devil. That boy's name was Kieran and he kind of reminded me of you he even looked like you when you where a child. So when the doctor told me that I had gotten a baby boy I named him Kieran because it reminded me of you in away. Silly isn't it'. Brenda said.
'Know it isn't silly Bren not at all it just makes me even like his name more then I did before it kind of makes me feel that I was around when he was born thank you for telling me this Bren. By the way where was I when did happened?' Dylan asked a little curious.
Brenda started laughing a little.
'You where still in the barn desperately trying to saddle you horse for more than a half hour.' Brenda replied him back with a smile spread all over here face.
'I couldn't help that Bren that horse just didn't want to be saddled up I think he was slightly crazy.' Dylan said semi apologetically. Glad that he had made her smile again.
The rest of the afternoon the tree of them spend together talking laughing and remembering well at least Dylan and Brenda where Kieran just squalled loudly when he was happy. And for the first time in over a year Brenda fully realised that her feelings for Dylan where never going away in fact they only grew stronger no matter how hard she tried she could never love Alex like she loved Dylan but she wasn't ready to face the consequents of this she just couldn't break Alex heart she couldn't really deal with the guilt she would then be feeling. But then again maybe Dylan was right when he told her that it was better for every one involved if she broke-up with Alex ASAP Brenda felt torn between her mind and here heart maybe time would work out everything for her.
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