The Present
Jaina reached inside her pocket and brought forth the key to the apartment in her hand. She inserted it into the lock and went inside the last door on the top floor of one of the highest buildings on Coruscant. She walked slowly forward and fell heavily onto the little couch that sat in the middle of room. She looked around at the emptiness, very little furniture, very little furnishings except for what was absolutely necessary. The only thing different however, was the life that was missing from those many years ago.
She looked up at the chair in the corner, finally realizing the shadow that sat there. She jumped up as it leaned forward. In the dim light that cast upon its face, she could see the figure of Geist sitting there.
"What are you doing here?" she demanded quietly.
"I came to see how you were doing," he replied just as softly.
"You haven't cared in these twelve years," she said harshly. "Why now?" He stood up and came to stay in front of her. Reaching out, slowly, he put his hand on the side of her face, touching it softly. At first, she closed her eyes. Then suddenly, she grabbed his arm and slowly pushed him away. "You can't expect after all this time and everything that happened for me to just let things go back the way they were."
Geist looked at her with such intensity she had to turn away. "Things can change," he said. "You have changed. But not enough. Your life has only gotten worse. It's as though you're trying to kill yourself."
"I have nothing left to live for."
He gazed at her with a longing for the same love they had all those years ago to come alive again between them. Yet nothing could be done now. He turned and left quietly.
The Past
"This is torture to me, I hope you understand that," Geist said as she walked in through the door. "Every time we meet again, just to keep it secret and do nothing about it. And then it's even more miserable when you go off on missions and leave me behind."
"I'm sorry," she replied earnestly. He closed the door and touched her face softly, leaning over to kiss her. Once, and then again. Jaina finally broke off and went to sit on the couch. "Master Windu told me today that I am becoming slightly more distracted in my studies."
Geist sat next to her, putting an arm around her. "Is it my fault?" he asked.
"Of course it is!" she teased. She leaned forward to kiss him again. She then looked up at him seriously, keeping close. "They're going to find out eventually."
He held her closer still. "We'll have to be more careful than ever before. Especially after what I was going to ask you tonight." She looked at him expectantly, unsure of what he was going to say, excited yet nervous at the same time. "Will you marry me?"
She looked at him with a smile. "You know how badly I would want that."
"But you won't go through with it?" he asked. Her face fell, and she shook her head quickly. "I know I shouldn't ask you for this large of a sacrifice. But it seems right. It's the only thing in my life that does. And I can't just go on without doing this. I know you're not supposed to, because you're a Jedi. I will understand."
She looked at him with a sad sort of smile again. "I will marry you. And whatever sin it is, I shall love you yet."