break-up and a make-up
Authors note: I have finally finished chapter 14 and I'm not really satisfied with it so I might change it later on. If people who read this have any suggestions to in prove this story one way or an other I would love to hear them. And thanks again to all the people who have reviewed this story. Enjoy reading this chapter.
For a short enchanted moment in time there was only Brenda and Dylan all there problems had disappeared in a haze of pure ecstasy, passion and desire. But soon reality in kicked and Brenda fully realised what she and Dylan had been doing. An overwhelming feeling of guilt rushed thru her body. Dylan on the other hand was happier then he had ever been before Brenda had finally given in to her feelings for him she wanted him just as bad as he wanted her he had never ever loved somebody the way he loved Brenda she was the mother of his son and the answer to all his prayers he would never let her go again not even for a moment. He held her body close to his and placed soft kisses on her mouth before moving thru her neck. 'I love you so much Bren' he softly whispered in her ear. And when on kissing her passionately on her lips. Brenda fought hard to not give in to the passion but what did it matter now? She had gotten already in to deep why fight something that can not be beaten? Brenda once again let herself go. And let the enchantment of Dylan's kisses endure. Dylan had felt that Brenda was tensing up for a short moment but as his kisses became more urgent he felt her relax again. A sudden ring from Dylan's cell phone broke the enchantment and give Brenda time to clear her head again. She broke the kiss and tried to push Dylan of her. Dylan had no desire to answer his phone and was more interested in Brenda.
'Aren't you going to answer your phone?' Brenda asked him.
'If its imported they call me back'. Dylan said with an husky breath while holding Brenda closer to him and started kissing her again.
'Dylan we need to stop doing this. We need to get back too the others before they think that something is wrong.'
'Let them think I don't care I only care about you.' Dylan replied her with a husky breath.
'Then stop we have already gone to far its not right'. Brenda said while trying to get out of Dylan's hold. She avoided saying Alex name cause she new what kind affect that would have on Dylan. unfortunately he had already guessed it.
'What Bren?.. not fair to who…. Alex? And what about us? What about what we want and what we need and what we feel. For God sake Bren we just had sex! If you had any faith in your relationship with Alex its now obliterated other ways you would never have slept with me.' Dylan said with a hint of gratification in his voice while releasing his hold on Brenda.
Brenda slit of his desk and began to collect her cloths. She knew Dylan was right her relationship with Alex was over. But to really break up with him scared her deeply for some reason.
Dylan starred at her for a moment he could see by the way that she acted that she was torn. He walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist.
'We are so great together!' He said while kissing her in the neck.
Brenda had to admit it from a the guys she had previously been with Dylan was absolute the best lover she had ever had.
'I know we are. But what we did was wrong I'm still in a relationship with Alex and I don't want to lie and cheat on him'.
Dylan was a little put of by her reaction and frankly he couldn't care less about Alex he and Brenda belonged together and Brenda just needed to dump Alex. Besides what did it matter now she had already lied and cheated.
'Dammed Brenda I'm thru playing games here. You already have lied and cheated on Alex its time for you to break-up with him and if you don't do it soon I will do it for you'. Dylan said angrily while turning Brenda around in his arms.
'Don't you dare Dylan! Trust me I will end my relationship with Alex but I want to do it properly he doesn't deserve to be treated badly, he has been noting but good for me.' Brenda replied back looking Dylan defiantly in the eyes.
Dylan let go of Brenda and began to put his clothes back on and he watched intrigued at Brenda as she did the same. He knew that he had gone to far with his comments but he loved Brenda for setting boundaries for him some how it felt really save when she did that. Besides she was right as always it was Brenda's call when she would end her relationship with Alex he just hoped that she would do it real soon.
'I'm sorry Bren its just that I want you and I need you and I cant stand it that you are with some one else'. Dylan replied her back.
Brenda felt horrible about the entire situation she hated the fact that some one who she
genuinely loved would end up getting really hurt. But she also knew that she wanted to be with Dylan she loved him so much that it hurt to see him unhappy in any way.
'I know Dylan, just give me a little more time alright?' Brenda replied him back as she walked over to him and gives him a soft kiss on his cheek.
The nearness of Brenda made Dylan heart skip a few beats again. He loved it that he could forget about anything when she was close by him. He moved his lips to her mouth and before they both fully realised it they where again kissing each other passionately. Brenda finally pulled away when breath became an issue.
'We better go back'. She finally said while looking at the ground.
'Yeah I think its best we do' he said while lifting her chin up to give her a small kiss on her mouth. He then placed his hands on the small of her back and led her out of his office.
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Brandon Walsh was shifting uncomfortable in his chair his sister and Dylan McKay had been gone for more then 30 minutes and he could help but think that something was wrong. He looked at his girlfriend how was strangely enough having an animated conversation with Iris McKay. He knew that Iris never really liked Kelly so he was quite pleasantly surprised that the two women where talking. Alex was sitting left of him after Brenda had left with Dylan he had joined there table he was looking extremely tensed he was stirring his coffee and wasn't really listing to Janet who tried to make idle conversation with him. Donna and David where sitting on the other side of the table. David was talking to Steve and Donna looked also a little worried at Brandon. She softly smiled at Brandon and he returned the favour.
Brandon was just about to get up to see what was keeping his sister and Dylan McKay when they both walked back in to the restaurant. Both of there faces where unreadable what was very uncommon for Brenda, this made Brandon worry even more. As Brenda and Dylan approached the table Brenda give a small smile to him and Alex.
'He what to took you so long?' Alex asked Brenda with a angry voice.
The expression on Dylan's face immediately changed and he looked at Alex with pure hate upon his face what really scared Brandon he had never seen that look before. To mood on the table quickly tensed up and everybody stared at Alex and Brenda.
'I'm sorry Alex but we just had a lot of things to discus. Can't we just have lunch now?' Brenda asked.
Alex felt really irritated about Brenda response he could sense that something wasn't right she was hiding something from him, but he really wasn't in the mood to have an argument with Brenda in front of her family and friends and especially not in front of McKay. He rather had that private.
'Sure but I think that your Mega burger had gone cold so you have to order an other one' He finally spoke.
'Its ok I just asked Nat if he can reheat it for me' Brenda answered him back.
Dylan starred at Brenda intensely it surprised him a bit how easy Brenda could pretend that noting was the matter in front of Alex despite the fact that they just made love in his office.
'just one more thing Bren can we sit in private cause I really need to talk to you'. Alex asked her
Brenda looked at Alex for a second and wondered what was so imported that he needed to discus with her.
'Sure' she finally said she greeted the others and followed him to a free table at the other end of the establishment.
Dylan kept starring at her until Iris called his name.
'So Dylan how did the conversation go? How did she respond to your proposition?' Iris asked curious.
A wicked grin slid across Dylan face.
'Lets just say that my conversation with Bren was extremely fruitful'. He said a bit darkly
Everybody looked with a surprised look and Brandon looked particularly worried. But before anybody could say something Dylan spoke again.
'So mom are you ready to go? Bren is supposed to bring Kieran over in two hours and I want to pick up some stuff for him before he comes.' Dylan said.
'yeah sure. Its nice to have seen you all again take care'. Iris said and followed Dylan outside the Pit.
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At the moment Brenda Walsh live was a complete and total mess. Not only did she just had sex with Dylan what had left her confused and bewildered; but to make matters worse, Alex had just asked her to take there relationship to a new level meaning that he wanted to leave his live in England behind and wanted to start a whole new one with her here in the US. She was really shocked by his proposal she never really had expected it cause he relationship with Alex was as good as over surely he most have realised that too? She didn't know how to react to him she had told him that they first needed to work things thru between them but she knew she had only said that to stale the moment of breaking up with him. She didn't really waned to do that in the Peach Pit so she had decided to take him out to diner tonight after she had dropped of Kieran at Dylan's. What was just an other problem cause Dylan had insisted that Kieran stayed with him tonight, she had told him that she would think about it but frankly she wanted Kieran at home with her, it wasn't like she didn't trust Dylan with him; but she had never been apart from Kieran at night before the thought alone made her physically ill. She sighed as she pulled up the drive way at casa Walsh. Alex had promised to help out Brandon with some stuff so luckily she would be alone for a few hours to clear her head.
When she walked in too the house she found her parents playing with Kieran in the living room.
'Hi honey I didn't expect you to be home so soon'. Cindy said without looking up from Kieran.
'Yeah I thought you would be gone for at least one hour more'. Jim said while he took Kieran in his arms and started to make funny faces at the baby, Kieran started squealing loudly.
'Well I'm glad to see you guys too' Brenda said with a mocking voice as she walked over to her father and her son. She give her father a kiss and took Kieran out of his arms.
'Hey Baby have you missed me cause mommy really missed you'. Brenda said softly to Kieran. The baby put his little head against her shoulder and started to make soft noises.
'He has been bathe and dressed and we already packed his bag for Dylan's' Cindy said proudly.
'Thanks mom but I'm not leaving for an other hour so I could have done that myself'. Brenda answered.
'Well I know that honey but he was sleeping so I thought I would do you a favour'. Cindy answered back.
'Its ok did you back his teddy bear? You know that he cant sleep without that bear'. Brenda asked.
'Of course I did'. Cindy answered a little offended.
'Ok I was just checking'. Brenda said back calmly
'So does he stay with Dylan tonight'. Jim asked cautiously
Brenda looked at him like he had just said something completely stupid.
'No dad he is not spending the night at Dylan's I will pick him up after I have diner with Alex'. Brenda said tentatively
Jim and Cindy looked a little surprised at there daughter.
'Honey I thought you said that Dylan wanted him to stay?' Jim asked surprised.
'Yes he did but I don't want Kieran to stay a would be worried al the time besides he never has slept apart from me he would probably cry al the time and then
I'll wouldn't be there to comfort him.' Brenda answered back.
'O honey welcome to motherhood. I remember the first time we brought you to kindergarten and your father and I thought you would cry when we left you al alone in that classroom, but you didn't. You immediately started to play with a doll that you had found there and you didn't even notice that your father and I where gone. And your father and I ended up crying in the hallway'. Cindy said lovingly
'But I was much older then Kieran is now'. Brenda replied back.
'Sweetheart what your mother is trying to say, is that Kieran is just like you when you where a little baby he will adapt to the situation. Besides Dylan love's him and I must admit that he is an excellent father to Kieran'. Jim said with a sense of pride in his voice.
Brenda knew that her father over the last few years had grown very fond of Dylan. Maybe it was because in a way Dylan was just like him they both tried to get there way with things but more importantly they both loved her more then anything else.
'Are you guys trying to convince me the let Kieran stay with Dylan?' Brenda asked a little defeated.
'Honey you need to do what feels right for you'. Cindy answered her back with the same loving voice.
'I know mom; Its just so hard to leave him. But maybe you guys are right Dylan deserves to be a father for him so I could give it a try right?'. Brenda finally said.
Jim smiled a little and kissed Brenda on her head.
'That's my girl; you always do the right thing'. Jim said lovingly and caressed her head.
The next hour the tree of them spend talking about everything that was going on in there lives. Kieran was sleeping in his baby box in the living room. Brenda told her parents about Alex proposal and that she was planning on breaking up with him. Al do her parents acted like they felt sorry that the relationship didn't worked out Brenda could see the relief on there faces. It confirmed what she always had known; her parents never really approved of her relationship with Alex, and for once her parents where right.
At 16:30 Brenda left with Kieran to Dylan's house. She would be there in about 20 minutes. But she already felt a bit nervous. She honestly had now idea what to say to Dylan after what had happened that afternoon. She also did really waned to talk to Iris. Brenda couldn't really explain it but she felt a bit embraced around her. When she drove to the gates of Dylan's mansion the feeling only got stronger and it made her feel extremely uncomfortable. She pulled up in front of the house and before she could open her car door Fairfax had already done it.
'Good afternoon Ms Walsh how are you? And how is or young mister McKay?' He asked graciously
'Where fine thank you Nigel'. She answered awkwardly
'Mister McKay and Miss McKay are waiting for you in the living room; Please follow me'. He said with the same gracious tone of voice.
Brenda wanted to take Kieran seat out of her car but Nigel beat her to it. When he saw her concerned face he give her a reassuring smile and handed Kieran over to her. She followed him inside the house and couldn't get over the fact how beautiful it was.
In the hall there hung a beautiful chandelier and two majestic stair cases lead to the second floor of the house. On the floor of the foyer lay black and white teals. She followed Nigel thru the right wing of the house and entered the living room.
She saw Dylan standing in front of the fireplace he just had thrown some more wood on the fire keeping it from going out. Iris was sitting on a big white fauteuil reading a book.
'Sire; Ms Walsh is here and your son are here'. Nigel said politely
Iris immediately dropped her book and Dylan had a huge smile on his face and walked over to Brenda and Kieran Iris did the same thing.
'Oh he is such a gorgeous little boy and he has your nose Dylan have you seen that?' Iris said dilated while she caressed Kieran little cheeks
Dylan laughed
'Yeah I have noticed that mom'. Dylan said as he bent over and give Brenda a soft kiss on her mouth.
Brenda who was already feeling uncomfortable with the situation quickly pulled away. She had honestly now idea where she and Dylan where standing in there relationship. It seemed like Dylan was ready to pick up where they had left of and Brenda didn't know if that was such a good idea cause they still had a lot of unresolved issues .
Dylan looked at Brenda with a mix of hurt and surprise he couldn't figure out why Brenda acted so sharply to his kiss after what happened this afternoon.
'Is there something wrong Bren?' he asked curiously
'No Dylan noting is wrong I just want to put down Kieran seat some where his is starting to get heavy'. Brenda said with a light smile not really sure if Dylan believed her.
Dylan looked at Brenda intensely for a moment. He then give her one of is precious smiles.
But before he could get Kieran out of seat Iris already did it. Kieran started who was a sleep started to whimper. Brenda immediately wanted to take him over from Iris. But Iris was already comforting him. Kieran's whimpering slowly stopped.
Iris couldn't be happier she finally saw her grandson and Dylan had told her that he and Brenda where trying to fix there relationship it was exactly what she had hoped for when she came to LA. Al do some part of her was a little angry at Brenda for putting Dylan to so much trouble on the other hand she thought that it wasn't her business to meddle in the relationship of Brenda and Dylan, so she decided to let bygones be bygones.
'Brenda you did great he such a beautiful boy just like his parents'. Iris said proudly while softly rocking Kieran.
Brenda was a little overwhelmed by Iris compliment.
'Thank you Iris'. She stammered.
'So are you staying for diner Brenda? Maria makes the best burritos in the world' Iris said happily.
Dylan looked at Brenda tentatively.
'No I have Diner plans tonight maybe some other time'. Brenda replied back.
'Oh ok I see'. Iris said a little curiously.
They walked further in to the living room and Dylan took Kieran over from Iris.
Kieran looked at him intensely and started laughing. Dylan sat down on the couch and started playing with him Kieran started squealing and laughing. Iris was sitting next to him.
Brenda remained standing in the living room and watched how Dylan played with Kieran. It was a perfect scene. Dylan looked up from Kieran and saw Brenda standing with a dreamy look in her eyes, and smiled at her.
'If you want you can sit down there are plenty of seats'. Dylan said to here
'Now I need to leave soon' Brenda answered back.
'Are you sure you don't want have anything to eat or drink before you go'. Dylan asked her friendly.
'No thank you I need to go now'. She replied him back
'Bren have you thought about what I have asked you….you know Kieran spending the night here?'. Dylan asked her cautiously.
'Yes I have and I really don't now Dylan….I mean I have never been separated with him during the night and I guess I'll just be worried al the time'. She answered him back.
'Well if its worries you so much you can stay here too.. I have plenty of room; and if you are cold at night you can always stay in my bed I promise I'll keep you warm '. He said smiling.
Brenda started blushing
'No I don't think that such a good idea'. She said shyly while her mind drifted of to what happened that afternoon.
Iris followed the conversation intrigued and a little smile crept on her face.
Dylan started at her now with a more serious look on his face.
'You know Bren I'll promise you its going to be fine if there something wrong I can always call you and you will be here within 30 minutes. Just give me change ok'.
Brenda thought about the conversation she had, had with her parents earlier and realised they where right. Bottom line she didn't trust anybody besides her parents and brother more then she trusted Dylan.
'Your right…. Maybe I'm overreacting a bit.' Brenda said a bit defeated.
Dylan got up from the couch and walked over to her and wrapped his free arm around her and give her a kiss on her cheek.
'No your not overreacting your his mother its natural for you to be worried, but I'm his father and its natural for me to take care of him'. Dylan said lovingly. And kissed Kieran on his little head.
Brenda felt a little tensed about the situation but decided to make the best of it.
'Al his stuff is in his diaper bag. And he needs to be fed in an hour, and if he cries you need to do the rock and walk and he only sleeps with his teddy bear in the corner of his crib. You do have a crib don't you? And I think he needs to be changed soon' Brenda started rattling.
Dylan looked at her a bit amused.
'Bren please calm down.. yes I have a crib in fact as soon as I found out that I had a son I changed one of the rooms upstairs in to a nursery do you want to take a look before you go? Dylan asked her seriously.
Brenda was a bit surprised by Dylan's answer but felt quite relieved about it.
'You don't mind?' she asked him carefully
'No of course not. I'll take Kieran with so I can change his diaper when we get upstairs'. Dylan said.
'O Honey I can do that' Iris said happily
'No mom its alright it gives me a chance to practice'. He said smiling.
Brenda followed Dylan upstairs to the second bedroom in the right wing of the house. Kieran's nursery was light, the windows of the room covered the entire outer wall. His crib was white and a blue blanket lay inside, above it hung a little airplane. On the floor lay soft crème collard carpet the rest of the furniture in the nursery had the same collar. The atmosphere in the room was clean and warm.
Dylan lay Kieran down on the commode and to Brenda's surprise took a clean diaper out of a closest. And began to change Kieran.
'Wow; you really have everything down' Brenda said surprised.
Dylan turned around and smiled at her.
'I have been practising on dolls will you where in London'. He said a little embraced.
Brenda looked at him intrigued.
'here you go little fellow now you are al cleaned up. So do you want to say goodbye to mommy now'. Dylan said proudly to Kieran. And handed him over to Brenda.
Kieran slowly began to close his eyes and started to make soft murmuring noises.
'Hi sweetie are you tired' Brenda said while kissing him softly on his forehead.
'Bren maybe you should put him in his crib'. Dylan carefully suggested
Brenda followed Dylan's advise and put him in the crib. As soon as Kieran hit the mattress he fell a sleep. She put his teddy bear in the corner of the crib.
'He is just like you when it comes to sleeping as soon as he hits a mattress he is a sleep'. Brenda said while caressing Kieran little cheek. The baby lay with both fists to the side of his little head.
Dylan walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist and started to kiss her in her neck.
'He so beautiful Bren.. just like you'. Dylan softly whispered in her ear.
Brenda turned around in his arms to make him stop kissing her neck. She pulled out of his embrace and started walking to the door.
Dylan was a little put of by her actions.
'Bren what is wrong? This is the second time that you pull away from me since this afternoon'.
'Noting Dylan I just need to get going'. Brenda lied.
'Bren please don't lie to me I know something is wrong please tell me'.
Brenda sighed heavily.
'Its just…..just that this al feel a little awkward …… I don't really know where we are standing in or relationship and I honestly think that it is not such a good idea to pick of where we have left of in London'. Brenda slowly said.
Dylan looked at her a little confused. A few hours ago everything seemed perfect Brenda was coming back to him and he was finally having the family he always had wanted.
'Bren what are you saying?' Dylan asked a little tired.
'I don't know yet… maybe we shout take things slowly and not rush in to things again like we always seem to do…'
'Bren please stop worrying about us. We are meant to be together you must know this by now. I love you'. Dylan walked over to Brenda lifted her chin up and placed a passionate kiss on her mouth.
'I love you too, Dylan' Brenda said with a voice that sounded out of breath.
'That's all I needed to know'. Dylan said triumphantly.
'Look Dylan it isn't that simple; I got to go now so can we talk about this later'. Brenda said while looking down on the floor.
Dylan sighed.
'Sure' he finally said.
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Alex looked Brenda intensely thus far there diner wasn't a very big success and he sensed that Brenda was bothered with something. She hadn't said much to him but occasionally she give him a little smile when she looked up from her plate the feeling between the two of them was very tensed, it seemed that Brenda felt out of place with him. Finally Alex couldn't take it anymore.
'Brenda is what is the matter something is bothering you please tell me what it is' Alex said questionably.
'Huh'. Brenda said absently
'What is wrong with you; haven't said a word to me ever since we have got here'. Alex said.
Brenda couldn't stale the moment of breaking up with any longer in fact the entire purpose of this diner was to do just that still It didn't come easy.
She sighed heavily.
'Alex I don't want you to leave your live and your family in England for me'. Brenda began carefully
The thing that Alex always had feared the most the moment they had set food on US soil was finally becoming reality. He felt the hurt and anger rise with in him. still It didn't really sink in with him yet, he wasn't ready to believe it.
'Brenda what are you saying?' He asked hurt.
'Alex you know I love you…and I will never do anything to hurt you purposely……but I'm not in love with you…and I have realised that our relationship isn't what it is supposed to be when two people love each other, I'm really sorry.' Brenda said sadly with tears streaming down her face.
It felt like someone just give him a punch in his stomach and it felt like al his organs where smashed. He had trouble breathing and his mind felt nom. It was true she was really breaking up with him, he couldn't deal with that she was everything he always had wanted but deep down in his heart he knew she was never his; she belonged to him. But he would never accept that he didn't want to be without her.
'Brenda I won't accept this I love you and I won't be without you.' He said firmly while looking her straight in her watery eyes.
'Alex please don't make it more difficult then it already is'. Brenda pleaded.
'You think it is easy to just forget about you and go on with my live if noting has ever happened, while knowing that you be in the arms of him. Cause that is the real reason why you are dumping me hey Brenda' Alex spat angrily
Brenda felt caught. It was true what he said. The simple fact was that she loved Dylan and that she never had stopped loving him. It was Dylan that she wanted to spend the rest of her live with and not Alex.
'I won't lie to you Alex your right…I love Dylan…I never have stopped loving him and I know now that I never will.' Brenda softly spoke.
'So what was I a distraction while he was gone?' Alex spoke bitterly knowing that he was not being fair.
'No you where not.. I truly thought that I was in love with you'. She said crying
'Well Brenda I got news for you I'm not letting you go you are mine and I will make sure you remember it every stinking day of the week for the rest of your live'. He said aggressively While standing up from his seat.
Brenda was really scared she had never seen this side of him before.
'Please Alex sit down you are scaring me'. She said a bit shaken.
At that moment a waiter from the restaurant walked up to them.
'Is everything alright?' he asked concerned.
'Everything is fine just bring me the check'. Alex said furiously.
The waiter could see by the look on Brenda's face that everything was far from ok.
'Madame are you alright?' he asked concerned
'Yes thank you…but can I use the phone please?' she asked with a soft voice.
'Who are you going to call him so he can rescue you from me; God Brenda I always knew you had a flair for dramatics but I never thought you would go this far'. He said furiously.
Brenda was now fully crying she felt so horrible about al this. She never had thought Alex would take the news so badly,.. our maybe she did that was why she had staled it for so long, her intuition had warned her. deep down she felt quite relieved that she had done it in a public place.
'Sir I'll think its best that you leave now.. its not wise for you to make a scene in this restaurant'. The waiter said to Alex sternly. While the bouncer who had seen the commotion of the restaurant joined there table.
Alex weighted his options and decided that it was best to leave….well at least for now. But he would make absolutely sure that things weren't over yet between him and Brenda.
'This isn't over Brenda. Not by a long shot'. He said furious. And walked out of the restaurant with out looking back.
Brenda remained sitting at her table shocked, shaken and confused by al what just had happened. She needed to talk to her Brandon he would always understand...
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